AN: ok here is chapter 11, sorry it took so long to post, but it is the longest chapter I've written yet so yay :D, also thanks to everyone who read and those who reviewed last chapter, i loved getting the reviews and reading about how much you all like my story, i only had 3 people tell me that they cried so thats good so it wasn't too sad, but i did warn you. this chapter isn't sad, at least i don't think it is so enjoy.

CH- 11: After Math

I was starting to wake up and all my brain could process was that my face was pressed into something warm, muscular, and really good smelling. I moved my face away from it and opened my eyes to be met with darkness, after a little bit my eyes adjusted to the dark and I could see, I turned my head up and saw Paul, which means that my face was presses into Paul's chest, I started to blush slightly and was thankful that Paul was sleeping, now that the mystery of what I was next to was solved I started to think why Paul was in my bed with me, I sat up a little bit and looked around the room and saw that I was in a living room, not even my own living room. Than the memories started to come back to me, our girls day, the argument, everything I said and that was said to me, me falling asleep with my head in Paul's lap. So it seems that I was still at Emily's house on the couch, but now Paul was laying on it with me, with one arm under my head slightly then wrapping around my waist, and the other one thrown loosely around my waist. I looked around again but this time I was searching for the clock to see what time it was, I knew that it was still night cause it was dark out, I found a clock on the side table that was closest to the side of the couch my head was on, and saw that the glowing numbers read 5:22, which means that it won't be light out for another hour and a half or so. I wasn't tired anymore and decided to just lay there and watch Paul sleep, his face looked so peaceful, not like the look he had before I went to sleep, his face had looked scared, worried, and pitying. I started getting bored and didn't feel like thinking too much not wanting to feel as bad a yesterday, but after I'm awake longer and I start seeing everybody I will inevitably feel like that again, so I started to play with Paul's hair, not really playing with it just running my hands threw it, and you know what? It really is a soft as it looks maybe even softer. Even with running my hands threw his hair I was still slightly bored, I mean really what is so interesting about watching people sleep, I've read books where people do that and I just don't see the appeal of it. Paul started to stir under my hand so I dropped it back at my side. I finally figured that if I can't sleep I might as well just close my eyes and hope it will just come to me. So I rested my head on Paul's arm again, wrapped one of my arms around him and put my face in the crock of his neck. And let me tell you I was really comfortable, I felt like I could stay right here without moving all day. I stayed like that for a while singing random songs in my mind hoping that I could serenade my self to sleep, I didn't work. So unfortunately my mind started to wonder, and what it wondered to was the one topic that I didn't want to think about, but every time I push it back and think of something else, it would just some how come back up, so I finally gave in to myself and thought about it, how everything I told them was true even if they didn't want to admit it, I did know that some of the points I made maybe didn't work that well, like who Collin and Brady have to live for, but there only like 15 or something and they a lot going for them right now. I mean there always telling me about the girls that go to their school that are basically stalk them in the halls and throw themselves at them. So they will eventually find a girl they like. Right? Ugh, its time like these that I hate thinking cause my brain just won't stop and I really don't want to think theses things but cant help. I'm trying to figure out what Kim had said about me having Paul to live for because I mean I know I really like him but it seems like he doesn't like me that way sometimes, we friends, possibly best friends, but still just friends. I've been here two weeks and nothing has happened between me and Paul or me and anybody. Maybe Kim's just slightly delusional, but whatever.

I was starting to feel restless and I didn't want to be laying down anymore, so I took Paul's arm off my waist and got up off the couch, taking my hair down and running my fingers threw it than putting it in a low pony tail so at least it looks semi- decent, and went into the kitchen I made a pot of coffee for myself and anyone else who might want some later. While I was searching in the cabinets for a coffee cup, my eyes landed the clock that was on the microwave and I saw that it was almost seven thirty. With a little more searching I finally found a cup and poured my freshly brewed coffee into it and started drinking I didn't put anything in it I just drank it black. I sat down at Sam and Emily's kitchen table and just sat there drinking my coffee and starting off into space. I heard the front door open and close and some loud footsteps head this way. I didn't bother turning around cause I figured I look like hell and that it was just some of the guys, cause that's what they do just walk in without knocking or anything.

