Chapter 11: Hell on Ice
A/N: Thank you to all who have reviewed on the last chapter. I really want to thank Wanda W. who just gives awesome reviews that I really look forward to reading. Anyway here's the chapter I hope all you don't hate me after you read this one. Theme songs for this chapter: This Circle by Paramore, Secret by The Veronicas, and The Scientist by Coldplay.
Disclaimer: I own nothing all characters belong to Stephenie Meyer. I do however own the two-disc special edition of Twilight.
Jpov
I called her name but there was no response, I could hear her heart beating but it was not as strong as before. I could see blood leaking out from the back of her head, it was shocking to see that the sight of her blood wasn't making me crazy with bloodlust. I reached in my pocket to call Carlisle he picked up on the first ring.
"Hello."
Carlisle I need you home now Bella has been hurt."
"I'm on my way hold on Jasper." He pulled away from the phone I could hear him saying something but I couldn't make out the words. He finally got back onto the phone just as I was starting to get impatient. "Sorry about that Jasper we're on our way." He preceded to ask me questions about her condition I answer all the questions he told me what to do until he got here Closing my phone I went over the instructions in my head again. I looked at Bella leaning in I kissed her forehead, I'm so sorry Bella you should have never been in the middle of that attack.
Realizing I was wasting precious time I jumped up going into the bathroom I grabbed a few towels off the stand, I ran water over one before wringing it free of the excess water leaving it damp. I walked back into the bedroom over to where Bella still laid unconscious, checking her over to make sure no bones were broken I picked her up and placed her on the bed. Lifting her head gently moving the hair away from the wound in the back of her head I began to wipe the blood away with the damp towel. Now that I could see the wound I could tell she was going to need stitches. I laid a towel down before placing her head upon it, hopefully Carlisle gets here soon.
I couldn't believe Edward would lunge at me like that and with Bella right next to me. He really has lost his mind. His emotions were all over the place but the prominent one was jealousy than fury. After I realize Bella was hurt I rushed to her side, Edward being the fucking coward that he is took one look at her and ran. If he really cared about Bella like he claimed he did than he would be the one here holding her hand. Yeah right like I would let him anywhere near my Bella right now, god his name should have been bitchward.
I heard cars pull up in the drive, shit it wasn't just Carlisle and Esme it was the whole fucking family even Edward was back. I heard the family rush through the door their emotions ranging from panic to worry.
"Jasper where are you son?"
"We're up here in the guest room by my study." I'm surprise Edward didn't tell them where we were at as soon as they got here.
Carlisle came rushing through the door with Edward right behind him. I quickly threw one of the towels over Bella's scantily clad torso while still keeping an hold of her hand. I looked up to see Edward's eyes on me he growled when he notice that my hand was grasping Bella's hand.
"Get away from her!"
I looked at him I couldn't believe he wanted to act like the good son now that everyone was home. Now you want to be by her side so that you can look good in front of the family. She wouldn't be lying on this bed needing stitches in her head if it wasn't for you. You ran away as soon as you saw she was hurt, an you say you love her. Some kind of love you have there Eddie, if this is how you love than maybe you should be by yourself better yet Tanya. Since the both of you don't care who you hurt whether it's emotional or physical.
I watched his face flash with different emotions but the ones that caught my attention was fear, guilt and worry. I wonder why those were his dominant emotions, I hope it those emotions were for Bella's current condition. Carlisle had stitched her up quickly not once did I let go of her hand, that really made Edward angry. But him trying to maintain his golden boy image didn't do anything to remove me from her side.
Carlisle looked up at us his face showing no emotion at all even his emotions were nothing but an constant calm. But when he spoke his voice showed he was far from calm.
"Edward, Jasper in my study now."
I gave Bella's hand a light squeeze hoping that she would be alright. Edward gave a low growl.
"You need not concern yourself with Bella's well-being, she's my mate not yours!" Esme gasped, finally assward was showing the real him and not the golden boy everyone believe him to be.
