11. Part 1

GRAY POV

"All boarding the train to Limerick thank you for your patience and we will boarding in ten minutes, Thank you."

I walked towards the train with a backpack on my back and a small suitcase wheeling behind me. This was a quickly made decision and I feel like I may regret it in time to come but I need to get away from everything for awhile.

Kelly and I broke up, we got into a massive fight after I found out that Juvia had left. I had no information on where she was, what she was doing and if she was even okay. Kelly told me that I had been overreacting and it didn't matter where she ended up too and to make matters worse, Kelly called Juvia down to the dirt which I wasn't standing for. We fought some more and than I told Kelly to pack her bags and get the fuck out.

I called Lucy and told her where I was going for awhile, just so they wouldn't worry. I'm hoping Juvia will come back and worry about me. I mean I should be mad at her and I am but I know the moment I see her that all of those angry feelings will wash away.

I'm from up north originally so it will be nice to see the people I left behind, including my mother. As soon as I get off this train I'm going to visit mother and than stay with my foolish father who I did deeply love.

My mothers grave wasn't too far away from our home. She had died when I was eleven and fell threw the ice trying to save me. It was a burden that I lived with everyday even though dad told me that it wasn't my fault. Mom had true beauty, even I knew it. Everyone around thought that dad was the luckiest man alive to be with her. Although lots of people resented dad back than because he was a troublemaker. I didn't get the full story but that's what mom told me.

I walked straight to my mothers gave as soon as my feet touched the crunchy snow. Her grave was on a hill that apparently her and dad met too. I sat down in the crunchy snow looking at the large grey headstone ahead of me. I couldn't stop looking at her name.

Mika Fullbuster.

It really does seem like only yesterday I was eleven running around in the snow, not caring what I did. She fell threw the ice that day because I was being careless.

I talked to mom for awhile, telling her how I've been and what I've been doing.

"You know that girl Juvia I told you about, well I'm living with her now and we were pretty good friends until everything just went downstream and now she left and I have no idea where she is. It's funny because a few years ago I just wanted her to leave me alone and now I can't get her out of my head."

I felt snow lightly begin to fall from the sky. I turned back towards the headstone and wiped a tear.

"I'm sorry."

I went to get up and say my final words when I heard my name.

"Gray?"

I turned around to see my father standing there with freshly picked herbs in both hands close to his chest. I shook the snow off me and stood towards him.

"Hey."

He gave me a small smile.

"You should have told your old man that you were dropping by, I would have cooked a fine meal for us." Silver said with a chuckle.

"I know but it was a last minute choice." I said putting my hands in my pockets.

"Let's get you home son."

"Yeah, one second."

I turned towards mom grave and smiled.

"I love you."

Dad and I actually got along when there was nobody else around. He wasn't making a lot of real perverted jokes or shoving my head into anybody's boobs. I helped him cook dinner, we ate and than sat down in the living room just talking.

"Juvia just sounds like she's stressed. I'm sure she'll come back in no time." Dad exclaimed.

I shrugged. "She's so hard to figure out, one minute I think I finally understand her and what she wants but than she turns around and fucks me up totally."

Silver laughed. "All women are like that."

"I've been with women dad, none of them are like her."

"Sleeping with a random woman and sleeping with a woman you know are different."

I sighed. "I can't stop thinking about Juvia, she just won't leave my mind."

"Ahh young love." Silver joked.

"I don't love her, I don't know how I feel about her." I said looking up at the ceiling.

"Let me tell you a story about your mother and I." Silver smiled.

"Back when I was around the age that you are now, I was a troublemaker back than and just because I was dating your mother doesn't mean I was going to go soft. I loved to party, I loved alcohol and I got myself into a few drugs. Hell, I even went to jail a few times expect your mother and grandfather bailed me out. So I was mean, nobody wanted anything to do with me."

My eyes widen. I thought I was bad.

"Your mother was different though, She told me that she had loved me since the day she had first seen me. I couldn't understand why though, so I did everything I could to push her away. I tried for two years but she told me that she still felt the same, I gave in and started to grow a soft spot for her that only she would see but with that being said we had our fights,make up and break ups just like you and Juvia."

"Mom always did have lots of patience and now I can see why."

Silver chuckled. "Eventually I realized that I loved your mother, she was a kind woman who had melted the ice that froze my heart. Everyone around her tried so hard to get her to stop seeing me. Mika refused, she said she will always love me and their is no other man for her. So than I asked her to marry me, people around here tried to call off the wedding and even objected."

I scoffed. "The same people here now that like you?"

Silver nodded. "Everything changed when your mother got pregnant with you. The first few months were hard but once everyone seen you, they all accepted Mika and I together."

"So I'm the reason?" I asked.

"Yes son."

"So what's the point of this story?" I asked.

"Gray, I've heard what you use to be up to down south. You're more like me than we would both like to admit. I'm saying that you may think that you don't want a relationship with Juvia and may not want to admit your growing a soft spot but Juvia can enter your mind like no other. I want you to realize your feelings for her and don't keep her waiting for you to return her feelings because she may not always want to wait."

"I'm a little confused but I also understand what you mean." I said.

"You know I'm no good with telling stories and meanings."

"Just hurry up and find your true feelings for her before it's too late."

"Do you think that if you didn't return moms feelings when you did that she would have still waited?" I asked.

"Probably not, a woman can only have so much patience in a man." Silver teased.

"Dad I don't know my true feelings, that's the problem!" I yelled in frustration.

"You can't actually look for feelings Gray, they just come to you." Silver said smiling.

"This isn't funny!"

"It is because it's so easy to see you have feelings for her." Silver laughed.

"You know you give shitty stories and shitty advice." I chuckled.

"Either way, stay up here and bond with your good old dad, it'll give you a break from women." Silver said patting me on the back.

