A/N:
In spite of my very busy schedule, I just can't help but to get bored; and, I don't know why… Anyways, this chapter will be my last till I get a piece of time from our play and from studying for UPCAT…Actually, I don't expect to pass in the test since it's a write minus wrong and for it has a quota course. Anyways, I just applied for experience's sake. Even though I don't pass; I really don't care…since I'm applying for other schools anyways…And for those schools; it's a need to pass for me…What? I've already narrated my life…Anywayz, This will be the most sensitive part of the story so bare with me and my unusual plot development coz I don't know myself if I'm normal, nonetheless please read and review :D
Before reading this fic; I have a simple joke to tell…This is only for people with green minds like me. :D For those who respect nuns very much please don't continue…But, I'm not saying that I don't…It's just that it is a joke about a nun…and it is just actually a 'joke' so please don't flame me or anything…
A nun requested one of her helpers, that was actually a pregnant woman, to deliver her sample urine to her doctor for some examination…
On her way to the sister's doctor, the pregnant woman suddenly tripped off and spilled the sample urine of the nun. Afraid of going back and telling the nun of her clumsiness, she instead replaced the sample urine of the nun by her own urine.
After getting the result, the nun was shock to see what was written on it; and said, "Oh my, even eggplants can not be trusted!" She said in horror!
See, it's a very green joke…:D Anyways, if you don't understand then… (no comment) Actually, when I heard of this joke from my 'grandmother' I was laughing hardly of the nun's secret. Hey, this is just a simple joke; and, I just want to share it with you guyz…but if I have offended some because of their beliefs, I'm terribly sorry...But, well just want to write it for my own good, coz this chapter is a little bit uhm…something…
Disclaimer: I do not own GS and GSD…
Chapter 11: An Unchangeable Consequence
Do you love me?
Am I important to you?
You know that I will always believe you…
Because I love you
I love you dearly, Athrun…
I love you…
The memory of their night together has been crowding his mind for like eternity. She was just asking several questions to him, but he lost track of his actions, and suddenly began kissing her madly. She was confessing things to him, but he didn't even mind to listen nor does he want to. He was absorbed by his own desires or was it his misapprehension of things? His objective was to lure her to her destruction, and that is what he is ought to do. Even if it takes to lose himself to insanity, he'll have to do what his father commanded. Whatever he commanded, he can never disobey…
Now, in his hallow room, his dignity was no longer there. He can't believe how lowly he can ever be treated by the one he loves most if everything set loose. But…who does he really loves? Was it the woman beside her or is it someone else. He doesn't know nor does he have to know. He has no right to begin with. If ever 'that person' was his true love, then let it be hidden forever, for he can never let her experience the wrath of life he undergone. 'Let it be like this…let it be…'
Upon finally having the right courage to open his eyes, his first sight was a ceiling, a very plain ceiling with a light bulb on it. Nothing was new, except for the fact that a woman was now laying beside him. He was not dismayed nor was he feeling anxious, but he was awfully feeling something else…Regret? Or was he feeling afraid for something? Anyway, tilting his head to his right, lies an innocent looking angel, he can't believe he dared had fooled. But why; despite of her immense beauty he couldn't love her more than a friend. Why can't he just love her and turn his back on his dad? Why can't he just disobey him and change for good. Why?!
"What am I thinking?" He pressed his palm on his aching head. "There's nothing I could do anyway…"
These questions were not helping at all nor will it ever help him, had he concluded. So he gently removed her hands that was all over him and cautiously rose from his bed, while preventing her from waking up.
He gave her one last glance before going inside the bathroom. "Lacus…I'm really sorry" He muttered in silence to the pink princess sleeping soundly on his bed.
After getting in the shower, he twisted the knob for the shower to open and slowly felt every splash of water coming from it. How it always feels so good to take a bathe every morning. It always replenishes oneself from such memories…such events…such things you don't want to remember…to think it was always been like that…But now; it seems to hunt him even more…
Athrun's POV
It seems just like yesterday, when all of the things just turned upside down. I never have thought that I would be the cause of their friendship's breakdown; but, it was something meant to be. She was part of it to begin with. Even how I looked at it, she was already a part of it, one of the keys for Lacus' despair.
Thinking of it, the blonde was never with us since that day nor would she plan to tag along anyways. I have known her for quite some time, and during those times, I have known of her independent attitude and stubbornness.
Her piercing amber eyes can never be so intimately serious at 'that time'. She was miserable…It's as if; she was the one I hurt…She was the one I have reckoned with…Why should she be hurt badly? Was it because of her friendship with Lacus, or she just loved her more than I have expected?
