Glitter In the Air

"I'd like you to know I don't have the ability to get drunk. So if that's what you're plan is it won't work," I muttered before starting on my second beer. Nightfall had made its appearance on this day that Edward and I'd spent together. We had gone to a movie and Edward took me to the local bar that Alice raved about. He claimed she adored the atmospherics, however it seemed pretty ordinary to me. It was a typical bar complete with an old school jukebox.

"What makes you think I want you drunk?" He asked curiously as he wrapped his hand around the beer he'd purchased for appearances sake.

"Oh I don't know … it just seemed like a typical thing to do. A guy likes a girl and to get her defenses down he gets her intoxicated." Edward chuckled and then switched beers with me, again I realized what he was doing. Now it would like both of us were drinking instead of just me.

"How do you know I like you Leah? I could still be quite sore at you for all the drama you've put me through," he countered and I was in a state of disbelief.

"Really?" I asked and he nodded. "Edward I didn't get pregnant by myself. So we both brought on the drama we now have." Edward sat back in his booth and lowered his eyes from mine.

"But I didn't lie," he whispered. "You kept Holden from me." I rolled my eyes I couldn't believe he was bringing this up. We've only talked about it once and I thought we'd both moved past it.

"You did lie. You didn't lie to me but you lied to your wife and you're whole family for that matter." I took another sip of my beer. The waiter came through with my order of nachos.

"I guess you have me there. I did lie but it wasn't to really hide them it was to shield them from unnecessary hurt." My eyes bugged out with anger. "I know you think you were doing the same, but a major part of you was running away from condemnation of sleeping with a leech like me."

"I'm not going to lie I didn't want to deal with the sideways glares from my friends and family, but I did it more for my son than for myself." I sat back and crossed my arms all of a sudden I'd lost my appetite.

"I didn't mean to sour your evening Leah." He motioned for the waiter to bring us another and round and then he focused in on my face. "I sincerely wanted to show you a good time." I scoffed and I felt a new moisture as it hit my cheeks. I couldn't understand why I was blubbering there was absolutely no need. I just think I was tired. I was tired of having this internal struggle and trying to justify or defend my actions.

"Yeah whatever Edward, so I guess we're done here?" I said as I slid out of the booth.

"Uh … not quite," he grabbed my hand and we walked toward the jukebox. He flipped the selections rather quickly, threw a couple of quarters in the slot, and a slow song began to play. I was surprise by how easily I allowed him to sweep me up in his arms. "Don't think too much Leah … just dance with me."

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?

Closed your eyes and trust it, just trust it?

Have you ever thrown a fistful of glitter in the air?

Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care."?

"I think of you and our involvement when I hear this song," he confessed at a mere whisper into my ear. He held me close and rocked me gently. I found myself listening even closer to the words to interpret what this all meant to him.

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?

Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone

Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?

Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

This song was lovely as I rested my head on Edward's shoulder and allowed the words and the melody to consume me. As beautiful as it was however, I hadn't lost grip of reality, we were not like the two lovers in this song. We were a fleeting heated moment in the night. A sinfully wicked yet beautiful mistake that will haunt me for the rest of my left. "This isn't us Edward," I whispered and closed my eyes as I held him tighter.

There you are,

Sitting in the garden,

Clutching my coffee,

Calling me sugar

You called me sugar

"I know … but sometimes when I look at you and think back to that night. It was the moment … the one I never want to forget for the rest of my life." Against my will his words affected me I felt my heart beat quicken and my eyes threatened to water. I opened my mouth and willed myself to say something intelligent and logical.

"We should go, Holden and Emily are probably thinking we got lost or something," I whispered with regret lacing my every word as I pulled away from Edward. I was angry, confused, and in deep trouble. Edward studied my eyes intently and frowned a little but then nodded and motioned for me to lead the way. I strode to the exit hopefully leaving this awkward moment behind me.

Have you ever wished for an endless night?

Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?

Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?

Tonight

Author's Note: I've always loved this song and I think I've finally found a way to make it work with one of my stories. I hope you all liked this impromptu chapter. Have a good night!