A/N:
My my my ladies. We were very angry with Maggie, Edward, and the whole Cullen clan last chapter. I hope EPOV will make you happy. I know he has some 'splainin to do.
usuals: SM owns the people and shiz, all the twi-stuff...but the angst is mine...all mine.
Big Durty Kiltward thanks to my beta TorturedByTwilight...she held my hand and made Edward sweat it out.
As always, Sunfeathers pimps this story out, Edward thanks you from the bottom of his kilt...
Playlist:
The Cure: Burn
Ours: I am a monster
Robert Pattinson: Let Me Sign
Johnny Cash: Walk the Line
Johnny Cash and June Carter: Jackson
Foo Fighters: Everlong (acoustic version) srsly...
Ok...so Edward has something he wants to say...
EPOV
"Edward, we need to talk." Alice's eyes were like cobalt lasers.
"Not now, Alice. Mom asked me to-"
"Edward, Right. Now." I sighed as she took my hand and she pulled me into the room with my piano. She shut the door behind her and turned to me . I stood in front of her and crossed my arms.
"What the fuck is so important, Alice?" I was really frustrated with her, I had shit to do-
"Did you fuck Maggie at Mardi Gras?!" her voice was quiet but shrill. I flinched, her accusation hit me like a whiplash.
"How the fuck do you-"
She put her hand up to stop me, "That's all I needed to know," She sighed, shaking her head, "Look Edward, I'm going to be brief. Siobhan arrives today-"
"So?"
"So….Maggie is coming with them!" She looked at me like I had a fucking screw loose and rolled her eyes.
"I figured she fucking would but I hoped she wouldn't." I shifted and re-crossed my arms.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
"She's going to be all over you, Edward." Alice's face was so frustrated it was almost funny.
I felt myself smirk, "I can handle Maggie."
Alice's eyes widened and she pushed my chest. "It's not you I'm worried about!"
That got my attention, "What do you mean?"
"Bella!" She almost shouted at me.
What the fuck did she mean, Bella?! "What about her, what happens?" I uncrossed my arms and took a step towards Alice.
Alice's eyes took on a far away look as she replayed the vision she'd had, "I see her crying alone in a dark room-"
"Fucking what?! Is she hurt? What room? Where is she? When will this happen?" If someone fucking hurt her I'd kill them, hadn't she already been through enough?
"I see Maggie all over you," Her eyes focused back onto me, wide and anxious, "You're going to hurt her, Edward."
"What?!" I felt like Alice had slammed her tiny fist into my gut.
Her eyes glistening with tears, Alice shook her head at me, "You're going to fucking hurt her Edward, and you'd better make it right!"
***
All day my conversation with Alice had bounced around my head. How did I avoid hurting Bella? As if I would fucking do it on purpose?! I've been over this ground before and promised myself there was no fucking way I would make her cry again.
Because of fucking Maggie?! Literally, fucking Maggie?!
Last summer in Alaska, Maggie had come over to visit after she turned twenty-one. It was spring break and we all decided to go down to New Orleans for the three B's: booze, beads and boobs. From what little I can remember of the trip, somehow I had gone from Maggie flashing her tits at me to fucking her in my hotel room. The rest of the trip she had been all over me, waiting for a second invitation and I had told her straight that I wasn't fucking interested.
Now she was coming back in for another round and I really can't fucking wait. I don't usually do second tastes, one night stands with no strings were more my thing.
Nobody really knows about me and Maggie except for Emmett and now Alice. I can fucking handle her, I know she's a bitch. Problem was, I really didn't want the rest of the family knowing I'd fucked my adopted cousin…Esme would go ape-shit.
After Auntie Siobhan had walked through the door, I offered to go outside for the luggage, hoping to head off Maggie before she started any shit. Emmett, Jasper and I were outside heading to Siobhan's car when I saw her, ass up in the air in a ridiculously short skirt, leaning over the backseat.
Emmett threw me a look that said, you better take care of this.
Fucking great.
Maggie turned her around and saw me, her eyes lighting up and then her face muted into what was supposed to be a flirty smile and come fuck me eyes. I walked past her as if she wasn't there and helped Emmett lift the suitcases out of the trunk of the car.
