AAAHHH I AM HORRIBLE ARENT I? Not updating for GOD knows how long. I truly am sorry you guys. Its just that I'm in my senior year so everything is so hectic and busy. Add that to my inability to schedule thing right. Then you get me not updating for a while. But I'm back. And if I ever go away for a long time I will let you guys know first. First thing first. Last week's episode. With the: "I will always love you." AAAAAAAAH and then Elena not being able to tell Stefan that she's not in love with Damon. My heart broke along with his. They will get together again. You'll see. But it's story time! This is the longest chapter EVER!

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Disclaimer: No. I do not own Vampire Diaries. If I did there wouldn't even be a Delena.

Elena POV:

"Has any of you seen Stefan? Do you guys know where he is?"

I looked around the livingroom that was filled with Caroline, Bonnie, Damon, Matt, Jeremy and myself. Everybody was looking at Alaric's body. Thank god he had his ring on. I heard them say stuff like. No I don't know where he is and 'haven't seen him around'. Then I looked at Bonnie and she didn't say anything. I walk up to her and look her in the eyes.

"Bonnie….? Do you know where Stefan is?"

She shrugged and says: "Maybe. But I promised him I wouldn't tell, Elena. I don't wanna break that promise."

"And why don't you wanna do that?" Damon asked bluntly.

She glared at him before answering: "Because, unlike you, Stefan is my friend."

I looked at Damon who just smirked and said that he was going to find more information about The Originals.

"Bonnie please. He is the only one that can help us. Jeremy almost died. I need to know where Stefan is."

She looked at me for a second before she sighed.

"Fine, he is at the witches house. He's been hiding there ever since the night he killed Mikeal to save…"

She stopped herself mid-sentence and put her hands in front of her mouth.

I crossed my arms and raised one eyebrow and said:"To save who?"

"Uh himself? To get Klaus to undo the compulsion. He saved himself. I have to go now."

She stood up and brushed past me. I didn't really believe her, but I just have to ask her later. She closed the door and I saw Matt an Caroline looking at me.

"I'm gonna see Stefan. Will you guys be alright here?"

Caroline perks up and says: "Do you want us to come with you? I kind of wanna see normal Stefan."

I actually don't want her to come, I want to be alone with Stefan. But how do you say that to one of your best friends. Luckily Jeremy helped me out by saying he needed help with Alaric.

I'm sitting in my car and trying to get the courage to get out and walk to the witches house. What am I gonna say to Stefan? I mean the compulsion is off, which means that he is the old Stefan again. Right? I mean I hope so. Damon said that maybe he turned off his humanity, but I know Stefan. He wouldn't do that. I start fumbling around and I open the little cabin in my car. A piece of folded paper falls out. I pick it up and unfold it. It's a picture. Of Stefan, Matt, Caroline and myself. It was the night of our double date. I looked at Stefan in the picture and he was smiling. That was all it took for me to get out of my car and walk towards the house. I ran downstairs yelling his name.

"Stefan?" I hope Bonnie was right.

I walked in the basement and looked around. I heard footsteps and then his voice.

"Go away."

I turn around, and there he is. Stefan. My breath gets stuck in my troth. It's really him. No Klaus being his puppet master, no compulsion. Just simply Stefan. Then why was he being so rude? We both don't say a word, we just look at each other. All I want to do is run up to him and kiss him and tell him how much I love him and how much I missed him and how much I need him. But then he starts talking:

"You shouldn't be here Elena."

"Stefan, I need your help. Bonnie said that you would be here. " I say it in a pleading tone hoping that I will reach him. I have no idea why I said that Bonnie ratted him out but I did.

"Well Bonnie sucks at keeping secrets. Did she tell you our other secret to? Is that why you're here?"

Other secret? What is he talking about? I knew Bonnie was just making up an excuse when she said Stefan saved himself. He saw the puzzled look on my face and said:

"I guess not. Then what are you doing here?"

"You need to give Klaus his family back."

"Oh really? Is that what I need to do?" Why is he being so harsh? This is not the Stefan I remember. Maybe Damon was right. Maybe he did turn off his humanity. It's time to test it. I keep my focus on his eyes to see if anything changes when I say:

"Klaus compelled Jeremy to stand in front of a speeding car."

There it was. He cares.

"Stefan I know you care about Jeremy. Don't let him die. I don't think I can handle another loss. Please Stefan."

"Elena I can't. If I give him the coffins I will have no leverage left and he can do what he wants."

"Then give him at least one. Don't let him kill Jeremy. He has nothing to do with this. He's just a victim."

"Elena if I do that he knows that I'm weak, that all he has to do is threaten you or someone else I care about and he'll get what he wants."

He is right. One word sticks out though.

"Care? You care?"

He looks away and says: "You have to go Elena. I'll watch Jeremy to see if he's in any problem and I'll try to find another solution for this. You should ask Damon, maybe he knows another way out of this."

Damon. Of course he'd send me to Damon. Typical Stefan. I nod my head in approval and walk past him. As I stand next to him I hesitate a second, but continue walking. When I'm at the foot of the stairs I turn around and say:

"Thank you Stefan."

"For what?"

"For helping me even though I don't deserve it."

