HEY SO I got floods of reveiws ! Thankyou!
I can't make everyone happy all the time so I ask stick with the story please but if not I understand.
I have started back at school and have had exam after exam plus a busy weekend but here is the next chapter...
Every Rose Has It's Thorn - Miley Cyrus,
Scars - Miley Cyrus.
Someone Like You - Adele.
The Portrait - James Horner.
Roses's theme - Titanic.
So Here it is....
Scars
Bpov
December 23rd
It was coming up for 5am Seattle time and the plane announced it's landing as the ground bumped underneath, making me feel a little sick as I grabbed the arm rest. I hated landing, for me that was the worst part.
As I huddled in with the rest of the passengers and I shuffled with them to collect my luggage and go through yet another security check, I reached the end and looked around the filling airport, Carlisle had kindly offered to pick me up and after much complaining there he was at 5:45am waiting for me.
I saw his blonde hair first, towering over most of the other people waiting for their loved ones.
'CARLISLE!' I shouted and ran past the people in front of me as I hugged him and he hugged back, trailing my luggage behind me.
'Bella, It's good to see you aswell.' He grinned and took my luggage from me as we walked to his car only to be met with cloudy skies and rain droplets starting to fall.
'Seattle knows I'm here.' I sighed and went to get in the passenger seat as Carlisle chuckled.
'So Bella, how's work?' He asked as we set off on the 3 hours and a half journey.
'Erm Busy, I had a meeting with a client on the 10th and that went really well so she's re-writing it for when I get back, I think it could be a New York best seller to be honest then I've brought some transcripts to read while I'm here for when I get back.' I answered.
'Wow you sound very busy in New York.' He smiled at me and I asked him about his work.
'Well I've taken two weeks off for christmas but before then because of Winter it's been quite busy, broken bones, fractures, stiches needed, concussions, I've never known a town to be so injured in my years of work.' I smiled at him and gave a giggle but then a yawn chased it away.
'You can get some sleep you know, it's a long journey ahead.' I shrugged at Carlisle but still shut my eyes and fell asleep in a matter of minutes.
'Bella?' Esme's voice whispered. 'Bella? Your here, come on love.' She sighed as she unbuckeled my seatbelt and I let my eyes open slowly to see a blurry Esme, in front of me.
'Hey Esme.' I smiled and gave her a soft hug.
'Morning.' She grinned and Carlisle shook his head at her waking me up as he went to collect my luggage from the boot. I was still a bit drowsy and felt so heavy but somehow managed to drag myself through their door and seat my self on their sofa.
'Would you like a drink?' Esme asked. I nodded a yes please and as she flittered throught to the kitchen, I took a look round the room, nothing had changed, everything in the excate same place as before.
Esme came back in with the drink and I said a thank you then placed it on the table as I heard a light banging from upstairs and then footsteps coming down the stairs at a rapid pace.
'BELLA!' Alice shouted as she flung herself at me.
'Alice!' I hugged her tight to me. 'I missed you!' She nodded and I felt her sobbing into my shoulder.
'I'm so happy to see you.' She muttered and hugged me back tighter.
'You too Alice.' I smiled back at her as she sniffled her last.
'It's going to be the best christmas ever!' She beamed at me and then towed me back to get some breakfast down me.
Epov
It was coming up for ten o'clock and I was about to pull into my parents driveway when Tanya turned to me with a nervous look on her face.
'How will we tell them?' She whimpered and I just stared at her blankly. I had been dreading this whole ordeal, my stomach knotting the closer we got.
'Erm. I guess we wait for the right time.' I answered, unsure as she nodded at me.
I shut the car door and went to retreave our two cases from the boot of the car.
'Edward? Tanya?' My Mom came to the door.
'Yeah Mom?' I smiled at her and she flew out the house to give me a hug.
'I haven't seen you in ages, but I knew you both would come.' She beamed and hugged Tanya, I stiffened wondering if she felt a bump but she pulled back with
a smile as normal so I guessed she hadn't felt anything.
'Sorry Mom, been busy but I said I would be here and here we are!' I chuckled and tried to force my heart rate down a bit.
'So you two have one of the guest rooms.' Mom begun, helping me bring in the cases and Tanya following behind.
'What happened to your room?' Tanya asked me.
'It's a bit of a big mess right now, didn't think it would be safe.' I answered quickly and pulled my case to a stop in the foyer, next to another suitcase.
'Who else is here?' I wondered aloud.
And as if by cue I started to hear.
'Eat it.' Alice whined. 'Eat.' She moaned again. 'Bella drinking just coffee won't fill you up!' Bella! Bella is here! I mentally screamed, how worse could this get.
