When the tears had finally dried, Anna found herself feeling intense relief and heartbreak at the same time. Relief at the feeling that Elsa's impenetrable walls were finally starting to show signs of coming down. But at what cost? It had been torture watching Elsa breakdown in her arms, even though Anna tried to remind herself that part of this was caused by Elsa's parents. Anna had pushed, and regrettably done so, but she wasn't responsible for what they had put Elsa through. It wasn't until sometime later that Anna started to worry about the physical toll the whole night had taken on Elsa and the baby. Trying her best to remedy the situation, Anna helped Elsa up the stairs and drew her a warm bath, complete with bubbles and those yummy smelling three wick candles Elsa loved to buy.
Elsa sat motionless in the tub amongst a sea of bubbles, curled up as much into ball as her expanding waistline would allow, her braid hanging lifelessly down her pale back. Anna lit a few candles and turned off the lights. Even though Elsa had been crying off and on for over an hour, Anna couldn't help but notice how beautiful she looked. Her skin was like moonlight in the dimness of the room and her hair still looked gorgeous as ever, even with her braid mussed and half undone. Anna pulled up a small sitting stool next to the side of the tub and grabbed a nearby luffa and some body wash from the corner of the tub. Neither of them said a word while Anna drizzled the body wash over the luffa, brushed Elsa's braid aside and scrubbed little circles over her curved back. She could see the rise and fall of Elsa's back as she breathed, as if she was witnessing her body trying to repair itself before her very eyes. It was slow but deep and Anna didn't know was even still awake or had drifted off. She cupped her hand and splashed Elsa's back with water to rinse of the thick coat of bubbles. When she was done she grabbed Elsa's braid and lovingly took out the elastic and undid the it, running her fingers through the partially damps strands.
"Can I wash your hair?"
Anna asked feeling helpless just sitting and watching as she waited for life to return to Elsa's eyes.
"Yeah. That would be nice."
A fragile smile peeked out from the corner of her mouth as she turned her head to face Anna, laying her cheek against the top of her boney knees. It had been a rough night for sure, but nothing felt better than being cared for by Anna. Elsa knew she'd pushed her out of love. Anna wasn't the kind of person who would purposely cause anyone harm. Anna grabbed a rinsing cup and the bottle of Elsa's shampoo. Elsa's hair was so long and thick that Anna figured it would be best to work her way from the bottom up to get it completely wet. She gathered the blonde locks and poured a cupful of water down Elsa's back. It took three or four scoops of water before her hair was thoroughly wet.
"Here, lean your head back." Anna said softly.
Elsa closed her eyes and arched her back as Anna carefully poured more water over Elsa's hair, using her hand to guide the stream away from Elsa's face. She put the cup down and squirted some of the shampoo onto her hands and began to massage it into Elsa's scalp using light pressure with her fingertips, sending little waves of shivers down Elsa's spine. Anna had been waiting for the right time to say something and couldn't hold her tongue any longer.
"Elsa, I'm sorry about tonight. I'm sorry I pushed you."
Elsa didn't respond right way and just looked forward as Anna continued to work the foaming shampoo into the ends of her hair. After a long drawn out breath Elsa finally replied.
"I understand why you did it. As much as it hurts for me to think about it, it must hurt you just as much to feel shut out." Anna's mouth frowned slightly and she stopped what she was doing.
"I don't feel shut out...entirely. It's more like there's a part of you I don't know. I want to know all of you because I love you. All of you. I just want you to let me in."
Anna reached for the cup and began to rinse Elsa's hair and work in a honey smelling conditioner, accidentally using way too much.
"I know." Elsa was exhausted, emotionally and physically.
There wasn't much more that could be said without feeling like they were belaboring the point.
"Anna, I love you no matter what. Even when you push me. I'm not mad. Just tired."
Elsa's eyes were getting heavier and finally just let them flutter closed. Anna finished rising out the last of the conditioner and wrung out the water from her silky smooth tresses.
"We can talk about this later. Let's get you, I mean you two to bed."
Elsa smiled, uncurled her body and stood up to wrap herself in a giant white fluffy towel Anna was holding out for her.
"You didn't even let me tell you about my day." Elsa's playfulness was finally returning, a tired playfulness at best.
"I'll tell you what. Tomorrow I will make breakfast, you can sleep in...obviously, and you can tell me everything about the event. And I promise I will just listen the entire time." She said with a gleaming smile as she blew out the flickering candles.
"You not talk. Don't make promises you can't keep." Elsa smirked as she grabbed Anna's hand and lead her to the bedroom.
Things were starting to feel better but Elsa couldn't wait to get a good nights sleep and put this whole day behind her.
"Morning sunshine."
