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Playlist: Why Don't you love me by Hot Chelle Rae
WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME?
(DESSIE'S POV)
"Where's Zack? I think she wants him." I heard mom's voice under my closed eyes. I felt weak; even more than the pneumonia last to last week. Why am I not dead? I know he is never going to forgive me. I just know that.
"Z…z….Zack." I tried to say.
"I don't know. He just ran away after the first aid." This was Carlisle's voice as I knew it. This was my entire fault.
"EJ could you go and get your brother, please?" Nessie said.
"I think he deserves some time alone." This was Dallas' voice.
If someone's hearing it, I hate Dallas. I tried my best to open my eyes and I was just near the corner. The lights in the room took me a while to adjust. It wasn't my room; the ceiling didn't have the glow-in-th-dark star marks.
"Hey, she's up." EJ shouted from between.
"Dessie, how are you feeling?" mom asked me as I managed to give her a confused look. I swear I love all of them but I needed Zack more than any of them.
"Better…I guess." I said. Not dead yet: I thought. "Guys, I…"
"Let's get out for a while, people." Mom said. She totally gets me.
I'm sorry mom.
"It's okay." She muttered.
Okay great, it's been two hours here (although I slept for one and a half hour again in between) but Zack isn't here yet, nor is anyone letting me go to him, especially Dallas. Punishment aside but why doesn't he get that I'm even more emotionally weak than what I'm physically weak. Some minutes went as I kept cursing him in my mind when Harmony came in.
"I think it's time I end your punishment." Harmony told me. Was I saying it out loud?
"What are you talking about?" I lied.
"You know what I'm talking about so quit that." She scolded me. Okay, so she knows that I know. She took me and held me tight and jumped two floors down near Dallas' car. My head whirled and she caught me.
"Are you going to run?" I asked.
"Nope, have the keys." She answered and opened the door.
Why do I even think that there'd be any problem when she's there?
"Um…I think it's gonna rain soon." I answered."Wait, what about the license?"
"I'm 17, remember?" she asked.
"Will you tell Damien about it?" I asked her.
"Have told yet? I know that you never belonged with that son-of-a-bitch." Even she feels the same way about Damien.
"No. But I'm just in a totally wrecked condition. What will he think?"
"You know I asked him one day that when you look better: when you're trying to look your best i.e. when you're with Damien or when you are yourself? He answered that when you are totally carefree and don't think about how you're looking."
"Aw." I said quietly. "I was being such a bitch to him, wasn't I?"
"A bit, yeah. But I know you wanted him safe." Everyone knows that. I'm such a readable person. "Don't worry, I told Kevin, no one else."
"Seriously?"
"The others were confused about why you were doing so. And as I feel, he's kinda hypnotized you."
"God Har, I am going to Zack and I have my control on my brain." I answered.
When we stopped, I knew I recognized this area of the woods and I could hear the similar waterfall sound.
"How did you know he would be here?" I asked her.
"Well, I kind of stalked him for you. Kidding, he told me not to tell anyone he is there and when you wake up, I should tell him." She told me. "But I think I need to walk you there, don't I? God, I feel such a bone in the neck."
"Be slow and please don't jump like last time." I answered. She walked me to the side area where was the same boulder where Zack and I were standing and seeing the waterfall.
"Har, why are …why is Smiles here?" he shouted. I practically got scared.
"Hold her. I'll get going." She said and left me to take support by a tree. I walked slowly towards him. God, I look such a hospital patient.
Wait, I practically ran off from the hospital. So, I am one. But even he wasn't any better. His face covered in scratches and wounds were on his chest which, by the way, was uncovered.
"Why did you come here?" he wanted to know.
"I wanted to talk." I answered with a large lump in my throat. As I walked towards him, a song went through my brain which was Why Don't You Love Me by Hot Chelle Rae.
See I can wake up; I'm living a nightmare that keeps playing over again…
Left in a room, so hung up on you and you're cool just being friends.
Left on the sidelines, stuck at the midnight
Waiting for my turn and I can't see…
Why don't you love me? Touch me?
Tell me I'm your everything and hear you breathing…
Why don't you love me, baby? Open up your heart tonight cause I could be all that you need…
I was going to cry in…
10…
9…
8…
7…
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"Look, Smiles, I'm sorry. I think you are right. You love Damien more than me and you might've felt that I was Damien…"
6…
5…
…
"Let me speak, would you? I was wrong Zack. I was always wrong and you were right. I was transforming into a bitch. You and I had always cared about each other." I said.