"Edward apologize to Jasper he has every right to be concern for Bella as much as you do."
Rose snorted. "Yeah Edward you act like you're the only one who cares about Bella, you really are an ass." I smiled at Rose, whoever said she was completely self absorbed was truly mistaken.
"Rosalie Hale you know I don't tolerate that kind of language." Rose diverted her eyes to the floor.
"Sorry Esme." I looked at Edward he was smirking, yeah smirk now but soon or later Eddie someone will learn your dirty little secret. I know you have one because everyone has a secret. I could hear Carlisle pacing back and forth in his office down the hall, his patience was starting to wear thin.
"Edward, Jasper do either of you know the meaning of the word now."
I made my way to the door looking back at Bella pale figure, she looked so fragile at the moment, all I wanted to do was hold her to make sure no harm came to her. Edward pushed me threw the doorway, Touch me again Eddie and I'll rip your arm off. I heard him take a step back, yeah that's right Eddie step back you wouldn't want to mar your perfection.
We made our way into Carlisle's study, he motioned for us to sit as he sat behind his desk. He looked at the both of us and cleared his throat.
"So will someone please tell me what happen tonight, and Edward before you say you wasn't here Alice saw you make the decision to come home at the last minute. But then your future vanished so we never knew if you made it here. But I'll get to asking why you've been avoiding been seen in Alice's visions in a bit."
I figured all of them had team up to do a family hunt when all of them showed up at the same time. I saw Edward fidget in his seat out of the corner of my eye. What's wrong Eddie nervous, afraid Carlisle will look at you with disappointment. He turn to look at me with a smirk.
" It would be my pleasure to tell you what happen tonight Carlisle. I was coming home because Jasper here I guess thought I wasn't spending enough time with my fiancée. But when I get here I find Jasper with his arms around My Bella in what can only been seen as a lover's embrace. So I believe I have every right to be upset."
I saw Carlisle look at me his face impassive and his emotions still calm.
"I understand that you're upset Edward but that still doesn't explain how Bella got hurt tonight, He leaned back in his chair and looking at Edward he quirked his eyebrow. Care to explain or shall I wait until she wakes?"
"Well Carlisle," I decided to interject Edward before he told Carlisle bullshit and not the truth.
"Carlisle, you see Eddie here, I jerked my thumb back at Edward as he growled at the nickname he really was sensitive about that name of his. He came in and yes I was embracing Bella but before we could say anything he went off. I took an defensive stance in front of Bella she was scared of Edward at the moment but when she began to feel dizzy I pulled her to my side so that she could lean on me. I looked at Carlisle his face still held no emotion at all and he was still so calm it was eerie, so I continued. That's when Eddie here lunged I tried to push Bella out of the way but she still felt the affect of his attack against me." I could hear gasps from the other room and a growl which could only belong to Emmett.
Before Carlisle could say anything Edward spoke up.
"I admit what I did was irresponsible and I plan to apologize to Bella when she wakes. I should have never let myself get out of control like that, it's just seeing her there partially dress and in his arms I snapped. I mean I think even you would have snapped Carlisle if you saw Esme your mate in the arms of another man." I saw a flicker of emotion in Carlisle face before it went back to holding no emotion. Great Eddie was really making me look bad.
"Well Edward if you didn't want Bella in my arms at all then tell Carlisle why you left after you attacked me, after you saw that Bella was hurt."
Carlisle looked to Edward waiting for him to explain. It was kind of odd that Carlisle had only said one thing usually he was asking questions before we could even finish answering the first one. But this time he just listened probably trying to see how much we revealed before he asked anything else.
"I left because I admit I was scared and when the smell of her blood permeated the room I had to leave before I felt the urge to drain her."
That was bullshit and he knew it, I knew it and so did Carlisle. Sure her blood was intoxicating but Edward has smelled her blood before hell he has even tasted it and had the strength to pull away. So for him to say that just pissed me off even more.
