Recap…."What are you two so angry with each other?"

WARNING!! THIS IS A REALLY LONG CHAPTER!!

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"Well Josh, people change. A few days ago, I was reminded of how much fun we used to have together. Now I see what we have become. I don't know how that makes me feel." Sara had answered the young man and it was surprisingly honest. Gil was shocked and slipped out of the room with Diane's tray. He entered the room and set the tray on her lap.

"I need to talk to you later." He told her in a whisper.

"Ok." Sara entered the room and took her previous seat. She looked at Gil and saw that his smile didn't reach his eyes. Diane took hold of his hand.

"We'll talk after dinner." He nodded and started to back out of the room.

"Gil wait." Sara called to him. He turned to her.

"Yes?"

"You stay. You look like something is bothering you." She had left the bed and noticed his grateful look.

"Thank you." Sara took her drink, but left her food for Gil to eat and would make a new plate. She closed the door on the way out.

"What's going on?" Diane started in on him immediately.

"Am I really a different guy than I was ten years ago?"

"Yes, but that's not a bad thing."

"Tell me?" He requested. Before he met Sara, Diane had been his confidante. He found it easier to talk to her over his mother or Sully. When he met Sara, Diane encouraged him to let Sara in his heart. He was glad that he had taken her advice.

"Back then, you had less impulse control. You were very good at letting loose. Sara helped you. She made you seem even younger and I know you were happier with her. I saw the ring you gave her." She looked down on him.

"But…?" He asked. He needed her direction right now.

"But, now instead of controlling your work, you let your work consume you. Sully may not see it, but before you even said hello to me this afternoon, I knew you were back together with Sara. I could see it in your eyes. Sully should not have embarrassed you to that degree, but he told me he was hurt you didn't even tell your friends that you had a brother. Besides, Sara's changed too. She's traded booze and dirty jokes for a career and a family. Sully told me how close your team in Vegas is and Sara told me that you are a family." Gil sat silent for a minute.

"Do you think we belong together?" He smiled at the memory of having asked her this question when he was thinking about buying a ring for her.

"I've never seen two people more perfect for each other." She gave him the same answer now as she did then and he knew she still meant every word.

"What about you and Sully?"

"Sully had to work for my affections. Sara freely gives it to you; and you give it right back." He kissed her cheek again.

"Thanks. I needed that. You always know just the right thing to say to me." It was Diane's turn for a moment of silence. Gil ate a few bites of the dinner Sara left for him.

"Hey, Gil?"

"Yes?"

"Sara told me what happened. I'm sorry for your loss. She should've come back and told you instead of running."

"Thank you. We talked about it. I've forgiven her."

"Don't let her get away again." She warned him.

"I won't. That is a promise." He told her firmly.

Sara entered cautiously bearing two plates of dessert. The two occupants welcomed her in and when she saw Gil's eyes, she knew he needed to talk to her. Grissom agreed to leave after dessert. Sara was secretly thrilled because she needed to talk to her friend again.

It was late when they got back to their room. They had discovered that they had each basically had the same talk with Diane about how much they have changed over the last decade. Realizing that they were ok with the people that they have become, it made it so much easier to commit to each other once again. Grissom had re-proposed to which she not only accepted, but produced the ring. Gil took it from her and placed it back where it belonged on her left ring finger. They chose to celebrate the same way they had the first time; in bed. Clothes vanished from sight and no words were needed to convey their thoughts and feelings. Each movement reconciled the past and opened up a bright future.

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The next morning, Gil and Sara went over to his mother's house. On the way, Sara had convinced Gil to tell Sully the truth about their relationship. Her best argument was that they were away from Vegas together and she didn't want to spoil it by acting angry all of the time. Unable to deny her, he agreed to tell the truth later that afternoon. Sara noticed his mother already making her way to them as Gil parked the car on the street. She hugged them both in turn and led them in to the house. She finally saw Sara's engagement ring and hugged them both again. Immediately she led them to the table where breakfast sat, ready to be eaten.

"Oh, that is too much food!" Sara said upon seeing the table.

"Nonsense dear, we have all day and what we don't eat, I can use as leftovers tomorrow." Helen Grissom said confidently. Sara shrugged her shoulders and took a seat as Gil held out a chair for his mother. Helen immediately turned to Sara.

"How have you been Sara? I've missed you."

"I've missed you too, Mrs. Grissom. I've been getting along. I work for Gil in Vegas and have made some really wonderful friends there." Angry eyes turned to Gil.

"You never told me that you knew where Sara was all this time."

"I'm sorry, Mom. Sara has been working for me for six years now." She cast a look of severe disappointment on him and he bowed his head. She pointed to the kitchen.

"You know what the punishment is for lying and you also know that omitting parts of the truth also counts as lying." Sara spared him by laying her hand on Helen's arm.