'Alice I'm fine, I swear.' I heard her voice float through the door. Beautiful and smooth but sounded full of sleep.
'Fine but don't moan when your hungry.' Alice teased and the door opened to reveal Bella standing in the kitchen doorway, coffee in hand yet before I could say anything to her Tanya smelt her coffee and ran to the downstairs toilet. I followed after her catching Bella's eye on the way.
Bpov
I smiled at Alice and started to push the kitchen door open where I saw a tired Edward and Tanya but before I coud register anything Tanya was running out the room somewhere and Edward shot me a look in his eyes and followed after her. To say I was confused would be an understatement.
I turned round and walked back into the kitchen to find Alice still eating her pop tarts as if nothing had happened.
'Alice.' I growled slowly and her head came up from the magazine she was reading with a confused expression. 'Would you please care to explain why I just saw
Edward and Tanya in there.' I asked calmly and slow, the complete opposite of my mind which was buzzing with questions.
'What, here already? And he brought her but he was going to break up with her.' She mused outloud and I just stood there. 'I didn't know he was going to be here now.' She answered and then added. 'Atleast not with her.' I looked confused at her, I could feel my face drain of colour.
'Look Bella, forget him were going to have an amazing christmas together and you'll love your presents and...' She rambled on.
I was confused. I know it was christmas and he deserves to be with his family but I feel like im intruding my ex boyfriends family.
'Alice wait hold up, slow down.' I stopped her and she looked at me with concern.
'Bella, you've gone pale white. Are you sure you don't need to lay down or something?' She asked and I slowly started to sway abit.
'Alice I'm fine I just- I just - maybe I'll stay at my dad's, or Em and Rose's or a motel or something.' I mummbled and she looked me in the eyes.
'No, your staying here like planned.' I shook my head at her.
'I can't Alice and you know full well why. I don't want to make him feel uncomftable in his own home. I'm intruding.' I sighed and took a sip of my coffee.
'Bella, my parents and I invited you to come over. We want you here.' Alice sighed as I just stared out of the kitchen door and shook my head.
'No Bella. Stop this, stop doing this to yourself. Were your family to and we want you to stay here with us. I don't care what you do to Edward, ignore him, punch him in the face everytime you see him. Just stay here.' I hung my head down. 'Please.' She pleaded, tears in her eyes.
'I'll think about it.' I sighed.
Epov
I held Tanya's hair back as she was sick in the bowl and smoothed her hair and hand as she rinsed her mouth out.
'Bella's here?' She asked and I nodded at her. 'What are we going to do?' I just shrugged at her question.
'We'll sort it out when the time comes.' I answered and rubbed her back soothingly but she still looked at me concerened but I shrugged it off as we came out into the foyer, meeting my father.
'Hello Edward, Tanya.' He greeted and looked us both other and gave us hugs, sending me a curious gaze over Tanya's shoulder but I just shook my head.
'Hey Dad. How have you been?' I asked making casual conversation.
'Good thanks , and you two?' He asked, directing the question to Tanya as she looked up at me and took my hand.
'Very Well thankyou.' She smiled. 'Carlisle, do you mind if I take a bit of a sleep please the journey tired me out and I'm not feeling too good.' She asked and I quickly checked her over, visually. Everything seemed fine.
'No, of course, it's upstairs on the second floor, the guest room on the left.' Carlisle escorted her upstairs as I took a seat in the lounge sofa.
I wasn't alone for long until Alice came into the room, without saying so much as a hey to me.
'You.' She addressed me, pointing her finger at me. 'I have terms for you staying here while Bella is.' I just gawked at her, I have rules in my own house but she continued. 'If at any point she is uncomftable around you, leave the room, give her space. Don't talk to her, wait for her to talk to you and stay out of her way.
'Clear?' She raised her eyebrow at me.
I frowned at her, confused.
'Why?' I asked.
She just laughed humorlessly at me.
'I want her to stay here. She came because our parents and I wanted her to. She's staying here but she won't if you don't follow my rules. So you got it?' I just nodded as she walked out of the room like nothing just happened.
A few moments later I heard light footsteps approaching the door. I didn't feel like a confrontation with Alice again so I sighed and slouched further into my
seat.
'Alice, I get your rules. Stay out of Bella's way. Got it. Now please leave me alone.' I moaned and heard a sharp intake of breath. I turned to see Bella standing in the doorway, frozen.
'I'm - sorry - sorry. Looking for erm - for - Alice. Sorry to - interuppt.' She stuttered, biting her lip and blushing like mad as I turned to look into her eyes.