"Edward I know that really can't be the reason you left Bella alone with Jasper. Who I must say showed outstanding control Jasper I am sorry if I ever doubted your control son."
"Thank you Carlisle I really appreciate your words. I have said all that I needed to say what has been said by Edward is true I will not deny it nor am I ashamed of what I did. However Edward I don't believe your love for Bella runs as deep as her love for you."
He growled lowly at me. "My love for Bella is true."
"Yeah right Edward if it's so true than why do you feel the need to lie to her."
He looked at me with question in his eyes. "What are you talking about Jasper?"
I looked at him Carlisle remained silent. "Well lets see you lied about her birthday you told her I lost control because my bloodlust but you didn't factor in the rest of ya'll bloodlust. Then you lied to her when you left her, oh yes Eddie she told me about that day in the forest. And how about the other day when she came over you lied to her saying that you were coming home because you had things to do here, but Eddie you left as quickly as you came. So if you really loved her you wouldn't lie to her."
I looked at Carlisle first he was looking at Edward so I glanced at him, his jaw was clenched tight and his eyes were narrowed as he looked at me. So I figured since I royally pissed him off my job was done and I could leave.
"Well Carlisle if there is nothing else you need to ask me, I would like to leave. I want to go check on Bella."
"Of course Jasper that is all I wanted answered for now, you two may leave."
That's all he wanted answered for now, huh I wonder …. Oh yeah probably what happen between me and Bella. I saw Edward look at Carlisle as if he was trying to penetrate his mind. I turned to walk to the door when Edward grabbed my arm.
"You Will Not Touch Her! Actually I would prefer you to Not To Be Near Her!"
I looked him in the eye it always seem funny that I had to look down at him since he was slightly shorter than me. Than I looked at his hand still on my arm before I glanced at Carlisle who seem to break out of his impassive trance he now looked upset.
"Edward do you realize that with your actions tonight you could have killed Bella! If Jasper had not called me she probably would have lost more blood. Sure the wound was not that deep but you know head wounds bleed more than others. So you should be grateful that he got help for your fiancée no matter what may have transpire between the two!"
Whoa I have never seen Carlisle mad before an at golden boy that was shocking. Edward took his hand off my arm while he mumbled that he was going for a drive. What kind of man leaves his supposedly love of his life while she's still unconscious. He looked at me. "You know she will never be with you Jasper she loves me I'm her soul mate not you."
I looked at him I really wanted to laugh in his face. "Yeah Edward after what just happened you think she would still be with you?"
"She loves me Jasper, she'll forgive me she always does."
"Sure Eddie when Hell freezes over."
I stepped out into the hall heading in the direction of the guest room while Edward headed for the stairs. Esme came out of the guest room and she called to Edward to wait he stop on the second step from the top. As Esme passed me she place an hand on my shoulder giving it a gentle squeeze while giving me a small smile she let go and walked over to Edward as I walked into the guest room.
Espov
We had all heard what had been said in Carlisle's study, for that room to be soundproof thrice over for private conversations. If they wanted that conversation to be private they should learn how to close the door all the way. I knew that Jasper loved Bella more than just as a sister he looked at her with love in his eyes. But Bella was engaged to Edward although if I say so myself he has been treating her more like an possession than his mate. But to hear that he lunged at Jasper why she was in the same room and that he was the cause of her current state it was shocking. We had to hold Emmett back because he wanted to rip Edward apart for hurting his little sister whether it was accidental or not.
Yes what Jasper did was wrong but I have a feeling Edward hasn't been a saint either. The conversation was over I heard Jasper footsteps approach as I open the door to exit I wanted to talk to Edward before he left on one of his mysterious trips. I walked out into the hall Jasper had paused in his step as he looked at me he probably thought I was going to judge him. But you can't help who you love nor can you deny your heart what it truly desires. I looked at my two sons they both looked truly lost at the moment.
