Here you are, Chapter eleven. Enjoy
Disclaimer: I don't own HP even though I wish I did.
Being a woman is a terribly
difficult task, since it consists
principally in dealing with men.
–Joseph Conrad
I had such a vivid dream last night; I was drunk with Draco on the beach snogging our brains out. At least I hoped it was a dream, it seemed too real. I reached over in the bed I was lying in to feel for Justin, he should have been next to me. I quickly sat up twisting the sheets around my body. I was now staring at an unfamiliar room with a pounding headache. I crawled to the edge of the bed and saw Draco sleeping on the floor and he didn't look comfortable.
My clothes were still on, thank merlin. His clothes were somewhat still on; his shirt was lying not far from him. I went to run a hand through my hair and felt the mat of sand in the back. Oh boy. What happened on the beach? I tried to remember last night's events.
They drank and drank and drank. I threw myself back down on the bed face down in the pillows. Small snippets of last night flashed through my head, we were holding hands walking to the beach, and then we were making out on the beach. But I couldn't remember any further. I groaned in frustration hating myself for what happened the night before.
"Frustrated?" I heard his voice
I flipped over on the bed he was slowly raising from the floor.
"What the bloody hell happened last night?"
"Well, after dinner last night you had this perfect idea to shag me on the beach as the waves crashed onto us."
"What?"
"What was a man supposed to do? You dangled it in front of me like you would a ferret to a hippogriff."
"You're an arse. You know better."
"I'm only a man darling."
I threw a pillow at him and climbed out of the bed. I hated him right now, but most of all I hated myself. How could I be so careless? I should have gone back to the hotel when Elsa ditched me. I had no business staying.
I headed towards the door but he ran in front of me. I pushed his chest to shove him out of the way but he was too strong, he didn't even budge.
"Look, I was kidding. We didn't have sex last night."
I tried to push him once more but yet again he didn't move.
"I'll tell you what happened if you don't remember."
I didn't say anything; instead I glared at him with my arms crossed over my chest.
"You drank a lot of wine last night; you were drunk I was one drink away from being drunk so I had a really good buzz going on. We decided to go to the beach and walk along the shoreline."
"We held hands." I was still glaring at him
"Yeah, but that's not sex." He chuckled "You decided to ask me some questions; I was quite surprised that you didn't see me for who I use to be. The evil git who tortured you at school and was on the opposite side of the war. You saw me for who I had become. And I was grateful for that. So I thought it would be ok to kiss you."
"You thought it would be ok?" My hands were now on my hips
"I couldn't resist, and plus you wanted more."
"I would never."
"That is why you took off my shirt. We probably would have had sex, hadn't it been for the blasted law enforcement catching us."
"Thank merlin." I walked away from him a few steps trying to gather my thoughts. "I should probably go now."
I turned back to him and headed for the door. This time he didn't stop me, he stepped aside, allowing me to leave the room.
The door shut softly behind me and I made my way to the elevator hoping that by the time I made it back to the room, no one would be awake. I had hoped Elsa hadn't waited up for me to come back and I hoped Justin went to sleep without me next to him.
I made it two levels down from Draco's and I managed to only run into the cleaning lady's cart. I put my key into the door and slowly pushed it open peering inside to see what awaited me. Thankfully, much to my delight they both were still asleep. I kissed Justin's forehead and pulled his blankets onto him a little more before heading into the shower to wash off last night's horrific scene.
I left the shower moments later to find Justin awake jumping on Elsa's bed. "Mommy mommy mommy!" He giggled
I grabbed her son off the bed and set him down on the ground. "Hello my love." I smiled down at her son.
"When did you get in?" Elsa rolled herself out of bed.
"Just moments ago."
"Wow, must have been a great night then, hmm?"
I rolled her eyes and ran my wand down my hair to brush it. "Nothing happened."
"I know when you're lying."
"We kissed, that's it."
"You spent the night with him, I'm sure you did more than just kiss."
"Actually, I was drunk off my arse and apparently I blacked out to the point here he carried me to his room and let me have the bed while he slept on the floor."
"Oh." Elsa sighed
"Why, oh? You wanted something more to happen?"
"Well,"
"Elsa, come-on, I've already told you I'm not ready."
"It wasn't my idea it was-"
"Theodore's. Yeah, we discussed that last night too. He was in Slytherin; you can't expect any less from him."
"I'm sorry, it but seemed like a good idea at the time."
Though I was angry with Elsa, I knew why Elsa had done it. I had been divorced from Ron for six months, I had been living away from him for almost a year now. Elsa had been with us since a month after I moved out. So she knew me almost as well as Ginny.
Being a newly single parent had taken a toll on me. On some nights I had wished that I would find someone that could help me and give me more kids. But I didn't want just anybody. I wanted a man who was already serious about his life and was ready to settle down into an already made family. Those men weren't too easy to find.
I never considered Draco to be one of those men, I still didn't. I saw him as just this man whom I had gone to school with. Yes, he was fun to be around but he was the only man I didn't see as being a father to my children. Not because I found it impossible, but I just didn't see him that way.
At least I didn't at the moment.
Short chapter, i promise the next one is longer, let me know what you think and I may post it tonight.
KKB
P.S. This is the last chapter in first person the rest will be in third person.