4…
3…
…
"What? Look, there no force on you. You can do whatever you want." He told me and came towards me. It started raining all of a sudden and not slowly. It was like someone was playing a trick on us and pouring buckets.
….
2…
"I know there's no force on me and you know…why am I thinking about Zazu? So, I was saying that I love you….no, I am in love with you, Zack. I was crazy all this time to love Damien. I mean you were right. I had to understand imprinting to understand you and imprinting is never wrong and…"
….
1…
And boom…
I started crying. He came to hold me so that I don't fall because I was a bit drowsy right now. But I still didn't shut up. "I hate this new me, Zack. I don't care what others think but I know that you're gonna forgive me and I want to be yours Zack, no I need to be yours. I don't want to go back to Damien. I want to be the old me and not because everyone wants me to be that or maybe just you guys, Rayne says she likes the new me too but I know somewhere she too wants me to turn back, but…because I want everything to be just as perfect and messy and fun and like earlier…"
And with that, he made me shut up. Not just like that, it was the most romantic moment of my life. The rain poured on both of us as we kissed each other. Seconds ago, I had been crying and I could almost taste that salt on his lips. You know, it was even better than the last time, the same fireworks under my eyes but even better, the same sparks in my nerves straight down to my heart and I pulled back because I needed to breath. In some seconds, it became so difficult to stand for me that I was relying on him for all the support.
"Who really told you to come all the way here?" he asked me as he picked me up in his arms.
I really believe in romance now. I should place this no.2 on my list.
"Well, I thought it would be easier to make you forgive me this way." I replied truthfully.
"I could never be upset with you and you know that. For long, I mean. If you do something to hurt yourself, let me tell you I won't be so forgiving." He scolded me.
"Can we just not pick up a fight right now?" I tried to sound irritated.
"Not a bad idea." He answered. It was way too cold. I mean I could have died if he hadn't hurried to his bike and made me sit in front of him so I could hold him better for some warmth. None of us spoke for a long time, I smiled and just kept watching him every seven seconds to make sure it wasn't a dream and everything was going to be okay. I closed my eyes for some time and enjoyed the rain. I know, totally stupid to enjoy rain in cold but you know I was so happy that I could even go and hug Skyler right now.
Jeez, what was I thinking when I thought that?
Anyway, he pulled up in front of a known place which I couldn't tell till some minutes because it was raining and my head was whirling but it was my place. This time, I half walked up to the living room and he helped me up to my room which, by the way, was upstairs. He again carried me.
"I swear Zack, you ran a psychotic out of a mental hospital today." I told him.
"If anyone saw me kissing the psychotic?"
"Then, they would know you are the psychotic kind." I answered.
"Doesn't matter. I'll be anything for you, name it."
And seriously, inside I was all like "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!" outside, I smiled back, prettily I hope.
"I'll go and call everyone. They might be worried where you ran." He told me and went downstairs. I searched for my towels and my hair-dryer. I am so sure I would need Grace soon enough. I plugged my dryer in and sat in front of my dressing mirror and a towel wrapped around me. I thought my alter-ego would come but…
Here you are, missy. Thank you so, so, so much. I love you.
Save it for the guy. I knew you won't be that stupid after all.
So, how do you think my fleeing was – crazy or cute?
I knew she would say crazy.
Cute.
What?
Yeah, it was. I mean c'mon, who would be so stupid to say it wasn't cute.
I know. You know Harmony…
Called Damien son-of-a-bitch… I don't get why do you forget I am you? But I didn't get why do they hate each other so much and why, that day, they were being a good sibling duo?
The door creak-opened. I caught my towel even tighter against me and it was Zack as I saw in the mirror.
"ZACK, THERE WAS A DOOR! YOU COULD'VE KNOCKED!" I shouted.
"Chillax, I'm not in the mood to get to the third base so soon unless you have a plan to and I have seen you in a towel a lot of times earlier. Doesn't make any difference."
"Yeah…uh…it totally does. I was 4 or 5 then and I am 15 almost 16 now. So, hello mega difference. Now, stop being such a perv and get out!"
