Chapter eleven: Release

Half an hour later, the fire on the floor was fading and it was getting cold again. Spock knew he would soon have to sit up in order to light another fire. But sitting up would mean that Kirk woke up. And Kirk waking up would mean that Kirk noticed the large bulge in Spock's trousers. It was inevitable.

If he could just get up and get out of the cave with Jim not noticing, then he would be able to work it off. But how could he get up without Kirk waking up, when the man was clinging on to him like a life buoy.

He would have to tell his Captain about the Vulcan erection not fading away of its own. But how could he explain the raise of it in the first place? He couldn't. Not without revealing his deep feelings for the Captain. This was turning out to be a very bad excursion.

The fire had almost died. He had to get up now, or it would become cold again very soon. He tried removing Kirk's arm without him waking, but to no avail.

Jim was sleeping blissfully, dreaming of passionate nights with a certain hot-blooded friend of his. He was dreaming of placing lingering kisses on the inside of Spock's thighs when suddenly he felt his arm being moved by an outer force. He stirred and opened his eyes.

And looked right into the eyes of the person he had been dreaming about. He smiled sleepily. Then he noticed the embarrassment in Spock's jet black eyes.

Kirk withdrew his arm from Spock's chest and supported himself on it. He was careful to leave his crotch pressed against the ground, his steamy dream had made the hard-on even harder than before. He looked into Spock's eyes, trying to figure out what was wrong. Had he done something improper in his sleep? He blushed. Who knew what he had done in the passion of the dream? Well, the only way to find out was to ask. "What's wrong?"

Spock bit his lower lip and turned his gaze away. And suddenly Jim noticed it. The bulge in Spock's trousers. He smiled to himself. Could Spock find this situation as erotic as he himself did?

He reached out his arm and put a soft hand on Spock's chin. He turned his friend's face back so that they were looking at each other again.

Spock had been prepared for rejection and repulsion, maybe rage. But he wasn't prepared for the softness of his Captain's touch and the loving look in his eyes. He didn't understand the reaction .Spock's ears burned even hotter and he looked away, concentrated on the stone wall behind Kirk.

"Spock?" Jim asked tentatively.

Spock looked back at him. He still couldn't believe the softness he met. He shot a pleading glance at his Captain. 'Please, don't humiliate me even more.' he wanted to say.

Jim tried again. He started to suspect that Spock had the hots for him, just as he had for Spock. But he wasn't sure. The pleading in Spock's eyes made him unsure. He needed to know what the Vulcan felt, even if it wouldn't turn out to be what he desperately hoped for. "Spock? What's wrong?"

Spock needed something to do with his hands. He broke the contact by moving away from Kirk's hand and started putting together aother fire where the last one had died. Slowly, he started talking. "I am sorry, Captain. But I find that I am ... attracted to you." His blush grew even deeper and he turned his face away.

Jim smiled. "Spock, look at me."

Spock didn't. He put the finishing touches to the fire and inched away even more. He was waiting for the anger that he was sure would come.

Now that Jim's dreams had been answered, he was persistant. "Look at me." he said, harsher than intended.

Spock looked back at his smiling Captain. "Captain?" His face betrayed nothing but a lingering soft blush.

"Come here."

Spock didn't know what to do. But the warm look in Jim's eyes made him feel slightly better, so he obeyed. He moved closer, looking like he way the inevitable pray of some wild animal. He was scared.

Jim sat up and moved towards Spock. They sat facing each other by the fire. Spock was still looking in any other direction than at his Captain.

Kirk took one of Spock's hands in his. "Spock. Look at me."

Spock turned towards him. His green blush grew even deeper. But the calm in Jim's voice made him feel a little bit more secure. He looked into his Captain's eyes and found a well of warmth and understanding. And ... love. He was utterly confused. It felt illogical.

Jim focused on him and talked softly and slowly. "Spock. You are more than a friend to me. I have always loved you."

Spock could hardly believe what he was hearing. But Jim's voice and the look in his eyes told him that is was true. He smiled tentatively. He licked his lips. "Do you really ... ?"

Kirk felt like he couldn't wait any longer. "Yes!" he almost shouted. "Look." he said, pointing towards the straining fabric of his own trousers.

Spock looked. He hadn't noticed it before, beeing to frustrated with his own physical reaction. A wave of relief and lust flowed over him. He licked his lips again. He looked back up at Jim's warm eyes.

"Spock." Kirk said again and drew closer to the Vulcan he had just professed his love for. "I need you."

There was a raw emotion in Kirk's voice that Spock had never heard before. Something inside of him burst when he heard it. His Human side took over. Spock trailed an arm around his Captain's shoulders and drew him closer.

Jim willingly drew closer to the creature who had held him mentally captivated for so long. All he had wanted could finally be his.

Spock's throbbing cock had been hard for too long. He was desperate for relief. He looked into his Captain's eyes, questioning him. "I want ... I need you. Please?"

The last traces of carefulness fled from Kirk's eyes and was replaced by pure lust. He leaned towards Spock and locked his mouth onto the Vulcan's.

Spock's tounge licked at the corner of Jim's mouth, begging for entry. He didn't have to wait long for it to be granted.

Kirk had dreamed of their first kiss for a long time. He had always pictured it as sweet and lingering. This was nothing like that dream. This was furiously heated, full of passion and raw need. It exploded in his head with an intensity he had never experienced before.

He put his arms around Spock's waist to draw him even closer. He could feel the Vulcan's heart beat in his side. Kirk was fascinated.

Spock let his hands travel over Kirk's broad chest and down towards the lining of his trousers.

