Chapter 11

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Tamaki stood outside of the house his mother was supposed to live at with Kyouya besides him. She seemed to be living nicely which was good to know. That seemed to help settle some of his worries. Knowing his mother was inside waiting for him he started to walk up the front steps. They only waited by the door for a few seconds after ringing the doorbell before it opened. Tamaki stood there frozen as his eyes laid upon his mother. She looked the same as she did when he left, she even looked healthy, another worry he had for her disappeared. She took his free hand to bring him inside and get a better look at her son. He had grown up nicely it looked like.
"Welcome back to France Tamaki. I'm so happy you decided to fly out." Pulling him close she kissed his cheeks also allowing herself to get a better look. "It's so good to see you again. Japan seems to have treated you well." Stepping back she walked over to Kyouya to do the same to him.
"It's so good to see you again as well Kyouya. I can't believe it's been so many years since I've seen you both. Come, come I bet you both are hungry. Let me make something for us."
"You don't have to do that mother, we can just order in." It felt strange to say 'mother' again and say it to the person it was meant for.
"Nonsense it will only take a second to heat something up."
He looked over at Kyouya for help, who only shrugged and walked in to see if he could help any. Not that he could cook to save his life but he could follow directions. Giving up, Tamaki followed him to help as well. It was great to be back here.

Sitting down to eat Annie- Sophia jumped in to catch up on all she had missed in her sons' life. She wanted to know all about high school, college, career, everything and anything that she would have known if they had lived together all this time. Kyouya sat and watched as Tamaki became animated talking about events that happened throughout the years. It was nice to see him like this, it beat seeing him so worried about things the way he had been back home. He wasn't going to bring up what was going on with him tonight, or even at all. If he could say nothing until they planned on leaving then that would be great. They came here to get away and catch up with Annie-Sophia why ruin that by bringing up something that could bring down the mood.
"I have the guest bedroom all ready for you two. I bet you both want to relax after the long flight."
"I don't know, Tamaki slept the entire flight."
He was only playing around and thought Tamaki knew that but he still got huffed at and had a tongue stuck out at him.
"I take that as a no. Fine by me, I'm wiped out. My eyes see no sun it's telling me it's time for bed."
"I can imagine you both would want to. Do you guys want something special for breakfast tomorrow?"
Tamaki shook his head no, he hadn't thought about it since he was still eating dinner but he didn't want to think about it either. If he thought about it then he could create a list, a very long list with all he wanted.
"Well think about it tonight and let me know when you get up."
Helping her clean up they followed her to the guest bedroom. Tamaki was pleased to see a nice up keep and how spacious the whole house was. His father was always saying she was taken care of but that had many meanings so he needed to see for himself. It didn't look like she had help staying here like he did back home but she looked well and everything around him looked good so he wasn't going to question it.
"If you need something or can't find something let me know. My room is just down the hall."
"Thanks mom, I think we'll be alright though. I have become quite resourceful living in Japan."
"Yea, you got me around you."
Both Kyouya and Annie- Sophia started laughing, Tamaki huffed and walked into the room.
"Aww Tamaki, I'm sure Kyouya meant nothing by it."
"He gets like this sometimes. He'll be fine in the morning."
"Kyouya! Shut. Up."
Kyouya laughed harder as Tamaki yelled at him from the bedroom.
"Oh Tamaki don't be mean to Kyouya." When he didn't say anything from the room she looked at Kyouya who just sighed. "Goodnight Kyouya, I hope you sleep well."
"You as well Anne-Sophia, goodnight."
"Good night Tamaki!"
He came out of the room to hug her good-night before going back into the room.
"Is he alright?" Annie-Sophia couldn't help but ask, she didn't remember Tamaki having such a weird mood.
"He is fine, apparently it's normal. Well goodnight ma'am." Leaving her confused in the hall he walked into the bedroom with Tamaki.