If she does; what does it have to do with me? "Argh!" I shook my head off my insanity over the blonde. I just can't help but to think about her lately. Am I that attached to her? I shouldn't even be thinking about her!
As I passed at the school's corridor, many murmurs and quite interesting gossips surround the whole place, with people eyeing something or someone…
"Hey, are they together?"
"I think so…"
"They look so cute together!"
"So that's why they've been seen hanging out a lot lately!"
"Oh my, what a cute couple!"
"Oh, how I wish my boyfriend was like that to me…"
"Never thought that those two will hook up with each other."
"Me too; but hey, they're compatible anyways."
Quite curious, I traced their sight and saw two familiar beings.
"Shinn? Cagalli?" I looked at them profoundly.
They seem to be having a good time with the accomplice of each other. Shinn was obviously flirting with Cagalli! Their faces were like an inch apart and Shinn's arm was undeniably encircled like a snake unto Cagalli's waist. He was obviously making the moves on Cagalli. But why would Cagalli allow him? And it seems like she is enjoying his little scheme of advancing towards her. Am I seeing what I am seeing, or did she just chuckle from his outrageous joke. Was it even a joke to be called with? Anyway, what did I miss to see such things! Did I slept like sleeping beauty and woke up after centuries?
'Or the rumours are proved to be true?' Upon thinking of that possibility, I stood like a stupor while watching them enjoying their lives. Seeing her with 'him' was like an arrow trusted unto my heart that I didn't even dare to move; if it wasn't because of my fiancée, who just popped out of nowhere, I would still be standing like an idiot, staring at them dumbfounded.
"Hi, Athrun!" She smiled ecclesiastically.
I didn't quite hear her, for I was preoccupied by the scene I was witnessing "Why Cagalli?" I muttered; and, fortunately, I lost my voice upon mentioning her name.
Upon having no reactions from me, or seeing that I'm spacing out; she waved at me childishly with a puppy dog pout to partner it. "Hey, am I talking to anyone? Or was I talking with a wall this whole time?"
"Ath-run!" She hissed with an angry face.
I finally snapped to reality. "I- I'm sorry…"
"What's wrong with you?" She said concernedly while holding my hands like a precious thing. Indeed, it was warm and gentle; but not as warm as hers.
"Nothing." I shook my head and smiled at her.
"Uhm…" I know that she sense that something is really wrong; but, she didn't dare to continue her statement. "Ok, let's get going then…" Why she was always seems so kind and so pure, tortures me a lot. And how bad did I just felt upon remembering of destroying such a precious rose, for my father's sake, or was it for my sake…I don't know…
I nodded and she entwined her fingers with mine and pulled me along the corridors.
"Oh, how lovely you look today Cagalli!" Shinn said seductively to Cagalli, while his hands is pinned unto his locker and his face a few inches apart from the wary blonde.
Cagalli just looked at him dumbfounded and said. "She's already gone…"
"Lunamaria is already gone?"
"Yes, she is, so shut the hell up and removed your filthy hands off me!" She pushed him away from her.
"What if I don't?" Shinn joked like someone who is flirting.
"Then, let's just say you'll meet your death." Cagalli glared at him dangerously,
Upon meeting with her famous death glare, again, he immediately withdrew in an instance. "Ok, ok! Don't be too violent! I was just joking!" He raised his hands in defeat while calming the enraged blonde.
"Well, I'm not a fan of jokes, so hush it!" She commanded him, before walking away from him for good.
Athrun's POV
During classes, they seem to give 'the eye', and I hate it. Although Cagalli was not even giving me any looks or even talk to me, I don't care coz it was my fault anyways; but, why should she be with 'that guy'. I really don't like this feeling. I have spotted them many times with each other, but I know it was just coincidental, so I really didn't have this urge to kill compared before. Before I was a little bit irritated but still cool; now, I'm like a ranging bull ready to kill every person with crimson eyes. Even during practice, they give 'that' look. Oh, if only I could; I will surely kill that red-eyed maniac!
During lunch, my head was always been crowded with certain thoughts about 'them'. Like, what are they doing or what is their relationship and so fort…?
'Are they really together? If they are; why should they publicly display their affection towards each other? Are they fooling me? What am I even thinking!?' I shook my head.
Lacus, who have seen my uneasiness and deadly glares to the irritating romance of those two, tapped my shoulder and asked me with her most sincere eyes. "Athrun, is there something bothering you? You look stressed and…"
I immediately placed my finger on her rosy lips. "I'm alright, Lacus…" I smiled at her.
Athrun POVAs I was eating, I can't help but to give a few glances on their table.