'I thought you were Alice, I saw her about 5 minutes ago, try her room.' I answered and took her in.
She had lost weight but in a good way, showing her curves more. Her deep brown curled hair looked more styled than naturally messy, more shiny. She had also
adopted a new style which looked good on her but the one thing I didn't like were her chocolate eyes, once sparkling but now dimly bright from the daylight not from within her then there were the light blackish- purple bags underneath them, resulting making her look like she hadn't slept right for a couple of days.
As I drank her in her eyes darted from one place to another, never stopping for a moment or on any item for too long before taking off and looking at another item in the room, which wasn't that much all by the fireplace with ornaments and photos, a tv, the christmas tree and the wide screen Tv with the cream coloured sofas to complete the room and a glass table in the center.
'Erm - Thanks.' Bella muttered and started to shuffle out. 'Sorry to disturb you.' I watched her backing out the room.
'Bella.' I sighed, trying to break the tension as she appeared slowly back through the door. 'Sorry for been rude.' I apologised and she nodded and backed out the door, closing it softly behind her.
Bella and I had known each other all our lives, best friends until we were 19 on the 20th September when we decided to become more because we'd both liked each other for ages now because of my mistake I couldn't call her mine. It had been 9 months, 1 week and 2 days that she had broken up with me on March 16th. I shouldn't keep count but it reminds me of the pain I had made her feel, she was my best friend and she even went as far as to give me the chance to keep out friendship but even then I ruined that.
Now me and Tanya. I know it wouldn't work for long but I had to atleast be there for her. It was my child, I wanted to be there for him or her, we decided not to find out, but I wished I could talk to someone about it. Em and Jazz have both distanced themselves from me and I don't blame them but even my sister has, I needed my Best friend wheather she wanted to be again was a entirely different question.
Bpov
I went up to Alice's room, guessing she would of come up here and sure enough she was sat on her bed, reading her new vogue magazine.
I stood at the door for a few seconds before she looked up when I huffed and put my hand on my hip.
'Alice, why did Edward mention rules and staying away from me?' her eyes widened.
'You weren't meant to know, what did he tell you?' She asked and I shook my head.
'He thought I was you, when I went looking for you saying Alice, I got the rules. Stay away from Bella. Explain?' I demanded.
'Well you said you didn't want to intrude and your not but I thought telling Edward a few ground rules would make you more comftable...' she babbled and
proceeded to tell me the rules and why.
'Alice. Thank you but I mean I still don't know.' I sighed and sat on her bed, closing the door behind me.
'Bella, who are you now! You never let Edward walk all over you before.' She accused me, anger and hurt in her eyes.
'Alice, it's different now. I'll still be over for christmas I just think I should stay somewhere else. I don't want to upset anyone.' I tried to explain but she was
having none of it, raising her voice, louder and louder.
'Alice, YOU WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH!' I yelled back at her, taking her by surprise as she looked up at me, tears forming in my eyes. 'DO YOU?' she
still sat there, looking up at me. 'I CAN'T. I PHYSICALLY CAN'T!' I shouted at her, tears streaming down my face by now. 'KNOWING, JUST KNOWING - ' I
took a deep breathe and tried to calm myself down. 'I DON'T EVEN HAVE ONE OF MY BESTFRIENDS ANYMORE. EVERYTHING'S CHANGED.' My
voice cracked. 'I've tried to readjust, I just can't and you know how sad I am, why Brandon left me and came back, because it's been 9 months, 1 week and 2
days.' I sobbed as she came over and put her arm round me.
'Brandon came back?' she whispered and I nodded into her shoulder.
'Saying - I've changed and - and - I couldn't love him like he did me.' I sniffled and wiped the tears away from my eyes. I had enough of crying about everything.
I got up and made a pledge to myself I wouldn't cry again while here, atleast not unhappy tears.
Esme had made a family lunch for all of us, including Emmett, Rose and Jasper who were schedueled to be here soon.
I had reapplied my makeup and curled my hair again to look decent as I walked into the lounge where everyone was gathered that was here already.
'Sorry I didn't have a chance to say hello before.' Tanya approached me as I sat myself down, I was just a little bit confused but smiled at her anyway.
'It's ok, are you feeling better?' I asked in genuine seriousness and she nodded at me,meanwhile everyone was watching our exchange with awe. Just because she's dating Edward now didn't mean I had to hate her, well it did but I didn't have to show it. Then their eyes got wider when Edward chipped into the conversation, earning a warning glare from Alice.
'How have you been Bella?' he asked and my eyes were darting round the room, away from his eyes.
