After that, I bought a journal to keep Kayla in memories. At home, I was in my room. I wasn't sure what to write. Dad knocked on my door and came in to be with me.

"How did it go with Dr. Reece today?" asked Dad.

"Good. She said I can do a journal so I can keep Kayla in mind," I said.

"That's a good idea to do," agreed Dad.

"I just hope it would work," I said. "I just don't know what to write."

"Maybe you can do more than a journal. Perhaps you can do a scrapbook," said Dad.

I didn't think of that part.

"Really? Would that work, too?" I asked.

"Yes," replied Dad.

"Perhap I can see if Kaylee would like to help out if she wants," I said.

"That's a nice idea," said Dad. "She wouldn't mind helping you out to keep her sister in her memories as well."

"May I go ask her now?" I asked.

"Of course, honey," replied Dad.

I took off to tell Kaylee the idea Dad came up with.

"I was told to keep a journal and he said I can do more than a journal, I can also do a scrapbook," I said. "Would you like to help out?"

"Sure!" exclaimed Kaylee excitedly. "We can do both a journal and a scrapbook."

"That's what I thought," I said as we giggled.

Later, Michelle and Grandma Verna told me they are leaving the day after tomorrow since they extanded their visit, so Michelle had permission to miss only two school days.

"Why don't you be with us before we leave?" asked Grandma Verna.

"Okay. I'm still seeing Dr. Reece after school," I said.

"That's understandable," said Grandma Verna.

That night, at dinner, I was starting to feel miserable. Dawn said something that bothered me. Kaylee was over that night.

"You need to get over Kayla for once," said Dawn.

"Dawn, leave Mary Anne alone," said Kaylee.

"What?" asked Dawn.

"You heard me. You can't expect her to do so," said Kaylee.

"Yeah, she's still having a tough time missing her best friend," added Meredith.

"Just get over it," said Dawn.

"May I leave the table?" I asked.

I couldn't take it anymore.

"Sure you can," replied my father.

I left the table and went up to my room.

"What happen to the real Dawn who was being supportive to Mary Anne? You were comforting her and now, you're telling her to get over my sister?" asked Kaylee.

"Are you trying to make her feel upset all over again? She's trying to recover from it," said Dad.

The next day, at school, I was trying to focus, but Dawn almost made my mind go blank. Kaylee didn't talk to Dawn because of that.

Dr. Reece texted me she had to leave work because she was sick.

Worst of all, at home, I tried to be happy around Grandma Verna and Michelle, but it was very tough. Whenever they tried to talk to me, I accidentally snapped at them without thinking about it. I never did that before.

Even when Dawn tells me to get over it, I'd lose my temper. Her words didn't even make me feel any better I didn't swear though. I stormed off to my room to be alone. I realized Dawn was the one who put me in a bad mood.

"Is she alright?" asked Grandma Verna. "I never seen her snap."

"Don't worry about it. I think she was just mad at Dawn when she was told to get over it, that's all," said Dad.

"I don't blame her for getting mad at Dawn," said Michelle.

"I thought she'd be with us since we're leaving tomorrow," said Grandma Verna.

"She'll come around when she's calm," said Dad.

"I'll go talk to her," said Michelle.

In my room, I was on my bed feeling angry. I just had a BIG fight with Kristy by snapping at her and now, she won't talk to me or answer my text. I felt so bad about that. That's how the fight started. I thought she would know what was wrong with me. She knew why, too. That's what it gets me.

"Mary Anne," said Michelle as she knocked on my door and came in to keep me company. "Are you alright now?"

"Angry." I told her about what happened.

"I felt so bad about doing that," I said.

At least she knew on how I feel.

"I can understand what was happening to you. I admit it: I acted the same way you did while I was depressed. I would snap at my mother and older brothers," said Michelle.

"You did?" I asked as she nodded. "Did they knew why you did that?"

"Yes," replied Michelle. "I would feel bad about it, too."

"I'm still glad you know what I'm going through like a true best friend," I said trying to smile a bit. "I hope Kristy would understand about this. She knew Dawn made me that way. I almost didn't focus. Kaylee didn't speak to Dawn."

"Glad she cares," said Michelle stroking my hair.

"I also hope she doesn't turn all of my friends against me," I said. "I should talk to her before she does that."

Later, I found out Kristy almost turn our friends against me. That was before I get a chance to talk to her. They all knew why I was angry.

None of my friends wanted to turn against me. Dawn tried to join in. Kaylee didn't want to do that to me either. I was with her at the time.

"Depression can do that, too, you know," Kaylee told Kristy in her firm voice. "Don't you see what was happening to Mary Anne? She's still very upset about Kayla's death. Dawn caused her last night and you knew that, too. Don't you dare make our own friends turn against my best friend otherwise, I'll never forgive you for that."

"She almost did before I could get a chance to talk to her," I said. "The other girls know that I didn't mean to snap. I apologized when I did that and they understood what was happening to me. Why did you think they refused turned their backs on me? It's not my fault Dawn made me feel worse. I'm seeing Dr. Reece. I'm sure I'll be a new person after I stop seeing her."

"Snapping at anyone is still bad," said Kristy.

"Michelle knows how I feel. She told me she did the same thing to her mother and brothers when she lost her best friend of the same illness Kayla had. That made me feel good about it. She knows what I'm going through," I said. "Think of it this way: If you ever lose a best friend or a family member and you'd snap, I'd understand how you feel like true friends do."

Luckily for me, that made Kristy listen to my problem and forgave me. I'm glad that was over.