We carried the cases up the drive and I knew Maggie would be right behind us. I felt myself shudder, knowing her eyes would be all over me. This was going to be a long fucking night.
As we took the cases through to the guest rooms, Emmett shut the door while Jasper and I were inside.
"Jasper and Rose know, Edward." Emmett blurted out, his eyes on me.
"Well, that's just fucking fantastic. Not that I mind you knowing Jaz, but the less people involved in this, the better." I looked at Jaz as I said this, and he nodded.
Emmett spoke up again, "Look, we all know from last spring break that she's fucking psychotic. She's moody and crazy and almost got us arrested twice at Mardi Gras. Just fucking tell her straight off."
Jasper nodded his agreement again and added, "More than Maggie, you need to be very careful with Bella. We've talked about this before Edward, she is very fragile."
"I fucking know all this. Jesus Christ, get out of my ass. I haven't even had the chance to talk to Maggie, yet." What the fuck was up with people? I was going to speak to her.
Emmett gave me another look and opened the door. We walked back out to the living room and I stood next to Bella. I wanted to wrap my arm around Bella as Maggie came closer but I didn't want to make her a target for Maggie. Maggie was introduced to Bella and she gave her the bitchiest look. I wasn't one to hit women but goddam I wanted to slap her for being rude to Bella in that moment.
Then she saunters over to me, leans way to close and purrs, "I hope we can pick up where we left off, Edward." I gave her a look that told her to eat shit and die. I couldn't say anything to her in front of Siobhan or Esme, knowing they would pick up on any hint of me being an asshole to Maggie. Fucking Maggie, who, in Siobhan's eyes can do no fucking wrong.
I saw Bella move away from us and I took a deep breath, hoping this was the worst thing that happened all night.
But it fucking wasn't, was it?
We sat on the couch and Maggie conveniently glued herself to my side. Bella sat near my legs and I was happy she was close by, at least her touch calmed me down. Maggie just wouldn't fucking leave off; when she thought no one was looking, she ran her hand up my arm which made my skin crawl. I saw Bella glance over her shoulder, her face falling and then getting up awkwardly to go and sit with Rose and Alice.
I leaned over and said to Maggie, "Maggie, fucking drop it. It's not fucking happening."
She pouted and crossed her arms. I decided that I must have drank a lot more last spring than I remembered to make me even go near this girl with my dick.
She tried to run her hand up my thigh when Siobhan was deep in conversation with the rest of the women and I lifted her hand up and squeezed it hard without hurting her. Very low I said through my teeth to her, "Fuck. Off. Maggie."
I got up, tired of her trying to dry hump me on the couch and went into the kitchen to get another beer. I took a deep breath and tried to calm down. If she kept at it, I was going to lose my shit in front of everyone. Esme didn't let me smoke in the house but I didn't give a fuck at this point, she could blame it on me being drunk or whatever. I lit up and flicked my ashes into an empty beer can. I tried to calm down and enjoy the cigarette but it was over too quickly and knew I couldn't chain smoke in the kitchen all night long.
I walked back in and brushed against Bella, needing to touch her but she flinched away from me and scooted closer, muttering a sorry. I felt like a world class asshole.
I leaned down to her and told her it was no accident. I looked up then, and Esme was frowning at me, motioning her head over to Maggie who was sitting all by herself. As if it was my fault that crazy bitch she was all alone.
FUCK.
The night carried on into singing and dancing, and of course I was expected to dance with Maggie and she used any excuse to rub herself all over me. If I gritted my teeth anymore to keep myself from telling her to fuck off again while we were dancing, my molars were going to shatter. I didn't want to start swearing at her while Esme and Siobhan were within earshot.
Finally the slower waltzes were finished and we could all sit down. I tried to find an empty spot near Bella but she had gotten up to stumble to the bathroom. I didn't see her face as she left but Alice threw me a dirty look from across the room.
One of the faster songs was started and I was happy to not have Maggie pressed all over me. Thank Fuck for Alice. I noticed Bella had come back and was going to sit next her but my reprieve from Maggie's fucking hands was short-lived as Maggie conveniently landed on my lap. I tensed up and was ready to throw her off but I was distracted as I saw Bella leave the room, her face upset.
