Jules was furious; she couldn't believe that she done it again. She hurt him and this time she afraid that he would never forgive her. He tries talking to her, but like always she put herself first and didn't listen to him. It a really bad habit of her and she always assumed that people, especially guys don't know her best and that why she so guarded with her feelings. She out of all people, know not to judge anyone, but when it comes to her and her feelings towards somebody she doesn't know how to act or reason. And if it was bad it enough with friends, it was worst with Sam. She trusted him more than she ever can't imagine. He turns her world upside down. And he made her feel something that never in her entire world she thought she would feel. And now because she was feeling guilty and feeling ashamed of the beautiful thing they made, she hurt his feelings again. They said when you in love it makes you do stupid things, but this is beyond stupid. She right down hurt him, and now she prayed that he would forgive her. And if he does, she promised herself that she would tell him how much she love him and that if he take her back, she would gladly risk her job for him.
She was nervous when she arrives at his door, but she knew no matter what happen she needed to face him. She took a deep breath and knock. It felt like the longest wait in her entire life. The wait was going to change the course of her future and she was shaking. When he finally opens the door, he was standing barefoot, in jeans and no shirt. She looks up and down his body until her eyes stop on his faces. He was surprise and even nervous like she was. He looks back and then faces her again and passes a hand through his hair.
"Jules." He said.
"Can I come in; I want to talk to you?" She asked and he moves to let her in.
"Jules, why are you here?"
"Sam, I want to apologize, I am sorry I didn't give you a chance for you to talk to me and explain about Natalie."
"What about Natalie?"
"She told me that she is your sister."
"Yes she is, alright so I accepted your apology, is no big deal. I move on."
"Not only did I come to tell you I am sorry. There something else I want to tell you."
"Ok, what is it?"
"Sam, what happened between you and me Saturday night was amazing. I love each minute of it. It was free, exciting and daring. I know that if I would have never done something like that with no one else, because you the only one that I trust and love with all my heart."
"What are you saying?"
"I am saying that I regret every minute I broke up with you, and I want to tell you that I miss you, that I want you and most of all that I need you. So if would give me another chance I promise this time things would be different and everything I didn't do the first time I would make sure I do this time." Jules said and stared at him. He stared at her back. They were silent for a few second but it felt longer.
"Jules, I am sorry, it to late."
"No Sam, I would show you that it is not too late, and I know I hurt you, but let me make it right."
"That not what I meant. Yes I am hurt and I don't know if I could really deal with this one more time, but there something I have to tell you."
"Sam whatever it is, it not going to change my mind, if you don't want me, than tell me, we could forget about this and move on. But if there is a possibility of you wanting me, I would not give up on you and I would fight for you." Jules said and step up to his face. Sam was about to answer when someone step out his room.
"Hey baby, who was at the door?" The blond asked and Jules went pale. She stared at Sam and saw the guilt and hurt that passed through his eyes. And again Sam was about to answer and Jules beat him to it.
"Oh sorry Sam, I didn't know you had company, hi I am Jules, and I am Sam co-worker." Jules said and offer her hand to the blond.
"Hi Jules, I am Jennifer, nice to meet you, am Sam girlfriend."
"Girlfriend" Jules mumbles enough for Sam to hear but not Jennifer.
"So Jules, you want to stay, we order some food and I would love to here what Sam here really do all day." Jennifer said.
"Actually I can't stay, I just came to tell Sam sorry for giving him a hard time, but I have something to do, thank you anyways, maybe another day." Jules said and look at Sam who has not spoken since Jennifer came in to the living room.
"Ok, nice meeting you and I hope we get to go out more, and now that Natalie is here, we could group date."
"Sure that would be great, I just have to find myself a date and we on." Jules joke.
"Don't worry; I know guys that would go for you." Jennifer said and gave a wicked grin. Jules stared at her for a few second and then decide to say goodbye and leave.
"Bye" Sam manages to say after he close the door behind him.
***
Sam was shock that Jules came to his door and then also confess to him that she misses him and need him. And when she told him that she would fight for him, all he wanted to do was grab her and kiss her. But Jennifer interrupted them and he was glad for the distraction. He knows he loves Jules and he always would, but she broken his heart twice and he honestly can do it a third time. He has never being through something like this and after her, he wishes he would never feel the pain again. If falling love means that he needs to feel the constant crying and sad and like your chest is going to exploded then he rather not try it. Yes he is with Jennifer and he knows that he doesn't love her, which is not fair for her, but he told her and she said she could change him and that she didn't care, as long as he is her boyfriend. So he accepted it and now he is trying to forget Jules through her. Even if he goes back to Jules, who is to say that things would change. She always changes her mind, and she might resent him if she leaves the job for him, so he wouldn't want that. He could deal with her as a co worker, a friend, but never an enemy.
"She seems nice." Jennifer said getting Sam out his thoughts.
"Yes, she is a sweetheart." Sam said and frowns, remembering when he called her sweetheart at the hospital.
"She also pretty, but she needs to fix herself more, no wonder she doesn't have a boyfriend. She so old fashion." Jennifer said and sat on the couch. Sam wanted to scream at her and defend Jules but, he knew that she was pushing him and he was not on the mood to fight.
"The food should almost be here." He said.
"You know what, we should get her a date and I take her shopping to see if she looks more friendly and presentable." Jennifer said.
"Enough, I am going for a walk." Sam snaps.
"What about the food."
"Money is on the table, and I am not hungry anymore." Sam said and closes the door behind him. Jennifer stared at the door.
"You think I didn't notice that you love her and she you. Trust me; I would make sure that you two would never be together. Anyway is not like I have to worry, she really is a mess, and so old fashion. But after today, I don't think she would come back. Playing the nice card will just infuse to her nice side and she won't want to come between us." Jennifer said to herself and started thinking, who could she hook up Jules with.
***
Jules got home and put some running close and went for a run. She was mad, but not at herself this time, but at him. All this time she felt guilty because she slept with a guy that had a girl, who happen to be his sister, but in the end he still had a girl. Another blond and no matter how guilty she felt, she shouldn't because he knew that he had a girl and still slept with her. Jules runs for at least two hours before she decided that she wasn't mad anymore and went home. When she got home, he was sitting in her porch.
"What you doing here."
"I came to apologize."
"For what Sam? For having a girl, at the time I slept with you, or because you felt sorry for me, because I open up to you."
"Both or none."
"None"
"Yes none, honestly this was a mistake. Look I felt bad, the way you find out about me having a girl, but the only reason she became my girlfriend yesterday was because you dump me a second time. And I understand how you feel, but things are not going to change, we still work together and I will rather be your co worker then you hating me for ruining your life. So no I won't apologize because you a big woman and you knew what you were doing." Sam said and walks away. He didn't even give her a chance to talk.
Jules watching go and then went inside her house. She took her clothes off and went to the shower. She winces when she felt the hot water hit her body and then she started crying. She cries because he was right again. She pushes him away, then she decides to sleep with him and then didn't give him time to explain about Natalie and that led him to Jennifer. It was all her fault and nobody else. She stays a few more minutes and then came out. She dried herself and put her night gown and lay on her bed. She started thinking about everything that had happen in the last few days and what she really wants and with her life. Then the conversation with Jennifer came to mind. "Don't worry; I know guys that would go for you." What did she mean by that? Did she call me ugly, or think I can't get a guy. Jules thought. And with that it fuel her anger more and she knew what she was going to do.
"And don't worry Jennifer; I know Sam would go for me. I would fight for him and I would win him in the end." Jules said to herself and felt as sleep with a smile on her face.