Chapter eleven: Memories of the past

Kagome was in her room. She could not get to sleep. She knew that tonight will be the night which yuka will confess her true feelings towards inuyasha and she was unable to get to sleep because of that. She really can't help but felt very anxious to the thought that inuyasha may accept yuka.

She tried not to think of that. Since she can't get to sleep, she put on her coat and went outside to take a breather. The night was beautiful. The moon was full and the stars was all shining brightly as if there were million of diamonds up there. It was indeed a romantic night.

Kagome suddenly recalled her past with inuyasha. The first full moon night when she sees inuyasha in human form, he was rude as usual and did not trust her at all. She remembered that both of them got into a pretty nasty fight over the " I do not trust anybody" thing. She smiled and giggled, feeling that they were a little childish back then.

The time when koga confess his feelings in front of a lot of people including inuyasha, inuyasha was feeling so jealous and wanted to kill koga. She giggled again. She was pretty much happy that inuyasha was affected by what koga said back then.

There was a full moon night that she could not forget. It was the night when she was abducted by tokajin, the one who claims that he was a sage. She remembered that he put her into a bathing tub and when inuyasha came intending to save her, she got all excited and forgot that she was naked and accidentally let inuyasha sees her naked body. However, at that time, she did not mind because well, she loves him. She blushed when she thought of that. She then smiled and giggled a little when she remembered spotting inuyasha blushing too.

Just then, inuyasha arrived home, looking troubled. He then spotted a blushing kagome looking at the sky. He walked over and asked her why she isn't at bed when it was so late already. Kagome did not how to reply him. Thus, she shook her head and told him she could not get to sleep. Inuyasha then stood beside her and offered to accompany her. This time, kagome did not reject his offer but willingly let him stay by her side.

The moon was round and the sky was dark with beautiful stars shining brightly scattered all over the sky, it was certainly a very romantic night. Kagome and inuyasha stood under the moon light in silence. All that could be heard was the sound of the breeze. Then suddenly, kagome started to spoke.

Kagome: (turned her direction towards inuyasha) Inuyasha…remember the days that we used to fight battles together?

Inuyasha: (smiled and looked at kagome) Yea, at that time, it was cool and thrilling but very dangerous, I remember I went all out just to save you when you got kidnapped by naraku as a bait

Kagome: (smiled at inuyasha) Actually, I was not scared when I was captured by naraku because I had always believed that you would come and save me so I had no worries at all

Inuyasha: I remembered I was so worried for your safety and at that point of time all I could think of is to save you but not to defeat naraku

Kagome: (blushed and looked down) It was nice…

Inuyasha: (sincerely looking at kagome) I really regretted back then when I hurt you and always leave you alone for the sake of kikyo…But I hope that you can understand, kikyo is someone that I truly loved a long time ago, though both of us didn't lasted long but I know truly that both of us really loved each other, so when the day both of us fell out because of naraku's scheme, we both really hated one another but there was still the strong bonding, when I found out that she followed me to death, I believe that I have the responsibility to take care of her because I felt that it was partially my fault all along, yes, maybe I still loved kikyo on that period of time, but this is normal, we were together not for long, but our feelings was strong, it was not easy to end these feelings. On the day when kikyo passed away peacefully, I was sad, but happy at the same time as she was finally going to leave her burden and rest in peace, I was happy for her. But somehow I felt guilty if I were to be together with you after kikyo's death. I needed some time to think and sort out my own feelings because I didn't want to be unfair to you, do you understand, kagome?

Kagome: (Tears rolled down her cheeks, breath in and finally spoke while looking at inuyasha) I understand…the strong bond between you and kikyo is unbreakable, and to forget kikyo is impossible for it to happen, I strongly respect that and I know that I cannot replace kikyo and I won't. I like you, yes, I really do, but I really do not want to get hurt anymore, and I don't want you to make such a awful decision of choosing kikyo or me because it is simply just cruel. Maybe…maybe it is better if we stay like this, as friends, nothing else…I-

Inuyasha: (interrupts and grabbed her shoulders and looked straight into her eyes) I can reassure you that in my heart, I love you, I really really love you and can't live without you, I've made this big sacrifice for the sake of you! I've lost my sense of smell and my ears, my teeth and all my demonic power! But I don't mind, because I know it is all worth it for the sake of you! Can we stop mentioning kikyo for just this once and focus on both of us? I know you loved me too, why can't you just admit it??

Kagome: (looked back at inuyasha controlling her tears) I admit, yes, I love you but so what? Kikyo will always be the gap between both of us, we shouldn't even be together, and she loved you as much as you loved her, you can't forget about her even if it's after her death! Inuyasha…you should find someone who is more suitable for you, maybe yuka…or…

Inuyasha: (interrupts again) Don't put me together with another girl even if you want to reject me because I won't like her. Kikyo is the not the problem, the problem is you! Why can't you just face it bravely? We can be together! Why must you think so complicatedly? It is not impossible for both of us, because of you, I gave up my dream on becoming a strong full-fledged demon and became a human instead, for the sake of you, I cut my long hair and went to your school studying all those languages and equation that I don't even understand at all! But I worked hard, all because of you! So why can't you just put aside kikyo and consider that I really loved you so much that I willingly sacrificing my almost everything for you!

Kagome: (Heart thumping, she felt an urge to say yes) I-I…need to think...J-Just…give me some more time

Inuyasha: (lets go of her and calms himself down) Great, I will wait

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