Shit.
As discreet as I could I deposited Maggie on the floor and tried to follow Bella. I thought she had gone for the kitchen but it was empty. I made my way down the dark hall, my piano room door open but the light wasn't on. Maybe I had missed her going up the stairs. I was about to call out to her when I heard a giggle behind me.
I took a deep breath in, turning to her.
"Edward, I'm so glad we're finally alone." Why wouldn't this girl just fucking take a hint, already?!
I spoke to her quietly in case Esme or Siobhan wandered by. "Maggie, just fuck off, already. Whatever happened between us was a drunken mistake I'm not ever going to fucking repeat. Shit, I don't even remember half of it, so it can't even have been all that good."
She bit her lip, looking up at me from beneath her eyelashes and said, "Edward, you know you want it. I know how you like it."
What the fuck? Why couldn't she just fucking get it? I lost my temper then and pushed her against the wall not very gently. I leaned down into her ear so she would hear me. "Maggie, you fucking disgust me and it's never, ever, EVER, going to fucking happen again."
I was hoping that would be it, that she would get the message and run back into the living room. Hell, I didn't care if she ran in there in floods of tears and made me Captain Asshole for the evening.
What I didn't expect was for her to try and kiss me. This bitch really was crazy.
The worst part was Bella running past us. I heard her muffled sob as she went by and I knew, I fucking knew, that this is what Alice had tried to warn me about.
I pushed Maggie away from me, and heard her head knock against the wall, but I really didn't fucking care. She actually smiled at me, she must be one of those girls who likes it rough.
I started to go after Bella but Alice intercepted me at the stairs, her eyes full of anger.
In a hushed furious voice she ranted, "I told you, Edward. I fucking told you. She's up there, crying her heart out because she thinks you were playing with her. Go up there and fucking fix this right now," She poked me in the chest with one of her fingers and it actually hurt, "They are going to be here for three more days, you better find a way of avoiding Maggie, she's going to be on you like a bitch in heat all weekend."
***
I was standing outside her door, and her sobs were like fucking razorblades in my gut. I had done that. I had fucking hurt her and made her cry like that. I'm a fucking asshole.
I opened the door, the sounds of her crying still muffled but louder and seeing her whole body jerk with sobs was another slash across me. I stood there, not knowing what the fuck to do, how to make this right without making it worse. I was terrible at shit like this, saying sorry, but I couldn't just stand there and watch her cry.
"Bella?"
She turned, and her eyes were swollen with tears, her cheeks red, and the hair around her face was wet. Her eyes widened as she blinked around the tears.
In a tortured voice she whispered before she turned her face back into the covers, "Please go away." It was so pitiful, it forced my legs into motion and I was on the bed beside her. I tried to turn her over, trying to offer what comfort I could to her. She fought feebly against me, saying please over and over in that little voice that was cutting me to ribbons inside. Finally I was able to get her to put her face into my chest and I rubbed her back as we laid on top of her covers.
Her bed was smaller and it was awkward laying on it with her. I rubbed her back as she muffled into my chest. She huffed and tried to stuff her knuckles into her mouth to hold the sound back. I brushed tears off of her cheeks and tucked a strand behind her ear.
"Bella, I'm so sorry. It's not what it looked like." Fuck, how fucking cliché did that sound?
She angled her head down so she didn't have to look me in the eye and from behind her knuckles, she huffed and sobbed, "Ju-just tell m-me Edwar-d. I do-don't want to be a-a plaything to you."
Oh Jesus.
"Oh Bella, look at me." She shook her head and I reached between us to angle her chin up with my hand, "I swear to you, you are not a plaything to me," She blinked and tried to look elsewhere. I could tell she didn't know whether to believe me.
"Bella, if I wanted to be down there, with her, I would be. I came up here for you." Her eyes were so sad, she had been through so fucking much, and I had made it worse. I couldn't take it anymore, being the cause of this pain. I wanted to be the one to heal this even though it was me who caused it.
