Chapter Eleven. R&R PLEASE. :3
I opened my eyes and stared up at the ceiling. Everything seemed so bright today, I hadn't had any nightmares and when I got out of bed I realized the sky was clear for once, hence the brightness. I got ready for the day and walked downstairs for breakfast.
"Good morning," I said to Charlie as I entered the kitchen. He was at the counter preparing himself some cereal.
He turned to me and I noticed his expression lit up," Good morning," he smiled.
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion at this unexpected happiness,"Are you in a good mood? "
"You're the one in a good mood. Look at you, you've got a smile on your face. I can't remember the last time you woke up like that. So things went well with Jake last night?," he muttered the last part uncomfortably. I was caught offguard, I hadn't even realized I was smiling.
"Uh yeah, I guess so," I picked up a waffle and headed out the door.
"Where are you going?," Charlie asked.
"Work, Dad," I shut the door and got in my red truck. I fumbled with the keys since I was distracted thinking about why I was in a good mood. I couldn't possibly be...no....that wasn't possible..was it? was i falling for Jake? I shook my head to clear the thoughts and focused on the keys and driving.
The day went by slowly at work. Mike kept giving me glances of confusion. During break he finally approached me as I ate a sandwich Charlie had brought me during the day.
"How are you Bella?," he asked, sitting down infront of me.
"Fine," I took a bite off the soft white bread.
"Um, you seem cheery today," he smiled half-heartedly.
I tried smiling back but I felt too weirded out to make it look half normal. Mike Newton accepted it anyway and smiled broadly. This broad smile brought to mind another grin , hmm, Mike's smiling alot. Jake smiles alot too. He has a nicer smile, very bright and warm. Wait? What's Mike saying? I realized I had drifted off thinking about Jake, I hadn't heard anything Mike had said and tuned back in when he was saying,"...night?"
I didn't want to make him uncomfortable by making him realize I hadn't been listening so I just took a wild guess at what the answer could be,"Right."
"You mean yes?," he instantly lit up, looking releaved. I panicked, wondering what I was agreeing to.
"Yeah," I mumbled.
"Awesome! Thanks Bella. I really owe you. I thought you'd be busy Saturday with Jessica's party and all, so I didn't think you'd want to work. But thanks, really." Mike stood up and left me alone at the white table in the tiny break room to try to figure out what had just happened. I had agreed to work next Saturday, while Mike went to Jessic'a party. I didn't know she had a party...it didn't matter, I wouldn't have gone anyway.
I went back to work and before I knew it, it was 3 pm, time to leave. My shift was finally over and I was absolutely relieved. I felt like the time had gone by slower than it ever had for me. The minutes just creeped by but now I was finally out. I got into my truck and realized I had nowhere in particular to go. I decided I would just go home. So I drove out of my parking lot and headed home.
The house was silent, aside from the creeking the floor made as I walked in and the sound the doors made every time I opened or closed one. Charlie wasn't home yet as I had expected so I had nothing to do. I decided to get some homework done so I brought my books down to the living room from my room. I sat down on the couch and began to read chapter 20 of my European History book.
After about 45 minutes my eyelids felt heavy and I was really fighting with myself, trying to stay awake. But I must have dozed off, I didn't remember falling asleep, because the next thing I knew, my eyelids were closed but the light from outside was considerably less. I felt something warm air blow across my face. It was soothing and I couldn't help but smile. I opened my eyes and there was someone infront of me, I frowned.
"Jake? What are you doing here?," I asked, confused as I sat up and he backed away. He'd been so close to my face that the warm air was his breath.
His smile faded,"Aren't you glad to see me?"
I blinked rapidly, feeling so confused. I wondered what time it was and when Jake had gotten in here and how long he'd been here. I looked around, noticing the clock; 6:27.
"I thought I'd come by and surprise you. You know, it's dangerous to leave the door unlocked and just fall asleep here. With those blood suckers after you. You could have come over and slept at Sam and Emily's or told me-"
"I just dozed off Jake. Stop worrying so much," I tried not focusing on the truth in his warning. "Want something?"
He grinned and lifted an eyebrow," Like what?"
I furrowed mine," Like a snack. We have some chips."
"Oh no. I gotta go, I'm on duty tonight. Like I said, I thought I'd just come by, wanted to see you before I went off to be on look out," he shifted his weight, swaying from foot to foot and looking at me softly.
I bit my lip, I didn't want to encourage him to flirt but I felt guilty and worried about what he had to do. I threw my arms around him, wishing he'd stay, I know he took it as something else but I didn't say anything. I embraced him tightly, practically sweating from the heat he radiated and he held on to me too. Eventually I realized I should let go...but I didn't want to. He pulled away slowly, but I held on to his arms and looked up at him.
"Jake, stay. Please, don't go."
He looked down at me and I could see he was torn. I hated doing this to him and although he never chose to not go I didn't stop trying. There was a moment where he stared down at me and thought about it like always. He leaned down and kissed the top of my head and I sighed, knowing what was coming. "I can't, you know that. I wish I could, believe me but I...can't."
With that he let go of me and walked out the door. I stayed frozen at the spot but I could hear his human steps become quieter and then there was the panting of a dog. I felt strange. He always did this and it always left me worried and disappointed, but now there was something more, now there was something that felt a lot like....rejection?