This chapter was basically co-written by my original co-author. So snaps to her *** big hug***big kiss***. This idea was actually hers originally I felt it only appropriate for her to have a hand in writing it.

Also thanks to MaryV121 for giving this a read before posting.

I grabbed the keys to my bike before locking the door and heading down the hall. She looked nervous, "Are you nervous about something?" I asked.

"No, not really, I mean," she stuttered.

I stopped and made her look at me, "What is it?"

"I don't want to ride on the motorcycle." she said.

I chuckled a little, "Baby, you don't have to. As a matter of fact I don't think it's a good idea until your knee has had a little bit more time to heal."

"Oh," she said. "I thought you wanted to take me out on it."

"I do, but not until you're ready."

I took her by the hand and we headed out into the garage, I uncovered the bike and sat down on it. "Wow," she said.

"What?" I asked with my cocky grin. I knew what she was thinking.

"You look sexy as hell on that thing."

Gotcha!

"Thanks," I put the key into the ignition and started it. The sound roared through the parking garage.

"It's loud!" she yelled.

"It's because we're in the garage," I cut the engine and stood up. "You used to love riding with me."

"I know you mentioned that, but I'm still nervous about it."

"You felt the same way the first time I took you out on it." I grabbed her wrist to make her stand next to me. "Do you think you might want to try it again when your knee gets a little better?" I asked.

"Maybe," she said.

"I'll tell you the story of what happened the last time I was on it with you if you do." I said seductively trying to hint at what had gone on.

"You don't play fair," she said pulling away.

I grabbed her around the waist, "Oh no you don't," I kissed the shell of her ear, and tugged on her earlobe with my teeth. "You'll like it, I promise."

She leaned against me and the bike, "Like I said," she whispered, "you don't play fair."

"I never said I did," I leaned down to kiss her.

We were quiet on the way home. She leaned her head back on the headrest and closed her eyes. A content smile pulled at her lips. I lifted her hand to my own and gave her a chaste kiss. I was overwhelmed by her, and the way I felt. And yet something still pulled at me, I knew Alice had been right. "It won't get any easier Edward." Her words played themselves over and over in my head.

I started trying to think of ways to come clean. There was always the chance that she would understand why I'd done it. Of course there was always the chance that she wouldn't. That she would react with rage towards me. I couldn't blame her if she did; I only hoped that one day she would forgive me.

Now that I was with her like this I started thinking that maybe my fear of her not wanting me when her memory came back was ludicrous. She loved me, I knew she had been telling the truth when she said it. My fears had changed, now I was afraid to lose her for an entirely different reason.

That night after we'd made love and I was sure she was asleep. I practiced what I wanted to say to her, part of me wanted her to wake up and hear me and another part of me didn't. "Bella, I have to tell you something," I whispered.

I looked down at her to make sure she hadn't stirred. "After I moved out, I met someone." I swallowed the knot in my throat but still managed to continue. "We dated for about five weeks, and I broke it off the day of your accident."

It was strange and surreal but part of me felt some small relief that I had said it out loud in her presence. "I didn't realize until that day that I was still in love with you." I took a chance and kissed her forehead almost willing her to wake up. She didn't.

"I had sex with her, more than once in my apartment and in hers." I needed to tell her that Tanya had never compared to her, that she had merely been a warm body. Someone to fill a void but I stopped myself. I became fearful that she would wake at the wrong time and hear me.

I kissed her gently once more, "I know you can't hear me, but you have to understand that I love you, I never stopped." I held her even closer to me, like I was trying to hug it away. "I'm so sorry Bella."

God forbid she ever left me, I needed her like I needed oxygen, it hurt to breathe when she was gone.

I didn't sleep well; I tossed and turned nearly all night. Bella came back into the room around 9:30 to wake me up. "Hey sleepy head," she said as she ran her fingers through my hair.

I smiled gently and she leaned down to kiss me, "Hey," I said sleepily.

"I have to leave to go to my physical therapy in half an hour. Did you want to come with me, or would you rather sleep a little longer?"

I wanted to sleep longer but I didn't want her to have to go alone. She noticed my hesitation, "Edward, if you'd rather stay I can drive myself. I'm not on pain killers anymore, I'll be fine."

"I didn't sleep very well," I said. "I'm not sure why, I just couldn't get comfortable." I knew exactly why.

"Okay, you stay and sleep. I'll be back before you know it."