"What are you doing up?" I heard someone question from behind me, I turned around in my seat and saw Seth standing by the fridge looking at me for an answer and Embry with his head in the fridge searching for food I presume.

"Drinking coffee." I told him

"Yeah, but why?" he asked

"Cause I can." I countered simply, and got up with my empty cup and went to the sink where I rinsed my cup and put it in the dish washer, then turned back and turned back to head to my seat. When I was almost there Embry stepped in front of me and put his hands on my shoulders and looked at me like he was searching my face for something, I just looked back at him with no expression on my face. He stared at me for a minute before he brought me closer and wrapped his arms around me, and that's all it took, that small gesture of caring and friendship that made me fall apart. I wrapped my arms around Embry clutching to him and sobbed into his chest getting his shirt wet with my salty tears. He just stood there letting me cry on him and trying to comfort me, unfortunately it wasn't working, but at least he tried. I could here more people coning into the house, some walking around, and others getting up. But that wouldn't stop my tears from flowing and on the negative side I was sobbing loudly so most everyone heard me. I felt someone come up behind me and could here them having a whispered conversation with Embry for a few minutes before I felt Embry let go of me and unwrap my arms from around him and turn me around so that I was facing some one else, I looked up and saw that it was Paul and just with that I clutched the front of his shirt in my hands and sobbed into his chest, he bent down slightly and wrapped his arms around me and picked me up so he was carrying me bridal style, he walked out of the kitchen and into the living room. He sat down on one of the chairs with me in his lap, the front of his shirts still fisted in my hands and my face now in the crock of his neck, he still had his arms around me and with one hand he was rubbing my back soothingly. A while later my sobbing turned into sniffles and I moved my head form Paul's neck to his chest, I brought my hand up to my face and whipped away the remaining tears, and let my eyes Rome the room and saw that Seth and Embry were having a conversation with Claire on the couch and by the back door Sam was talking to Quil. I saw Claire look over at me, she smiled and waved, I waved back but couldn't even muster a smile with my attitude, Claire got up off the couch and grabbed something from off the side table and handed it to me, I saw that it was a tissue so I took it and said "Thank you."

"No problem, you look like you need it." She told me, then went back to her conversation

"I probably do," I muttered

"Got an issue use a tissue!" Seth said, trying to lighten the mood, everyone laughed slightly, even me.

"You better?" Paul asked me, I looked up at him, and nodded my head a little.

"Sure?" he asked not really believing me

"I don't know." I told him honestly, he nodded his head at me and held me a little tighter.

"Who wants bacon?" Emily hollered from the kitchen, I laughed a little bit to myself, as all the guys raised there hands. Emily came out of the kitchen with a plate of bacon and saw that al the guys had their hands raised, she came over to me told me to take some, I took a couple strips and then she went over to Claire who also took, some after that she went back into the kitchen with the rest of the plate. All the guys looked shocked that they didn't get any food, while us girls did.

"Emily" Quil whined

"You'll get some, let me just finish making the rest of the food." She hollered at him, I sighed to myself and leaned back into Paul and ate my food, while thinking that most times this would be one of the normal funny situations with food the guys get into but today it just didn't really make me smile that much, just a little tugging at my lips is all.

"Ok everybody in the kitchen." Emily called, all the guys and Claire raced to the kitchen and as I was about to get off Paul so he could also run, he held me even tighter and lifted me up carrying me to the kitchen.