I leaned down and kissed her mouth softly, I could taste her, salty from the tears on her lips. She didn't pull away from me and I took it as a good sign. I leaned closer, wiping more tears from her eyes, and I kissed her, deeply, wanting to suck the venom out like you would a snakebite.
She was unresponsive at first, tense against me, warring with herself. I sucked her lower lip in the way I knew she liked it and nibbled gently, trying to show her I was sorry. She melted against me and her hands crept up to thread into my hair. I loved it when she did that. I deepened the kiss and she hesitantly met my tongue, her taste driving me closer to her.
She broke the kiss and sobbed. Her hands left my hair and pressed against my shoulders.
"Please, Edward. Just go. You were just kissing her downstairs."
"Bella, she was a fucking mistake that I stupidly and drunkenly made a year ago. I barely even remember any-"
"Just don't, Edward," she continued to try and push me away her little hands balled into fists against my chest and her head bowed, "Please. Just leave me alone."
I loosened my hold, and she shoved away from me. She crawled to the other side of the bed and hugged her knees, her face turned away from me.
I took a deep breath and got up from the bed. There was nothing else I could say and she was too upset to hear anything else from me.
I walked out of her room, feeling like a fucking dick. Alice had warned me, and I couldn't fucking listen to her.
***
APOV
To say that I had seen all this coming would sound cliché. But to see that skank with her hands on my brother was another thing entirely. I waited with Rose until after Siobhan and Liam had gone to bed. Maggie was on the couch still, and I had been biding my time till I could get her completely alone.
This was it.
Rose and I went in and Maggie smiled up at us, flicking at the buttons on the TV remote. "Alright Alice? Rose? Do you know where Edward disappeared to?"
I leaned over her and put my face really close to hers and Rose sat down next to her. I could see in her eyes she totally was ready to pee her pants.
"Now you listen, you stupid bitch, and you listen good. I'm only going to tell you once and I know you're sober enough to take this in. Stay. The. Fuck. Away. From. Edward. Don't go near him, don't touch him, don't innocently bump into him, don't even breathe the same fucking oxygen as him. If I see you messing with him again, you and I are going to have more than words to say to each other, do you fucking hear me?"
Maggie nodded, her eyes wide.
Rose leaned over then and was in her face, her voice deathly quiet, her eyes sharp as an ice pick.
"You are well out of your league and in deep water if you fuck with me and Alice. Back the fuck off him. Don't start anymore shit, you will regret it."
I leaned down again after Rose patted Maggie's cheek with her hand, "I'll be fucking watching you, bitch. Don't think that I won't see it. I fucking will and if I do, we will both kick your ass from here to Limerick."
I leaned away from her and stood back up, the very sight of her made me want to break my knuckles on her jaw. I didn't and I tried to see if I would have to, gazing off into the future, images flashing in front of my mind. She seemed to have got the message and I forced myself to walk away from her. Rose nodded at me as we rounded the corner into the kitchen and gave me a look.
"Personally, I hope she gives me an excuse," Rose's blue eyes were venomous as she turned and made her way towards the basement door.
***
EPOV
I stood outside on the porch, leaning against a column, looking out at the driveway. The rain was slapping the driveway and the sound was a lot like what I wanted to do to myself. How could a few hours fuck things up so royally? I took another drag on my cigarette, and held the air in, torturing myself before letting it go with a burst.
I looked up as Alice joined me, her arms crossed. Her eyes flashed at me and I knew she was dying to give me a mouthful.
"Just go on and fucking say whatever you're going to fucking say, Alice." I snapped at her.
"I can tell by your face that you're doing a pretty good job of berating yourself for me."
I choked out a laugh as I raised the cigarette to my mouth again, "I'm a fucking asshole."
"Yes you are." she agreed.
"I fucking hurt her really bad."
"Yes you did."
"I don't think I can fix this, Alice. She thinks I'm just fucking playing around with her." I felt myself grimace.
"Yes you can fix this and words won't make the hurt go away. You have to show her with actions, Edward. Mom is going to take them out tomorrow to go shopping, Siobhan wants to get something for her and Maggie to wear to the wedding. Why don't you and Bella go out and do something? She's been cooped up in the house since she hurt her ankle."
