Taismo: Tails choice
Ch. 11
Tails was crying still, though he wasn't sure why. He didn't know if he was crying for Cosmo, or because he had just lost her again, or even if he was crying for himself. He also thought he might be crying out of happiness, knowing that he was going to let Cosmo come back to life, but he wasn't sure. He just lay on his couch, crying as he starred out the window, until someone came up and placed their hand on his arm.
"Are you going to be okay, Tails?" Veronica asked
"Yeah… I will…" He said softly
"You want to talk about it?" She asked
"No… I'll be fine…" He said and slowly sat up
Veronica sat down next to him, and put her arm around his shoulder, "Do you want to tell me about Cosmo?"
"What do you mean?"
"Do you want to talk about her? Who she was, what she did, the things you did together?" Veronica explained
Tails shook his head, "I…I don't really…"
"I find it helps…" Veronica interrupted, "I've found that talking about it really helps, Tails…"
"Well… it doesn't help me… I can't talk about her… I loved her… she loved me… I killed her… and now… now I'm going to trade my life for hers… so she can be happy… like she always wanted…" Tails said and his crying became worse.
"What do you mean 'like she always wanted'? Wasn't she happy with you?" Veronica pondered
"I…I was never… I was never strong enough to tell her how I felt… And… well… She wasn't with me much… At least, not alone with me…" Tails explained
"Well, she still was probably happy. Why wouldn't she be?"
"Well…" Tails sighed, "She lost everything… she was the last of her people… And, well… she was the only one to escape when they were attacked…"
"So she blamed herself?" Veronica asked
Tails nodded, "She felt that she always brought pain and destruction… she thought that we wouldn't want her to be with us… But that wasn't true. She never brought us pain or destruction. Nothing that happened was ever her fault. We all wanted her there, with us. And of course, I wanted her there… by my side… to help me… like she always did…" Tails said softly
After a few seconds of them sitting there, he heard Cosmos' voice whispering 'Thank you, Tails.' into his ear.
Tails stopped crying and smiled, "You're welcome, Cosmo."
"Um… Tails… she's not here." Veronica pointed out
"No, she's always here… with me." Tails stated, and before Veronica could say something, he asked, "Alright, wanna help me make a plan?"
"Um… sure, why not. A plan for what?" Veronica asked back
"How to make Sonic kill me."
"Uh, are you sure it's Sonic who has to kill you?"
"Well, he's been my best friend since I was 4. The only one who would care about me more then him would be Cosmo." Tails stated
"Ok, so… how to make Sonic kill you…" Veronica scratched her chin
"I was thinking I could make him mad somehow." Tails said
"Well… You might wanna try something else first. That way if it doesn't work, it'll be easier to try a different way." Veronica suggested
"Yeah, I guess that's true…"
"Hey, what are you going to have him kill you with?" veronica asked
"Hmmm…" Tails thought for a second.
He then stood up, and walked over to his desk. He opened a drawer with some different boxes in it. He pulled out the biggest one, which had 'hmph' written on the top. He then sat back down on his couch, and reached his hand under it. He pulled out another box with 'hmph' written on it.
"What are those?" Veronica asked
"Even though I never left home, my friends would always leave me presents on my birthday. After Shadow came back, they made him give me presents too. I never opened them because I knew what was in them, and never wanted to have what they were. But, I kept them just in case I needed them." Tails told her
"What are they?" Veronica asked, and he went to open one. She gasped as she saw what was inside. It was a handgun, a black, fully loaded handgun.
"I can have him shoot me with this…" Tails sighed, and pulled out the gun
"Umm… can you put that away? I don't like guns…" Veronica moved away from him slightly
Tails sighed and put it back in the box, "You think I like them…"
"Alright… so you think I should try something else before I piss him off?" Tails asked
"Yes… and I have an idea."
"What's that?"
"Well… you could say you don't want to live anymore…" She looked up at him, "You could say that the pain and guilt inside of you is too unbearable, and you just want it to end…"
"That might work… but what if he asks why I don't just do it myself?" Tails wondered
"Well that's simple." Veronica stated, "Just say you want to be with Cosmo, in heaven."
"Um… How does that make it so I couldn't do it myself?" Tails was confused
"You don't know?" She was surprised when he shook his head, "Well… suicide is a mortal sin… you wouldn't be allowed into heaven for killing yourself."
Tails sat for a moment thinking to himself, "Well… its worth a try…"
"Alright then… Good luck, Tails." She said as he stood up
"Hey, Veronica… will you look after Cosmo for me? Make sure she's ok and everything?" Tails asked, "You've just been so much help for me…"
"Of course, Tails. I'll check in on her for ya." She said softly
"Hey, one more thing."
"What's that?"
"You said that you found that talking about it really helps. What did you mean?" Tails asked
Veronica looked stunned, and a few tears began rolling down her face, "Oh… I-I…" She sighed, "You see, Tails… we're not that different… A few years ago… my husband died…"
Tails was shocked, "You…your husband died?!"
Veronica nodded slowly, "We…we were in a car accident…"
"That's horrible… I'm sorry, Veronica."
She started crying more, but she wiped away the tears and took a deep breath, "T-Tails… I can only imagine how much you cared for Cosmo… I lost the one I loved, and soon got over it… But you've been living in misery ever since Cosmo died… Go, Tails… Go and get her back." Veronica stood up and pointed at the door.
Tails nodded and ran out the door with his gun in hand. He ran all the way to his workshop, hopped into the X-Tornado, and took off for Sonics' house.