"Ok, Paul set her down in the seat." Emily instructed all the others where sitting around the table there were only three seats left for Paul, Emily, and me. Paul set me down at the head of the table, then sat to the left of me next to Embry, Claire was on the other side of me to my right, next to her was Quil, then Seth, and Sam was at the other end with an empty seat left for Emily. Emily was in the kitchens' island putting together plates of food for all of us, she cam to me first and sat my plate in front of me, I looked at it and smiled, Emily had made a pancake, then made a smiley face on it, you know the ones where you have whipped cream with berries on top for the eyes, strawberries for the nose and a strip of bacon for the smiley face, I turned to Emily who was standing by my chair and said "Thank you." And got up and hugged her. Then sat back down and started to eat my food. Emily went back in the island and made everyone else a plate, but unfortunately for them they didn't get a face on their pancakes. We all ate and talked about random things I stayed quite for most of the conversation, not really feeling like talking. I would catch Paul occasionally looking at me worriedly from the corner of my eye, but I didn't really think anything of it, he was probably just making sure I wasn't going to have another break down soon. For some reason it took us a couple hours till we got up from the table, most likely because all the talking and the boys having black holes as stomachs, when I saw the clock it said that it was almost 11 o'clock and I finally remembered that Jay and Haley have no idea I'm still here. I walked toward the door where I left all my bags yesterday and dug through my purse till I found my phone, It said that I had 3 new texts, I opened the first one from Jay, It read "When R U coming home?" then the second one was also from him saying "Emily called, be home tomorrow by 1." Then the third one was from Kim saying that she took the shoes I wore yesterday cause she wanted to wear them today, and that she left me her pair to wear. After I read those I realized that I didn't have any clean clothes to wear today. I shrugged it off and went back to the living room where everyone else was.

"Where did you go?" Paul asked me when I came back

"I needed to check my phone." I told him, "hey Emily when did you call Jay?"

"Oh last night after you fell asleep, I didn't want to wake you, so I called him and told him that you feel asleep and I was just gonna let you stay the night."

"Oh, ok"

"Did he call you or something?" Sam asked me

"Yeah, he text me, and told me to be home by one." I answered him

"Do you have anything clean to wear?" Emily asked

"Just my new t-shirts."

"I have a pair of pants you can borrow." Claire told me

"You do?" Quil asked her.

"Yeah, I have an extra outfit in your car."

"You do?" he asked her

"Yep, it's in a bag under one of the seats."

"But why do you have it?" he continued to question

"Just incase I need another outfit while we're out, I also have one in each of my parents cars, so its not just yours." Claire told him. Quil just shook his head at her and sighed, Claire stood up walked in front of him, "can I have your keys?" she asked sweetly, Quil dug through his pockets and found them, but right as he was about to put them in her hands he pulled back.

"Your not gonna try to drive my car, are you?" he asked her nervously

"No!" she said

"Ok, then," he told her and put the keys in her hands, and Claire darted out of the room and out the front door, which we heard slam shut behind her.

"Why would she drive your car?" Seth asked him

"I don't know but she's done it before." Quil told him

"Really, why?" Seth said

"When she found out she was going to be taking drivers Ed, next year, she kept asking me to teach her to drive, but I wouldn't so when she was getting something out of my car she decided to try and drive it herself, luckily she didn't get too far and damage anything."

"When was this?" I asked

"About four days ago." He told me

"Seriously?" Embry asked

"Yep, true story." He assured us, and then Claire came back in with a pair of pants and Quil's keys.

"Did you seriously steal Quil's car?" Embry asked her.

"I didn't steal it," she clarified "I just wanted to see if I could drive it."

"How far did you get?" Paul asked

"About a block." She grumbled "then I saw Quil running by my window yelling at me to stop."

"Why did you?" I asked

"There was a stop sign, and people crossing the street, so I had to stop and when I did Quil opened my door and dragged me out and to the other side so he could drive it back."

"Why wouldn't you just teach her Quil?" I asked, he didn't say anything and just looked down, so Claire answered for him.

"He was afraid that I would kill him with my driving."

