Hikaru sat next to Kaoru's bedside, he held his hand.

"Kaoru, whatever's happening, I'll help you through it, I promise." The conversation with the doctor was still fresh in his mind.

"He's going to be fine now right?" He after nearly losing his brother.

"I wish I could answer that, right now he's here and that's great, but his vitals aren't quite where they need to be, he's not out if danger yet, we've got to keep an eye on must be ready for whatever happens."

"Are you telling me Kaoru could d-" Hikaru couldn't say the word, the very thought terrified him.

"I'm telling you It's very possible. He seems to respond well to you, which is why we moved you in here. Keep in mind that just because he did this once doesn't mean It's definitely going to happen next time."

"Cant you stop it from happening again?" The older twin stared at the doctor.

"No, but we can keep watch in case he needs immediate medical attention it might reduce the risk. Right now he needs someone with him all the time. That doesn't mean it always has to be you. I know It's still tiring for you take time to let yourself rest as well." Hikaru nodded.

"I'll do that." He turned his attention back to his brother who lay asleep in the bed.

"You're so cold Kao, it scares me. I love you, you know that don't you, I need you here. I want you to be okay, everyone does. I won't ever leave you, just live."

"I'm s-sorry Hika, I'm trying." Kaoru said weakly.

"I know you are, are you still hurting Kaoru?" The younger boy didn't answer, he could see the pain in Hikaru's eyes, he knew it was his fault.

"No." He lied, he refused to hurt him anymore than he already had.

"You sure, I could give you-"

"It's fine. I'm sorry about what happened, I didn't mean to-"

"Shh Kao, rest. No one means to have things like that happen. I'm just glad you're here. I need you to stay though, you tell me what you need me to do and I'll do it."

"I know you would. All I want from you is a promise, no matter what happens to me, you're going to keep going." Hikaru sighed.

"Alright Kaoru, I'll promise, only if you promise to keep doing everything you can to be here with me."

"I promise to try." Kaoru whispered.

"Good. I'm going to stay with you and get you better. Kyoya senpai called earlier, he wanted to check on us, you were sleeping so he said if it was okay they'd come visit. He said since it's Friday, they'll stay if we want."

"It doesn't seem fair to ask them to, they have lives too."

"You're right, they do. Lives that we're part of, they wouldn't offer if they didn't want to be here. You need to rest now, save your strength."

Kaoru couldn't hide his guilt, he had caused more trouble for his friends, he sighed.

"What's wrong, are you feeling okay?" Hikaru panicked.

"I'm okay, I was just thinking, "

"About what?"

"It doesn't matter."

"If it didn't matter, you wouldn't be upset. I know you better than that."

"It's really nothing." Kaoru turned his head away from his twin. A second later, Hikaru reached over him, placing a hand on his cheek and gently forced him to meet his gaze.

"Don't turn away Kaoru, I don't like that."

"What's wrong with-"

"Because when you can't look at me, you're really upset or hiding something. Talk to me."

"I can't right now Hika, I'm sorry. I feel very-"

"Very what?"

"It's okay I-"

"Kaoru, I mean it, you can't keep trying to protect me from this."

"I'm just- you're right, I need to rest, you know I don't like lying around like this."

"There's something more to it isn't there?"

"No." Kaoru closed his eyes, he knew Hikaru was right, he couldn't keep this from him forever. But nothing could stop him from trying.