Disclaimer: yui doesn't own hikago. Suffering from not seeing the special yet, she has resorted to writing a fanfic. :p
Inside and out.
By miyamoto yui
Chapter 10 – who's thinking of who?
I didn't know why, but my mind suddenly woke up and my body didn't want to get up just yet. I could feel like something was happening, but I didn't want to face the world just yet.
Things were making sense at the same time they weren't so I just wanted to keep this time to myself, as little as it may have been.
I put my arm over my eyes to block out the bright light around me. But because I couldn't go back to sleep as I had wanted, I took my arm off and turned over lazily. Blinking my eyes, I saw a pair of violet eyes staring back at me. They went blink, blink.
"Sai-san?" I looked at him sleepily, trying my best to focus my eyes on him. "What are you doing there?"
"I was just watching you," he said as he looked at me curiously with his hands tugging at the white sheets before him. He looked like a little kid.
Hikaru did that often, and at that thought, I began to smile.
"Where are Maya and Ari?" I asked as I stared at him with a playful expression on my face. I couldn't help but smile at him.
Sai just had that effect on me.
"Your parents have called them," Sai said with a slight frown on his face.
"What's wrong, Sai-san?"
Sai realized what he had done and immediately laughed it off. "I'm just a little tired."
He began to stand up, but I pulled his hand. He sat on the bed and I said, "Why did you tell me to wake up?"
Nervously, he laughed as he tried to stand up, but I yanked on his sleeve too. "You wouldn't want to defy me, now would you?"
Taking up my chin, he smiled sweetly at me. "I would never do anything of the kind to you, Oujisama."
"Then why are you acting like you've realized something and now you're trying to run away from me?" Still holding onto his sleeve, I pulled myself up to sit down.
I was trying to understand this complicated situation. Even though it seemed like there should have been nothing, I felt like there was something deep inside of me that wouldn't sleep. It would always be there unless I did something about it. It was as if I were trying to _purposefully_ forget something…
Leaning closer and closer towards him, I analyzed his features, but Sai turned his head away from me. I didn't know if it was out of modesty, shame, or sorrow, but I knew he was holding back from me.
"I can't tell you why," he said as he tried to pull away from me, but his eyes wouldn't stop staring back at me. "I only know I can't. I know this doesn't make sense at all."
"Sai-san, who are you and where is Hika-"
As I was reaching out my hand to touch his shoulder, there was a knock on the door. I pulled my hand away as Sai went towards the window.
"Yes?"
Maya and Ari came in and they both tried their best to smile at me, but I could tell that something was definitely wrong. They eyed one another before coming up to my bed.
Sai glanced behind him to watch them, but then he continued to look out the window.
"Your mother and father would like to see you," Maya said with a troubled voice. Even though she was older than I was, she looked like a teenager, but clearly, the grave expression on her face was giving away her age.
"I will prepare the Go room so that you will use it after your meeting, Oujisama," Ari said as she went over to Sai. She bowed to him. "Please wait with me there."
Almost reluctantly, Sai didn't seem like he wanted to go, but he forced a smile out of respect and etiquette. As they were leaving the room, he glanced back at me with a pained expression as if to say, "Don't let me go with her."
"I don't know what's going on," I said through my eyes.
A flash went through my head and a blurriness confused me as my head began to ache.
"Don't let me go, Akira," I heard Hikaru's voice say to me.
"Hikaru?" I said in a daze as Maya helped me to dress for the meeting with my parents.
When I was done, I walked down the hall and nodded my head at those who acknowledged my presence. I actually hated it and only appreciated the openness that Sai, Maya, and Ari showed to me as a friend rather than as a title holder.
All so trite, and yet all that was held with the position of being the prince.
I bowed and knelt before my parents. "Good morning, Mother and Father," I greeted as I lifted my face from the ground.
Looking up at them, my mother's face looked so strained and distressed despite her calm demeanor. My father was as gruff as ever, but his eyes were upset. No, I could say that they were on the point of exerting anger.
The council at the sides were quiet, but appeared as if they were dying to talk and whisper amongst one another.
I felt like I was on trial.
What the hell was happening with everyone today?
"I wasn't able to address this issue earlier due to all my duties, but now, I am able to do so. Akira, I see that you have taken in a Go tutor. It's quite unusual considering that you usually don't allow that type of thing." My father the King folded his arms at me with an even more stern expression on his face.
"I can learn from him," I told him with a serious face. "I tested him and ended up resigning. He is a powerful opponent and I am fortunate to find someone such as him."
My mother gave a side glance to my father while folding her hands on her lap. She was grasping her hands so much they looked like they were losing circulation. But through it all, her caring facing towards didn't change.
Father was pushing himself away from me while my mother was coming closer and closer…
Why were they divided on such a trifle matter as a Go tutor?
"There are many that would suit you much better, my son," my father was trying to convince me. "We can hold a nationwide search as we did last time."
"Last time?" I curiously asked with my head slightly tilted in confusion.
