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Morgan and Hotch drove as fast as they could to the house. They might when be breaking a record that the speed they were going.

Morgan couldn't stop that horrible feeling in his gut. Something was terribly wrong. He hoped he wasn't too late.

The SWAT team was racing behind them, while the others waited at the office, praying that Spencer was alive and unharmed.

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I sat on the bed with the knife in his hand and ready to take his life. I felt so…unsure now…I had no idea why but something was holding him back…but what. I had tears in my eyes again, I wanted so badly to be free but this feeling, this voice in the back of my mind was stopping me. Tears of frustration and misery flowed down my face. I wanted freedom yes…but at the same time…I wanted to be myself again…to be with my friends despite what they had done…to be with my dear mother again. Her smile and warm memories of her made more tears flow down my face.

Good memories…my friends…Gideon…seeing little Henry when he was a newborn…spending time in Garcia's office when my leg was injured.

Then the bad memories…Tobias…the drugs…the unsubs that haunted my mind.

But still I couldn't use the letter opener, I couldn't do it.

Then…I finally dropped the knife.

After several moments I heard pounding on the door, I never registered that the man has been banging on the door for several minutes. I was too wrapped up in my thoughts and grief.

I sat on the bed and didn't move an inch.

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Morgan and Hotch finally reached the house and got out their guns. Hearts pounding and adrenaline rushing, they kicked open the door and rushed in. The SWAT team behind them. Morgan ran upstairs to the sound of yelling. He saw Zach banging on the door and screaming. Morgan was able to subdue him in an instant. He was handcuffed and taken away by the SWAT team. Morgan kicked in the bedroom door and found Spencer sitting on the bed with a knife at his feet.

Morgan slowly walked up to him and touched his shoulder. Spencer looked up at him and smiled.

"You came" he said.

Morgan nodded, "Of course Spencer…"

He then hugged Spencer and small tears fell down his cheeks while Spencer cried in his arms.

Spencer felt as if he was going to be alright. Morgan was relieved but also scared when he saw the knife. He vowed to make sure that Spencer would never have to do that again. That he would help him no matter the cost, sacrifice or whatever was in his way.

He would save Spencer from the walls of the hospital and the walls that were Spencer's misery.

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