"You have completely baffled your poor mother."
"Well if you weren't such a jerk than that wouldn't have happened."
"I'm the jerk? You know what, never mind. Are you truly tired or do you want to do something?"
Sitting up Tamaki just moved to stare at Kyouya. For some reason he reminded Kyouya of a puppy, those damn eyes.
"Nah, I'd rather just stay here. We don't have to go to bed but we can just relax for awhile."
Taking Kyouya's hand he pushed him on the bed beside him.
"Sorry, about getting snippy before I hope you didn't get offended."
"Its fine Tamaki I understand."
Tamaki moved closer to Kyouya getting comfortable on him. Grabbing his waist he moved closer to be eye level.
"What are you up to Tamaki?"
Not that he didn't mind him being so close. Since it had been so long but he couldn't figure out what he was planning.
"Nothing. I just want to be close. Close like we are now, maybe closer."
"About time."
Tamaki was surprised to see Kyouya close the gap between them. He thought it wouldn't have been so easy for this moment and any moment after.

"Holy…" Tamaki laid beside Kyouya resting on his arm. That had been long over due leaving them both pretty speechless.
"I hope we didn't disturb your mother."
"Oh crap I completely forgot about her." Even though the room was dark Kyouya could feel the heat coming off of Tamaki's face as he blushed from the thought of Annie-Sophia hearing what they did.
"I wouldn't worry about it, her room is down the hall and not right next door."
With that not really helping Tamaki moved away, he was going to tease him for his embarrassment only to be cut off by this phone. Tamaki turned his head at the noise.
"Is that really your phone Kyouya? Can't people not call I mean we're on vacation."
"Relax it's not my phone, well technically it is but it's my alarm. I'll be right back. Turning it off he grabbed a bathrobe from the chair and dug through his carry on. Tamaki sat up to watch him. Seeing what Kyouya was looking for he slapped himself. How could he have been so stupid just before?
"Kyouya I'm so sorry. I hope you're not going to get sick or anything. Ugh how could I have allowed things to go so far with you when I knew you were still restricted in certain activities. I…"
"Tamaki, its fine. I knew and started everything" He walked into the bathroom for a glass of water. "I still would have to take these anyway." Swallowing he walked back in the room to go back into bed.
"Are you sure nothing is wrong?"
"Positive, now let's go to bed. Tamaki I promise you, in the morning I'll be just as good as I am now."
Without saying another word he wrapped his arms around him and fell asleep. Tamaki laid awake for a little while still trying to convince himself that he hadn't hurt Kyouya by allowing them to have sex. It had been really nice though since it had been forever, but had it really been worth it? If anything happened to Kyouya he would never be able to forgive himself, nothing was worth having anything bad happen to him. Moving Kyouya's arm around him better he got closer and fell asleep for the night.

Kyouya got up as the light from outside hit his eyes. Seeing Tamaki still asleep he tried not to wake him as he got up and ready for the day. If Annie-Sophia wasn't up he could make them coffee or something at least. By the time he got downstairs she was already up.
"Good morning Kyouya, coffee?"
"Morning Ma'am, and thank you."
Grabbing a cup he sat across from her, it smelt good, being here reminded him of being at Haruhi's back in high school. Much bigger place than hers her but still had such a homie, welcome feel.
"I'm surprised Tamaki is still asleep. He never slept in late as a child."
"I think he had a rough night. Tamaki was always one to worry wasn't he?"
"He was, I remember a handful of nights he came to my room worrying about something and unable to sleep from it."
So he hadn't changed much at all then from when he was younger, that was good to know. About a half hour later Tamaki was up and downstairs ready for the day. Over breakfast and making plans for the day Annie-Sophia found out both of their secrets. She had the reaction the others had too and was what Kyouya had expected. It was part of the reason he wasn't going to say anything right away.

