A/N: Finally!
After a summer of disappointment I have a tiny bit of good news!
I'm temporarily back!!!!I don't know for how long but I finally have access to the internet and a place to type now that my sister bought a laptop to replace my dead one. It's hers so technically I can't write as much as I want to so it'll have to work around her schedule as well but nonetheless better that then none at all right?
I'm finally updating those stories that you've all been waiting for and I hope everyone enjoys and will, if not a long one, take the time to leave a short review to give me a sign that someone out there is still reading and anticipating the next chapter. Happy Halloween!
OlivineWK – I jump around a lot between sad and happy because it's such a thin line between the two XD Will try to be more humorous though!
nicki-girl- Well I liked that one too because fairy tale endings are always expected but everyone has got to know, sometimes when meeting the perfect prince/princess; they aren't going to choose you.
Pax Silva- It's nice to know you still come back to read. It's hard to write as well since the new PoT is releasing slowly and I'm getting into other anime and mangas. But I have a soft spot for my Thrill so that makes me still write on the pair.
meteor45- I've been known to do that to a lot of people but it's the best thing for me to be able to stick a little of everything in.
Moonlit Crystals- The thing about 'Property of-' is that it was suppose to be a one-shot…. But I never got around to finishing it so it became a part of my drabbles XD Well I'll try to balance the happy and angsty stories in this round of drabbles.
MARYLOVER- That last one sat on my writing table for a very long time before I decided the one-shot wouldn't be happening. So there it was, stuck into my drabbles. XD Maybe I shouldn't call it drabbles anymore but unfinished writings XD
MT Lyfe- Well there relationship is more possessive and cocky to make it 'Thrill' but I enjoy torturing and pushing their personalities to the max when I can.
Without You
"Tadaima," Fuji said softly to the empty apartment. He knew no one was there but he said it out of habit when Ryoma was still here. It'd been roughly two months since his Ryoma left to pursue his dreams and left him behind. He had been unable emotionally to clip the wings of the one he loved the most so he let him go… yet there wasn't a day that went by that he didn't think of the scene right before he left, the promising words, the image.
Living without Ryoma was unbearable but it livable… as long as he knew Ryoma was somewhere under the same sky he was under.
After all, Fuji had everything he could ever ask for…except Ryoma at the moment of course but soon… soon he'd be home right?
Don't want to
"Don't wanna," Ryoma said with a frown staring at the entire length Fuji was offering to him.
"Now" Syuusuke said with a widening smile.
"Why do I have to?" Ryoma asked brattily.
"Because I asked you to," Fuji replied immediately.
Ryoma gave him a long glare before he bent and pressed his mouth on the tip.
Fuji went ahead and jammed the entire length in Ryoma's mouth without as much as a twitch to his bright smile.
After all, when eating a banana it should be shared.
Cry & Smile
Ryoma frowned as he remembered Fuji sending him off. It had been hard not to be able to say anything worthwhile in the short time they had before his departure. Even still, he couldn't forget the smile on Syuusuke's face as he sent him off in the airport. Although it definitely seemed like his usual smile, he had never seen a smile where a stray tear could fall at the same time… except in doramas… right?
"Or not…" Ryoma breathed out through a small smile at he reached up to catch the trickle that trailed down. It seemed you could cry and smile at the same time.
Locked In My Heart
The road to love was never easy…. So theirs wasn't going to be any easier.
Fuji knew that when Ryoma went professional and became famous after winning consecutive titles he wasn't going to be home from practically late winter till early fall. He knew that the distance was going to cause stress, fears and anxiety to see one another but he let his lover go anyways.
All the insecurities, all the pain, all the pent-up feelings he locked deep in to his heart and smiled for Ryoma; Because without fail Ryoma always came home.
"Tadaima,"
"Okaeri Ryoma…" Fuji said turning around to face his lover.
"Hisashiburi (It's been a long time)" Ryoma said dropping his stuff on a nearby table.
"Long enough to give me a kiss?" Fuji asked teasingly.
He wasn't laughing in another three second because warm, insistent lips pressed against his own before breaking through and deepening the kiss. It seems that it was definitely long enough to give her a kiss.
Not Meant To Be
Ryoma crushed his ring into the palm of his hand as he shut his eyes tightly against the painful tightening of his heart. He had made his decision and he was ready to follow through, no matter how painful it was he knew he had to… for his sake; for Syuusuke's sake.
He felt the tears sliding down his cheek but he ignored the wet trail and concentrated on the paper in front of him. He didn't know how to state it, he didn't know what to say, he just knew they were at goodbye and even he; a man blunt to the bone with few words couldn't state it better than a single 'goodbye' written boldly.
It wasn't Syuusuke's fault they were breaking up nor was it his… it just wasn't meant to be no matter how hard they tried. They spent three years together thinking their thrill could keep their love alive but even the most perfect thrill couldn't keep their love going now.
'I'm sorry… let me break first…' Ryoma thought silently as he dropped his ring that paired with Syuusuke's down next to the single worded note. The tiny bloodstain on the paper it made as it hit and rocked to a stop made Ryoma glance at his palm which was slightly bleeding from holding the ring too long.
'But it's nothing like the pain in my heart…' Ryoma thought as he reluctantly stood and took one last look at the room Syuusuke was currently asleep in.
'I'm sorry…' Ryoma thought as he walked over to grab his bag as he placed a shaky hand on the door separating them.
Ryoma had already come to terms that their petty fights was just needlessly hurting them, they're batt;les wasn't giving them an inch in the relationship and it was killing the both of them that they couldn't give each other what they truly needed. I love you's and all the trying was just exhausting them now and it wasn't meaning what it should mean anymore. It was never enough to say he cared nor was it enough when Syuusuke said he was sorry.
Ryoma knew it… Syuusuke knew it… it was just who was strongest to leave first and Ryoma had decided it'd be him. No matter how much he loved Syuusuke, he knew when the relationship hit the dead end, he knew when the inch they climbed together made them fall only two times deeper and he was ready to say goodbye… even if it meant the unbearable pain in his cheat.
Sliding his shoes on he took one last look around the small apartment where they had shared everything together and wondered if it could've been different somehow… if only-
Opening the door to let himself out, he shut it softly behind him and locked it before walking away without looking back. He was going down one road now,,, and it wouldn't do to turn back and look, to regret and to wish. Yet here he was, with each step farther, the aching pain in his heart grew as tears flooded past his eyes and down his face.
Ryoma knew Syuusuke never mean to hurt him when he proposed they live together… but at that time they never knew it'd end this way… they never knew the road they choose together would someday split them.
He wasn't scared that Syuusuke would be all alone, he knew someone else out there could love and cherish him better than he could and that love was what drove him to be strong and let Syuusuke go.
"Because… we're not meant to be…" Ryoma whispered to himself as dropped his key and hopefully his last attachment into the mailbox and took a different path away with the first step… a one-way road away with no return.
A/N: I'm entering a new phase of drabbling so bare with me for a while as I toss in oddballs of cute, angst, or whatever kind of drabbles I may spew next .XP