"But you indestructible." Embry told him, I saw several heads snap in his direction when he said that

"Nobody's indestructible," I told Embry,

"We'll see about that.' He challenged

"Ok." I looked at the clock and decided that I should start getting dressed and ready to go. So I stood up from the spot on the floor I was sitting at and walked over to Claire , who held the jeans out for me to take, then I walked by the door and pulled out one of the new shirts I bought. So I ended up wearing my new gray basketball burn out t-shirt and Claire's light blue skinny jeans, I still had on the jewelry from yesterday and my sunglasses in my bag. I found a brush in the bathroom and brushed my hair and redid my ponytail, I walked back into the living room holding Kim's shoes and asked Emily if she had a pair of socks I could borrow. Emily got up from the couch and went to her room and came back with a pair of gray ankle socks that had a navy blue eagle on them. I sat back down on the floor and but on the socks then the shoes. I stood back up and turned to everyone.

"I'm gonna get going." I told them

"Ok," they said and all stood up. I hugged Clare and Emily and they promised to call me later, I also gave small hugs to Seth, Quil, Sam, and Embry. I headed toward the door with Paul, because he was gonna help take my bags out to the car. I had about four bags and my purse, Paul grabbed all the bags and I took my purse out. I found my keys and unlocked my jeep; Paul put the bags in the front seat and came around to the driver's side where I was standing with the door open. He stood in front of me and looked down slightly so he could look into my eyes. He wrapped me into a hug, and I hugged him back just as tightly, after a little while we let go of each other and just stood there looking into each others eyes.

"I got to go." I told him

"Ok, I'll call you later Kay?" He said, while my heart thumped happily

"Kay." I told him, and climbed into my jeep; Paul shut the door behind me and then walked around the car so he was back on the side walk by the house. I tuned the car on and speed away down the road. I drove the 10 minute or so drive back to my house, and turned in the drive way, while I tried to figure out whose car was parked on our curb. I turned my car off, unbuckled, and got out of the car. I walked to the passenger side and got my bags out, and made my way to the door. I found it unlocked so Jay and/or Haley must be home, they keep their cars in the garage so I can't tell just by looking at the drive way. I walked into the house and set all my bags down by the stairs, then I followed the voices I was hearing and walked into the living room where I found Jay, Haley, Kim, and Jared all silently staring at me as I walked into the room. Jay and Haley where sitting on the big three person sofa and Jared and Kim where on the love seat.

"Uh…..Hi" I said

"Hi, Meg, how are you sweetie." Haley asked, eyeing me carefully

"I'm good, so what are you guys talking about." I asked suspiciously

"Nothing really." Kim answered

"I'm just catching up with my nephew." Haley said.

Uh……….ok." I said

"Why don't you come sit down?" Jay told me, patting the seat next to him; I walked over and sat down, still feeling awkward like I was interrupting something.

"So what are you guys doing here?" I asked Kim and Jared

"We actually came to see you, but when we got here they told us that you slept at Emily's house." Jared said

"Yeah, I feel asleep at her house and she didn't want to wake me." I told them.

"Yep, that's what Jay told us." Kim said

"So you guys came to see me, did you need something?" I asked

"Nope, just wanted to uh……….return your shoes." Kim told me, I could tell that's not what she wanted to say; I knew that they came to check up on me, I'm just afraid they told Jay and Haley about all of what I said last night. I heard my phone start to ring in my bag by the stairs.

"Well, you can leave the shoes by the door; I have to take that call." I told them and got up and went to my bag, I dug around in it until I found my phone, and I answered it without checking the ID.

"Hello?" I said when I answered the phone

"Meg?" the person asked

"yeah." I said

"Hey, I came by earlier where were you?" She asked, I thought about who it might be.

"Leah?" I asked

"Yeah, who else would be calling from my phone?"

"Nobody I hope, sorry I didn't check the ID before I answered it." I told her.

"S'okey, so how are you?" she asked getting got to the point of why she called.

"Been better," I told her honestly

"Ok, well I actually called to tell you that I'm taking your shift at the book store today so you can have the day off."