"Oh I am so happy for you both! Yuzuru told me you both had things going on and I'm so glad to hear it's something good. Kyouya I'm happy to hear you're on the road to recovery. If you need anything please let me know, obviously that goes for you as well Tamaki."
"Thanks mother. By the way Kyouya how do you feel today?"
"Fine as I said I would."
"Good, though it is never happening again?"
"Again, ever? I sure hope not."
Annie-Sophia just watched the back and forth between them not really sure what was going on.
"So you two have any plans for the time you're here?"
"Well it's been years since either if us have been here so what's all the rage?"
"All the rage?"
"Great Tamaki confuse your poor mother. What do people go to see most here ma'am? That's what Tamaki meant."
"Oh, well there is the normal sites, theater, shopping. It all depends on what you want to do."
It took them an hour to come up with something and even that didn't seem like much. They decided to just walk the city and see where it took them.

The weather was cold for it only being the second of March but the sky was clear and full of sun making being outside pleasant. They hadn't gone anywhere in particular, just walked around checking out certain places as they came up to them while they caught up with each other. As the day became later they were thinking about seeing a show since Kyouya had never seen one here and it had been years since Tamaki went to one but Tamaki saw Kyouya fighting back yawns and decided they should head back to house.
"I'm fine we don't have to head back on my account."
"No I think Tamaki's right. I bet we could all use a break off our feet."
Tamaki mouthed a thank you to Annie-Sophia who only smiled back. He was glad she saw it too and was willing to back him up.

Once they got back to the house Kyouya sat in the living room while Tamaki and Annie-Sophia made tea for them. When they walked out with it and to talk about dinner Tamaki wasn't the least bit surprised to see Kyouya asleep.
"I love him but he is so stubborn."
Seeing he was on the couch he took off his glasses and pushed him over so he could lay across it instead of keeping him sitting up the way he was. He mumbled as his body shifted in the new position but Tamaki knew he wasn't about to wake up.
"I wish he wouldn't push himself so hard. I understand that his medication tires him out but he refuses to take it easy. He worries the hell out of me because I'm scared he'll over do it. I want him around forever, baby on the way or not."
"Maybe he is in denial that anything is wrong?"
"But that doesn't seem like him. He has never been one to deny something is going on. Like before we started dating he came to me telling me he liked me more than as the friends we were. Knowing we could have faced horrible consequences if our families didn't approve would have given him reason to deny his true feelings and change his mind on dating but he didn't."
The more he thought about it though the more he wondered about it. Could Kyouya really be in denial that he was battling cancer? Sure he was recovering but he wasn't able to get back to his life yet.
"Well I'm sure you know him better than I do but it was just a thought."
"I know and I appreciate it." He watched Kyouya sleep for another minute before going back into the kitchen with Annie-Sophia to talk about food. He was hungry and knew what Kyouya liked in most things to order for him.

While they waited for it to be delivered Tamaki ran upstairs to grab something from his bag.
"I want to show you something, father hasn't even seen this yet." Handing over the pictures he had from Tuesday he let her look. Seeing a smile cross her features made him smile and forget about his worries brought up earlier.
"I'm so happy for you. It looks like everything is going well. Am I right?"
"Yep things couldn't be better. Mother can I ask you something?"
"Sure Tamaki, of course you can." She handed the ultrasound pictures back to him so she wouldn't be distracted.
"Am I a horrible person for not being excited as I should be?" Ripping the bottom one off from the others he passed it to her. He wanted her to keep at least one photo figuring he wouldn't see her that often.
"What do you mean? This is what you wanted isn't it?"
"It is. We have been trying for years for this chance but the timing is horrible and I feel that I should focus more on Kyouya than myself. He doesn't want me too but I can't help it. Maybe if there had been a gap between the two events I wouldn't feel the way I do but there wasn't and so I don't know."
"Well when did all this come about?"
"He was diagnosed the same day I found out I was pregnant. I didn't tell him though until a week later so he could focus on himself. I had planned on waiting longer but that idea back fired."
"Your idea to wait to say anything is probably the main reason you feel the way you do now. I think you should allow yourself to be excited. It may help Kyouya recover faster, they say that positive out looks and up beat attitudes from surrounding family does well for the patient."
"I know your right and I'll try. I deserve them both that much."
They stopped talking as the doorbell rang, seemed dinner was here.
"I'll get the door if you could wake Kyouya."
"If you insist Tamaki."
Both Kyouya and himself decided to have her never pay for meals while they were here. They weren't sure how well off she was and they didn't want to risk her not having enough for medication by paying for their meals.
"Kyouya sweetie dinner's here. Are you hungry dear?"
Tamaki turned his head while he paid to see Kyouya waking up easier than normal. This was definitely a first. As they walked into the kitchen Kyouya took a bag from him.
"What, did you smell the food?"
"Ha ha, no, I haven't been called sweetie since I was five. It took me off guard." He also wasn't going to mention that hearing Annie-Sophia scared him, he forgot where he was and it had been years since a female woke him up. Telling Tamaki that would be cause for him to start picking on him and Annie-Sophia was here, he didn't want to ignore her.