"Don't worry, I'm going. Don't want to get my head toasted with your dryer." He said calmly and pushed himself out. "By the way, you're right. You're sexier than before."
"GET OUT!" I screamed and threw a cushion on the door.
Being called sexy by your…
Hey, he's my boyfriend now, I guess…
Well, it isn't that bad. Atleast if you are used to someone like Zack.
*SNEEZE*
"You fine, Smiles?" he asked from outside.
"Perfect." I muttered which hurrying myself into my tight blue jeans. I threw on my black sweater –hoodie and slipped in my ankle socks. I climbed into my bed and pulled on my blanket. I, once again, forgot to turn on my heater.
"May I come in?" Zack knocked once again. "Or to ask, are you in clothes now?"
"Come in and yeah, as a matter of fact, I am." I answered. He came in with a tray in his hands and there was a bowl on it which was actually full of popcorn.
"Why…this for?" I asked.
"There were some silent comedy movies in the disk shelf. Let's watch." he came to sit beside me, turned on the TV and flipped in the disk.
Last question now. Who can watch silent comedies without actually getting bored in between?
Would you shut up and let me enjoy? By the way, yeah, Zack does.
That is way too true because I have always wanted a guy who would sit beside me and watch the Lion King Trilogy and not laugh at the wrong places, who would just hold me tight as I cry in between the movie, who would respect me being somewhat of a socialist and something like that and who would watch Charlie Chaplin's silent comedies with me and not be so stupid to leave it in between.
He had put in 'City Lights', one of my favorites of all times. As half of it rolled and I laid my head and his shoulder, knowing that this time nothing could go wrong, I just turned to him, confused.
"I have a bit of an idiotic question. I am your girlfriend now, right?" I asked him. I didn't know why, I just had to ask this. What am I: a sociopath? Just to change the topic, I touched one of the scratches near his eye. "It hurts?"
He jumped once, so I knew that yeah, it did hurt. I did that again and he jumped once again.
"Want to know what?" he asked me. I nodded. He lips collided down on mine and I knew what the answer to my first question was. It's so much better being with him than not being with him.
God, no! Not another sneeze. I had to pull back to sneeze once again and I dozed off peacefully while watching 'City Lights' and after many days was my sleep so peaceful.
"OMG Dez, I am so happy for you!" I knew who this was. The only scream in the world that could make me fall off my bed wrapped in my comforter would only be Rayne's.
"Jeez Ray, could've let me sleep for some more hours." I complained and sat up on the floor. "Where's Z?"
"Duh, he came over at my place today morning and told me that's it's better between the both of you. I was like 'dude, what is better like: Better, better or awesome better?' He blushed. He really did. You don't know how happy I am. I could even go and hug Skylar right now. Jeez, I take back my words." She said.
See, I am not the only one who hates Skylar Fanning that much!
"What time is it and… wait, who all are downstairs and how many are mad at me and please tell me Dallas didn't see Zack all along?"
"Honestly speaking, Dallas did throw a fit this morning but Harmony controlled her even because of Kevin you know, the whole scene with Millie and then the whole thing when you ran up to Zack but wait…I didn't get one thing. How could you run away from the hospital?"
"If you promise to keep it a secret?"
"My lips are sealed." She did that lip-sealing gig and gave me the key. I laughed.
"Harmony helped me out."
"That is exactly what I thought!" Dallas came in. "HARMONY!"
"Oops." I muttered but I know he won't get that mad at Harmony. She would control him anyway. I didn't feel like going downstairs because I knew or maybe felt that I would totally slip off the stairs but I went downstairs because Rayne called Grace first who made me a bit better and she then called dad to help me come down. Dad would give me a look every three second that showed I was in somewhat of a trouble with mom or Dallas (what's new?).
Only four words:
You
Were
Right,
Dad.
Because of the look dad had hinted me, I knew I was in trouble and mom and Dallas, as I knew, would get mad on me but I acted totally as if I was too wrecked even right now. Grace would just go into the kitchen for a few seconds to laugh on my acting when mom was like: "Honey, are you sure you are fine?"
"Y…yeah, mom. It's j-just a bit –o-of cold." I answered. Dallas gave me my comforter which supposedly Zack had got me back this 'morning' because I was sleeping all the time.
