Chapter 11: Truth
I won't point any fingers
I won't say it was you
I let life take its time
And in time you see the truth
I won't ask any questions
I won't say it was you
I'll let life take its time
And in time you see the truth
Breakfast was as awkward as she thought it would be, Sarah and Matt refused to make eye contact with her. Enzo kept making heart eyes at her, while smirking at Matt the entire morning through breakfast. Luckily since Bonnie was still kind of tired out from three epic rounds of sex, Enzo ordered from the bakery down the street, it was as good as he said it would be.
After breakfast, Sarah begged everyone to come with her to the beach. Bonnie got into her apricot cutout one piece swimsuit threw a white kimono on over it. While Sarah went into her neon pink two piece. Sarah walked down with Enzo, the two whispering and laughing together, and Matt snuck up behind her as she was walking down to the beach alone.
"So I'm never sharing a house with you ever again." Matt said to her, she notice he was shirtless in a marble pattern swim trunks.
Bonnie groaned at the fact that he was even bring this up. "I'm sorry okay, I shouldn't have done that in the house with you guys, but to be fair you guys were far down the hall from us."
"Bon you must of woken up the entire beach with your panting and moaning."
Bonnie cringed at the thought of Matt hearing her like that, her sex life was so private. "Jeez, not like you and Sarah weren't getting hot and heavy in the St. John's hot tub."
Matt chuckled and nudged her. "At least we waited til you two were gone." Bonnie and Matt got to the beach coastline getting their feet wet.
Bonnie looked out to see Enzo and Sarah already out in the water having fun. She stared at how happy and full of life Enzo was, something stirred inside of her as she looked out at him. "I couldn't wait you know." Bonnie finally turned her attention back at Matt. "I couldn't wait to be closer to him, I needed that."
She could tell that Matt understood where she was coming from. "I know, when I'm with Sarah I feel the same way. I'm more happy now than I was three, four years ago. I just love her so much."
"I'm scared Matt, how do you open up to someone after being heart-broken so many times?"
"It was tough, Elena left me, Caroline and I didn't work out like we hoped, Nadia used me while being with some other dude, and then Penny." She could already hear the hurt in his voice. "Losing Penny was the worst, we had plans, a future and seeing her get killed was the worst thing I've ever been through, worse than when my mom walked out on me and Vicki" Matt stopped walking and looked over out to where Sarah and Enzo were. "Then I met Sarah, who was sweet, fiery, and beautiful, I knew after a month she was the one. We've been together this long and I can't see myself without her."
Knowing the truth of Sarah's plans for New York was crushing Bonnie, Matt and Sarah were soulmates, she didn't think he'd get over this one. She could only hope things work out for the two. "I'm gonna tell Enzo about Whitmore." Matt turns to stare at her confused. "Everything, about Whitmore, he should know." Bonnie looked over at him walking over to them. "He should know everything, I want to tell him."
Matt just nodded respecting that choice. "He won't think less of you Bon, you are the strongest woman I know. In fact I wish my sister and mother were more like you. You've been there for me more than they ever have. I'm lucky to have you, Sarah and hell even Caroline." Bonnie smiled at that, she was lucky to have them too.
As Enzo approached them, Matt said he'd keep Sarah company, and Bonnie just grabbed Enzo's hand moving them farther away from the water, she took a seat and he sat with her. Her eyes gazed on the water where Matt and Sarah were playing. She smiled at the scene playing out in front of her, enjoying the warm sun on her skin. "Almost four years ago Matt's fiancee was shot dead right in front of him. After that I thought he'd never be happy again. And now look at him, he's more happy now than I've ever seen him." Enzo was watching them. "I wanna tell you a something, you have to promise you won't think less of me or, hate me."
Enzo turned his head towards her, she was staring at him with hazy gaze. "Bonnie, whatever you say to me, it won't change anything, not how I feel about you."
Bonnie gave him a weak smile. "Sophomore year at Whitmore was interesting, I met someone, Atticus Shane, he was an Occult Studies Professor, my Occult Studies Professor. Anyways he became a friend of mines, soon my mentor, he believed in me and my personal dreams, I told him about my parents, mostly my dad and what he wanted from me. Shane helped me face my fears and told me to follow my heart and do what I wanted.
"After awhile, I began seeing him romantically, started spending all my time with him, we were sneaking around, he didn't want anyone to know he was sleeping with his student. I thought that was the only reason he wanted to hide our relationship was because of his job." Bonnie voice began to crack, she turned away from Enzo and carried on with her story. "I found out from another Professor that Shane had a wife and child outside of Virginia. When I went to confront him about him he told me that he and his wife were separating, he told me he loved me." Bonnie bowed her head, Enzo rest his chin on her shoulder not knowing what to say.