"Oh, thanks. I totally forgot about work."

"Its ok I figured you could use the time, and I could you the money." She said

"Thanks again." I told her

"How about we hang out tonight?" she suggested

"Umm…." I started

"Hey meg, come in her for a second." Jay called

"Hold on a sec Leah, Jay wants to talk to me." I told her and walked back into the living room and pulled the phone away from my ear and covered it so she couldn't hear what was gonna be said.

"Yeah?" I asked

"You doing anything tonight?" he asked

"I was thinking about making plans with Leah." I told him

"Have you made them yet?"

"No."

"Good, cause we are doing something tonight." Jay said

"What are we doing?" I asked cautiously

"It's a surprise." He said

"Fine." I grumbled

"So with that said why don't you hang up the phone and let Kim and Haley help you get ready?" Jay said

"Fine just give me a couple minutes." I told him, and then walked out of the room and back to the stairs, I grabbed my bags, and with them and the phone still in my hand I went up stairs to my room. When I got to my room I set my bags on the bed and put the phone back up to my ear so I could finish talking to Leah.

"Hey sorry about that." I told her

"No problem, so how 'bout hanging out tonight?" she asked

"Sorry can't Jay said we're going out tonight."

"Really where?"

"He won't tell me."

"Ok, but if you change your mind or anything I'll be at Emily's with the rest of them." I heard a knock at my door and saw Kim come in with Jared in tow.

"Hey Leah, I got to go." I told her

"Ok, no problem, I'll talk to you later."

"Yeah, bye" I said

"Bye." She said, and then hung up. I turned to Kim and Jared, and looked at them expectantly.

"So I'm here to get you ready and Jared is here to entertain you." Kim said

"Why can't you do both?" I asked Kim

"Cause Jared wanted to do something." She said with an eye roll.

"Ok, so now what?"

"Now, you go take a shower, while we wait here." She told me.

"Ok." I said and walked to my bathroom; I stripped off my clothes and got in letting the warm water run down my body. After being in there for about 15- 20 minutes I got out and wrapped a towel around my body and one around my hair, I dried off, then remembered I didn't bring any clean clothes in with me. I reached into my pants pocket where I out my phone and got it out texting Kim to bring me some underwear and stuff. A minute later I heard banging on the door and Kim yelling open up, I opened the door and let her in. Kim walked in and shut the door behind her then threw the clothes at me. I got dresses in the underwear and robe that Kim got for me. I took my hair out of the towel, and cleaned up my bathroom. Kim then pushed my down in the chair in front of my vanity and started to brush my hair.

"Where's Jared I thought he was supposed to entertain me?" I told her

"Jared!" Kim hollered he was in the bathroom within seconds "entertain her." She ordered pointing at me.

"Um what do you want me to do?" he asked

"Sing for me. " I told him

"No."

"Dance!"

"No."

"Juggle."

"Not gonna happen."

"Can you do anything?" I asked him

"I can turn into a really big dog." He told me, I felt Kim's hold on my hair increase, I stared at him like he was insane, than started to laugh.

"See Jared you can tell a joke." I laughed, while Kim's hold on my hair loosened.

"So do you know where I'm going?" I asked them

"Yes but where not gonna tell you." Kim said, before Jared had a chance to spill the beans.

"Who's going?" I asked

"Just you and Jay." Jared said

"hmmm." I answered, and that's basically what we did for and hour, Kim did my hair and make-up while Jared talked to me about a bunch of random stuff.

"How's it going?" Haley asked as she stood in the bathroom's door way.

"Fine." I answered the same time Kim said "great"

"I came in here to pick out your out fit, is that ok?" she asked

"Yeah." I told her, she nodded and started to turn around.

"Oh, and Jared, Jay wants to see you." She told him

"Ok." Jared said and walked out of the bathroom.

"You're almost done." Kim assured me

"Good." I grumbled,

"So how are you today?" Kim asked casually

"A little better than last night, if that's what your wondering."