She kissed me one more time before getting up; I called for her as she left the room, "Bella,"

"Hmm?" She leaned back in.

"Ask Jacob if you can ride a motorcycle." I said with a grin.

She rolled her eyes at me before leaving the room, "I mean it," I hollered. "Don't make me call him when you get home to ask him myself. And tell that asshole to keep his hands to himself." I was only half way teasing about that last part. The thought of him or anyone else touching her, ever, pissed me off to my core. Even though I may or may not have had the right to feel that way, it didn't stop me.

I heard her laughing as she walked down the hall. I settled back into bed and sleep found me quickly this time.

I woke some time later with the weight of someone resting on my hips. "Wake up," her voice said sweetly before she gently kissed my lips.

"Mmm," I mumbled sleepily forcing my eyes open. I was shocked to find Bella straddling my hips, "Bella, what are you doing? You're going to hurt yourself." I said as I grabbed her hips in an attempt to move her.

She took this as a sign that I wanted something different and ground her body into mine. "Jake said I could do whatever I feel comfortable doing." She leaned down and kissed me again. "Right now, I feel very comfortable doing this." Again, she kissed me.

Her mouth opened as an invitation for me to enter. "Bella," I warned just before I slipped my tongue into her mouth.

I wanted to stop her but the feeling of having her over me like this was too much. I groaned into her mouth as my grasp on her hips tightened. I could feel her grinding herself over my cock creating delicious friction. She surprised me by moving her body down, kissing down my chest. Stopping only to circle my nipple with her tongue. "God, Bella that feels," I didn't finish my sentence.

She continued moving down. "Bella, you don't have to do that." I said.

She looked up at me through seductive eyes, "Let me do this for you, I want to." Well if she wanted to who was I to deny her? I chuckled inwardly at my inner teenager. I didn't say anymore, I let her kiss her way down my abdomen and felt my breath hitch when she hooked her fingers into the waistband of my boxers. She pulled them all the way down and off before settling between my legs.

I stopped breathing all together when her lips met the tip of my cock. "Bella," I could tell that I was barely audible.

She looked up at me through her eyelashes, "Hmmm?" she questioned.

I didn't speak anymore, I let her work on me. She sucked, nibbled, licked and kissed me all over. I was a writhing mess, groaning and panting like a dog. I fisted my hands in her hair and felt her groan around me. "Oh God, Bella, don't… don't stop baby…God please don't stop." I found myself begging her to continue.

I felt my balls twitch with the need to release, "Bella," I said in warning. "Bella I can't, ugh, I can't stop."

She let my erection fall out of her mouth, "Who's asking you to stop Edward?" she asked.

She was being a smart ass; I made a mental note to give her a good spanking when I was more coherent.

I felt the urge continue to rise up; until I could no longer control it, I thrust hard into her mouth. "Fuck, Bella, I'm coming. Oh God, yes," I hissed and groaned in my release.

She continued to work me until I couldn't take any more and had to force her to stop. She crawled up my body finally coming to rest on top of me. I was still panting when she laid her head on my chest. "I love you." She said.

"Christ Bella, there are no words." I said as I kissed the top of her hair. I tried to roll her over to return the favor but she wouldn't have it.

"No Edward," she began. "Just let me give this to you. You have given me so much it's the least I can do."

I hated that, I was such a shit. I didn't deserve her.

We kissed lazily for several minutes, speaking in whispers declarations of love. I had always loved moments like this with Bella. They had been few and far between for a long time.

We finally crawled out of the bed an hour or so later. "So since you can do whatever with that knee of yours now, do you think you might want to take a ride on the bike?" I asked as she sat on the bathroom counter, watching me shave.

I heard her breath hitch, and I snuck a glance at her and tried to hide my grin. Unsuccessfully I might add. She was nervous, that was ok she had been nervous the first time I took her out on it. I managed just fine that day and I could certainly manage today.

I wiped my face with a hand towel before going to stand between her legs and curling my arms around her waist. "You don't have to if you don't want to," I snuck a kiss to her exposed collar bone. "But I promise you're going to like it. Just give it a chance," I sucked gently on her neck just below her earlobe. Duress coercion, I know but it seemed to work.

"If you say so," she began. Her head tilted giving me easier access.

I kissed my way up her jaw and made it to her mouth, "Thank you," I sad just before my tongue slipped between her lips.