'Good I guess. Work has been busy so pretty tired latley.' I answered, praising myself that I had got a sentence out without wanting to either kiss him senseless or strangle him.
'How come Brandon didn't come?' Tanya asked, I couldn't blame her, she didn't excatly know but I know Carlisle and Esme wanted to know the same.
'Well we broke up about a month ago. He moved back here with Jake but I wanted to stay on with the job.' I explained and Esme's eyes turned to sympathy.
'It just wasn't working.' I rushed out. I really wanted to tell Edward that it was his fault, all his fault I had trust issues and got paranoid but I didn't because I wasn't going to waste my time pining over him while I'm here and in a few days I'd be back in New York getting on with my life as normal.
'BELLA!' Emmett raced into the room, scooping me up into a bear hug. 'I MISSED YOU!' He laughed as I nuzzled into his neck.
'I missed you to Em! You should visit sometime!' I laughed as he set my feet on the ground.
'I'll hold you too that!' Rose giggled as she came through the door, embracing me warmly, Jasper behind her.
'I missed all of you so much and it's only been a month!' I declared and started to help Esme set the dinner table, not ignoring the fact no one really talked to Edward, just some looks and one sylable words but no full out conversations.
'They've not been talking much for over a month, not even Alice.' Esme whispered in my ear making me jump as I was watching everyone, I turned around slightly shocked she had caught me.
'What do you mean?' I asked her, curious.
'They just haven't talked, we haven't seen much of him either.' She explained as I nodded and took note. Hardly anyone talking to him, I will change that before I go back to New York.
I shook my head and carried on setting the table places.
We all sat in our usual places all by the seat opposite mine been empty, but I didn't mind because it meant I could look right out of the window directly infront of me. On my right was Esme and Carlisle opposite, then me, Tanya next to me and opposite Edward, Alice opposite Jasper then Rose opposite Emmett.
We started on our lunches and after awhile conversation arose about Em and Rose's club they opened and I tried to pay attention but I couldn't I was more focusing on when I would eat and when I would just move things around my plate, little distractions to keep myself occupied.
Before long conversation changed to jobs and I chipped in a few nods or sounds every now and again to show I was listening but really I was trying to not look up and see Edward the seat next to the one infront of me, concerntrating on letting Alice paint my nails while I'm here and having to go to Rose and Em's club. Then Emmett said something to me that I didn't quite catch.
'Sorry what was that Em?' I asked, coming out of my daze and blinking a bit.
'I asked if you were alright? You look out of it.' He said, concern growing in his eyes.
'I guess travelling took it out of me that's all. Don't mind me.' I answered, snapping my head straight back down again to see my half empty plate of food.
'So how are you Tanya? Feeling better?' Carlisle asked and this time I was listening.
'Erm about that.' She started then took Edward's hand across the table. 'Erm well I wasn't feeling well because I'm pregnant.' My head snapped up to look out the window.
Pregnant.
She had just said pregnant.
'What!' I heard Alice screech but after that nothing really came through to me like I was in my own little bubble, trapped but still pushing the food around my plate. I could feel everyone's eyes on me but it didn't hurt like the crashing of my heart did when it shattered then and there. Everything had turned slow motion as Tanya explained about been 2 months along and a doctor's appointment. I could hear my heart pulsing in my head and felt the colour drain from my
face.
I tried to concetrate on my breathing. In, out, in, out. As the rest of my world crashed around me in slow motion. Then there was me in the middle of this carnage, helpless as all my hope burned and died out slowly as my pushing of my food came to a stop on my plate.
I heard a buzz of conversation but I couldn't join in, my throat was dry as a bone, my hand wouldn't move to get the water and I was holding back the floods of tears that threatened to pour out at any moment.
As soon as I could move I stood up slowly croaked a 'congratulations.' picked up my plate and glass to take to the kitchen, normally I would wash them up but I just left them on the side, took a few deep breaths and tried to settle my mind. I looked at the back door to the gazebo and the forest stretching way ahead.I opened the back door letting a light breeze ruffle my hair, it was refreshing as I walked down the back garden to the gazebo, taking a seat in the swinging
two seater I used to love so much.
Here was where I fell in love, Here was where I had my first kiss, Here was where I got engaged, Here held all the best memories, all my secrets and thoughts, Here was safe. Here was home.
I let myself swing back and forth, remembering every detail. It was bound to happen one day but I just wish it didn't have to. I just wished I could of been enough for him. I memorised the sound of the brook and the smell of damp wood surrounding me as I curled up on the two seater, refusing the tears to fall just yet. I saved the beam on my right for last and automatically my eyes went to the E and B in a heart that we carved in a heart on the night of our prom.