"Good, anything happen this morning?"

"Nothing too interesting, I woke up, got coffee, had a meltdown, ate breakfast, talked, then left." I told her.

"You had another breakdown?" she asked

"Yeah," I told her, Kim is used to my breakdowns, everything I said yesterday Kim has heard before, just not in as much detail and to this extreme, I usually have one or two while I'm here, so Kim usually knows how to handle it. But this time is a little different cause I've had some new feeling and more people witnessed and heard about my breakdown, most of the time nobody knows about them other than me and Kim.

"What happened?" she asked, and I went on to tell here all about what happened.

"Kim if I asked you something would you tell me the truth?" I said

"If I can I will." She told me after a moment of thought

"What did you mean when you said I have Paul to live for?" She thought for a moment or two before she said.

"What I meant was that you really like him, so that should give you something to live for."

"Yeah I got that but you also said that Paul would die if I wasn't here." I told her

"Oh, you remember that do you?" I just nodded at her to continue "Paul really likes you, you know?"

"How can you tell, he doesn't always act like it, I mean I've been here almost three weeks and he hasn't asked me out yet." I told her

"He really does like you, I know for a fact, I think maybe he's just taking it slow this time cause you mean a lot more to him." She answered, while putting some type of make-up up on my face.

"Really?" I asked

"Yeah really." She told me looking me in the eyes, so I could see that she was honest.

"Done!" she announced, stepping away from me so I could see my self in the mirror

"Damn." I mumbled, "I look hot."

"Yeah you do." Kim said excitedly from behind me "and that's just your face wait till we get you dressed." Kim grabbed my arm and led me back to my bedroom, where Haley was picking out my outfit.

"So what did you pick?" I asked

"You'll see in just a minute, but first, do you wear jewelry?" Haley asked

"Sometimes."

"Good," she announced happily "now put this on." I put what they handed me on, not really looking at it yet, and then also put the jewelry on. When I had everything but my shoes on I looked in the mirror and was amazed at how I looked, I was wearing a spaghetti strapped floral dress with black on the bust, that went down to my knees, a cropped black long sleeved cardigan, a silver and black bracelet, black dangly earrings, and a silver ring with a pink diamond in the middle. To finish off the outfit I had a small black clutch and a pair of strappy black one inch or so heels. And let me just say I looked really good.

"Wow." I said after staring in the mirror for a while

"You look so beautiful Meg," Haley said from next to me

"Thanks, I love the outfit by the way." I told her

"I'm glad, but you have to get going in a couple minutes so I'll go make sure Jays ready." She told me and gave me a hug and left the room.

"Meg, your phones vibrating." Kim told me, and I rushed over to my bed where I had my clutch laying and opened it pulling out my phone, I had a text from Paul. Asking "what are you doing?"

"Who is it" Kim asked

"Paul."

"What does he want?"

'He wants to know what I'm doing."

"What are you gonna tell him?" She asked, an idea popped into my head and a sly smile came on my face. "Wait I know that face what are telling him?" Kim demanded

"Just telling him that I'm about to go on a date." I told her while I typed it in and pressed send

"He is so not gonna like the sound of that." She mumbled

"I know I'm trying to make him jealous, so maybe he will make a move or something." Kim just shook her head at me. My phone vibrated again and I looked at the text "WITH WHO?" I just laughed because he used all caps. "Tell you later." I typed into my phone and pressed send before I shut off my phone and put it back into my clutch, while laughing to my self.

"Meg, time to go." I heard Jared yell from down stairs, Kim and I got off my bed, I grabbed my shoes and clutch and checked myself over in the mirror one more time before Kim and I descended down the stairs

AN: Hope you enjoyed this chapter I'll try to have the next one up soon, also Meg's outfits are on my profile if you want to see them and also got vote in my poll, I'm gonna take it down before the next chapter is posted so this is the last chance for you to tell me what you think i should name my new Embry imprint story I'm working on. So now REVIEW PLEASE :D