My headache was becoming a little bit worse.
Father cleared his throat. "What I meant was that was why you didn't want a tutor in the first place. It was because none of them were to your liking."
"Now that I have found one, what is wrong with that, Father?" I blinked at him, at a loss as to why he appeared so nervous about the subject.
"I don't think this teacher is suited for you. That is simply all."
"I think he is and therefore I will keep him." I continued to look at him straight in the eye.
"Akira, your tutor has been here for a month, but I will not allow him to stay here any longer. It is more than I can stand."
With a perplexed face, I was appalled by the absurdity of this conversation. "What is wrong for him to be my tutor, Father?"
"For your sake, my son."
I shook my head. Bowing my head to the ground and then getting up, I sighed. "If you throw him out or do anything to him, I will follow him, Father."
"What?" my father asked as if he were choking on his words.
"I have much to learn from him and I want to learn what he has to teach me. That is all, Father. Please accept my wishes." I bowed again and left as the council members began to whisper behind me.
I went straight to the Go room with Maya behind me.
"I don't understand what's going on, but I don't like it," I commented as Maya remained silent. "You know something, don't you, Maya?"
She didn't say anything as I opened the door to find only Ari kneeling before me with her head to the ground. "Oujisama! Sai-san has gone!"
"What?!" I shouted at the top of my lungs, but then I began to choke from the shock.
The air was suffocating me…
In this past month, I had become so fond of Sai, but there was always something in my way. I couldn't get through…
I fell to the ground as I became a little ball with my hands grabbing my head in pain.
Hikaru's and Sai's voices in unison told me,
"Akira, I'll make the decision for you."
Sai…
You're my only link to Hikaru…
But I don't want to lose you too…
Tsuzuku…
--
Author's note: AH~! *tears hair out* I really have made this harder for myself. Instead of telling just one story in the modern time, I decided to 'experiment' and put a dream sequence that's congruent to the 'modern time' story. So, it's like I'm telling two different fics at the same time. I find it interesting, but it takes a lot out of me to make them both interesting, but balance them out so as one isn't overpowering the other.
I have plotted the whole story out for the most part and I've come up with a round number of about 11 chapters left. ^____^ So please be patient with me in my effort to keep this inspirational and interesting at the same time.
I thank you so much for your support! It truly has warmed me deep inside and there was even a beautiful fanart ;_; dedicated to me. I just wanted to make a story for Akira and Hikaru that explored their relationship and for them to grow as people. They're from the opposite sides of society, but their goals are the same and they realize that. I am happy you are sharing this experience with me!
Inside and out.
By miyamoto yui
Chapter 10 – who's thinking of who?
I didn't know why, but my mind suddenly woke up and my body didn't want to get up just yet. I could feel like something was happening, but I didn't want to face the world just yet.
Things were making sense at the same time they weren't so I just wanted to keep this time to myself, as little as it may have been.
I put my arm over my eyes to block out the bright light around me. But because I couldn't go back to sleep as I had wanted, I took my arm off and turned over lazily. Blinking my eyes, I saw a pair of violet eyes staring back at me. They went blink, blink.
"Sai-san?" I looked at him sleepily, trying my best to focus my eyes on him. "What are you doing there?"
"I was just watching you," he said as he looked at me curiously with his hands tugging at the white sheets before him. He looked like a little kid.
Hikaru did that often, and at that thought, I began to smile.
"Where are Maya and Ari?" I asked as I stared at him with a playful expression on my face. I couldn't help but smile at him.
Sai just had that effect on me.
"Your parents have called them," Sai said with a slight frown on his face.
"What's wrong, Sai-san?"
Sai realized what he had done and immediately laughed it off. "I'm just a little tired."
He began to stand up, but I pulled his hand. He sat on the bed and I said, "Why did you tell me to wake up?"
Nervously, he laughed as he tried to stand up, but I yanked on his sleeve too. "You wouldn't want to defy me, now would you?"
Taking up my chin, he smiled sweetly at me. "I would never do anything of the kind to you, Oujisama."
"Then why are you acting like you've realized something and now you're trying to run away from me?" Still holding onto his sleeve, I pulled myself up to sit down.
I was trying to understand this complicated situation. Even though it seemed like there should have been nothing, I felt like there was something deep inside of me that wouldn't sleep. It would always be there unless I did something about it. It was as if I were trying to _purposefully_ forget something…
Leaning closer and closer towards him, I analyzed his features, but Sai turned his head away from me. I didn't know if it was out of modesty, shame, or sorrow, but I knew he was holding back from me.
"I can't tell you why," he said as he tried to pull away from me, but his eyes wouldn't stop staring back at me. "I only know I can't. I know this doesn't make sense at all."
"Sai-san, who are you and where is Hika-"
As I was reaching out my hand to touch his shoulder, there was a knock on the door. I pulled my hand away as Sai went towards the window.
"Yes?"
Maya and Ari came in and they both tried their best to smile at me, but I could tell that something was definitely wrong. They eyed one another before coming up to my bed.