"I stayed with him, I knew I should have left but I didn't. I stayed for two years, I thought his love for me was enough. And then one day I went to his apartment and the place was empty, the Dean of the department said he left to work things out with his wife." Bonnie felt the tears coming from her eyes. "He never got in contact with me, to explain what happened, or why he left. I let myself fall for another guy who never really cared about me."
Enzo wiped her eyes with his fingers. "Bonnie, that's not your fault okay, you can't blame yourself for every time a guy is an asshole to you, Jeremy, Ben, Shane, even Damon. They are all wrong, and there's nothing wrong with you."
"I was in a relationship with a married man."
"Who lied to you, he clearly wasn't separating from his wife, he was probably just working at Whitmore and still seeing her on the side. He probably lied to her too, and who's to say he hasn't done that to other young girls, luring them in. Bonnie it's the oldest set up in the book. He meets an attractive young student, he has blue balls from not getting sex from his wife and he takes advantage of you."
Bonnie stop sobbing to talk again, "Caroline found out he and his wife lived in North Carolina the whole time. She also said he was going there during the weekend and holidays when he said he was visiting family. He even had a schedule of when it was okay for us to see each other, I didn't question it. And now I feel like the biggest fool."
"Well you're not."
Bonnie let her eyes dry, she moved closer to Enzo feeling his body heat against her skin. "I still should have left once I found out, I was fucking my Professor for fucks sake."
"I hope you didn't expect me to think less of you because you got manipulated by your creepy middle-age Professor. You shouldn't blame yourself for what happened, someone like you so loyal, and full of fire and passion. You are much more worthy than any of those guys, and if they didn't see it well fuck them, because I do."
She couldn't help herself break out in a grin at Enzo, he made her feel so deserving of love and respect. "You know Lorenzo St John, you might be the most upstanding man I've ever met." He took her hands in his, kissed each knuckle.
"I wanna know something."
"Anything" she replied, Shane was one of her darkest secrets, she was so ashamed by the whole ordeal and she didn't want the folks of Mystic Falls ever hearing of Shane's name.
"Why so attach to Elena and Damon, what happened to you?" while she was trying not to think of the son of a bitch, Enzo had to be curious to what happened. "I mean you aren't bottle up feeling for him, like unrequited love story you two got going?"
Bonnie didn't know how to answer this question without talking about her final dramatic breakdown. There was a heavy pause between them, one that she could tell was making Enzo anxious. "I wasn't in love with Damon, his history with Caroline was enough to turn me off from him completely. And yeah we were friends, ever since he practically save me from Kai." she stopped right there, she felt Enzo's grip on her hand. "When Shane ran off, I went home for spring break, my father… we never got along anyways, but he found about about Shane from someone, paid to have it cover up and not spread the gossip into town. We fought, screamed at each other, he said awful things to me, I just… I had a nervous breakdown after that. I was depressed for awhile. Damon figured something wasn't right with me once I came back to school.
"One day he found me in a bathtub passed out, I took some pills and I tried to kill myself. He managed to wake me up, called Elena to get me help, of course I begged her not too, my dad would lose it if they did that. Damon and Lena took me to Grams, she called my mother they got me into this mental hospital, soon enough I got better after a while. They visit me at lot, called and wrote me letters. After that incident, we became closer, it's why Damon's so protective, he's afraid to find me half dead in a bathtub or worst."
Enzo finally spoke again. "It all make sense now. You see Damon as your white knight, he saved you twice."
"I should have given him his space."
Enzo pulled Bonnie into his chest. "It's okay to want someone, it's okay to have people take care of you Bonnie. You're not less of a woman for needing help or not being strong all the time." He press his face in her neck, this made her shudder. "I'll always be here for you. If you feel like you need someone to talk to or anything, I'm here for you love."
Bonnie tilted her head as she felt Enzo lips on her neck, he started to place small kisses on her. "I'd like that." she whimpered. "I feel like I can tell you anything, like I can trust you with anything."
Enzo moved from her neck to her ears and whispered. "I'm falling so hard for you Bonnie Bennett." the hairs on her neck were sticking up. Bonnie felt like she was falling for Enzo too.
I know it's been a long, long time since I've updated sorry for that. I've just been catching up on everything. I'm hoping to update more and at least before the season premiere in 42 days (can you believe it) We are at the halfway point with this fic.