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"Abby! I need you to come over ASAP."
"Well Hello to you too Liv." Abby smiles into the phone.
"Abby now is not the time I am freaking out!"
"Why what's wrong?"
"I just threw up twice and I'm late having my period this month. What isn't wrong?"
"Oh my God Olivia! What are you going to do if-"
"No. Don't say it. I can't be! Not right now. Me and Fitz are barely back on good terms and I do mean barely."
"I'm sure you are over exaggerating Liv. You and Fitz aren't ever barely anything. That man is crazy about you."
"So. That doesn't stop him from being mean at times."
"Of course not but have you called him on it?"
"All time Abby but he just doesn't get it. I'm starting to think it's me."
"Olivia Pope. Stop it right now. If you feel some type of way about the way you're being treated you need to lay it out there. I don't care if it is your precious Fitzy."
"I know Abbs but it's not that easy. Can you just do me a favor and drop off two tests for me?" Olivia says trying to switch the subject. She doesn't want to think about Fitz and the way he has been hot and cold with her lately. More cold than anything.
"1. It is that easy. 2. You need to do it before you bring a child into this world. And yes I will bring them over. You lay down and get some rest. I got you!"
"Thanks so much Abby and you're right I do need to bring it up. Thanks for telling it to me straight."
"Anytime Liv! I'll leave them in the bathroom if you are sleep. Lay down and stop worrying. Doctors orders."
"Ok Doc, bye." Liv says with a giggle and climbs in her bed.
Fitz was in his office double checking all his pockets making sure he had everything when he hears a knock at the door. "It's open."
"Hey Fitz you didn't come back to my house last night. Does that mean you and Liv are back you know.." Stephen says as he pokes Fitz annoyingly in the chest.
"Cut it out Stephen! What do you want?"
"Touchy, touchy today aren't we Grant! I would think you would be in a better mood after getting back with that beautiful wife of yours."
Fitz shoots him a look and Stephen holds his hands up in mock surrender, "Hey I'm just being honest."
"Yea but still don't worry about my wife's beauty I've got that covered. And I would be in a better mood if women weren't so complicated."
"What do you mean?"
"Well for starters me and Liv had a great start to the morning if you know what I mean but out of nowhere she starts giving me attitude about what time I was going to be home."
"What time you were going to be home? I don't follow." Fitz tells him about their morning exchange.
"Really Fitz, you couldn't just give her a time? You weren't being difficult you were being a jerk."
"What? How was I being a jerk? I do the same thing every week."
"Think of it this way Fitz, if you had asked her the same question and she responded the way you did would you or wouldn't you have bitten her head off?" Fitz just stares at him. "Okay, well can I be honest with you for a minute Fitz?"
"Aren't you always?"
"Very true, Very true." He says with a laugh. "But in all seriousness. I know you would have bitten her head off because I've seen you do it for less. Just listen," he says when he see Fitz about to inject. "I don't know what caused the changed in you Fitz but you've been short with her for a while now. It sounds like she is bringing it up but you are blowing her off and she is too weak to actually force the issue with you-"
"Olivia is far from weak!" Fitz spits at him.
"I know that Fitz but she is very weak where you are concerned and I don't know if she feels guilty over the last year of your marriage or what but you need to get your attitude in check before you push her too far away."
Fitz doesn't know what to say because he knows Stephen is right and he hates that he let it get that bad that other people would notice. Who else had noticed he wondered. He was ashamed and wanted, no, he needed to go to her to apologize to make it better, to beg for forgiveness.
"Hey don't beat yourself up. It's not too late to make it right but you need to make it right. Look, I have to go but please let Liv know I said Hello." Stephen says as he gets up and turns to leave.
"Stephen."
"Yea?"
"Thanks man. Thanks for being man enough to call me on my BS."
"No problem, that's what I'm here for."
"Liv? Baby where are you?" Fitz says throwing his bag and jacket on the couch. He continues on down the hallway towards the bedroom. "Liv" he says lightly, not wanting to wake her if she is sleep.
"Fitz?" she says turning over rubbing her eyes.
"Shh, shh. Don't get up. Scoot over."
"I wasn't sleep I was just laying down."
"Can I lay with you?" He says leaning on the edge of the bed. "Please do.." she reaches for his hand and he places his in hers and slips off his shoes. Sliding under the covers and sitting against the headboard he pulls her in his arms. "Are you feeling any better?"
"A little bit"
"What do you think it was? Old vegetables in your smoothie? I told that drink would be the death of you." He chuckles when she pokes him in the stomach.
"It was not my shake thank you very much!"
"Well what was it? I don't want your cooties" he says playfully pushing her off him.
"Fitz stop, leave me alone." she says trying to hold on to him and laughing. "What has gotten into you? You are in such a silly mood right now."
"Nothing, I just missed my baby and thinking of you makes me happy." he says squeezing her tightly and kissing the top of her head.