Sai glanced behind him to watch them, but then he continued to look out the window.
"Your mother and father would like to see you," Maya said with a troubled voice. Even though she was older than I was, she looked like a teenager, but clearly, the grave expression on her face was giving away her age.
"I will prepare the Go room so that you will use it after your meeting, Oujisama," Ari said as she went over to Sai. She bowed to him. "Please wait with me there."
Almost reluctantly, Sai didn't seem like he wanted to go, but he forced a smile out of respect and etiquette. As they were leaving the room, he glanced back at me with a pained expression as if to say, "Don't let me go with her."
"I don't know what's going on," I said through my eyes.
A flash went through my head and a blurriness confused me as my head began to ache.
"Don't let me go, Akira," I heard Hikaru's voice say to me.
"Hikaru?" I said in a daze as Maya helped me to dress for the meeting with my parents.
When I was done, I walked down the hall and nodded my head at those who acknowledged my presence. I actually hated it and only appreciated the openness that Sai, Maya, and Ari showed to me as a friend rather than as a title holder.
All so trite, and yet all that was held with the position of being the prince.
I bowed and knelt before my parents. "Good morning, Mother and Father," I greeted as I lifted my face from the ground.
Looking up at them, my mother's face looked so strained and distressed despite her calm demeanor. My father was as gruff as ever, but his eyes were upset. No, I could say that they were on the point of exerting anger.
The council at the sides were quiet, but appeared as if they were dying to talk and whisper amongst one another.
I felt like I was on trial.
What the hell was happening with everyone today?
"I wasn't able to address this issue earlier due to all my duties, but now, I am able to do so. Akira, I see that you have taken in a Go tutor. It's quite unusual considering that you usually don't allow that type of thing." My father the King folded his arms at me with an even more stern expression on his face.
"I can learn from him," I told him with a serious face. "I tested him and ended up resigning. He is a powerful opponent and I am fortunate to find someone such as him."
My mother gave a side glance to my father while folding her hands on her lap. She was grasping her hands so much they looked like they were losing circulation. But through it all, her caring facing towards didn't change.
Father was pushing himself away from me while my mother was coming closer and closer…
Why were they divided on such a trifle matter as a Go tutor?
"There are many that would suit you much better, my son," my father was trying to convince me. "We can hold a nationwide search as we did last time."
"Last time?" I curiously asked with my head slightly tilted in confusion.
My headache was becoming a little bit worse.
Father cleared his throat. "What I meant was that was why you didn't want a tutor in the first place. It was because none of them were to your liking."
"Now that I have found one, what is wrong with that, Father?" I blinked at him, at a loss as to why he appeared so nervous about the subject.
"I don't think this teacher is suited for you. That is simply all."
"I think he is and therefore I will keep him." I continued to look at him straight in the eye.
"Akira, your tutor has been here for a month, but I will not allow him to stay here any longer. It is more than I can stand."
With a perplexed face, I was appalled by the absurdity of this conversation. "What is wrong for him to be my tutor, Father?"
"For your sake, my son."
I shook my head. Bowing my head to the ground and then getting up, I sighed. "If you throw him out or do anything to him, I will follow him, Father."
"What?" my father asked as if he were choking on his words.
"I have much to learn from him and I want to learn what he has to teach me. That is all, Father. Please accept my wishes." I bowed again and left as the council members began to whisper behind me.
I went straight to the Go room with Maya behind me.
"I don't understand what's going on, but I don't like it," I commented as Maya remained silent. "You know something, don't you, Maya?"
She didn't say anything as I opened the door to find only Ari kneeling before me with her head to the ground. "Oujisama! Sai-san has gone!"
"What?!" I shouted at the top of my lungs, but then I began to choke from the shock.
The air was suffocating me…
In this past month, I had become so fond of Sai, but there was always something in my way. I couldn't get through…
I fell to the ground as I became a little ball with my hands grabbing my head in pain.
Hikaru's and Sai's voices in unison told me,
"Akira, I'll make the decision for you."
Sai…
You're my only link to Hikaru…
But I don't want to lose you too…
Tsuzuku…
--
Author's note: AH~! *tears hair out* I really have made this harder for myself. Instead of telling just one story in the modern time, I decided to 'experiment' and put a dream sequence that's congruent to the 'modern time' story. So, it's like I'm telling two different fics at the same time. I find it interesting, but it takes a lot out of me to make them both interesting, but balance them out so as one isn't overpowering the other.
I have plotted the whole story out for the most part and I've come up with a round number of about 11 chapters left. ^____^ So please be patient with me in my effort to keep this inspirational and interesting at the same time.
I thank you so much for your support! It truly has warmed me deep inside and there was even a beautiful fanart ;_; dedicated to me. I just wanted to make a story for Akira and Hikaru that explored their relationship and for them to grow as people. They're from the opposite sides of society, but their goals are the same and they realize that. I am happy you are sharing this experience with me!