Bella's POV
After escaping Edward yesterday, I headed home as fast as I could humanly manage without falling flat on my face.
I was beyond mortified with that conversation. Here he was, just coming up to tell me to leave him alone, and I start my mindless rambling. I was so embarrassed that I even contemplated skipping school the next day, but I knew I couldn't lie to save my life and Charlie would think I'm being bullied or something and I could not be bothered to have that talk.
I had hoped my morning shower and a good night sleep would help, but sadly I was wrong. My sleep had been restless and my normally relaxing shower did nothing for my nerves. All night I could only picture his face while I replayed our exchange. I tried to decode the look on his face, clearly reflected pain, but I couldn't grasp why. Was the thought of those rumours that displeasing to him? Did it pain him to know that people thought we were together?
I was feeling particularly plain today, not that I didn't always, but after my revelations with Edward yesterday the mirror was appearing to be especially cruel. So just chucking on the first thing that I could get my hands on, worked for me; I didn't even bother to check.
Dragging my tired feet though the rain and out to my truck, I had to give myself a slight pep talk.
I had to remind myself that he probably doesn't even remember me and as long as I stayed away from him and the rumours died down he wouldn't still be angry, right?
I had no way of knowing so, instead, I just put the thought to the back of my mind and concentrated on my English project. We were studying Romeo and Juliet; one of my favourite plays. Of course, my thoughts couldn't hold too long as I thought of whom I shared the class with.
He was so smart. You would think that because he could most likely get a basketball scholarship to anywhere in the world, he would neglect his grades, but no.
Edward was special. No one could deny that. Looks aside, he is still an incredible person. For one, he's the first teenage boy I have ever met that has read Romeo and Juliet let alone have opinions that where more than 'dude are you crazy you topped yourself over one chick; not cool man.' Not only that, but he was impeccably well mannered and just about the most confusing albeit giving man on the plant.
He didn't like those parties, yet he still went because they were held for him. That was the giving and kind part. The confusing bit was why he didn't ask them to do something he would enjoy to celebrate his victories. I didn't know and I guess I never will, but I swore to myself that if I did ever get the chance to talk to him again I would ask because as much as I knew it would never happen, I wanted to know this man above all else.
I wanted to know trivial things like his favourite colour or the way he likes his egg in the morning. I had all these emotions and they were confusing the hell out of me. I knew I loved him, that was fact, but the other stuff was all new to me.
Like the jealousy. I felt it whenever I saw another girl attempt to flirt with him, or the envy I had of his siblings who just got to be near him every day.
The biggest emotion in me, though, was sadness. I was sad that I would never get to know him better. I was sad because I would never get to sit and have an intellectual conversation with him, but most of all, I was sad because I would never be good enough.
I would never be worthy of knowing his favourite time of day or what he planned to major in when he went to college. I could never meet his standards. He had girls throw themselves at him every day and I, as well as most of the school, have watched him knock them back. It was truly obvious that Edward Cullen was waiting for someone special and clearly that female did not exist in Forks.
I was snapped little world when I pulled into school. I was beyond tired from my restless sleep and just decided to go straight to homeroom.
On my way there I saw Emmett, Edward's huge older brother along with his sister Alice, now normally I wouldn't have noticed, but today was weird; they both gave me small smiles as if greeting me.
I guess other people noticed too because a few girls stopped to scowl at me, at this point I was beat read and just decided to not think about it. My classes flew by in a daze and in my first period English class, Edward appeared to be absent. Oh no, I hope that wasn't because of me. I really could not deal with me being the reason Edward had to skip school.
The rest of my classes flew by in the same state of bemusement and once lunch time flew around, I quickly threw my school bag into my locker and made my way to the cafeteria. Lunch was going pretty normal. I knew Edward had come in between second period and lunch because the whole room went silent. I decided to make good on my plan and just ignore him so that he could forgive me. I mean I really didn't mean to make anyone think he liked me. So if they don't see us talking, then they won't think anything.
I had to resist the urge to look up because, instead of the normal sigh that filled the lunch room whenever he entered, I was met with an audible collective gasp.
Still fighting my urge, I went back to my book only to read over the same line about 4 times before it even registered. The room was still quite apart from the low whispers. Just as I was getting frustrated because I didn't want to read, I wanted to look up and stare at Edward, I felt a small buzz which could only mean one thing. Edward was near. I could also see his shadow looming over me.
I was terrified he going to announce to the whole room what we already had known. That I was and would never be good enough for him and these silly rumours had to stop.
I decided to just get it over and done with so I rested my book in my lap and looked up.