Anna opened her eyes to find Elsa's wide eyed face directly in front her. She was biting her lip like she was trying to keep her smile from curling up too high, fluttering those flirtatious eyelashes of hers. Anna could feel Elsa's feet lightly rubbing against her own in a rhythmic fashion.
"You look really happy about something. Did you have a good dream or something?"
Elsa didn't even say anything and just enthusiastically nodded her head.
"Oh I see." Anna was quickly starting to put the pieces together.
The only time Elsa was in this good of a mood in the morning was when she was craving some Anna time. She was still bleary eyed and really tired and hadn't caught up to Elsa's excitement level, who was leaps and bounds ahead of Anna. The blonde nuzzled her nose into the crook of Anna's neck and began to press wet kisses onto a soft spot near Anna throat while the redhead rubbed the sleep out of her eyes.
"Mmmm...mmmm." Breathy moans began to vibrate across Anna's neck.
Wow she's already moaning. She must be really worked up.
Elsa slowly worked her way up to Anna's ear and licked around the shell of it before she whispered to the redhead.
"I was dreaming about you."
Anna let out a nervous laugh.
"I hope it was me."
Elsa was coming on so strong that it was bringing out Anna's awkward side. She was really enjoying watching Elsa get herself all hot and bothered and just decided to let her do her thing. Elsa's free hand began to slowly skim up Anna's stomach and under her shirt, tickling her ever so slightly. And she didn't stop there. Elsa grabbed Anna's breast and began to knead and lightly pinch.
"Oh..ahh...wow that must have been some dream. Not that I'm complaining."
Elsa's long blonde hair was right under Anna's nose and she leaned in to soak up Elsa's scent.
"Oh God your hair smells so good."
Elsa laughed and looked up at Anna's teal eyes.
"That's because you used so much conditioner last night."
The smell pretty much provided the boost Anna needed to try and catch up to Elsa. Before she knew it they both had their hands all over each other while Elsa feverishly kissed Anna. It was like Anna was the air Elsa needed in order to breathe. The redhead couldn't help but notice that Elsa's breasts had gotten bigger. A lot bigger. Maybe even a full size or more. And they felt really good underneath Anna's grip.
Things hadn't progressed to this level in quite some time. Elsa was usually too nauseous or tired the past month to even consider sex. But with the morning sickness now subsiding, Anna figured Elsa must have rediscovered her urges and maybe gained some new ones in the process. As soon as Anna felt like they were on the same page, Elsa kept taking things to the next level. Her breathing was labored and she was moaning like they were already having sex. She pulled away from Anna and looked at her with hooded eyes as she sat up and took off her shirt. Anna had to readjust her eyes as Elsa's belly suddenly reminded her she was pregnant. It hadn't really come up before because Elsa hadn't been showing until the past few weeks. Not only that but Anna skipped the chapters about having sex while pregnant because she figured that it wasn't going to be happening for a while. Plus, it only covered sex between a man and woman, which didn't help Anna at all.
Things were moving really fast now and Anna's head was starting to spin. Elsa was craving Anna like she had an itch and Anna was the only one who could scratch it. Anna went inside her head and started thinking about how much of this the baby was hearing or feeling. It was almost like having a third person in the room and the only one who seemed to be bothered by it was Anna, clearly as Elsa was now down to just underwear and thrusting her self against Anna- who still had on all of her clothes.
"Elsa...Elsa...slow down. You're going a million miles an hour here." She grabbed hold of Elsa's shoulders and tried to push her back but the blonde wasn't budging.
"I'm sorry. I can't help it." She was speaking in between kisses she was planting on Anna's chest, leaving red marks everywhere.
"I think it might be the hormones because I keep having these dreams." She continued as she pulled up Anna's shirt and started kissing up the side of her ribs.
"W-what kind of dreams?" Anna stuttered as she was almost afraid to ask.
"Naughty dreams." Elsa had stopped kissing Anna and was looking up at her. Elsa's eyes were dark and hungry.
"Anna please."
To say Anna was hesitant was an understatement. Elsa wasn't even giving her a minute to think. She didn't know what Elsa's body could handle and she couldn't help but be a little weirded out by the thought of their baby being right in the middle of them.
"Elsa I can't."
Anna felt terrible to be the one to bring things to a screeching halt but a conversation about this really needed to happen first.
"What's wrong?" Elsa reached out to hold Anna's hand but the redhead quickly scooted to the edge of their king sized bed.
"Nothing's wrong I just...don't want to hurt you or baby or... I don't know this is...different." Anna rubbed her palm against her forehead, trying to put her feelings into words the best she could.
"Wait no, no, no. Sex is good for me. Dr. Bjorgman said it's fine. It helps fight cramping and fatigue, and it's aerobic."