Shinn was spoon-feeding Cagalli like a jerk, and Cagalli was like enjoying it. "Please?" Was she really enjoying the company of 'that guy'?
"No way!" Cagalli hissed while having a sweet smile on her face. "It's embarrassing, SHINN!" I don't know if she emphasized his name out of love or was it out of disgust?
"Oh, my little Caggypie is shy?" Shinn said freakily, that can send ones spine shiver from his words. "Please?" He moved the spoon closer to Cagalli.
"Ahahaha! Shinn, you really are funny with your words!" Then, she gave him a loud smack on his back. Was it just loud or was it me?
'Argh!' I could feel Shinn's pain from that straight hit. 'So it was indeed loud and painful…' "Ahahaha! Cagalli, you are so aggressive as always!" Did I just saw him grit his teeth behind his smiles?
I think they were conversing something; but it was too low that I couldn't hear it.
"What the hell are you doing?"
"What am I doing? What are you doing?!"
"Lunamaria is watching, and she's already at the peak of her jealousy!"
"What? I don't think your plan is even working!"
"Look at her! She's already fuming in jealousy, and when that happens, she'll confess to me and…and…"
"You'll stop dreaming?"
"Yes, I w- Wait a minute! Are you trying to reprimand me?"
"No I'm not; I'm just shaking you to reality!"
"What the!"
Then, I saw Lunamaria stopped at their table. "Hey, Shinn and Caga-?" She seems not familiar with the blonde. "Cagabi? Cagashi? Uhmm…" She was guessing wrong and weird names, and knowing the blonde, she is already fuming in anger. "Maybe, it's Cagalimin! Am I right?" She asked stupidly as always…
Cagalli just gave a loud and deep…"WRONG!!!" She said with eyes ready to kill its prey. She immediately calmed herself upon receiving some pat from Shinn…Pat? Or was it more of putting his arms all over her shoulders! How dare he- Noticing my outrageousness, I took a deep breath to calm myself.
These past few days, I'm thinking more like her. 'This is definitely not good!'
"Her name is Cagalli!" Shinn said proudly with a large grin to partner it. "And she's my girlfriend!" Did I just hear him say 'girlfriend'? Is the world coming to an end, or was my world coming to an end? Why would my world come to an end anyways…was it because? No no No no No! It's impossible and if ever, I could never acknowledge my feelings over her, I just can't…
Without knowing it, my hands were already in a tight clench, and my eyes were already becoming blurry from the sight I've been witnessing like hell. My heart was like squeezing in pain and I feel like…'hurt' all of a sudden…
While I was in the middle of my own thoughts, Lacus saw an obvious anger plastered on my face that worried her. Although I was known as 'the greatest person who can hide his emotions'; this time, I was truly penetrable because of her.
"Athrun…" She reached my hand and held it tightly, while giving me those irresistible innocent gaze of her. I really can't resist those eyes of hers, those angelic eyes of her.
Seeing her quite worried, I calm myself and gave her a warm smile. "I'm alright, Lacus…Maybe, you're right. I'm just a little bit stressed."
She gave me that sermon look on her face again. "That was what I have been telling you Mister Zala! You should be taking care of yourself more than taking care of those papers." She scolded, but immediately replaced it with a concerned look. "For I don't know what to do without you, Athrun…" It's as if rocks started to fall from heaven upon hearing those words escape from her rosy lips.
"Lacus…" I was dumbfounded at first, but upon getting my composure, I held her hand the same as she held mine. "Thank you…" That is all I can say, for I can't say more than this.
Seeing her reaction, I know that she is quite unsatisfied of my reply, so I tighten my grip on her hand. "For always being there with me…" I told her plausibly while placing a strand of her hair on the back of her ear. "You're the light that I see right now, so please don't give me those sadness in your eyes, or I'll be sadden myself."
"Oh, Athrun…" She raised my hand to her cheek and felt the warmth it gave her. "You are all I need in this entire world…" She said blissfully as she continued savouring the warmth it gave her.
"Mine too…Lacus…" I lied; but, it was the only way for me to gain her trust.
"Oh, I'm sorry Cagalli!" Cagalli swore that Lunamaria have just broke the record by bowing a hundred times in just a mere second.
"No need…" Cagalli told her upon seeing her exaggerating effort.
Upon receiving her forgiveness, she immediately changes her expression into a gally one. "I'm just here to tell you that there's an opening for a new secretary in the student council since Fllay Allystar is leaving for New York." She said like an announcer
"So?" The blonde raised an eyebrow at her disrespectively.
