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Disclaimer: Nope Twilight is not mine....

Bella P.O.V.

Dear Diary,

So Jacob and I made up it seems. But I can't help but notice how different he is. It's kinda hard seeing my old scrawny, hyper active, sun shine friend become tall, muscled, and serious. I miss the old him. But as the saying goes beggers can't be choosers.

Now since I accomplished making Jacob my friend again, i'm going to try to make Edward my boyfriend. I know that's crazy right? I mean who would want a vampire as their boyfreind? But there's just this strange pull I feel towards Edward. It also hurts a little not to be with him, to not know what he's doing, or where he is. I have a desperate need for him. I guess you could say i'm addicted to him. As unhealthy as that may sound I can't help it. It's as if he just reached into my chest, grabbed a hold of my heart and just squeezed. I wan't him, I need him, and I love him.

I would do anything for him, anything at all. I'll even try harder to get better. Just for him. I know being the way I am hurts him, it scares him. He thinks i'm just going to waste away to nothing, and to be honest with you maybe he's right. Maybe i'm not as big as I might seem. But I just don't know yet. I'll have to take everything one step at a time.

Bella

Alice P.O.V.

"Alice?" Rose said, but I was already gone.

Bella and Edward were standing in his room looking at each other nervously.

"I....I'm not quit sure I follow, Bella." Edward said. Bella sighed heavily and walked over to his couch, plopping her thin frame down and covered up her face.

"This is so embarassing." She mumbeld against her hands. Edward gave her a small smile and sat down next to her.

"What is?" He asked. Bella just shook her head.

"What I feel for you." She said. Edward instantly sat up straighter and looked at her with hope.

"What you feel for me?" He asked. Bella nodded. "And what do you feel for me?"

"I.....I. Oh god." She said, lifting her head up to look at him. "I love you, okay?" She said. Edward looked at her shocked for a second before a bright smile was on his face.

"You love me?" He asked in disbelief. Bella blushed and looked away from him. Edward put his finger under her chin and made her look his way. "I love you too, you know." He said. Bella's eyes widened before she smiled shyly at him.

"Really?" She asked. Edward nodded.

"Really." He whispered.

I gasped before I felt a smile split my face.

"Oh my god!" I screamed, jumping up and down.

"What?" Rosalie asked confused. I looked around myself even though I knew we were the only two hunting, and leaned forward to whisper in her ear.

"Bella's going to tell Edward she loves him." I said. Rose's eyes widened before she smiled.

"Well it's about time." She said.

Edward P.O.V.

Alice and Rosalie skipped through the front door with big smiles on their faces.

"Whats up with you two?" I asked.

"Nothing." They both said at the same time. I looked at them quizically and tried to read their thoughts, only to be blocked out by them singing Girl Next Door in korean.....weird.

"Oh.... but Bella will be coming over soon." Alice said. I instantly perked up. Alice smiled at me. "Five more mintues."

Bella P.O.V.

I can't believe i'm going to do this. I mean what if I just totally humiliate myself? What if he rejects me, with a house full of vampires that can hear every word we're saying? That will not go over well..... I might just go crawl in a hole and not come out until the world ends, if that's the case. Seriously though I don't know what i'll do if he rejects me. I took a deep breath and hopped out of the truck.

"Well here goes nothing." I whispered quietly to myself. I walked up the porch steps, and made my way to the door. But before I could even knock the door flew open revealing a smiling Alice. She had this knowing glint in her eyes and I instantly knew she saw this happening. I gave her a glare, but she just smiled more brightly at me.

"Hey Bella." She said.

"Hey.... are you going to let me in?" I asked. "Cause it's kinda cold out here."

"Oh...." Alice said. "Of course, sorry." I just nodded and stepped in once she stepped aside.

"Hey Bella!" Emmet yelled charging at me, wrapping me up in his stone cold grasp.

"Emmet...Can't... B-breathe." I said. Emmet laughed a booming laugh and set me down. I took in a lung full of air and rubbed at my chest.

"Be careful with her Emmet....She's fragile." Rosalie said. My eyes narrowed slightly at that. Rose noticed and gave me a small smile. "In our standards atleast..... I know your not personally a delicate flower or what ever." She said. I nodded, and looked over at Edward who hasn't said anything yet.

"Can we talk?" I asked him. Edward raised and eyebrow at me but nodded.

"Sure.... Come on." He said, heading towards the staircase. I followed silently behind him. Once we made it to his room my nerves instantly kicked in full time.

"Are you okay Bella?" He asked. I took a deep breathe.

"Oh yeah... I'm just fine. I'm about to lay my soul out to you.... I couldn't be any better."

"I....I'm not quit sure I follow, Bella." Edward said. I sighed heavily and walked over to his couch, plopping myself down into the leather exterior and covering my face with my hands.

"This is so embarassing." I mumbeld against my hands. I suddenly felt the couch shift under Edwards weight as he sat next to me.

"What is?" He asked. I just shook my head.

"What I feel for you." I said.

"What you feel for me?" Edward asked. I nodded. "And what do you feel for me?" I could feel the blush building in my cheeks, and my heart rate speed up.

"I.....I. Oh god." I said, lifting my head up to look at him. "I love you, okay?" I said. Edward looked at me shocked for a second before a bright smile was on his face.

"You love me?" He asked in disbelief. I blushed even harder and looked away from him. Suddenly I felt Edward put his cold finger under my chin and made me look his way. "I love you too, you know." He said. My eyes widened before I smiled shyly at him.

"Really?" I asked. Edward nodded.

"Really." He whispered. Staring into his golden eyes I couldn't help but believe him. I knew he was telling the truth. Maybe things are finally starting to look up for me. First I get Jacob back, and now I get the guy of my dreams..... Life couldn't get any better. I heard a loud sqeaul, as Edward's door banged open, and I was wrapped up into cold arms.

"I get another sister!" Alice said. As we all laughed.

Well there you all go!!! but just remember all good things have to come to an end.... so don't get to comfortable with the happy chapters. Anyways review please!