"What if she won't come with me?" I could just see Bella outright refusing to talk to me, let alone fucking go somewhere with me.
"You'll just have to persuade her, then, won't you?" Alice raised a dark eyebrow at me.
I flicked the butt of the cigarette towards the grass and breathed out smoke through my nostrils. Alice stepped closer to me and when I looked up, her elfin face was looking up at me, her eyes studying my face.
"Edward, you're not an asshole, you're just a guy. Guys do dumb shit. It happens." She moved closer and wrapped her arms around my waist, "You're my big brother, and I love you. You have a chance at something here, and I know you aren't going to screw it up. Just be yourself, ok?"
I sighed and returned Alice's hug. She was such a pest, sometimes, but as little sisters went, she was pretty cool. We stood there for a moment and then I looked down at her.
"Right enough of this sappy shit," I smiled at her and she looked up and smiled back, "Thanks, Alice."
She stepped back form me, "You're welcome, Big Brother."
We made our way back into the house, and Alice went towards the basement door. I watched her disappear behind it and then turned to make my way upstairs. I glanced at Bella's door and noticed there was no light glowing from underneath it. I listened to hear if she was awake. I couldn't resist checking on her and turned the knob and opened the door. She was lying in bed, her long legs twisted in the sheets, the cover kicked off. She was shivering and tossed fitfully in her sleep.
Was this because of the usual things that made her restless in her sleep or had I made her fucking worse?
Watching her face for any signs of her waking up, I reached over and disentangled the sheets from her legs. Pulling the blanket up, I tucked it gently around her. She sighed and I straightened away from her. If I stayed any longer, I would end up beside her. I turned to walk away quietly and just as I had my hand on the door…
"Edward."
I nearly jumped about a foot in the air when I heard her. Turning around, and in the faint light from the hallway, I could see she was still asleep. Her voice had been filled with such sadness and I wanted to go to her, to erase what I had done but I knew what Alice had said was true. I had to show her, I just didn't fucking know how.
***
I was sitting downstairs at the breakfast bar, the laptop on in front of me. The only thing I could think of to do with Bella that didn't involve walking was going to see a movie. Only I didn't know what she would want to see and if she would even want to come with me. I heard a door close upstairs and knew it was hers.
I heard Bellas limping shuffle behind me and then she walked past, her scent that was sweet like strawberries wafted by me. Then my eyes caught what she was wearing and I nearly choked on the orange juice I'd been drinking. She was wearing a little jean skirt, her legs bare, and a tight white t-shirt with a large black motorcycle on the front. She had put her hair up in a ponytail and her feet were bare her toenails painted a shiny black.
Fuck me.
I licked my lips and hoped she didn't see me before she turned around to look at me.
"Look, Bella. About last night, I-"
She interrupted me her features set in a hard look, "I don't want to hear your apologies anymore, Edward. You did what you had to do."
"Fuck. Bella, I'm an asshole, ok? It seems to be one of the only things I'm really good at-"
"Edward, I don't want you to play games with me. Please." Her eyes changed from the hard edge to imploring and I thought for a moment she was going to start crying again.
"Look Bella, I.." I stopped, her eyes looked like they would well up at any second and I didn't want to upset her anymore than I already had. Nothing else I had to say about last night really mattered.
"Will you come and see a movie with me today?"
"What? Are you serious?" She looked at me like I had grown a second head or something.
I knew this was a bad fucking idea. Great, fucking great. I sighed and got up, "Right sorry I asked." I slapped the laptop shut and picked it up. I walked out of the room, pissed off with myself.
"Wait!" She called out, "I'll go!"
I turned around walking back towards her with a big shit eating grin on my face. "What was that?" I raised an eyebrow at her.
She blushed and smiled, "I'll go. I want to go out with you to the movies."
"Well go put some shoes on." I ordered as she giggled and limped past me. She nearly stumbled in her haste and I followed her up the stairs. I wanted to touch her while she was smiling to absorb some of that happy energy she was suddenly exuding.