I left Bella at the house while I went to my apartment to retrieve my bike. I stopped at the local deli to grab a couple of sandwiches and other goodies before I headed back to get Bella.

I couldn't help the excitement that rose up. The prospect of having Bella ride behind me again, the feeling of her arms wrapped tightly around me, the way she would squeeze unnecessarily when I took a sharp turn. I smiled at the thought.

I opened the garage and there she was, standing there looking like she was about to throw up because of what was about to happen. I held back a chuckle and went to her, "If you're really that worried we don't have to do this." I said.

"No, no, I want to Edward, I'm just nervous."

I hugged her tightly, silently thanking her for giving me this. It had been the source of great enjoyment for us in the past. I knew she would see that if she just gave it a chance. "I grabbed lunch for us; we can eat when we get there."

"Sounds good," she said. "Don't tell me I have to wear a helmet." She scoffed.

I laughed, "Sorry honey, I never ride without it and that goes for you too." I handed her the smaller of the two and watched her pull it over her head and stuff her hair out of her face once it was on. "You look cute in that." I said.

"Very smooth Edward," she laughed from under her helmet.

I went to the bike and climbed on, "Ready?" I asked.

"I guess," she said as she climbed on.

I could feel her tuck her head into my back as much as the helmet would allow, just before her arms got a death grip on my waist.

I started it up, and we were off.

As expected Bella, grabbed me tighter every time we turned, it didn't seem to matter whether I took the turn sharp or not. It didn't take long to get where we were going. There was a secluded little cove out by the lake where we had been on many occasions. I killed the engine, and she hopped off. "I don't know why I was so worried, I loved that."

I laughed at her logic, "I told you," I said as I started unpacking lunch while she spread the blanket out on a grassy area.

"Well you're still gonna hold up to your end of the bargain there mister," she pointed a finger at me accusingly.

What the fuck? I hadn't made any deals with her. Had I?

"Don't give me that look Edward," she began. "When we were in the garage at your apartment, you told me that you would tell me the story of what happened the last time we were on," she pointed to the bike, "that thing together."

Oh that. I walked up to her and set our lunches down, "I guess a deals a deal isn't it?" I kissed her softly once.

Bella reached behind me and pinched my butt, "You bet your ass it is." She said.

"Okay but can we have lunch first?" I sat down on the blanket and Bella followed.

We ate in comfortable silence for a few minutes, until Bella finally spoke, "Edward?"

"What baby?"

"I was thinking I want you to move back into the house."

I didn't say anything; I sat there pondering for a moment. Wondering how I should answer her. Bella brought me out of my haze by waving her hands in front of my face, "Edward, earth to Edward." She chanted.

"Sorry babe, I was just thinking that it's going to cost me a fortune to get out of that lease." I laughed.

She lunged at me, "Really?" she asked as she landed on top of me.

I couldn't say no now, and I knew I was going to pay for it later. "Really," I said.

I wanted to tell her right then and there about Tanya but so many things kept me from doing it. First of all we were in a public place, no one was around but still. I knew a knock down drag out fight was going to take place when I did tell her and I didn't want to have that here at the lake.

Bella sat on my hips, grinding herself into me. Her hair fell down around her shoulders creating a sheath around our faces. I groaned into her mouth, I felt a small amount of guilt at not telling her about Tanya sooner but now was definitely not the time.

My hands found her ass and pressed her more firmly against my erection. Eliciting a groan from Bella as well, "So are you going to tell me what happened the last time or not?" she teased.

"You asked for it," I sat up and lifted her with me letting her feet touch the ground once we were fully standing. I led her back over to the bike and sat down backwards so I was facing the back of the bike. I pulled her to me, and ran my hands over her abdomen. Watching her eyes lull shut because of the contact. "How much detail do you want Bella? Or maybe the more appropriate question is, how much detail can you handle?" I asked as I ran my tongue over her erect nipple through the material of her tank top.

"I want as much detail as you can remember Edward," she sighed as I bit down gently on her.

"Okay, come here." I pulled her to straddle the bike as well facing me. Once her legs were properly draped over mine, I kissed her. I couldn't help it, the kiss started slow and seductive and heated quickly. I kissed down her neck and whispered in her ear. "You've been in this position with me before. Do you remember?" I asked.

"No, not yet, keep going." she whispered.

