Hey you guys here it is another chapter I know you were hoping for Marissa to stay in Newport or Ryan to follow her but I have to say that's not going to happen. I promise it's not all bad you just have to get through it. I promise! Enjoy! xoxo Noor:)
Chapter 11: When we don't talk.
Marissa's apartment in Paris:
Marissa's is lying in her bed staring up at the ceiling it's been two weeks since she left Newport and she still doesn't know if she made the right decision thankfully she still talks to her mom, Summer and Ryan everyday and everyday she hang up crying uncontrollably she felt she couldn't breathe when Ryan called her he always said all those sweet things and he ended saying that he loved her and that he missed her. Marissa took her diary from the nightstand and began writing in it.
Dear Diary,
Yesterday was amazing with Louis Vuiton the photo shoot went better then expected. All my colleges are nice the girls are breath taken they're all so beautiful that I kind of feel out of place. It's been 2 weeks and I still don't know if I made the right decision. I miss everyone so much I miss Ryan more then anyone could ever know, but I can't go back I need to learn to be independent. I need to be Marissa Cooper and not Marissa Cooper the girl who can't do anything by herself who always needs to be saved. I love it here in Paris but I do miss Newport. Summer called me today and told me that Ryan was not talking much but was working all the time, and when she saw him he was doing quite well. I'm happy that he's doing well... I think.
End
Marissa put her diary away again and got out of bed she looked around her and it was snowing. She decided to take a walk in the snow seeing as she never had the chance to walk through the snow. Marissa was walking through a park near her apartment and saw two people who were in love she assumed. The girl was crying and the boy put his arm around her he told her something and she couldn't help but laugh and they kissed. Marissa felt tears rolling down her cheeks she got out her cell phone and sat on a bench. She dialled Ryan's number and pushed the sent button she waited until he answered.
Ryan: Hello?
Marissa: (sobbing) Ryan?
Ryan: Marissa…are you okay?
Marissa: (laughing) Oh yeah I'm just great…sorry.
Ryan: It's okay what's wrong.
Marissa: I miss you…I miss you so much.
Ryan: I miss you too.
Marissa: I just don't know if this was such a good idea…I mean everything is great here except that I'm not with you.
Ryan: Well we had our time now it's time for some Marissa time. I've got to go I'm on a business party I'll talk to you soon.
Marissa: Oh okay…I'll go I love you bye.
Ryan: Yeah bye.
And with that Ryan hung up Marissa was crying even more if that was possible. She was crying so much she was hyperventilating. She couldn't breathe and there was no one around to help her she search her back for a plastic bag and fortunately found one. Her breathing became fair after a few minutes breathing in and out through a plastic bag. He didn't say he loved her and he talked to her like she was waiting for him at home like he would see her in a second. What was going on? It was raining now and Marissa didn't even feel it she walked through the park until she came home. Did he have a girlfriend already or did he have a date? What the fuck was he doing? She loved him she said it again and this time he didn't say it back he didn't even ask her to come home. Marissa came home soaked and went to change. She came back in the living room and heard her cell phone ring. She saw it was Summer and immediately answered it.
Marissa: Hey Sum!
Summer: Marissa what's your number?
Marissa: What do you mean?
Summer: I'm in your apartment building but I don't know on which floor you live and I also don't know your apartment number.
Marissa: YOU'RE HERE?
Summer: Yes. I'm in the foyer right now.
Marissa: OMG I'm on my way!
Marissa ran downstairs she didn't even bother to close her door and she ran downstairs to the foyer. To see Summer standing there tears with tears strained cheeks the same Marissa had not too long ago. Marissa ran over to Summer and hugged her so tight!
Marissa: SUM! I MISSED YOU!
Summer: I missed you too Coop!
Marissa pulled away and she didn't ask anything she just took her luggage and they went to Marissa's apartment. When they got their Marissa gave Summer pyjamas and made some hot chocolate for both. Summer was sitting on Marissa's couch and was crying Marissa came back with the two mugs she gave one to Summer and sat next to her.
Marissa: Okay what's going on?
Summer: It's Seth…we're not doing good anymore. I don't know what happened it's like there came this wall between us and I tried to talk to him and he immediately asked me if I was having an affair. We don't talk anymore. I don't know what's going on with us. He says I'm a block of ice we had this huge fight he stormed off and so did I.
Marissa: Aww sum.
Summer: This weather really reflects on my emotions.
Marissa and Summer both looked through the window to see that it was raining even harder then before.
Marissa: Yeah I know what you mean.
Summer: So things with you and Ryan not so good?
Marissa: Not at all, I called him today really upset and he told me he would talk to me later I even said I love you and then he said okay. So I guess we don't talk also.
The silence that's fallen between us
Is the loneliest sound that I've heard?
How can we find forgiveness?
If we can't find the words
When we don't talk
When we don't speak
When we don't share all the feelings
That are buries so deep
How can we know?
What's hidden behind those walls?
When the doors locked
When we lose touch
When you and I lose sight of us
The honesty's lost
And the tears say it all
When we don't talk
When so much goes unspoken
And sorry is left unsaid
The silence remains unbroken
And our hearts are breaking instead
When we don't talk
When we don't speak
When we don't share all the feelings
That are buried so deep
How can we know?
What's hidden behind those walls
When the doors locked
When we lose touch
When you and I lose sight of us
The honesty's lost
And the tears say it all
When we don't talk.
Okay so that was it I hope you liked it please review! Song I used is called When we don't talk by Ilse de Lange. xoxo Noor!