It had been snowing for all day, the streets were icy and April was on a 24 hours shift. She had had a terrible headache for all day and she arrived at the hospital in a bad mood.

At midnight she was sitting on chair into the nurses' station with the other doctors, they talked about the holidays and about Christmas presents.

"There was a car accident on the motorway, ten cars involved. Almost 50 people." Said one of the nurses.

April took a breath and stand up, she wore the green overcoat and waited with the other. The chief of A&E gave to each doctor a different patient. April got a woman, young, 30, very injured.

When she arrived April tried to focus on the patient, but she couldn't, when they stripped her, April ran her hand on her torso. That woman was pregnant.

"I need an ultrasound scan" shouted April to a nurse "…and a midwife"

Several minutes later, April was sitting on the floor of the emergency room, with the plates of the defibrillator still in her hands.

Womb's rupture and cardiac arrest. She bled to death and April felt so sick and so dizzy.

"I have never lost two people in a row" said sadly to a nurse, the midwife couldn't do anything. The baby was already dead.

April tried to get up from the floor, but she collapsed against the waste paper bin where she emptied her stomach.

"April, go home." Said the chief of A&E, a nice and sweet woman "If you need to talk, call me. Now you have only to rest."

"I feel so bad."

"I know that feeling, April, it is part of our job. I am very sorry… but you have done an outstanding job with the other patients, and another thing, there's a young man, he is not bad injured, only a little cut on his knee, he wants you."

"I might throw up again." Said April with her hand on her mouth

"April deep breaths, it's only a sensation."

"I feel so dizzy."

"Do you want a banana bag?" asked the older doctor

"No, thank you…"

"I don't want you to faint somewhere.. go to that boy."

The boy was Eric, he slipped on the icy road and had little cut on in eyebrow and another on his knee.

"April, I am driving you home, my motorbike is destroyed."

"Thank you Eric"

"Do you need anything?" asked the boy a bit worried by April's paleness

She threw up again into a bucket and collapsed against the wall, Eric lifted her and put her into her car.

Eric and April arrived at home at 4 o'clock in the morning. He took her to her room and went to woke both Jane and Alice.

"April may need both of you" said the young man a bit sorry because Jane looked exhausted and also Alice was pretty tired.

"What's happened?" asked Jane checking on Alexandra in the crib

"There was a car accident and April lose a patient."

"Oh, poor dear." Said Alice, putting her hand on her mouth "Jane, come back to sleep, I am going to talk to my daughter."

April was on her bed, with her books in her lap.

"April"

"Mother, go away, please, go away, I don't want to talk to anyone."

"April, what's happened at the hospital?" asked Alice, sitting on a chair.

"Car accident, a lot of wounded, pregnant woman, 23 weeks, womb rupture, cardiac arrest, she is dead now." Said April and then crying she shouted: "I lost her, and her baby. I couldn't do anything"

"April, you are an outstanding doctor."

"I know, but it's hard."

Alice let her daughter cry against her breast, she felt the hot tears damped her nightgown, and she wrapped her arms tightly against her.

"April, you know that you should have been born on June, instead you were born on 12th April. I had a car accident, a stupid one, but I broke my pelvis, completely, into two parts, I was 32 weeks pregnant."

April now was looking into her mother's eyes.

"They did a cesarean section to bring you to the world, because my uterus ruptured and I was bleeding very badly, your dad instead, who was driving was perfectly fine. He felt very badly for it.

I had an hysterectomy, I was going to be dead, the doctor explained me that I had cut from the fundus to the cervix, they only saved my ovaries. And I hired a nanny because I spent three months in hospital to have my pelvis recovered. And I was too depressed, I was young, but I didn't have my uterus anymore, it was stupid, but I felt very depressed.

Your dad spent days near you crib into the high care nursery, he talked to you a lot, and he kept saying that you looked like my mum and like his mum. And it was true. Because now I understand how marvelous you are, you are absolutely your daddy's girl. He would be proud of you, and also of Jane."

April fell asleep and was awaken the day after, almost at noon by Jane, she was walking down the stairs with Alexandra in her arms and she was singing her "April come she will" by Simon and Garfunkel.

"Auntie April, mum would like to take you out this afternoon, while I am going to stay with Lovejoy and I am going to my first auction." Said Jane smiling talking for April.

Two hours later Jane and April were going to Cambridge for some shopping, Lovejoy was playing with her baby daughter-to-be at the auction instead of pay attention to the auctioneer. And Alice went to the churchyard, to her husband grave.

"Philip we made a fantastic daughter, you should be proud of her. And do you think that Lovejoy and Jane would be happy… and what about me and Tinker?" Alice looked to a little bird who was right on the tomb stone and she said: "Philip, I think it is a yes."