Kirk had never felt anything as divine as the loving touch of Spock's long digits. He broke their kiss and gasped for air. He was hardly conscious of his actions any more. He revelled in the warm struggle of love. It was already so much more than he had ever dared hope for.

He started tracing patterns on Spock's lower back as he drew a deap breath. He could feel Spock's hands come closer to their goal and suddenly he felt the need to feel Spock's bare skin on his own. He tugged at Spock's shirt but wasn't able to get it off on his own.

Spock reluctantly took his hands out of Kirk's trousers for just as long as it took him to get his shirt off. Then his hands quickly went back to work. He took hold of Jim's shaft and slowly started to stroke the erection. He recovered Jim's lips and they moaned together, as one.

They moved agains each other and with each other. Bare chest against bare chest. They were both horny as hell. The cravings they felt for each other were so powerful it hurt.

Kirk started undoing Spock's fly with feverish hands. He was desperate to feel Spock deep inside him.

When he could feel his Captain's hands on his shaft, Spock could do nothing but shiver and whimper. He clinged on to Jim for dear life. His desperation reached unknown depths. The soft tingling in his ears had turned into a sorching dark green burn. His last illogical thoughts fled, all there was room for in his head were emotions so strong that they over-powered him.

Jim stroked Spock's back calmingly with one hand, while the other kept moving slowly over his cock.

It was almost too much for Spock to handle. "Jim." he wispered through gritted teeth.

Kirk understood. He wasn't far off either. His breathing was rugged as he moved away long enough to remove his trousers.

Spock did the same. Then they moved back towards each other again, desperately searching and touching.

'God I am hard. And so is he.' Kirk thought to himself as he could feel Spock's erection against his thighs. "Take me." he wispered and stood on his toes to reach higher. He nibbled softly at the tip of Spock's beautiful ear.

It made Spock go crazy. He groweled deeply and flipped Kirk around on the floor. He wanted to ravish him. But he feeling scared him, he made himself take control of his actions again. He didn't want to hurt Jim.

Kirk could feel Spock tease his entrance with his tounge. It was a relief to feel that Spock had some experience in what they were about to do. But that rational thought quickly gave way to less rational ones as he could feel a finger in his anal passage. God, how he loved to be fucked.

Spock stroked his own erection as he prepared Jim for entrance. He was going to enjoy this. But he'd have to keep remembering to be careful. He wanted Jim to have as fond memories of their first time as he himself would have.

Finally, Spock thought he could enter. He put his cock right up to Jim's hole and pushed in slowly and carefully. He managed only to make a shallow thrust, although what his raging hormones really felt like was fucking Jim into oblivion.

Jim felt the pain sear right through him. But it was a pain that he enjoyed. He opened his mouth and groaned a slow "Yes."

Spock bent over a bit more, so his chest came into contact with Jim's arched back. He needed to feel Jim close to him. He steadied himself with one hand and started rubbing Jim's erection with the other. He rubbed it in time with his own thrusts. Shallow and slow at first, then harder and deeper and faster. It had never been this good.

Jim shouted out with every stroke. "Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes." He turned his head to the side to give Spock's jaw a nibble. "Yes. Yes."

It didn't take them long to get over the edge. Kirk came first. Spock felt Jim start to spasm around him. He grunted and thrust deeper and harder than before. It only took one stroke before he came inside of his Captain.

It was the best feeling Jim had ever experienced. It was bliss. Being filled by his beloved sexy Vulcan. He was already longing for the next time.

Spock kissed Jim's back and got up, to take the weight off his lover. He laid down on the floor, took hold of Jim and drew him to his chest. Spock gave Jim a kiss on the back of his head before letting go enough to let Jim turn around to face him.

Kirk was radiating. He put his head on Spock's chest and wrapped his arms around him. He sighed happily.

Spock felt more relaxed than he had in a long time. He loved Jim. Jim was his t'hy'la. And, apparently, he was Jim's. And he had the love bites to prove it.

His only problem now was that once the heat of the moment had calmed down a bit, he was starting to feel cold again.

Jim felt Spock's skin cool down and looked up into his face. "You're not warm enough." he stated.

"With such a hot companion, I shouldn't feel cold. But alas, logic is not always logical." Spock said with a small smile.

It earned him a deep kiss from Kirk. When he came up for air, he smiled. "Spock, you're a romantic."

Spock raised an eyebrow and caressed Jim's chin. "Perhaps. But don't tell anyone."

Kirk kept smiling at him. "No chance. It's our secret." Then he got up to get the fire going again and let Spock dress. He'd rather kept his Vulcan naked, purely for his own pleasure, but he knew Spock needed the warmth.

He put on his own trousers and laid down behind Spock, putting a protictive arm over him once more. He puffed warm breath over Spock's ear.

Spock's ears turned slightly green again. He turned his head around to be able to kiss his Human.

"Jim?" he asked a little while later, as they were laying there hugging each other.

"Hm?" Kirk said in response.

"The night that I came rushing in to your room when you hade been in the shower." He looked slightly akward as he asked the question.

Kirk stroked his jet black hair. "Yes?"

"Had you been calling my name?" he wispered inquisitively.

It was Kirk's turn to blush. "Yes."

Spock looked right into Kirk's eyes and smiled. "If I had only known ..."

Kirk interrupted him. "If you had known, silly, I wouldn't have been in the shower all alone." He smiled.

Spock seemed to think it over. "There is definitely some logic in your statement, Captain. There might be hope for you yet." He smirked at Kirk.

Kirk laughed heartily. "I love you, Spock."

Spock gave him a kiss him in return.