"I pulled you onto the bike with me just like this," I began. She shuttered when my hands met the hem of her tank top. I toyed with the hem of her shorts as well, teasing her. She didn't know which way I was going to go.

"Make a decision Edward, up or down, I don't care just choose one." She breathed.

I laughed into her mouth and made my way up her shirt. Finding her nipples quickly and rolling both of them between my fingers. "I have to taste," I said as I leaned my head down and took one exposed nipple into my mouth.

Her hands fisted in my hair guiding me as I sucked gently. "What else Edward, keep going." She said through ragged breath.

I removed my mouth from her nipple and my hands meandered around the back of her thighs, I gave her butt a tight squeeze as I pulled her more firmly onto my straining erection. "I pulled you onto me like this," I said. "Then I reached a hand between us," I did exactly what I was saying. Finding her sex between us and rubbing gently over the annoying fabric.

"More," she begged as her hips started a slow motion against my hand.

I grinned at her eagerness and let my tongue slide with hers for a moment before pulling away to speak, "You couldn't take anymore so you unbuttoned your shorts."

She did just that, unbuttoning them quickly.

I reached inside and was shocked to find that she wasn't wearing any panties, "I'm shocked Bella," I said with mock horror.

She giggled, "Yeah well based on what you told me before about the "last time we were here together" I figured panties would just get in the way."

"God I fucking love you." I said. She was probably going to laugh when she found out that I wasn't wearing any underwear either.

I found her clit, rubbing the slick moisture around with my thumb. "God you feel so good," I groaned against her swollen lips.

She reached between us and worked on the button of my shorts, releasing me quickly, "I'm shocked Edward," she said mocking me.

She stroked me a few times before moving to the tip and swirling the moisture around. "I want you, right here, right now." I said as I plunged two fingers into her.

"Ah," she yelped. "How?" Bella was breathing heavily now, and barely got the word out.

"You're going to have to pull one leg out of your shorts; at least that's what you did last time."

She moved quickly, removing one leg from her shorts before settling back down on top of me. "Are you ready?" I asked.

"Yes, please," she said shakily.

I placed myself at her entrance and we moved in unison to get me sheathed inside her. It was the slowest form of torture that ever existed. We worked together reaching for release. I thrust inside her as hard as the position would allow.

"Oh God," I felt her walls start to flutter around me. "Harder Edward, yes."

"Are you gonna come?" I asked. She looked at me through heavy eyes, and nodded. "Tell me, ugh God, tell me when Bella. I want to come with you." I was ready to go any minute, as usual I was holding out for her.

"Touch me Edward,"

I reached between us finding her swollen clit and rubbed vigorously to get her there quicker, "God yes!" she shouted. "Oh, oh, I'm, I'm,"

I reached behind her to support her, brining her flush with my chest, and thrust as hard as I could up into her, I felt her clench me tightly, coming around me. "Oh God Bella, I can feel you baby," feeling Bella come because of me is just about as good as it gets.

Her orgasm triggered my own and I spilled myself inside of her, "Fuck," I hissed through clenched teeth. I thrust a few more times, before I stilled myself. She ran her fingers through my hair, pushing the stray hairs off of my forehead.

Bella continued to move ever so slightly, causing my sensitive cock to twitch inside of her. "God, that was amazing," she said. "Thanks for sharing it with me."

I looked up at her, "It's your memory too," I said. "One day you'll remember."

We were quiet on the way back to the house; I had to make a decision. I either needed to tell her now or just try to get away with not telling her at all. No, no, that's the coward's way out. I chastised myself for even thinking such a thing was possible.

I opened the garage door and pulled my motorcycle in, I sat there for a moment after cutting the engine. I didn't even realize Bella had gotten off until she spoke. "Edward is everything okay?" she asked.

I glanced up at her and laughed, "What's so funny?" she asked.

"Umm you might want to go take a look at your hair." I teased.

"Edward," she scoffed. "It's this stupid helmet, if you hadn't made me wear this damn thing my hair wouldn't look this way."

I stopped once I made it to the door and looked her dead in the eye, "You're right baby, if I hadn't made you wear that helmet your hair would look much worse."

She tried to slap me but I managed to get away from her before she could touch me.

Okay people, I can't thank you all enough for being patient with me while I work on finishing school. Almost done, YEA!

I still have no clue when the next update is coming, but I can tell you that there are five maybe six chapters left after this one, so we're on the home stretch.

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