Now, I know it was with him all this time. Well, anyway, when all of them cooled down, Zack finally appeared. Mom went off to work, so did dad and Grace took a post by my side no matter what. He just walked in looking all too fresh which he wasn't since last two weeks considering the whole thing with me and him. He had shaved and his hair was all set in those cutest spikes, or should I call them sexy?
"Hey ya Smiles!" he called as he managed to pull in with two bags in his hands. He was wearing that black leather jacket I had been in love with. The jacket I was in love with, I mean, not to mention I loved him more than that.
"Hey Z! What's that?" I asked.
"Mom sent some stuff for Harmony and Millie and the nursery." He told me. He went to place the stuff in the nursery and carried Millie out. Millie had actually started sitting now and understanding things. She made noises now. Some of these are:
'wa' for water
'Goo' for food
'D' or 'Anje' for me
'Ma' for Harmony
Not perfect but 'Da' for Dallas. She is in halfway for saying 'Dada' and all of us are waiting for that. This is one of the reasons why Grace and EJ roam around her whole day with a video camera in their hands.
"Jee, Jee." Millie was as usual in her fun mood. Atleast someone hadn't experienced as much.
Finally, after a lot of time, staying grounded at my place (not that I was exactly punished but still I was in the house since more than 16 hours), Zack and I went over to his place. The house was totally over turned and our doubts raced straight over to Rose.
"Hope mom and Rose ain't fighting once again on her clothes." He crossed his finger. We went inside and it was somewhat like he had hoped they wouldn't be doing but they were. Rose was sitting on the top of a wardrobe refusing to wear anything but a jacket like Zack's.
"Zacky, see this is my towel dress." She stood up. The towel was the same color as mine day before. Zack started laughing like anything and I knew he too was thinking about yesterday. I elbowed him in his stomach. I had, I think, gone way too red and I knew that this time, if I fluffed up my face, I could be mistaken for a tomato.
"Would you quit that?" I whisper yelled.
"Totally." He answered laughingly. "Princess, come down. Here, take mine." He took of his jacket. Now, that reminds me totally of Dallas. He would always be there for me like this which reminds me that I should apologize to him. We left the jacket and I towed Zack to find Dallas with me. I found him in the backyard setting some kind of a swing for Millie.
"Hey Dallas!" Zack was all too cheerful.
"Hey." He said, not too happily.
"I'm sorry." I blurted.
"What? What for?" he asked me.
'"Okay, one: for breaking the rules, two: for running out of the house, three: for messing myself up and four: for screwing everything up. Dallas, I know I have been a jerk lately and I should really start mending up things and this starts with you. I am sorry for being a jerk to you and never listening to you."
"Aw Angel! I love you sweetheart and I think I do forgive and sorry for being an ass to you while you were in the hospital and even in the afternoon." Then we had a brother-sister hug and everything seemed fine for the time.
So, here are the full lyrics of the song WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME by Hot Chelle Rae
THE BAND OF HOT CHELLE RAE: See I can wake up; I'm living a nightmare that keeps playing over again…
Left in a room, so hung up on you and you're cool just being friends.
Left on the sidelines, stuck at the midnight
Waiting for my turn and I can't see…
Why don't you love me? Touch me?
Tell me I'm your everything and hear you breathing…
Why don't you love me, baby? Open up your heart tonight cause I could be all that you need…
Oh, why don't you love me? -2
Demi Lovato – See, I'm just too scared,
To tell you the truth, cause my heart, it can't take anymore
Broken and bruised, longing for you and I don't know what I'm waiting for...
Left on the sidelines, stuck at the midnight
Waiting for my turn…. So just tell me?
Why don't you love me? Touch me?
Tell me I'm your everything and hear you breathing…
Why don't you love me, baby? Open up your heart tonight cause I could be all that you need…
Why don't you give me a reason? Give me reason?
Please tell me the truth? Please tell me the truth,
You know that, I can believe it, I can believe it.
Tonight with you…Why don't you love me? Kiss me? I can feel your heart tonight
Kill me so….
Why don't you love me? Touch me?
Tell me I'm your everything and hear you breathing…
Why don't you love me, baby? Open up your heart tonight cause I could be all that you need…
Oh, why don't you love me? -4
AN: They are together...finally...Oh, well thanx to my readers who are always there no matter what...
Guest: What do you guess about Damien? How's he going to act? Well, thanx for the review!
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