She quickly limped into her room and pulled out a little pair of ankle socks from a drawer. Sitting on the bed, she put them on and then reached underneath the bed to pull out a pair of black ox converse with little white stars on them. She struggled with her swollen ankle and I bent down to slip the shoe onto her foot and tied the laces for her. Managing the other shoe and tying the laces she stood up from the bed, a smile on her face.
"Excited, are we?" I looked down into her brown eyes, faint dark circles still underneath them, but they sparkled. She nodded and moved past me to grab a black purse and her little black hoodie.
Bella looked up at me expectantly and I looked at back at her, "Hmmm you're missing something."
Her expression changed to confusion and she looked down at herself, "What am I missing?"
I stepped closer and took her chin in my hands, lifting her chin up, "This." I leaned down and kissed her like I'd been wanting to since she walked into the kitchen. She tasted as good as she smelled, and I wanted to drown in her. I ran my tongue along her bottom lip and she sighed and opened her mouth. I tasted her deeper and she angled her head, pressing closer to me. I heard a thud and felt her purse hit my foot. Her hands slid up my shirt, palms flat as they ran over my chest. I groaned as she ran her hands over my nipples before she put her arms around my neck. My hands found their way from her neck down to her sides. I felt her breasts press against my chest and my arms went around her, squeezing her ass in the skirt, pressing her against me. I was instantly rock hard for her and the fact that she was wearing that little skirt was all too convenient. I deepened the kiss and our tongues caressed each other.
If I didn't stop this kiss now, the movies would go out the fucking window and as much as I would love to take advantage of the fact that she was almost grinding herself against me, the bed was right there, and she was wearing that little skirt, I knew I couldn't.
I pulled away from her and kissed along her jaw. She was making these little moaning sounds as I got closer to her earlobe. I nipped it with my teeth gently and breathed into her ear, "Bella, as much as I would love to fuck you right now, we should probably save some of this for the movie." I kissed her neck and she took in a little breath and angled her head to the side. I chuckled and bit her earlobe gently before putting some space between us. Her knees buckled and I held her for a second until she nodded and stood on her own.
I reached up and ran my thumb along her bruised lower lip, swollen from our kiss. "C'mon sweetheart. Let's go make out at the back of the movie theater," I smirked at her and she blushed. I bent down and picked up her bag where it had landed between us and handed it to her. She took it with shaking hands and slung it over her shoulder.
I took her hand and led her out of the room, down the stairs, and out to the garage to the Vanquish. Opening the car door cause I was a gentleman and shit, I waited for her to get in. She slid in and put her bag on the floor. I closed the door and I moved to the other side of the car to get in. I noticed she had her seat belt on already as I sat down and I fastened mine and put the key in the ignition. I revved the engine and docked my iPod.
"You pick a song."
Bella reached over and flipped through the songs, nibbling on her lower lip as she looked at the music I had. I had this wide variety of music, I loved just about everything from Bach to fucking ZZ Top. I was really fascinated by what she would pick, you could find out a lot about a person by what music they chose. I tagged Bella for an 80s pop and Cure girl.
But Bella always surprised me as Johnny Cash came on, promising to Walk the Line.
We lapsed into silence as the rugged scenery flew by us and Johnny's deep baritone filled the interior of the car. The lyrics were poignant and I glanced over at Bella who was mouthing them silently. As the song faded into the next, I wondered if she had chosen it on purpose.
The next song was Johnny as well, with June singing Jackson. Bella started tapping her foot and her eyes met min as I glanced over at her, smiling. As the first lines of the song started, we both sang along, me as Johnny and her as June. I laughed out loud as we sang, the song knitting us together as we kept up. Bella's voice was melodic and happy as she inflected the right amount of sugar and sass into it.
The last chorus started and we sang at the top of our voices, the car engine purring along as I pressed down for more gas. As the song finished we were both laughing out loud, and Bella's laugh did things to me that I didn't know I could feel. I'd never really spent this kind of time with a girl before, well at least someone who wasn't my sister and it was like it melted something in me. For some strange reason, it made me remember my mother, not as I last saw her, but humming a song as she made me a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I had forgotten how she used to wink at me before she licked the knife after she cut the bread into triangles for me.
"Edward?" Bella's voice was like a caress.