What I saw made me suck in a breath; Edward was standing there with a small smile on his face. He didn't look angry or annoyed, but I also couldn't decode the strange look on his face. I didn't have long to ponder because I was soon sucked into the vibrant greenness of his eyes.
I sat there transfixed while the rest of the populated room disappeared. I was in heaven just staring into his bright orbs. Part of me recognised that this may be one of the last times I would get to do this so I took full advantage of it.
I got pulled from my dream world of Edward, when Angela gave a not so subtle cough and swift kick under the table. I jumped a little and looked back to Edward who seemed to be having the same problem as I was, but that wasn't possible; he was just here to get things sorted.
What happened next nearly gave me a heart attack. Edward leaned in close and I noticed, before I was so transfixed on his eyes, that I had yet to notice he had his hands held behind his back.
Bringing them into my view he put down on the table what appeared to be a dozen fresh red roses. I looked up at him with a clear question in my eyes as he stared at me with an amused expression across his face.
Just as I was about to voice my question he leaned in real close to my ear and whispered.
"They're for you, and the mere idea of you not being good enough for anyone is beyond ridiculous. You Miss Swan are a goddess given from God to us unworthy humans."
All I could do was sit gaping like a fish. I was mighty confused right now. What in the world was going on? Did Edward Cullen, The Edward Cullen, just give me boring Bella Boring Swan flowers?
This was over the top insane and I had to pinch myself to convince myself that this was a reality and not one of my messed up dreams. You know, the one's my dad interrupts just before the good part.
But it wasn't and I could tell Edward found it amusing when I let out a small whimper as I pinched myself. What he did next surprised the heck out of everyone. He slowly leaned in and kissed my cheek.
His lips were warm and soft. And that unforgettable spark prickled my skin. I was lost for words, but I did know one thing. Though this was the best day of my life,I knew his words not to be true, I couldn't help but be flustered. With that he just got up and swiftly turned away.
Abruptly with his departure, the protecting bubble around me just popped. Apparently I wasn't the only one because as soon as he was out of ear shoot, the thunderous roar of chatter engulfed the lunch room.
It was so loud, but I could still make out the few mummers of 'Who is that girl?' and 'Did you see that Edward Cullen gave her flowers and a kiss, I've never seen him kiss anyone and believe me I've tried.'
I could feel their question-filled gazing, which in turn, caused my face to turn beet red.
As my eyes swept the cafeteria I noticed Lauren, Tanya and Jessica looking none too pleased, in fact, they had this murderous glare going on. Especially Lauren, she looked like someone killed her dog and then laughed at it.
To say I was a little scared was an understatement, but I put that thought to the back of my mind and focused my eyes on something else.
Finally I found the only four faces that didn't look like they wanted to question or kill me. Alice was sitting with her hands intertwined with Jasper. She had this big smile on her face that made her look even more beautiful and as I looked a little harder I realized that smile was directed at me. She confirmed this by sending a little wave. I smiled hesitantly and waved back.
Next, my eyes landed on Jasper who had a small smile gracing his face and it was just then that I noticed how those too made such a great couple.
The seat occupied next to the perfect couple was taken by Rosalie. To say she was pretty would have been a crime as anyone could see that she was the definition of a beauty queen. She didn't look as angry as the other girls in the room, but she sure didn't look as happy as Alice either. And next to her, with his arm around her waist, sat none other than Emmett. Now if I thought Alice's grin was big than Emmett's was a whole different story. He looked way too happy, like someone just gave him a puppy. As I caught his gaze, he winked at me which made me blush and his booming laughter could be heard from cross the room.
Suddenly it all became too much. My head was going a mile a minute. Why did Edward give me flowers? Why did he kiss me? My first kiss and it was him. I was so happy I had to suppress a sigh. I quickly gathered my flowers and picked up my long forgotten book. Avoiding all the gazes I could sense, I evacuated the dinner hall.
A million questions filled my mind and the self doubt came back. I knew Edward would never want a relationship with me; that was unthinkable, but maybe he wanted to be friends.
Even that seemed to be a long shot, but I didn't have time to think about that right now as I needed to make my way to class.
In a daze I made my way to biology and with a second thought remembered Edward was in that class too. That was my last thought before I was dragged into a secluded hallway by a manicured pair of hands viciously digging into my arm.
An- hi I just wanted to thank all the people who give me feedback. It's always good to know your thoughts.
So who do you think pulled her aside? Was it Lauren and her skanks or Alice and Rosalie? It's kind of up to you. Tell me who you want and I'll deliver I already had an idea in mind but I can be swayed. So let me know what you think.
Also i just want to thank my favourite beta because she rocks -Mimi-Love-4ever