Miley closed her eyes and crawled into bed. She couldn't think of anything else. But one word ran through her head "vengance" she wanted to get James back for killing him. Destroying a soul, a living thing, for your own amusement. Punches, kicks, and gunshots, nothing was left to discover. Nothing left to uncover. He was gone. She couldn't accept it. Wouldn't accept it, and probably never would, no, in fact, she wouldn't, she could never get over something so drastic. So twisted. Miley would have to accept the fact that her and Oliver wouldn't have a fairy tale ending, and that in reality, fairytales are never true. In the movies, where they always live, they always have a happy ending, no, not true. People die. People's get heart broken. People don't always get the girl or the boy. In fact, you rarely live happily ever after. It's rare if someone gets into a life threatning accident they'll live. It's impossible if someone dies they'll come back to life. It's impossible to get over a death, impossible to stay strong, and sometimes you don't even get to say goodbye. Sometimes they die unexpectedly. But Oliver knew what was coming, he knew death would over come him. And he knew he was dying. Dying for being stupid. He wasn't stupid, he was scared, and that's why, Miley believed, that's why things didn't end up like they should, why everything went wrong. Why he wasn't on earth anymore, and that he was never going to kiss Miley's soft lips again, because, in reality, he was gone. And not coming back. Because of something Miley did. Well, didn't do. She just watched his pleading face and the pain in his eyes, she was scared, so was he. He didn't deserve to be punished. He didn't do anything wrong. He was only sixteen, he shouldn't have been treated like some sort of thing that you throw around, kill, punch, kick, shoot. Anything, or nothing. Was he really important. Yes. More important then any other thing, more important then life itself. Miley knew that suicide wouldn't solve anything, but she had to do it. Then something hit her, what about Lilly and Jackson and Dad? They'd be in the same pain I'm in right now, after thinking it over, Miley decided to try and be strong, so that her Ollie, her dougnut, would be proud of her. At least, he would have been. Later that day, Miley went into Oliver's house. She found something. Something that she knew she had to read. Oliver's journal.

August 14th, 2007

Dear Journal,

Miley is the only thing worth living for, if I didn't have her, I would die. Well, I know I'm going to die anyway, I'm in great pain, James hit me again today, really hard, and stabbed me, in the back. Literally, not that hard, but it hurts. I think that I'll tell Miley I love her today. So that maybe she can help, if I have the guts to tell her that I'm abused.

August 16th 2007

I told Miley, but she doesn't love me back, she said she did, but today she just stood by and watched, I lid there in blood and pain and she didn't do anything. I guess she was scared, but I guess it's too good too be true. The song I will remember you by Sarah Mclachlan reminds me of Miley. It goes like this

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

August 18th 2007

I wrote a letter to Miley today, I'll give it to her when she comes to see me get shot, see my Dad is going to shoot me today. And Miley, you're probably going to read this, so I just want to let you know this: I love you. So much, and nothing will ever change that, not even if I die today, and I will. So, I love you Miley. When you see this, I'll be dead, and in your heart. Gone, but still here somehow. That's why I want you to have the necklace you may have found. I don't know where it will be, but you'll find it. And I promise you, the last years of my life were the best, because of one thing. I had you.

Miley closed the book and clutched it to her chest. Tears spilled unto the book. She clutched it harder and whispered softly.

"I love you too, Ollie."

What do you think? Anyway, another few chappies and I'm done :D