We still saw her at school, we still saw her when we went with Mom to her studio. When we would pass her in the halls at school, she would quickly look down at her feet and just keep walking. In the studio, she wasn't always there physically, but she was everywhere in that large cluttered room. There were pictures of her around her mother's working space and sometimes she would leave little things lying around. Whether it was intentional or not, it didn't matter. I wanted to stop her, just once, and tell her that I was sorry for hurting her, but that it was for the best. I never got the chance though.

Hikaru often reminded me about why it had to have been done. "Do we really want to lose each other because of one stupid girl?" He would ask. Once I replied with that she wasn't stupid. He didn't disagree, but he didn't exactly agree either. It was true though, she wasn't, she just really didn't like school so her grades weren't always the best.

I hated that she looked sad. I hadn't realized that we were the only ones she talked to until she sat quietly in class by herself. It was clear to me that we probably could have chosen a better way to protect ourselves. At the time, it had seemed fool proof.

When she joined the track team, that was when I realized that she really didn't care about us anymore. Two years had gone by and she didn't even try and ask what happened or try and fix anything. I guess I should have been thankful for that, but I wasn't. I hoped that she would stop me one day to tell me that she has been just as miserable without me as I have been without her.

That didn't happen.

I watched as she replaced us with Izumi and her other teammates. She was happy again, but we were still alone.

Mom and Dad left for wherever it was that they are going. I'm sure they told me at one point where it was, but I was just looking forward to having the house to myself. Well, except for Takai, but he's alright. "Right now, you are too quiet."

I snapped out of my thought to look at Izumi. She was going to spend the entire weekend here with me while celebrating my birthday with me. "Sorry," I mumbled. She gave me a stern look. "What?"

"I hope you don't mind that I invited a few more people to our little weekend celebration." I stared at her incredulously. Her lips turned up in a grin that I really didn't like.

"Who'd you invite?" Her grin turned sly and she turned around to leave my room just as the doorbell rang. I narrowed my eyes at her back and she turned down the hall heading for the door. Despite every fiber of my being telling me to stay put, to possibly lock the door, I followed her. One of the maids had answered the door.

Standing in my house, each holding what looked like an over-night bag, was none other than the Ouran Host Club. I stayed at the top of the staircase; I couldn't believe that she invited them to my house without my permission. I thought she was going to say some girls from track were here. The fact that she invited them proves she really doesn't get it.

A hand went on my shoulder and I let out an ear-splitting scream. Then that same hand went over my mouth, which of course, only caused me to scream louder. "Shut up Chi!" My brother's voice shouted over my screaming. I turned around to look at him.

"You are such a jerk!" I shouted at him as I punched his shoulder.

"What's wrong?" At least four voices asked from behind me. I looked over my shoulder. Hikaru, Kaoru, Honey, Tamaki, and Mori were all standing there with concerned looks, even Mori. Takai started to say something, but before he could actually say anything, I interrupted him.

"You see, I was calmly walking down the hall to see who was at the door," I began. As I opened my mouth to say more, Takai took over.

"I was also curious as to who was at the door. I saw Chi standing here, so I placed my hand on her shoulder," he explained.

"Then he saw a huge spider and screamed like a girl. When I killed it, he screamed even louder."

He glanced at me. "Yeah, that's exactly what happened alright." I smiled. "It's not like you were the one that screamed because you thought I was the deranged murderer that lives in our basement, out to get you."

The look on Tamaki's face was almost enough to me tell him that we were just joking. Almost, but not quite. I put my hands on either side of my face. "I forgot to feed him yesterday!" I shouted and started panicking. "He's going to kill us all!"

"Miss Mazawa, please lower your voice!" One of the maids called up the stairs to me. "You're going to wake him up!" I covered my mouth quickly and dropped to the floor. It's been a household joke that the crazed murderer Carl von Cebbelpot lives in our basement. It was actually Kaoru and I that came up with it when we were down there one day. We heard a strange noise and came running up the stairs, we made up this whole elaborate story about him while we told our mom's about what we heard. It was the furnace turning on.

I felt someone get on the floor next to me and I covered my head with my hands. "Carl von Cebbelpot is going to get us!" Kaoru shouted. I lifted my head up and laughed. I sat back on my knees and laughed hard. I forgot how funny it was when he said the name. He sat up too and I put my arm over his shoulders as I fell back to the ground.

"Get down; he always goes for the tallest first!" I stage-whispered to everyone that was still standing.