She closes her eyes and exhales. She isn't sure if now is the right time to bring up that she might be pregnant and that she has two test on the counter in the bathroom that she was waiting on him before she took. He was in such a good mood and she didn't want this to ruin it.
They never really talked about kids. It came up once early on in their relationship but they both agreed it was too soon. They were too busy working and building their careers to consider a child back then but now she wasn't sure where they stood on the issue.
Plus they had a lot of other problems to talk to through including the fact that Harrison had stopped by earlier. Though nothing happened she didn't want to hide anything from him. Maybe I should just wait until tomorrow she thought to herself.
"Livvie?" Fitz says breaking her out of her thoughts.
"Huh..what? Did you say something?"
"Uhh yes I have been asking you what you think is wrong. Where were you just now?"
"Just thinking about some things..It's nothing.."
"C'mon Liv you know I know you better than that. I can tell when something is bothering you. Communication, remember?" he says as he lift her face to meet his so he can look her in the eyes.
Well it's now or never she thinks to herself. "Well, after I got sick I rushed to look at my calendar and realized that I'm late." she says so fast he almost misses it.
"Whoa, slow down Livvie. Are you saying what I think you are saying?" he says slowly waiting for confirmation before reacting.
"If what you're thinking is that I might be pregnant. Then yes, I'm saying what you think I'm saying." she said tentatively not sure what his reaction would be.
"Are you serious Liv!?" He jumps up on the bed pulling her up with him and into the biggest hug. "This is great!" Noticing that she wasn't returning the same reaction he leaned down to see if he could read her face and when he couldn't he said "This is great, right?"
"I don't know.." she moves out of his embrace, off the bed, into the bathroom and grabs the test off of the counter and sits on the floor across from the sink.
He sighs, climbs down off the bed, goes into the bathroom and sits next to her grabbing her hand in his intertwining the fingers.
"Tell me what you're feeling, tell me why you are worried. Is it me? I know I left but Livvie I promise that will never happen again no matter-"
"Fitz..stop that's not it. Honestly, do you think we are ready for this? I mean we can't even go a day without arguing. I don't think bringing a child into this would be the best thing right now."
"Everything you just said is something that we can fix that we can work on and make better with time. One thing that is huge in all of this is Love. Our Love. I have never loved anyone or anything the way that I love you. I'm sorry if I made you doubt that with the way I've been acting but..." his voice breaks and he wipes a tear from his cheek, "..but I need you to know that I can't live without you, I can't breathe without you. This," he turns to her and puts his hand on her stomach and she wipes his tears with her thumbs, "The tiniest possibility of this and the fact that I've dreamed of this moment with you since we got married is everything to me. I will do whatever you need me to but please know that this is not and will never be a burden to me."
They sat there on the floor in each others arms trying to compose themselves.
Olivia had never felt so much love and support from one person in her life. This was the man she married, the man she would do anything for, spilling his guts and his fears to her over the possibility of them bringing another life into this world. It hadn't even been confirmed yet and it didn't matter to him because their love was enough and that was all she needed to know. She gets up and grabs the small paper cup and starts to walk into the other part of the bathroom and Fitz catches her hand.
"Livvie, what do you need me to do?"
"Shh..nothing. You've done everything already. I'm going to go take these then we can wait to see what they say together." she kisses him and goes to take the tests.
Placing the tests on the counter she moves back to the floor sitting between his legs with her back on his chest.
"Fiv minites" she says softly. He looks at his watch, nods and wraps his arms around her snuggling his face in her curls.
"It's time." he says after what seems like a life time.
She was ready, she knew that it wouldn't be easy but with him by her side she knew that everything would be ok. She smiles a little and touches her stomach subconsciously as she stands up and holds her hands out for him to grab. "Do you want to do the honors" she asks. "Really?" He says with the biggest smile.
"Yes Fitz." she gigles "Go ahead."
He walks over to the counter and she is standing behind him trying not to peek. She's so ready to start this new journey that she can barely contain herself. He turns around and her face drops instantly.
"Not positive."
She didn't need to hear it. She could see it in his face, feel it in his posture and her heart breaks. She should be happy right? This isn't what they needed right now, she tried to reason with herself but she couldn't control the overwhelming sadness that came over her, the tears that come with it.
His throat is dry, his head is hurting and his heart is broken. Broken from the child he almost had, the child he had seen in his dreams, the beautiful daughter he imagined with her eyes, the son with his personality and her determination. Not being able to hold in his cries of disappointment he picks her up in his arms and puts her in the bed. He pulls the blanket up around them and holds her tight and they cry until they fall asleep.
Author's Note: Abby and Stephen both were giving some good friend advice in this chapter. Liv and Fitz have a conversation with out any arguing and also share a tough moment with each other. I think this will bring them closer. Were they ready for a child? Are they ready for one now that it was almost a reality? If Liv isn't pregnant then what is wrong with her? We will see! Thanks for reading! Until next time..