"Edward dear would you please wait." He paused on the second step, I walked passed Jasper but I stopped and placed my hand on his shoulder and gave him a smile. Jasper showed us tonight that we really didn't put a lot of faith in him in the past. He smiled back at me and I let go and walked to where Edward was still standing.
"Edward I would like to talk to you it will only take an moment of your time." I looked into his face he gave me an small smile.
"Sure Esme, I was actually getting ready to go for an drive but that can wait." A drive, how could he go for an drive while Bella laid unconscious and who knows when she will wake up. I looked up to see him pinch the bridge of his nose.
"I know Esme it's just I need to go somewhere and clear my head."
Sometimes his mind reading was really annoying there was no privacy already without having to worry about him being inside your head knowing all your dirty little secrets, desires, and fantasies.
"Esme please, I hate being able to hear your thoughts just as much as you hate that I know your thoughts."
He started to walk down the stairs and I followed but when he turned into the living room I placed my hand on his arm.
"Actually Edward I think an drive might be nice don't you think?"
" Sure Esme whatever you want."
We walked out the door heading for his silver Volvo, he opened my door for me. I can say one thing Edward always tried to be an gentleman around me. As I got in he walked around to the drivers side I looked over at him and smiled.
"Edward I will say what I have to say, then you will let me out and I will run back home."
He looked at me and shook his head.
"No Esme I will bring you back and drop you off, I won't allow you to run back here alone."
I smiled as the car raced down the drive, we drove for a few minutes in silence before Edward decided that silence was not something he wanted at the moment.
"So Esme there was something you wanted to ask me?"
"Well yes dear there is, I wanted to know if this wedding is something you still want?"
He looked at me with an grim expression.
"Why would you ask that Esme, of course I still want to marry Bella."
He suddenly pulled off the road into a secluded rest area that was now overgrown with weeds. The stop looked like it hadn't been in use for years. He cut the engine and turned to look at me.
MEANWHILE BACK AT THE CULLEN RESIDENCE****************************************
Jpov
I walked it to the guest room only to be bombarded with questions.
"Dude you slept with Bella?"
"Em, technically we didn't sleep." He looked at me with a goofy grin on his face before it was erased to be replaced with an serious look.
"You know what I mean Jazz, dude you had sex with Eddie's fiancée my little sister. Man I don't know if I can look at you the same." I could feel the amusement building up he was going to say something that I probably wasn't going to like.
"So how was it?"
"How was what Em?"
"Jazz man don't play stupid it doesn't fit you. How was sex with an human?"
Before I could tell him it was none of his business Rose smacked Emmett on the back of the head.
"If I was you Emmett If you ever plan on having sex with me again you would stop asking Jasper about his sex life." She looked at me and smile before her face turned grim.
"So Edward found you in an compromising position huh?"
"No, not really Rose."
I looked at Alice who was sitting by Bella, she looked up at me with venom tears in her eyes that would never shed.
"I'm so sorry Jasper I didn't see him coming back. I thought he was going to hunt with us when we all met up at the usual favorite hunting ground. But when he went his separate way I figured he wanted to hunt alone. I'm so sorry please tell me you forgive me." Her tiny frame was shaking with silent sobs.
"Alice there is nothing to forgive, if he made an rash decision then there was nothing you could do."
I walked over and placed an hand on her shoulder and one under her chin.
"Alice sweetie, there was nothing you could do about his decision. But you can tell me if Bella will be waking up soon."
She gave me that adorable smile of hers. " You're right Jazz I just hate not seeing his decisions. Bella will be waking up in an hour and thirty minutes."
I smiled at her and then sat down on Bella's other side. Emmett was looking at me and I could feel his curiosity.
"Em, whatever it is you want to ask just spit it out."
"So do you love her Jazz?"
I looked at him he was looking at Bella with an worried expression upon his face.
"Yes Em I love her she's my soul mate."