"That's right, he's jealous that he was unable to grow taller than only three feet. Anyone over that is a goner," Kaoru explained. I turned my head to the side to look at him. "We also have to get out of the open." He looked at me with his golden eyes and I nodded in agreement. I pushed him gently down the hall as we crawled to my bedroom door. He reached up and turned the knob. He moved to the side and let me go through first. It was then that I realized that no one else was playing along and they were all looking at us strangely.

I stood up and pulled Kaoru up with me. "What? Didn't you ever play pretend as a child?" No one answered my question, but Izumi was wearing a large smile and looking down at my hand. I followed her gaze to see that I was still holding onto Kaoru's hand. It was something I used to do all the time. I dropped his hand and went into my room. I plopped down onto my desk chair and spun around in it.

I heard the door close and I assumed that everyone had followed me. I spun all the way around to see that my assumption was correct. "Make yourselves comfortable."

Izumi came toward me and sat down on my lap. "So, who is Carson van Cobblepot?" She asked as she looked around at the guys (and Haruhi) in my room.

"It's Carl von Cebbelpot," Kaoru and I corrected her at the same time. I looked at him, but not in the way I have been recently. I looked at him curiously. I never would have imagined that he had remembered such a thing.

"He's the murderer in the basement," he said.

"That lets out a long hiss and then growls when he is awoken," I added. "It's said that he is part snake, part lion, and part human."

"He also hates it when people ask how that is possible," Kaoru said seriously. I spun in my chair again to face the desk. "Only one picture has ever been taken of him too." I pulled open a drawer and dug through it until I found the picture Takai had drawn of Carl.

"He's not very attractive, but that doesn't stop him from placing spells on women to make then fall in love with him," I said as I held up the picture for everyone. Kaoru took it from my hand and looked it over.

He laughed. "I forgot he had a forked tongue."

"Of course! It's what makes him part snake. Well that and the snake tail that has."

Haruhi chuckled. "Snakes don't have tails," she said. I looked at her. I couldn't believe that she was serious. Snakes had tails. Didn't they?

"I thought that their entire body was considered a tail…" I said. Takai laughed and I grabbed a notebook out of the drawer and threw it at him. Only when it left my hand, did I realize which notebook it was. I jumped out of my chair causing Izumi to fall to the floor. I ran to try and catch the notebook before it got to my brother. I failed miserably. All of the papers that I had stuffed into it were scattered around the room and it landed wide open on the floor. If it had been just any other notebook, it wouldn't have mattered. It had to have been this one? It had to have been my comparison notebook. Everyone started picking up the various papers and obviously when people pick up papers they look at them. I just hoped that the ones about Hikaru and Kaoru had stayed in the notebook.

No such luck.

I saw Hikaru holding a piece of paper that was entirely filled with my writing and I knew instantly which paper it was. It was the last one I had wrote on, it was the one that had my true feelings written on it; both good and bad. He looked up at me and a grin crossed his face. He handed the paper to Kaoru and his face soon matched that of his brother. I think I realized why I liked Izumi so much, she was just like them.

They crossed the room to me and placed their arms around me. "So, you love us too," they said together.

"Didn't you read the rest of that paper? It also says that you are both jerks and that I never wanted to see you again for as long as I lived." I let out a sigh. "I guess I didn't live nearly as long as I thought I was going to."

"Why can't you just admit it?" Hikaru asked none too politely. I looked at him.

"Oh, you mean by grabbing one of you and just kissing away? I don't think so." He looked hurt by that, but it didn't matter anymore. The memories I had been remembering weren't now and they weren't relevant to right now.

"It was a long time ago…" I said quietly and wriggled my way out of their slackened hold. I sat on the edge of my bed and looked down at my lap. "But we can forget all that and be friends again, right?" I asked in a hopeful tone. "I would rather be friends with you guys than hate you." They pulled me off of my bed and hugged me tightly. I hadn't expected them to be this enthusiastic about my idea.

Maybe this would work out alright. Maybe I will just begin to think of them as friends again.

I certainly hope so…

Oh goodness, it certainly has been a long time hasn't it? I do apologize for that, I've have it written forever and I was just too lazy to type it out on my brand new (much needed) laptop! My old desktop died... Yes, I had to work that in, I am still excited about it even though it is a week old already today ^^

ShatterTheHeavens deserves a thank you for the memory xD Yes, i know that lately I have been asking you readers for memory ideas. I pick completely randomly from reviewers or other people I have been talking to for various reasons.

Also, my friend Meghan has made me very jealous because she just learned that she went to the same Junior High as Vic Mignogna! Also known as the English voice of one Tamaki Suoh. And he also told her that himself xD Jealous.

Okay, I think that's it! I've thanked, told something about my life, and explained why I am jealous... OH YEAH! Also, please review!