Back then it was for friendship but it meant so much.
After looking at it I let my tears fall knowing all chances were gone, I was too late.
Epov
I watched her stand up almost mechanically as she whispered a 'congratulations' and cleared her plate and glass and took it into the kitchen.
Everyone's eyes followed her out as I held Tanya's hand and she rubbed circles into the back of it.
Tanya decided to excuse herself soon after claiming she was still not feeling to good but leaving us to our family privacy and she'd be upstairs. Whispering a good luck to me and leaving me by myself.
I slouched in my seat and closed my eyes not wanting to be here at all.
'Edward.' My Mom sighed and she took my hand, moving to sit in the empty seat next to me.
'I'm sorry.' I muttered to everyone. 'She wasn't meant to get...' I trailed off and looked into my mothers eyes, filled with worry.
There was a deadly silence of tension as Alice stood up and faced me.
'Your brother in name only.' She spat at me and I flinched back and squeezed my mothers hand, I deserved it but it didn't make it hurt any less.
'How could - what were you - AHH!' Alice started to shake with anger and if there was any a time I was scared of Alice, this had to be the worst, Jasper put a hand on her shoulder and pulled her down in her seat and looked outside of the window, collecting her breaths
.
I didn't know what to do, everyone was refusing to speak.
'Maybe, I should go talk to her.' I half asked in a mono-tone voice.
Emmett jumped up. 'You will not talk to Bella. NO WAY am I letting YOU anywhere near her EVER AGAIN!' He growled at me and came right into my face and just like Jasper, Rose pulled him back. I heard Alice let out a strangled sob as I looked out the window everyone was now.
Bella had curled herself up on the two seater swing in the gazebo, I could only see half her face but she was expressionless, blankly staring about everywhere before the tears came but even though it hurt me I had to watch, had to see the pain I was causing her as my own tears started to fall, my chest heaving with heavy breaths. My Mom continually squeezing my hand but I didn't deserve it.
Emmett also let his tears shed for his sister and I felt my Mom's tears hit my hand.
We were all just sat there watching Bella, helplessly until her head snapped up to welcome the rain that had started to fall as she made her way inside the house. Emmett's glare and my Mom and Dad both held me down while Alice quietly tiptoed to where I guessed Bella was.
Bpov
I walked into the house calmly, basking in the fact it was raining and I was getting soaked from head to toe.
I heard mutterings from the dining room as I made my way through the kitchen, kicking off my shoes and removing my now soaking jacket to drag my feet to the foyer, pulling up my case handle.
'Bella?' Alice appeared in the foyer, her eyes bloodshot red and red rimmed.
'Alice?' I asked as she took me in. 'You've been crying.' I stated and felt guilty I had caused her pain.
'So have you.' She whispered back.
'I'm okay now.' I nodded and took deep breaths in. 'I had time to clear my head.' I smiled at her and she grimaced back.
'What are you doing?' She looked at me with my case handle pulled up.
'Sorry Alice. After that -' I whimpered. She nodded and I knew she understood that I couldn't stay there, not now.
'I could be here for christmas.' I smiled at her and she brought me into a tight hug which I returned.
'And talk to your brother. He's your brother, your family. I want everyone to talk to him. Just because of what's happened that's between him and me, only him and me. You got that?' I giggled sadly and gave her another tight hug, trailing my case behind me.
'Call me.' Alice whispered into my ear.
I had the front door unlocked and put on my travelling shoes which were laying by the front door.
I trailed my case behind me through the rain and opened my boot to put it in, slamming it closed.
'BELLA, BELLA, WAIT, PLEASE!' I heard him shout as I unlocked my car door. I saw Emmett come to the front door and hold him back, I nodded my head at him as a thanks. 'BELLA PLEASE!' I heard him plead and I knew I had to go now. I pulled open the drivers door as I saw him slump against the front door, Emmett still holding him back. It broke my heart, it did but I had to move on and this was my way of doing that.
'BELLA!' His voice was thick full of tears as I stepped into the car and buckled my seatbelt. I took a deep breath. I'm ready.
'Bella, please don't do this.' I jumped at the banging on my car window to see a soaked Edward in the rain with an angry Emmett behind him, trying to pull him back. I tried to ignore the banging as I turned on the engine but once I caught sight of him I stopped myself from pressing my foot on the gas.
I shook my head at him as my tears fell and turned my head to the road as I pressed down on my foot.
'Forgive me.' I cried as he ran behind my car before dropping on his knees in the rain.
'Forgive me.' I cried again.
Well I never planned to write that much but I got to into it and it got to emotional so I guess I had to write all of this to keep you guys going for a while.
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