"What are we gonna do?" I asked.

Sliver gave me a smirk. "Drink,hunt, play some hockey."

"I do miss playing hockey." I said slowly.

"Atta boy!" Silver smiled.

THIRD PERSON POV

"What was it that you wanted to talk to me about?" Juvia asked innocently.

Gray could feel his palms sweaty and his mind was clouded. He had this all planned out in his head.

"I um well I kind of like you Juvia." Gray stuttered with a deep blush on his cheeks.

Juvia scoffed. "You kind of like me? That's pretty pathetic."

Gray felt his heart clench.

"But Juvia-

"Maybe if you had to grow a set earlier and tell me how you really felt than I wouldn't have got back together with Lyon." Juvia said putting her hand on Lyon's chest.

"Oh Gray, I'm sure you'll find somebody but always remember that I won Juvia." Lyon smirked.

"Wait! Juvia come back! I do like you!"

"So long Gray!" Juvia giggled.

"Juvia!"

Gray shot up from bed trying to regain proper breathing. He looked around the dark room that he had once lived in. Gray put his hand to his forehead and wiped off the sweat.

"It was just a dream Gray." he said quietly.

It's been like this for a week, Gray kept having dreams- no nightmares about losing Juvia. He'd wake up every night in cold sweats and a heavy chest. Gray grabbed his phone and called Juvia. He needed to hear her voice, he needed to know that she was alright.

"Hi."

"Juvia-

"You've reached Juvia, sorry I can't answer your call right now but you can leave me a message and I'll get back to you as soon as possible."

Beep

Gray hesitated. "Juvia, I um call me."

He shook his head and punched the wall. She was driving him crazy, she was haunting him. He needed to see her.

Silver knocked than came in with a worried look.

"I heard a bang, are you okay?"Silver asked.

"She's torturing me, I need to go see her. Dad I tried to forget her but I can't!" Gray shouted.

Silver shook Gray. "You need to calm down."

"I am, I'm just confused." Gray lied.

"You know this isn't healthy right?" Silver said.

"I know that I do have feelings for her but I'm afraid of rejection." Gray sighed.

"Go get a cold shower, go back to sleep and we'll go to the bar tomorrow."

Part 2

11. Part 2

GRAY POV

I fell into the snow bank and sat up quickly.

"Bastard that hurt!" I argued.

"Geez you think a young man like yourself be able to take down this handsome old feller." Silver teased.

I shook the snow from my hair and scoffed.

"That was a flute!" I shouted.

"So was the last three goals I scored on you." Silver smiled.

I stood up and noticed a girl staring at me from a distance. We met eye to eye than she ran away. I shrugged it off and skated on to finish the hockey game with dad.

"Hehe all that winning made me super hungry." Dad teased as we walked down the street.

"Yeah Yeah." I said.

"I think those eyes of yours get more droopy every time I see you." Dad laughed poking my cheek.

We sat down in a sports bar and dad couldn't stop teasing me about the waitress we had. She was the same girl that I seen earlier when I was playing hockey.

"Well I'll go talk to the fellers over there while you talk to that pretty lady." Silver winked.

I thought he wanted me and Juvia to date.

She sat down across from me.

"Is the food good?" she asked.

"Uh yeah." I said biting into a french frie.

"I haven't seen you around here before, are you new?" she asked.

She had nice eyes.

"I'm originally from here but I moved down south. I'm just visiting." I said nervously.

"I'm Maddie." she smiled.

"Gray."

"I just finished my shift and I think you're cute so you wanna hang out?" she asked.

I went to say yes but Juvia came to my mind.

"I'm sorry but I have a girlfriend." I lied.

She frowned. "So?"

My eyes widen. "I would never cheat on her."

She stood up and sat next to me. "I could make you feel so good."

"So can my girlfriend."

She chuckled. "What if she's out with another guy as we speak?"

The grip on my glass tightened. "She wouldn't do that."

"And how would you know? Your all the way up here, she could be out fucking one of her ex boyfriends."

I slammed my fist on the table. What if it was true? What if Juvia went back to Lyon and they fucked and now their dating again? I can't handle that.

"Lead the way." I smirked.

"That was amazing." Maddie said lying down in her bed.

I rubbed my eyes and sighed. I fucked up again.

"I gotta go, this was a mistake." I said pulling up my pants.

"Let me give you my number." Maddie smirked

I stormed out of her house and into the cold. I called Juvia and got her voice mail again so I called Lucy.

"Gray?" Lucy asked.

"Hey." I said nervously.

"What's up, hows up north?"

"Cold." I said.

"Why are you calling?" she asked.

"Have you been talking to Juvia?" I asked.

I could hear her hesitating over the phone.

"Juvia is staying with a friend." Lucy said quietly.

"Who is it? You don't have to lie to me." I asked.

"A ex boyfriend." Lucy said gently.

I remained quiet.

"Gray? Are you okay?" She asked.

"No I'm not, I just slept with some random girl and now your telling me Juvia is sleeping with one of her ex boyfriends!" I shouted.

"Gray you got it all-

I hung up and made my way towards my old house. Dad was sat in the living room watching hockey until

I stormed in.

"I'm going home." I said packing my suitcase.

"Have you figured out your feelings?" dad asked.

"No actually, I just found out Juvia is staying with one of her boyfriends so I'm going to go down there and kick his ass." I said with fury.

"Gray you can't do that, you aren't in your right state of mind!" dad argued.

"Look I know I care about her enough to want to make a special trip down to stop her from seeing one of her ex boyfriends. If they get back together than I'll never be able to tell her how I feel." I sighed.

Dad gave me a hug and nodded.

"Call me and let me know how it goes."

"Yeah."

A/N: Okay I'm going to be honest, this was a shitty chapter. I'm sorry.