Upon seeing her reaction, Lunamaria felt a little bit awkward all of sudden. "Uhmm…I was just asking if you-" But, she was cut-off by the happy-go-lucky Shinn Asuka, who is truly much in love with her.
"Cagalli will surely join the student council! She will apply being a secretary!" He said enthusiastically while placing his arms over her shoulders.
Her amber eyes seem to widen upon hearing his dumb suggestion concrning 'her!' "SHINN!!!" She hissed.
"What?" Shinn looked at her idiotically, which made her head boil in anger more than what she had already done in her past temperal deficiency.
"Uhmm…Ok, I'll sign her as one of the candidates forsecretary..." The red-haired president of the student council, said unsurely and quite uneasy of the couples' situation.
"That's good!" Shinn raised thumbs up on Lunamaria. Oh, how he likes to see her smile.
"No it's not! Wait, Lunamaria!" Cagalli elbowed Shinn right on the head and tried to call Lunamaria; but, she was nowhere of sight in her dismay. After such event, her face became one horrific face, a... very... dangerous... one... "Shinn, you already draw the last straw…" She said menacingly
"Caga-Cagalli!!!!" And who knows what happened.
Athrun's POV
"Whew!" I wiped my sweat off my face. After such a long marathon, I just can't help but to pant tirelessly, and sweat seems to linger all over my body, which made me more cautious. "HA!" I breathed out. "How I hate running endlessly!" I said under my breath.
"How you hate it? But you won in ever damn game!" My yellow-haired classmate with tan skin, Dearka, told me appraisingly. "You are sure a man, Zala!" He told me with a big pat on my back that was quite painful on my part. Why should he be SO strong?.
"Awe!" It was damn painful. This guy is really something to be reckoned with. "Don't give me your strong hits, Dearka. My back is hurting like hell." I told him frankly, while caressing my aching back.
"Oh, sorry man!"
"Pwe! Hurting like a lady!" Well, it was none other than Yzak who began another irritating remark of his. I don't know why; but, he just kept on competing with me. What is wrong with him anyway? "Do you even call yourself a man at your state?" He said sarcastically while just leaning on the wall with his arms crossed.
"Well, sorry for being not at total man and was able to beat you in every game." I smirked upon seeing his reaction.
"Why you!" As always, he gets mad and Dearka is there to hang him with his strong bound arms, trying to prevent him from hurting me. Well, I don't care any way, for I know that I will win if it is a fight he is calling for.
"Yzak!!!" Dearka calm him down.
"Let me go, Dearka! I'll just give him a peace of my mind!"
I just took a sigh at his persistence.
Anyway, I don't have time to listen to his useless rants, so I just fled from the scene and went at the back of the building, the place that I remember so well that it stungs my heart whenever I remember 'that' scene. This place is...huh?
And like destiny, she was there staring at me... "Cagalli…""Athrun…" The way she looked at me passed my very soul, for it was a mixture of anger and sympathy...
It was the second time around when we were once again alone in the same place…Will it also last the same as before?
Meanwhile…
Shinn was pretending that he is having a conversation with Cagalli in his cell. "Hey, honeypie, what are you doing?"
Like magnet, he was following Lunamaria all the way, while faking his conversation with Cagalli. 'What the hell does this guy want with me?!" Lunamaria wondered furiously, upon noticing him, following her like a tail.
She tried to go to the library; but hell, he was there also. To the gym, he was there. In the girls' CR, "Whew! Finally" But in her great dismay, he was just outside the CR, maximizing his voice for her to hear.
"You know how I love you, darling! Oh stop it, you cheeky little girl." What the hell, is he freaking out?!
So with all means, she just burst out of the CR and confronted her nuisance. "What the hell do you want you little pest!!!" She said furiously at Shinn. 'Oops! Did I just said that?'
Shinn being a total idiot, "What? Are you jealous?" He said out of nowhere, which made Lunamaria look at him dishevelled.
"WHAT!!!" She flustered upon hearing the most ridiculous statement ever.
A/N:
Whew! Finally finished...Owe, my gosh! This is quite long, is it? Anyways, the flashback will be continued in the next chapter, coz just coz. Just to inform you guyz, I've gotten the idea about Cagalli and Shinn faking their relationship in the Taiwanese drama, "It started with a kiss". I love that scene when this guy teams up with the leading character and form a false relationship, believing that his crush will soon fall for him. He was so damn desperate that made him a lovable and humorous character w/in the drama LOL. About Athrun and Lacus…hmm…it will be explained in the next chapter…:D Anywayz, till my next update! Please post a comment or criticism, for it will surely help me a lot. So chao!