"Oh well as….What she's your What! That can't be Alice is your soul mate not Bella she's Edward soul mate!
"I thought the same thing Em, but Alice saw that we were not each other's soul mate. She saw us with our actual soul mates mine just happens to be Bella."
"Whoa that's crazy but what about you and Alice you two are married?"
Before I could get the words out of my mouth Alice spoke up.
"Actually Em we've signed our divorce papers, we will be officially divorce tomorrow at 12 pm."
Emmett shook his head and chuckled
"I told you that you were an pixie of darkness, that's the real reason your getting an divorce come on admit it."
"Emmett believe what you want to believe but Jazz knows the real reason and that's all that matters."
He looked hurt that she didn't find his little joke funny.
"Jeez little dark tinks I was just joking. He turned to me. So is that the reason Eddie lunged at you and Bella got the worst end, because he found out that she's your soul mate?"
I looked at him than to Bella's beautiful pale face than back at him again.
"Actually Emmett, Edward doesn't know yet. I wanted to tell Bella and I was going to but I was interrupted by sir golden boy himself."
"So are you going to tell her?"
"Yeah Em, I'm going to tell her as soon as she wakes up and recuperates from her head wound."
MEANWHILE IN EDWARD'S CAR*******************************************************
Espov
He cut the engine and turned to look at me.
"Esme I love Bella, Jasper must have taken advantage of her."
"Edward I know you are upset with Jasper at the moment….he cut me off.
"At the moment Esme I don't think I can forgive him for what he did, he deflowered my beloved Esme. He has taken the innocence that she once had and that is something I can't forgive him for not now not ever."
I couldn't believe that he would say such a thing. "Edward I know you even though you heart does not beat there is still some good in there somewhere. But honestly Edward how can you put all the blame on Jasper, I'm sure Bella allowed whatever happen between them two to happen."
He gave a shrug of the shoulder. "Esme we won't know that until she wakes up."
I stopped him, "Edward if Jasper was forcing anything upon Bella she would have say something and before you say it, even if he manipulated her emotions she still would have know what had occurred afterward." His shoulders slumped at little at the moment he looked like an little boy who lost his toy.
"I know your right Esme and I don't want to believe it."
"Edward, Bella is an young woman and hormonal one at that with you constantly pushing her away. Don't look at me like that we all know you push her away. With you constantly pushing her away she feels rejected and maybe Jasper made her feel better about herself. I however don't agree with what they have done at least not in the way they went about it. But Edward you have been treating Bella like an child since Bella and Alice rescued you from Italy. You've also been keeping secrets yourself."
He seem stun that I paid that close of attention to his and Bella's relationship.
"Edward you can take me home I know you have an lot on your mind and that is all that I had to say, thank you for listening."
"Esme, you don't have to thank me I should be thanking you for the way you view things."
He started the car and we made our way back to the house, as we got closer to our destination I decided to give him some advice.
"Edward a little advice dear, he nodded his head for me to continue. Secrets don't stay secrets for long it's better to tell them now than to wait until later. At least now you may be able to salvage your relationship but if you wait until later you may ruin your relationship for good because she will never trust you if you wait that late."
"I know Esme if there was anything I needed to tell Bella I would tell her."
As we pulled in the drive I got out and gave him one last look before closing the door.
"I love you Edward dear, I hope you do what's right."
He gave me a smile before he pulled away, I watch as his car descended down the drive. Poor boy if he won't be honest with me how will he stop Bella from losing her trust and falling right into Jasper's awaiting arms.
Apov
I watched Jazz caress Bella's face lovingly they really were meant for each other. It had been 45 minutes since I had told Jazz that Bella would wake in an hour. It had been 15 minutes since Esme had returned from her talk with Edward. Every since the talk with Carlisle or more like Jasper I had been getting visions of Edward and for some reason I didn't think these were fabricated. I could see him sitting in his meadow for a short while before he decided to return home with 3 minutes to spare before Bella wakes up.
