The day went by so quickly i kind of wished it didn't because i was freaking out about tonight. Any other bet- or challenge with Spot would've been way better then what i had challenged him upon tonight. I didn't know what was going to happen, what he would do to me- and that scared me more then i ever imagined.
I had just sold my last paper when i turned around and bumped into Cowboy. "You'se know what ya doin right?" he asked, concern etched his voice. "W-what?" i stuttered, thinking he was talking about the challenge.
"Ya look a little gittahry. What's wrong?" i nervously laughed, replying "W-what? Nothing's wrong." even i didn't believe myself on this one. "Ya know you'se can tell me anytin." I felt my heart race and my breathing getting heavier.
"Really! There's nothing wrong." i looked around nervously to see if Spot was around. "Okay, you'se need to loosen up, c'mon, let's go get a drink." i nodded my head, thinking it would probably be a good idea.
By the second glass i drowned, i had become more thirsty by the minute. "Woah there, save some room for tonight, now." Cowboy said and added a chuckle. I laughed more then intended, but i didn't feel any less weary about the situation. "If i tell you something, do you promise me you'll never tell a soul?"
He looked down at me with those trustworthy brown eyes of his and i knew i could trust him but i just had a very hard time doing just that. Trusting. Letting another human being hear my problems and possibly helping with out the fear of that person telling the world.
"Fox, i swear upon me muddas grave- whose already dead, dat i'se will not tell a living soul." he raised up his right hand as if he were giving an oath. Sighing, i smiled and said "So this afternoon, i kind of bumped into Spot and things happened and i kind of made a bet.. Sort of? It's more of a challenge really.."
"Well what did you'se challenge him?" he asked, calm and smooth voice "Well, i was like "If we had sex it wouldn't be good so no need to come back" and then he was like "Oh really, is that a challenge?" and i was like "Depends, are you up for it?" and then we made a time and place and i think we're going to have sex tonight after Maddea's and oh dear, what have i done?"
I ran a stressful hand through my hair. Cowboy looked very surprised, but in his silky and firm voice he offered "Well, ya could call this challenge off. It ain't a bet, so it's not like you'se had to owe 'em or anytin." i furrowed my eyebrows.
"No, that wouldn't work because that would just give Spot the satisfaction of him winning and i definatlly wouldn't want that for him." he sighed, shrugging "I'se wanna help ya, Fox, but you'se as stubborn as he himself."
I felt very offended "Am not." he raised an eyebrow "Well there's de evidence." we both smiled at each other when 'he himself' came along, disturbing the nice conversation i was having with Cowboy.
"Heya Jacky boy," he looked at me and smirked "And Fox." it made my insides boil when he stared maliciously in my eyes. I could feel the tension in the room between us two but i was too caught up in the moment to realize Cowboy was still there.
"Um.." he said awkwardly, making me break eye contact first with Spot first. "Come on Cowboy, let's leave here, Brooklyn alone to enjoy his drink." i requested and grabbed Cowboys wrist, pulling his weight with mine.
"Can't wait for tanight, Fox!" he yelled as we were leaving the bar. "Damn it, i can't stand that boy!" i let out an exasperated and annoyed "Ugh!" triggering laughter from Cowboy. "What?" i asked, annoyance in my voice not because of him, but because of Spot.
"You'se sounded just like Spot right der." i rolled my eyes "Whatever." and stormed off back to Brooklyn to get ready for Medda's.
When i had finished up with my hair i had been the last one to arrive downstairs, Spot waiting, a little smirk plastered on his face when he saw me. "Hiya." he said a little more enthusiastically then needed. Like we're gonna bang tonight enthusiastic.
"Ready?" i asked, even though i already knew since he was already downstairs. "It's why i'se here." i looked around and no other newsie was here. "I'se told dem ta all leave since i'se be escorting you'se tanight."
I nodded my head "Is this your first attempt to get me in bed tonight?" he opened the door for me and smiled "Ahh shucks. Ya got me'se." i laughed, entertained. Maybe this wouldn't be that bad of a night.
As we walked down the dark Brooklyn road, shoulder to shoulder, we made small conversation about.. Everything really. "So if you had a one way ticket to anywhere- anywhere at all, where would you want to go?"
"Dunno." he replied simple and clean. "I'se don't dink'.. i'se even wanna leave." a cold wind whipped past my face as i stared at his nonchalant face expression. "Where would you'se wanna goes?" he asked back, looking down at me. I looked away, thinking and not wanting to get lost in his eyes.
I shrugged, never actually thinking of the question myself. "I think.. I'd probably leave. Anywhere really. I actually really like it here in Brooklyn though."
"Has you'se eva thought bout' life afta?" I turned to him, "After what?" he shrugged and looked at me "Death." i sighed because this subject had come up in my mind multiple times before.
"Well yeah. It's not like i'm the only one though, have you?" i turned the question on him, since i didn't really wanna talk about it. "I'se dink i'se'll be a king."
I scoffed "What's so great about being a king anyways?" he looked at me like i would never understand. "It's like," he began, running to the middle of the Brooklyn bridge and climbing to the ledge, standing just perfectly still so as not to fall.
"Controlling de world. Like, i'se can do anythin'. Respect is automatically given.." he looked down at me as we walked, him on the ledge, and me on the ground, trying to keep up. "People fear ya." his eyes glinted with such passion that it was almost cute. Almost.
"I don't fear you." he then jumped in front of me, stopping my tracks. "See dats da ting i'se dun get bout ya." he intimidatingly stared me down, eyeing me. "What, that i'm not trembling at your feet?" i wiggled my knees to fake tremble.
"No." he said, in thought. "You'se ain't fallin' head ova heels foah me yet." i was about to interrupt but he counter interrupted me. "But ya right, you'se ain't tremblin' eitha. Now, what in hell are ya?" he more asked himself then me.
"So what i'm getting from you is that you think there's only two girls in the world. The girls who fall head over heels for you right away and the ones who are just plain scared of you."
"Do you want to know why i'm not scared of you? Why i'm not falling head over heels for you?" we started walking again, Spot very in tune with my voice.
"O' course." he answered, more curiosity than probably intended. "I'm not scared of you because you're not as scary as some of the people i've already met. Sure, you can be intimidating, but i'm not going to tremble in the presence of you, i, quite frankly, think that's ridiculous."
"And why i'm not falling head over heels for you? Well, i'd be lying if i'd say you weren't incredibly hot and that i was wasn't attracted to you. But, there's more to being attracted to someone. You see, i'm not like you, i can't soberly have sex with a stranger and call it a nightly routine. There's guilt that comes along with that for me. There's also more to a person than just being sexy too."
"So, you'se saying you'se dink i'se incredibly hot?" i scoffed "Of course that was the only thing you took out of what i just said." rolling my eyes, i nodded "even so, you're pretty sexy."
He smirked and i swear i saw some blushing, it was honestly adorable. "You'se know, you'se could be useful." i smiled and laughed "What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nuttin." we kept walking for a bit until we hit the middle of nowhere, flat area with the only commodity of the iridescent lit Madea's. "I don't think we should walk in together. It'll cause too much tension. So you stay here and i go in first."
He raised an eyebrow "No it ain't, c'mon." he grabbed my wrist and pulled me inside the warm sweat filled theater.