Elsa wished she could remember where she put that damn handout he gave her.
"Yeah at the rate you were going I could see how it would be very aerobic. But what if baby can hear? What if it gets scared or something? What if it thinks I'm hurting you?!"
"What?" Elsa laughed a little as she spoke.
"Anna. The baby doesn't know what we're doing and it doesn't really care. Pregnant people have sex all the time and their kids are fine."
Anna was thinking about what Elsa had said as she drummed her fingers steadily over her chin. It made sense but didn't make her feel any less guilty. Elsa was starting to feel discouraged at the amount of time Anna was taking to think.
"So are we just going to wait another four and a half months to have sex? I have to wait another six weeks after the baby is born."
No sex for five to six months didn't sound realistic or good for their relationship.
"No, that sounds crazy. I'm sorry I just didn't think about this before. But what you're saying makes sense. It's not that I don't want to have sex with you, there's just a lot more to consider now. You need to be really vocal with me if something hurts or anything okay?"
Elsa tried to contain her excitement as she could tell Anna was beginning to come around.
"Yes, I promise. Just as long as you don't treat me like some breakable thing."
"I'll try not to but you have to understand where I'm coming from." Anna firmly pointed a finger at Elsa.
"I understand. Can we be done talking and start doing now? Please, I feel like I'm on fire and I'm going to burst if you don't kiss me." Elsa had flopped back down on the mattress, blonde locks of hair splaying everywhere.
"Okay okay. Just slow down." Anna tried to emphasise.
Anna now saw her role in this whole thing as if she were getting Elsa something from the drugstore or propping a pillow under her feet. This woman clearly had needs that needed to be met and Anna was going to be there for her. It was her duty, whether they were on the same page or not. Besides, there could be worse things her wife could be pushing her into.
Okay, can't lay on top. How am I gonna do this?
Anna was trying to figure out the best position to start in.
On the side. Yes, genius Anna.
Anna thought this would be the best position for Elsa to just lie back and enjoy herself but she was quickly realizing that Elsa wanted to be an active participant and would not lay still.
"Hey, jumping bean. I know you're very eager but you need to lay still if you want me to actually participate here. There's a whole other obstacle I have to think about here." Anna glanced down at Elsa's stomach and then back at Elsa to emphases her point.
"Sorry. I'll try. Please, please, please continue."
With Elsa finally still Anna felt like she had a better handle on things and she could think.
"Good, just relax. Just let me take care of you."
That alone made Elsa's heart rate speed up, which only made it harder to obey Anna's wish and relax.
Feeling rather unsexy in her worn out t-shirt, Anna pulled the ragged thing up and over head, tossing it to the floor. She then curled her body up against the side of Elsa's, spoon style. The blonde's body was radiating with heat. Now that Anna was back in control, she was going to take this a little slower. The change in pace showed on Elsa's face as an uncertainty had strained her fragile features. Anna brought her hand up to Elsa's face and gently began to caress it, running her fingers over the tiny baby hairs of Elsa's hairline. Silence filled the room and the only thing that could be heard were their tiny breaths. Anna brought herself closer and kissed Elsa's angel soft lips, sweeping her tongue across the blonde's bottom lip. What had started out as soft and patient kisses quickly turned into deeper and needier kisses by Elsa. Feeling a little more aroused and comfortable, Anna felt like she had made Elsa wait long enough.
"Roll over on you back." She whispered.
Elsa rolled over and pulled her hair out from under herself, flipping it off to the side. Assuming a position that felt more natural, Anna hovered over Elsa and continued to kiss her as she propped herself up on one elbow and ran a hand up and over the blonde curvaceous body. Elsa's skin had always felt great under Anna's hand, but the suppleness of her curves was a whole new sensation the made Anna's hands tingle with pleasure. Elsa was already back to moaning and panting and Anna thought it was a wonder she didn't pass out from hyperventilating.
"Not to break the mood, but this is your reminder to communicate with me." She said in a low and whispered voice.
Anticipation was getting the best of Elsa, as a nod was the only response she could manage to give. Anna knelt down and quickly slid off Elsa's underwear before crouching off to the side, her face over Elsa's. Cautiously, she ran her fingers over Elsa's center. Nothing felt any different, as far as Anna could tell. Elsa gritted her teeth and gasped out of pleasure as Anna motioned to enter her. All the while searching Elsa's face for any signs of discomfort. Not waiting for Anna, Elsa starting pushing hard against her hand, putting her own hand flush against the headboard to allow for better thrust. They weren't strangers to rough sex but Anna was having trouble enjoying herself as she continued to worry about hurting either one of them, even though Elsa was the one being forceful.
