Disclaimer: I own nothing, only my ideas.
This is my second fanfiction to write. All credit for the storyline goes to kaya17tj, as this is originally all her idea.
Chapter 11
Letters to My Heart
Haley was so pleased that she was able to start letting go of everything - things that she had kept bottled up inside for over the past year. When she got home from being at the beach, she was more excited about being emotionally connected back to music than writing Nathan a reply. She knew the lyrics in her head just had to come out. And she could write Nathan before the post man came tomorrow.
She lifted her guitar from beside her desk and set down on her bed, began to play a few chords of the guitar. As if like magic, the melody of the song came to her in minutes, she was able to sit on her bed, write the melody and lyrics into her notepad. For the next few hours, she sat in her room playing guitar and singing the new song she had created. There was still a wonder in her that was Nathan the person who helped get her back to this point in her life.
While Haley is in her room after a few hours, Lydia went to check that everything was okay with her daughter. She had come home, went straight to her room and has been there since. Over the past year, this was a normal pattern for Haley. It still made her worry about what was going on in Haley's mind. When she reached Haley's room, the door was slightly ajar and she could see Haley on her bed with a book in her hand. Typical Haley, she smiled. She guessed that Haley was studying. The one expression she did notice on Haley was that her daughter was smiling; this was a rare expression to see over the past year. She knew not to disturb her and let her get on with what looked like study.
As the afternoon passed, Lydia is a little worried that Haley still hasn't come out of her room, since she made it home earlier that morning. So she thought it was a good idea to call Brooke to come over and maybe she could get some answers from Haley. When Brooke arrived at the James' house she went straight to the kitchen to find Lydia. As they were talking they could hear singing, which sounded like it was coming from Haley's room. Within a matter of minute of just listening to her sing they knew, that they were starting to get the old Haley back again.
Brooke had a feeling that it may have something to do with the letter between Nathan and Haley. That was now helping bring Haley back to her normal self again. If anyone was to tell Lydia the reason her daughter was happy again, Brooke knew it would have to come from Haley herself. After finishing her conversation with Lydia, she headed up to Haley's room, to see what was going on with her best friend.
When she got to Haley's room, she knocked on the door but Haley was too busy singing and playing guitar to hear Brooke. She walked into the room so she was now in clear view for Haley to see her. After a few minutes, Haley came back to reality when she realised Brooke was standing in front of her. She nearly fall off her bed dropping her guitar in the process. For Brooke - to be standing there without Haley realising she was there - scared the life out of her.
"Wow, Brooke what the hell? You scared the crap out of me, could you not at least knocked the door before you scared me half to death" she replied, picking her guitar up off the floor.
"Well, best friend, actually I did knock but you were too busy singing and playing guitar to hear me" she smiled back at Haley.
Haley now felt a little embarrassed for going off on Brooke. "I'm sorry" she replied, with her big puppy dog eyes. Brooke just laughed before sitting down beside her and giving her a hug. She wanted to keep Haley in the good mood that she seemed to be in. They both started laughing before they broke away from the hug. Brooke has always been an inquisitive girl and although she wanted to keep Haley in her good mood, she also wanted to know what was making her best friend so happy and what got her back into the music. Brooke had a pretty good idea what her answers to all these different questions were going to be.
Brooke looked back at Haley, "So when I was downstairs with your mom, we both heard you singing. You and I both know that from your experience over the past year, to hear you singing is a big step for you." Haley was still in her good mood, slightly nervous, just nodded. "I was just wondering where or who gave you this newfound confidence to get back into music?"
Haley sat there, trying to figure out in her head how she was going to give her answer to Brooke. She wasn't sure if it was something she worked through on her own. And there was still that question on her mind about Nathan and his letter. Maybe he was the connection to her music. "Well Brooke, you know that I have not really resolve things that happen over the past year but since I started to write with Nathan,... I think that maybe it has helped me to start dealing with everything. I'm still scared to go back there, get my heart and dreams broken again. You know that I have worked hard to try and build myself back up as a person again after everything that happened."
Brooke was a little unsure on what advice to give her after everything she had just said. She knew she would have to be able to try and find the words, to reassure Haley that everything would be okay. "I understand going back into music after everything is scary for you. But I can see it makes you happy. So please don't push it away again. Try using it get your feeling out. Maybe if you trying discussing it with this Nathan guy, it might help you feel more connected to it again."
When Brooke left later that afternoon, Haley thought about everything they had discussed. She wanted to finish up her new song and record it on a cd so she could send it to Matt. While recording the cd, the idea that Brooke had mentioned - the one about her discussing her music with Nathan more, was at the fore front of her mind. Once the cd was finished, she wrote a quick note to Matt and attaching it to the cd. She was now feeling open and confident about being able to write back to Nathan. She sat down at her desk to write the letter, so she could send it off tomorrow, along with the package for Matt.