I blinked, tearing myself away from the memory and looked at her. Her eyes searched mine, "You went away there for a second." She gave me a small smile and I smiled back at her.
We pulled into the small town I had Googled, it had a very tiny movie theater with only two screens. It had two of the most latest releases, so I hoped Bella didn't mind and was ok with the two movies that were there.
I hoped to fuck she didn't choose the goddam Disney movie.
It was my lucky day, she turned her nose up at animated singing and chose the horror film that was on instead.
I got her a huge soda and she asked for something gummy. I had a feeling that gummy bears would not go down well and chose some sort of mixed bag of brightly colored gummy things. We sat down in the back row, which was against the back wall in the corner along the far wall. There were only two other people in the theater and they were on the opposite side close to the front.
Bella sat the drink between us after taking a long sip and offered me a cola bottle shaped gummy from the bag. I rolled my eyes and shook my head.
"Are you sure?" she pleaded. I turned to tell her no and as I opened my mouth she popped the gum in between my lips and giggled at me. I tucked the candy into my cheek and leaned down into her ear and growled.
"You'll pay for that later!" and then I bit her earlobe gently.
She gasped and let out a squeak and I put my arm around her as the previews came on. She settled the bag of candy in her lap when the movie started. It was dark and there was a huge scare at the beginning. Bella jumped and I leaned over to whisper in her ear again.
"Are you scared?" She shook her head, her eyes wide and glued to the screen. I wondered if bringing her to a horror film was all that great idea considering the girl had nightmares on a fucking nightly basis. I whispered her name into her ear and she turned to look at me, her eyes wide. I smiled and leaned closer, taking her bottom lip between my teeth, her lip sugary sweet from the candy she'd been eating. She sighed and turned towards me-Fuck, I loved it when she made that sound.
My free hand went to caress the side of her face as I kissed her. Her hands tangled in my hair and we picked up where we had left off in her bedroom. One of her hands was on my cheek and she was touching my face, her little fingers on my cheekbone before she moved it lower to my chest. My hand was on her thigh, just above her knee, squeezing and kneading the muscle while my tongue moved in and out of her mouth. She started making those sexy whimpering sounds at the back of her throat I loved and my dick went rock hard. I nibbled on her lip again before moving down to her jaw and she whispered my name in my ear as I found that spot under her ear she loved, making her shiver.
My hand moved higher up her thigh and she shifted her legs slightly as I moved my hand farther up, under her skirt, I couldn't stop from wondering what kind of panties she was wearing. Her legs suddenly clamped around my hand just as it brushed up her inner thigh. The plastic bag of candy landed on the floor with a deafening crackle.
I pulled back, and looked at her face. Her eyes were wide as they looked up at me.
"Bella? Are you ok?" I studied her face in the flickering light of the movie. She shook her head. I gently moved my hand back to her knee and leaned to whisper into her ear, "What's wrong, sweetheart?"
I leaned back to watch her face as she answered, and I swear her blush was dark enough to see in the faint light. She whispered something too low for me to hear and I leaned closer for her to whisper in my ear. "It's just a bit too fast for me, Edward." her whisper was hot in my ear but I could tell she was really embarrassed and when I leaned back to look at her face, she wouldn't meet my eyes.
I whispered in her ear, "Is it because I-"
But she pulled away, shaking her head and then leaned closer to whisper in my ear again, "No. No, it's not you Edward. I'm just-I don't-" she was stuttering and it hit me while she was trying to find the words.
This is why Bella was so different for me. She wasn't one of the many sorority girls or drunken party girls that entertained me for a few hours. Bella was the kind of girl who got embarrassed if you felt her up in public, who didn't sleep around, who waited for phone calls that didn't come, and for some guy to tell her all things she wanted to hear.
The question is, was I, could I, be that guy?
a/n: Well then, is Edward forgiven? Can he be that guy for Bella? For you?
Edward was a chain smokin motherfucker while I was writing this chapter, srsly. He was not happy where I left chapter 10. Please review, it makes for quicker posting...I swears it. Oh yeah, and don't forget the twilighted thread, link on my profile...teasers and what have you posted there. And I'm on twitter, too. xo