A/N- Okay I am a little confused I need some help (No comments on that one Jace) I need the

peeps help. I need to know if I should have MaryXBrett or MaryXJohnny. Just let me know.

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Chapter 11

We were walking over to Jeff's. It was dead silent and I felt like breaking down and crying just having to deal with this...With what he did to me. I stopped. "I can't do this. I thought I could but I can't" I said. I started to cry.

"Come on Babe. You can do this. I know you can. You can over come this. What he did was wrong and he needs to know this." Brett said. "Come on, I'm here. They guys are here. We'll help." He said.

"I know, it's just..." I trailed off. I started to cry. Brett hugged me.

"You can do it. I'm here, I'll help." He said. "Come on."

"Okay." I can't do this. No. I can I know it. Brett is here. He is here to help me through this. I can do it.

We finally arrived at his house. I walked up to the door and knocked. Jeff answered the door. "Hey, Mar back for more?" He asked with a grin.

"No, Jeff how could you do it?" I asked. "How could you do that to me. You always told me you loved me. Told me you could treat me better than Johnny. You lied. If you could you wouldn't of done it." I said.

"You wanna know why. Huh?" I didn't answer. "HUH?" He yelled. "I did it, because I deserve you. I do! You are the only reason I came back. I figured that I would get you. When I didn't I lost it. Then after another six months you denied me again. I couldn't let you get away with it."

"I never did anything but stay loyal to Johnny." I said. "He was my boyfriend." I yelled.

"He never deserved you! NEVER! YOU WERE ALWAYS BETTER THAN HIM!" He yelled. "NOW LOOK YOU HAVE THREE OTHER GUYS. GOD YOU ARE THE BIGGEST WHORE EVER! FIRST JOHNNY, THEN ME NOW THEM." He started to laugh.

The next thing I knew he was on the floor, and Brett, Joey, and Alex were on him hitting him.

"STOP IT!" I yelled. I pulled them off of Jeff "YOU GUYS ARE BETTER THAN HIM!" I yelled. They all stopped and looked at me.

"Your right." Brett said. "Come on."

We walked down the street. I had tears running down my face. What Jeff said hit me like a ton of bricks. I was actually thinking on it thinking that he was right and I was a whore and that I deserved it. Alex must of sensed it.

"Mary, do think on what he said. Not even for a split second. That guy is fucked up. He is fucked up in the head or something." He said.

"No, he's right. Johnny, I broke up with him and I claimed to love him. Then earlier today, I kiss Brett." I said.

"Mary, there is nothing wrong with you liking another guy." Joey said.

"Yeah, how am I going to tell Johnny that I like Brett?" I asked. "After three years I pull something like this?"

"People fall out of love. If you loved him, your right you wouldn't of let me kiss you." Brett said in a pleading voice. "Maybe you are better off staying broken up."

"I should of never of came back." I said. "That was my first mistake."

Brett walked over to me and hugged me. "Mary I like you. I like you a lot. This past month has been awesome!" He said. "I don't want you to have any doubt in your mind. I want you to do what you think is best for you after all you have been through it would be selfish of me to ask you to go with me because I like you. If you want to be with Johnny then I don't want to hold you back. If you don't want to be with me, then I will be happy with just being friends. As long as your happy. I'm happy, even if your happiness isn't with me." He said.

I looked at him, and saw that he meant it. I could tell just by the look in his eyes that he had meant every word he had just said to me. "I don't know. I mean I'm sorry if that hurts you but I don't know if I want to be with Johnny. I don't know. I honestly don't." I said.

"I'll wait until you do know." He said. He hugged me and kissed me on the forehead.

"Mary?" I heard someone say. I turned around to see Dally. "What are you doing? I thought you ran away?"

"I came back. Oh sorry. Dally this is Alex, Joey, and Brett. Guys this is good ole' Dally." I said.

"Hi." They all said.

"Mary can I talk to you alone." I nodded.

He pulled me to the other side of the road. "How could you do this to Johnny?" He asked.

"Why is everything about Johnny. For once why don't people think about how I feel? So what if me and Johnny don't get back together. People change Dal." I said.

"He was a wreck when you ran away. We had no clue where you were. He was worried so much. He cried EVERY night you were gone. He was so hurt." He said.

"I know, I at least owe it to him to tell him how I am feeling. I don't know what I want anymore. God, why can't people once just look at it my way." I said. "I'm just trying to do what you told me to do."

"What's that?" He asked.

"I remember about six, maybe seven months ago you telling me. 'Hey, you get tough like me you don't get hurt. You look out for yourself and nothing, nothing can touch you.' Did you not say that?" I asked. He didn't say anything. "So that is what I am doing. I got tough, I'm never gonna get hurt again...I'm looking out for myself. Nothing and I mean NOTHING will ever touch me." I said.

"How did you get like this?" His voice sounded soft and gentle. "You are better than that Mary. That saying you are better than that. Higher than that. It's a good way to live, but you deserve better. Listen to heart this time. Not that saying." He said.

I walked away. I walked over to Brett. I kissed him. "I think I know what I want. His talk just helped me. We need to go back so I can talk to Johnny." We walked back. Brett put his arm around my waist. When we got back, I pulled Johnny outside.

"Mary, we need to talk." He said.

"Yeah I know."

"Dally told me." He said. "Do you think we should just break up. I can give you some space."

"No, I don't want to break up." What are you doing? You just kissed Brett, now your telling Johnny you don't want to break up maybe Jeff was right...Maybe I am a slut.

"But, Brett..."

"I just want a break. I love you. I know I do. Maybe we should be together, maybe we shouldn't. I need to find out. So right now a break is what we need. Just until I know." I said.

"So in other words. You don't know if we're right. And if you can't find something better, you'll settle for me?" He asked.

"It's not like that. Three years is a long time. You know it is." I stopped. "We need a break. For a little while at least. If we're meant to be together then I'll realize it. You always said fate brought us together. If that's true then Fate will bring us back together."

"Alright, your right. If we are meant to be than we will be." He said. "We can have a break."

I walked back inside. I pulled Brett to a bedroom. "I need to let you know, that...Me and Johnny are on a break. I don't know yet. But I want to be with you. I just don't know who I want yet. I need to figure it out though."

"So we're together?" He asked.

"Yeah, we're together...for now." I said.

We walked back downstairs. Sodapop was there and still looked really sad. I went and jumped on him.

"Soda, cheer up. Smile." I let out my goofiest smile. He started to laugh.

"Your crazy." He said.

"Yeah, hanging out with you will do that to someone." I shot right back.

He started to laugh. "Yeah, I know. Having to live with two crazy people will do that to me." He choked out between laughs.

"Hey," Pony and Darry said.

"So we've come to the conclusion that we all are crazy?" Two-Bit suggested. I nodded. "Well alright then."

Alex, Joey, and Brett were giving us all wierd looks. I laughed even harder. "Are you sure you want to date a crazy person?" I asked Brett.

"Yeah," He said. I noticed Johnny giving him the more evil and hateful stare. Dally was doing it right along with him. I looked at Two-Bit and even he looked like he could rip off Brett's head.

I knew then that maybe me and Brett weren't the right thing at the time. I just wish I would have taken it in to consideration looking back at it now.

End of Chap. 11

A/N- Okay there are only four more chapters. I have it at 15. Alright. I am going to do a preqel to Mary

Mathews 1. So as soon as I am done. There will be a Mary Mathews Trilogy. YAY! I will

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