"If you're going to make him do it, then I will need a lot more. I lied to all of you by leaving the way I did. I'm so sorry for disappearing like that. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't face any of you. You've all been so wonderful to me." Helen covered Sara's hand with her own.

"What happened, Sara?" Sara reached across the table for Gil's hand which he obligingly held.

"On the day I left, I had to go to the hospital. I was having severe cramps and very heavy bleeding. It turns out that I was having a miscarriage. I felt horrible and have learned my lesson. Gil had just proposed a few days prior and I just left. I shouldn't have reacted the way that I did. I was so scared. I foolishly thought that Gil would be ashamed of me and not want me anymore." Sara's tears streaked freely down her cheeks. Helen looked over to Gil. He nodded. Helen reached out to grab his hand as a way of offering silent condolences for a child that no one ever knew about until it was too late. She stood from her chair and grabbed Sara in a fierce hug. Sara clung to her. It had been too long since she'd been in a motherly embrace and it was the one thing she craved after being in Gil's arms.

"You never knew, did you?" Helen consoled her. Sara shook her head against Helen's chest. Gil intervened.

"Sara was quite irregular back then." He was slightly embarrassed by admitting this but he knew his mother was questioning how Sara might have gotten pregnant. She changed the subject back to work and both Gil and Sara shared a few stories. Helen laughed and told them she wanted to meet them. They promised her that she would meet them.

They spent the whole rest of the day together catching up on what has been happening. Sara and Gil divulged their plan to Helen about what they were doing to their friends. She warned them to be careful to not let it blow out of proportion. They promised not to let it go too far and not to let the plan go on for too long.

That evening, the three of them went to Sully's for dinner. Diane looked so much better than she had the day before when they had seen her. She was able to join the family at the table instead of having her food brought to her in the bedroom. It was clear that Gil and Sara's visit was having a positive effect on everyone's spirits. After dinner, truths had been revealed and all guilty parties forgiven. Sara told everyone the truth about why she left and loved that Gil held her hand in support for the duration of her confession. She apologized to everyone with tears in her eyes. Gil had an idea about how to bring back the joyful and relaxed mood that was shared at dinner and locked eyes with Sully. Together, the brothers started their old routine of Gilbert and Sullivan. Sara was still crying, but now her tears were tears of laughter; just like everyone else's. It was so nice to see his playful side again. Any negative feelings she was having about how much Gil had changed because of her actions, were pushed to the back of her mind until she could talk to Gil.

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Gil and Sara checked out of one of the rooms and now officially shared her room. He noticed how quiet she had been since they left Sully's. Now that they were alone, it was time to confront her about it.

"Sara, are you ok?"

"It's just so hard. I feel so terrible for what I did. I hurt you and I hurt your family and what kills me the most is that I could have prevented all of it by just coming back to you and telling you what happened. I know you said you forgive me, but I just can't seem to forgive myself. It hurts too much. Your family is so wonderful, when you introduced me, they were so nice and included me right away simply because you told them I was your girlfriend. It frankly shocked me to see such kindness and generosity. That was the day I handed you my heart. I love you and I love your family. I …" Gil cut off her rambling with his mouth.

"Sara. We all forgive you. We understand why you did what you did. I won't say that it didn't crush me, because it did. However, ten years is enough penance and I would be a first class jerk to keep holding that over your head. Maybe someday we will be blessed with a second chance at parenthood, but you have to promise me that you will tell me when you suspect and you also have to promise not to run again if something goes wrong. I love you Sara, but I can't handle losing you again. You don't want to know what happened last time." He told her and then sat on the bed with her.

"I promise. Gil, tell me what happened. I need to know."

"My heart broke. I threw myself into my work. I refused to let anyone in my family talk to me about you. I started closing myself off from everything and everyone. When I wasn't working, I was still there using whatever means I could to find you. I was just about to give up when you contacted me. Even then, I was guarded. I let you in once and you hurt me. I'm so sorry it took me this long to admit it to you. I should have told you years ago. I should have…"

"Done what you did." Sara interrupted him.

"I should have told you. It's as simple as that. Who knows how different our lives would be if I had. There is always a choice, Gil and obviously chose poorly. I often think of what could have happened. Maybe we would already be married and maybe we already have a child; things like that."

"Sara, this is a conversation that is long overdue. I'm glad we are talking about it now. Forgive yourself, Sara. Only then can we truly move on." His eyes pleaded with her and he kept his gaze fixed on her. He saw the change in her eyes and knew that she had forgiven herself. She smiled and nodded before leaning in to kiss him. When it broke, she took his hand in hers and brought it to her abdomen.

"Do you think that we could try for a baby? Do you want children?"
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A/N: Well, what do you think? Should they or shouldn't they? I already know what they decide, but am curious to know your thoughts. I won't reveal the answer until later in the story, but I promise to answer it!  Have a great day everyone and thank you so much for the reviews. Keep them coming!