Hello, readers! This is one of my shorter chapters, but good nonetheless--I hope! Enjoy, read review!
That night at dinner time, I walked timidly toward the kitchen but stopped in the hallway just outside the entryway. I watched them laughing and eating, and the pain stabbed me in the chest again but I threw it aside. The food was so mouth-watering but I felt like I shouldn't go eat some. Robin was the only one not talking with the other Titans, he was solemn looking and stating down blankly at his food.
"Is Ezerra going to eat with us?" Starfire inquired suddenly.
"She looked pretty thin to me," Beast Boy commented.
Cyborg stood up. "I'll go see if she wants to eat." The half-robot man said. Even though he was half machine, he felt the most human of them all; he was the one who actually said how he felt. He turned to look for me. I ran down the hallway with muted footsteps in the opposite direction, trying to avoid the metallic man.
I got cornered in the gym, I was sitting on the bench-press, looking at my feet. He sat down next to me. But I didn't look up.
"I'm sorry," I apologized quietly. "I shouldn't have done what I did; I never meant to hurt you guys. Don't say 'its ok' or 'you're forgiven' because it's not ok and I don't deserve to be forgiven."
After a few moments of silence, Cyborg replied, "You're right. But everyone deserves a second chance."
"Even people like me?" I asked in surprise, looking up into his face.
He nodded. "Even people like you. Why don't you come eat with us?"
"I can't," I said, looking at my petite feet again. I was afraid that if I sat with them, ate with them, and had fun, dark and painful memories would flood back and I wouldn't be able to control my emotions and therefore would have an emotional breakdown. "No one really wants me around right now."
"BB and I sure do," Cyborg said gently. "I know he really missed you making jokes and laughing. And who was gonna beat me at games, eating a ton of food and ensure a real laugh at meals?"
"But you'll never really want me to stay." I replied. "Knowing what I did, I'll never make it right and you guys can never accept me."
He sighed. "I know what its like to be in your position," he began. "Ever since the accident, I always felt different and like I shouldn't be; the guy I crashed with didn't make it. When I first became part machine, I felt as if I should have taken the other guy's place. But I learned that if you trust someone, you'll learn how to deal with your problems."
"I never knew that," I said quietly. I couldn't believe that the great metal man ever felt that way.
"Stay with us for a while; things will get better, Ezerra." The robotic man promised.
"Do you forgive me?" I asked him, just out of curiosity.
Cyborg hesitated and then answered. "Be a good girl, and I will."
I gave a small grin. "I will Cyborg. I'll try to make up for what I did."
He held out a hand and I gave him mine, and he helped me up. We walked back into the kitchen. We ate some pizza, all six of us. Each of us had a different kind too.
I laughed loudly for the first time in two months when Beast Boy told a joke, even though it was lame. I smiled a big smile for the first time in two months when Starfire told me about the time Silkie ate her sock. I used my powers to tip water onto Raven's head for a laugh, and then in turn, she tipped some onto mine without a smile, making me crack up at her expressionless face—which honestly, I didn't know Raven had a joking side.
Robin was the only one who didn't join the fun, but I glimpsed him smirking once or twice, watching his team-mates have fun with me. He showed what every other Titan felt inside but kept bottled up; unease and untrusting emotions. But I tried ignoring it; I was enjoying myself for the first time in two months and I wanted nothing in the way.
When everyone padded off to bed, I slept on the couch. Now that I was alone, it was hard not to think on the last two months. But I shoved the memories away and down the stairs; I was done remembering. I had my mind set on trying to repair the damage I caused. Even though I was determined to do so I did know this; even if you heal the wound, it still leaves a scar.
I drifted off into painless sleep for the first time in a long time and I was grateful.
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Ezerra.