I watched as Carlisle checked Bella's pulse and then her head wound, he had been very quite throughout the whole ordeal. I looked at the clock she would wake in 5 minutes now, I looked at Bella wow she had been through so much in these last few months I'm surprise we haven't driven her away.
I watched as Edward came into the room he looked at Jazz and his jaw tighten, but he came over to take my place by Bella. Just as I moved I stilled I was hit with an vision.
"Bella, sweetheart can you tell me what you remember?"
"Yes I remember coming here and that Jazz was going to watch me while you guys went hunting."
"Yes, but can you tell me what happen after we left?"
"Yes I remembered being upset because Edward had to go hunting because he hadn't been in almost a week and then Jasper asked me if I was going to stand in the door all day or if I was actually going to come in the house."
I could feel eyes on me as I came out of my vision. Edward had an satisfied look upon his face while Jasper held an look of worry. I looked at the clock only a few seconds to spare I shot Jasper an look full of sorrow. He furrowed his brows and was going to ask me something when Bella started to stir. Her eyes flutter open and Carlisle went into full doctor mode. He wait until she took in her surroundings before he started asking the usual doctor questions. How many fingers am I holding up, is this blurry, does this hurt when I do this. After she answered all his doctor questions that he normally asks a patient he turned them into questions a father would ask his daughter.
"Bella, sweetheart can you tell me what you remember?"
She scrunched her face up trying to remember. "Yes I remember coming here and that Jazz was going to watch me while you guys went hunting."
His face showed some relief as he continued with the next question. "Yes, but can you tell me what happen after we left?"
She gave him a funny look but answered anyway. "Yes I remembered being upset because Edward had to go hunting because he hadn't been in almost a week and then Jasper asked me if I was going to stand in the door all day or if I was actually going to come in the house."
I saw worry creep into Carlisle face. "Bella dear that was last weekend today is August 8th."
Panic took over Bella face as she looked around. "You mean I've been unconscious for an week?"
Carlisle shook his head. "No, you had an accident today and I'm afraid you received a bump and cut to your head, nothing a few stitches couldn't take care of." He smiled at her as she reached back and touched her tender wound she winch at the tenderness.
"So I've been out how long?"
He looked around then back at her. "A few hours at the most. Bella it's seems that you're having some memory loss due to your injury. Now you may get your memory back in a few days you may not, just promise me you will take it easy?"
She smiled up at him. "Of course Carlisle." She looked over at Edward the love she had for him was shone in her eyes. I looked at Jasper I could see the realization had finally sunk in. He now knew that she didn't remember any of there time spent together. He got up to leave but not before he mumbled
"Hell has truly frozen over I can't believe this shit is happening."
Emmett shook his head while he grabbed Rose's hand and leading her out the door. "Yeah tell me about it bro Hell on ice."
I gave an weak smile to Bella and she smiled back, as I turned to leave I heard her ask.
"Edward why am I in one of the guest rooms and not your bedroom?"
I heard him stutter a reply. " Um… Bella we brought you in here so that Carlisle could work on your head."
"Oh okay."
That bastard she doesn't remember anything and yet he still lies to her and not even a good one. I walked down the hall to my room as I entered I saw Jazz sitting on the bed. He looked heartbroken, god I hope Bella's memory comes back and I hope it's soon.
A/N: I know, I'm evil right, okay so this chapter didn't turn out how I first intended for it to turn out the evil little plot bunnies changed their mind and wanted the chapter to go a different way which resulted in Bella losing her memory. However there was an reason for this chapter. It shows how Edward is not really fooling anybody even though Bella has lost her memory. Things will start to come to the light cause Eddie's carefully built walls are started to crumble and Alice will be able to see his future and we all know he is going to slip up again. Because misery loves company and his miserable company just happens to be named Tanya. So my sweets I hoped you liked the chapter. Please review.
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