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Remus woke up with a mixture of feelings and thoughts. All of them somehow related to the epiphany he had had last night. Somehow he, Remus John Lupin, had ended up in love with Sirius Black. His best friend. Male, too. Things could not have been worse. He knew only too well that thinking something like that would jinx it, and things would get worse. But honestly, looking at his list of bad things, it could not get worse.

Remus J. Lupin's list of horrible things happing to him

Grades must have dropped, seeing as he couldn't turn in his homework and to anyone it would look like he had not been attending classes.

Haven't slept in a nice bed for ages.

Didn't have a change of clothes.

Running out of breath mints.

Cows.

Might need anger management classes.

Being a girl(original gender was MALE)

Being in love with best friend.

Being in love with a guy.

Being in love with SIRIUS BLACK.

Nope, things could not get worse. He groaned then rolled out of bed, he needed to talk with Lily.

"James, its Monday. Get up." Remus said as he crossed to the bathroom. James groaned.

"I think being in a scrape with death earns me a sick day." He turned ant clutched his blanket tighter to himself.

"Suit yourself." Remus shrugged. "I guess you'll have to wait until tomorrow to talk with Lily." Hearing that, James jumped of the coach, he seemed to have remembered Remus's promise.

~~~~~~~OoO~~~~~~~

At lunch Remus tracked down Lily. He'd been able to convince James that the talk would go better without him there. He found Lily in the library. She looked up.

"Hey, Lizzie." She smiled kindly. Remus smiled back, It was hard not to like Lily, always had been, but after what she'd done for him lately(some of the things, admittedly, she had done without knowing) he couldn't help but adore her. James did have good taste, though Remus somewhat doubted that he'd be able to capture her heart.

"Hi. I was wondering if we could…talk."

"Absolutely." Lily set down her textbook and turned her full attention on him.

"Well, it's just…I haven't talked to anyone about it, not even Autumn, and I thought that maybe you'd get more out of it then she would." Remus paused, Lily gave a small not, encouraging him to go on. "It's about James." Remus noticed that Lily's face hardened, but she said nothing. "Well, he dumped me."

"Didn't he dump you at Halloween?"

"Yes, but I wanted to let you know why things didn't work out."

"Oh."

"It was because of you. Or I think anyway. He didn't exactly say…but I think you were the reason…"

"What? I never did-"

"No, I mean…he said that I was real nice and all that, but that there was someone who he loved very much, and, no matter how hard he tried, couldn't seem to get over. He told me he was sorry and that he didn't think it fair of him to be dating me when he so deeply loved another girl. I, of course, was shocked, and asked how long he'd been seeing her, and he said that there was nothing going on between him. She was a princess, and he was a frog, and, no matter what rubbish is said in those muggle fairytales, princesses do NOT go around smooching frogs."

"Oh, that's…I mean…he might not have been talking about me…" Remus was satisfied to see that she was blushing, that either meant she was flattered or angry. She didn't seem angry.

"From what you and Sirius have told me about James, it couldn't possibly be anyone else." Lily just blushed. "Thanks for listening; I really needed to get that out." Remus stood up walked a little ways, then turned back towards Lily.

"And one more thing, that night in the common room an Halloween, I was over reacting. James hardly ever touched me." And with that Remus walked away. Helping James hadn't felt as good as he'd hoped, nor did it distract him much. As he turned out of the library he ran into Sirius. Why couldn't he run into anyone else for a change?

"Lizzie!" Sirius smiled.

"Uh, hi, Sirius." He needed to escape before he started to blush.

"Have a nice night?" Thinking about last night and his stupid realization made him blush furiously.

"Great! It was just splendid. Why are you here? The library, I mean. I didn't think you liked to study. Not that I don't think you're smart! I just meant if you do study…no when you study I thought that…So why are you here? Do you want a book? I could help you find it! The librarian isn't very nice. But I'm sure you know th-" Sirius started laughing and Remus stopped his ramble.

"No, I'm here looking for someone."

"Remus?" Remus asked before he could stop himself, then blushed further. "Not that you would be searching for him or anything, I know you have other friends! Who are you looking for?"

"Remus. Is it really that obvious?"

"No, not at all! I don't think he's in there I was just speaking with Lily, and I didn't see Remus at all." Remus was pleased that his speaking had slowed.

"No I don't think he's in there either." Sirius sighed, but walked in anyway.

"Good luck."

"Thanks, if you see him, tell him I'm looking for him, it's urgent."

"What's so important?"

"A paper. On the effects of the full moon. It's due tomorrow." Sirius waved and disappeared into the library.

Things had gotten worse.

The full moon is tomorrow.