Before he can say anything I run up the stairs before I let the tears fall. It's true I don't deserve to be helped. I don't deserve to be loved like I am. If Klaus had just kill me, no one would be in danger of their life. As I walk up to my car I see Damon standing there. Great.

"Why are you crying?"

"Because I want to."

"Oh Elena is grumpy. What did Stef say to you?"

"Nothing important. Do you know if there is another way to get out of Klaus' threat?"

"Told you Stefan wouldn't want to give up the only thing he has left in his life, so I have a back up plan."

"It's not the only thing left in Stefans life."

He looks at me as if to say: continue.

"Just, tell me what your oh so brilliant back-up plan is."

"We give him Rebekah. Seeing as she's just rotting away in our basement. Might as well give her a purpose."

That's actually not so bad. I agree with him and drive off to see Bonnie.

As I drive past the Grill I see Bonnies car in the lot. So I stop and get out. I walk inside and look around to see where Bonnie is. When I find her, I walk up to her and say.

"So Bonnie, looks like you and Stefan been hanging out."

It comes out a little harsher than I meant. She looks at me with an innocent look and says:

"What are you talking about Elena?"

"Stefan said that you guys had another secret. So spill it."

"Elena sit down, please."

I sit across from her and she moves towards me. She says:

"I can't tell you this secret. This is something you have to find out on your own not from me. Please understand that there is NOTHING going on between me and Stefan. He is just a friend who needed help. That's it."

"Why did he open up to you and not to me?"

"Don't tell him I said this, but he is trying everything to push you away. To make you hate him. To make you stop loving him."

"Why would he do that? It's not going to work."

Bonnie chuckled before she continued.

"I told him that it would be impossible for him to make you stop loving him. And the reason he's doing it? In his mind he thinks that it's the only way to protect you. He thinks you'll be safer if you're not with him. Then I told him it was absolute bullocks, but I think the only one who can tell him that is you."

I smiled at her and asked her another question.

"Is it a terrible secret?"

She shakes her head and says:

"Not even a little bit. It will make you understand something you thought you'd never understand."

"Okay, I trust the both of you. Don't make me regret it. Have you seen Jeremy by the way? I called him but he didn't pick up?"

"Oh yeah he just left with Stefan. Like two minutes before you arrived."

"With Stefan?"

"Yeah something about a football game on TV. Why are you smiling?"

"It's nothing. I….I asked Stefan if he could keep an eye on Jeremy in case Klaus tries something else."

Bonnie smiled too and we sat there in silence.

But I couldn't stop thinking about the secret. It just kept popping up in my mind. So all night long I kept begging Bonnie to tell me when all of a sudden a good argument hit me.

"Bonnie you have to tell me. If you don't I'll never know. I mean Stefan and I are not really talking at the moment."

My voice broke in the middle of that sentence and she looked at me. I couldn't take it anymore. Being left outside.

"Fine, Elena. But you can't tell him you got it from me. Say you got it from Damon. He knows too."

"Damon knows too?"

"Elena? Do you want to know or not?"

"Yes ,yes. I'm sorry, you were saying?"

"The secret is that Stefan saved Klaus only to save Damon."

I narrowed my eyes.

"What do you mean to save Damon? Damon is alright, isn't he?"

"He is now. Klaus compelled his hybrids to kill Damon the second he drops dead. Katherine told Stefan, who then saved Klaus. He didn't do it cause he felt loyal to the jerk. He did it to save his brother. Again."

I kept staring at her. Not being able to say a word.

"Elena, you okay?"

"I..I have to go."

I stand up and feel that my legs are shaky. I walk up to my car when my legs can't take it anymore I fall down but I don't touch the ground. I feel strong, familiar arms around my waist.

"It's okay. Come on. Are you drunk?"

I turn around in his arms and say:

"No, Stefan. I'm not."

"Then what's wrong?"

I can still feel his arms around my waist. I can't fight the urge any longer so I just wrap my arms around his neck and hide my face in his chest. God I missed this. I start crying and sobbing. He puts his hands on my face and pulls me away from his chest.

"Elena what's wrong? Tell me."

"Why didn't you come to me when Klaus freed you?"

I look up to stare into his green eyes. All I see in those eyes is love and guilt.

"I knew I wouldn't be welcome."

"You were welcome Stefan. I missed you. I'm so glad you're back."

"Elena I'm not back." He said while taking a few steps backwards.

"Yes you are Stefan. You saved Damon. You saved him even though you were under compulsion and now you're free. You are back."

"Who told yo…Bonnie?"

"Yes ,Bonnie told me. And I'm glad she did. Stefan don't run from me, please. I need you."

I walked to him and held his face in my hand, he didn't resist it so I went for it. I got in closer and closer until the gap between our lips was closed. Our lips moved slowly against each other. We pulled apart to breathe and he panted: "God, I missed you so much Elena."

I go in for another kiss. This one is a little more harder but still passionate. When he slips his tongue in my mouth its like I'm being resurrected. I can breathe again. I feel complete again. When the kiss stops he puts his forehead on mine and says:

"I love you Elena."

"I know Stefan. I love you too."

A/N: SOOOO? I already started on my other story the AllHuman one. I will upload it tomorrow maybe. Just keep an eye on me.

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