Later that night Kyouya sat with Annie-Sophia in the living room while Tamaki was upstairs changing for the night. It was nice just sitting her enjoying the calm atmosphere.
"Kyouya how are you? I understand completely how medication can exhaust you but how have you been? How is your treatment going?"
"I've been doing well. I've felt pretty good most days which has helped. Tamaki is usually working when I need to sleep for a few hours so I forgot that it might come up here. I underwent a transplant back in December that went well and the medication is to help things stay well. I'm hoping that Tamaki will start to believe me when I tell him soon. I'm not a hundred percent but I'm neither dead nor dying."
"I know he means well. You're very important to him and these are exciting times for the both of you. He just wants to make sure you're around for everything."
"I know he does but seeing him so worried about everything that happens with me bothers me. I'll be fine soon enough he just has to believe me."
"Do you believe that Kyouya? Or are you just telling everyone that so that you could believe it?"
Kyouya was stumbled by her words. She wasn't the first person to ask that but for some reason he couldn't tell her what he told everyone else.
"It's okay Kyouya if you're scared and unsure about everything. I believe you doing the right thing by staying so positive, it can only help you."
"Ma'am there is something I want to tell you. Please promise me to say a word to Tamaki before I do."

Tamaki walked downstairs to become puzzled by what was going on. He stood in the doorway not making a sound as he watched Kyouya leaning into his mother and it sounded like he was crying. What was going on? Backing up he sat on the steps and cried in his hands. The only reason Kyouya would be acting the way he was would be if he was lying. How could he do that to him, how could he lie? If he was lying than how bad was it really?
"I can't lose him." Scared to be heard by the two of them he stood and went back upstairs. Kyouya pulled away partially surprised and ashamed of his behavior.
"Are you feeling better Kyouya?"
"Yes, though I'm not sure what came over me. But I owe you my thanks."
"Tamaki knows nothing of your fears?"
"He has enough he is worrying about. My fears are just formed from my mind. I promised him I would take care of him, always. I shall do just that for as long as I am in this world. Whether that be years or days I will do what I promised and I will not worry him with such silly fears."
"I understand your promise to my son but you both need each other and you can do that by talking to each other. Fears don't have to stay fears forever." Standing she smiled and kissed his forehead, being near her always made him feel so young.
"I wonder if Tamaki fell asleep since he hasn't come back down. Please tell him I said good-night my dear. Sleep well."
"Good night ma'am and I will, and thank you."
"Call me mom if you're comfortable enough with that, you are family after all."
Kyouya sat where he was for a few minutes before collecting his thoughts and going to see if Tamaki was still up. He felt better now that he talked to Annie-Sophia about how he was feeling. Perhaps now when he got back to Japan he could tell Tamaki and they could both be happy, the way they wanted to be.