After a certain point there was nothing Anna could do to slow Elsa down from her own pace. And just as Anna thought she might, Elsa was at least getting an aerobic workout. Anna didn't need any hint about how close Elsa was from reaching her peak based on the increasing loudness and pitch of her whimpers and moans. Elsa had her fair share of times where she was the loud one in bed, but this first time Anna had ever heard her down right scream as she hit her peak. She could only look on in amazement and wonder just how intense it must have been as Elsa arched her back and her body jerked several times. Shaking and breathing like she'd just run a marathon, Elsa cupped her hand against Anna's cheek and pulled her closer for a kiss.
"Thank you."
Elsa was so breathless Anna could barely hear what she had said. She wanted to say, 'your welcome' but really Elsa had done most of the work. Anna had never ended sex on such a confused note. They'd been together for six years and had perfected the choreography of their lovemaking to the point where they were practically mind readers. But this was completely different and Anna was utterly confused.
By Monday Anna was glad to be back at work, as it provided a much needed distraction after the roller coaster of a weekend. Her class had just ran out the door for morning recess, leaving her with a few much needed minutes to collect herself. Enjoying the silence she picked up an eraser and began to erase the morning's English lesson from the blackboard. Alone with her thoughts she couldn't help but think about how Elsa was doing if she herself felt a bit jarred from the events of the past few days. They'd gone from an emotional breakdown to fiery sex in just under 12 hours, not to mention more tension and arguing on Sunday. Anna was always one to keep her head above the water and stay optimistic, but this was beginning to become too much for her to handle on her own. She let out a forceful sigh and looked over her shoulder to the clock on the wall. There was still another ten minutes left of recess and she was pretty sure she couldn't hold out until lunch to call Dr. Bjorgman like Elsa had suggested. Putting the eraser back on the ledge of the board, Anna went to her desk and rummaged through the top draw for cell phone.
"Hi this is Anna Arendelle for Dr. Bjorgman."
The disturbing sound of elevator music came over the phone as she waited on hold, trying not to become even more stressed at the sight of the disheveled stack of papers on her desk that still needed to be graded.
"Anna, Hi. I'm glad you called. How can I help you?" His voice was so strong and calming and Anna couldn't help but they think sure picked the right guy to help them through this crazy time.
"Well...um, Elsa had told me to call but I actually wanted to call you myself, not just because she told me to because...I'm sorry. Anyways, I don't know what to do or what more I could do but things are really getting weird at home. I can't tell what's hormones anymore but Elsa is just all over the place. Granted I probably didn't help my forcing to her to drag her skeletons out the closet...not real ones, I mean figuratively. Obviously..."
Dr. Bjorgman interrupted Anna to save her from herself.
"Anna...Anna, it's okay. When I saw Elsa the other day she said she was experiencing a lot of conflicting emotions and we talked a little about that. Truth be told, having a baby is not easy on couples. It'll test you but it will also bring you closer in the end. And most of it is hormones but having a baby brings up a lot of things, for both of you I'm sure."
Anna held the phone close to her ear and could feel a sense of calm coming over her as he spoke.
"Listen there's not much you can do to make Elsa change at this time but there is something that might help you. A friend of mine runs a support group for non-pregnant partners. It's a great source of support and I'm sure you're running into a lot of issues that aren't talked about in any of your books."
Anna sat up straight and her eyes perked up.
"Yes, exactly! That's one of the problems I've been having is that everything I read is aimed at heterosexual couples. There wasn't anything in there that helped me with how to have sex with your pregnant partner or how to cope with not being the pregnant one. I could go on and on here."
Dr. Bjorgman chuckled at the way Anna always expressed herself so passionately.
"Well I think you'd really like this group. I'll have the receptionist call you and give you all the details. And Anna, please tell Elsa the truth about where you're going. Don't tell her you're going somewhere else because all my couples do that and it doesn't go over well. You're going to become a more supportive wife. She'll understand."
Anna rolled her eyes and couldn't believe how well he seemed to know her already.
"I feel better already. Thanks for the help doc."
Anna weaved through the ugly grey hallways of the hospital, frantically trying to find the room Dr. Bjorgman's receptionist had told Anna the group was meeting in. And in true Anna fashion, she was running late. Finally she found the meeting room filled with chairs forming a large circle and a table of drinks and snacks off to the side. Even if she was running late, Anna always made time for free food and sprinted over to grab a bottle of water and a small plate of chocolate chip cookies. As soon as she sat down she stuffed one of the moist and chewy cookies into her mouth, famished as she didn't have time to sit down and eat dinner with Elsa.
"Oh, looks like we have someone new today. Would you like to introduce yourself?" An older woman with short curly brown hair was waiting for Anna's response.
With her mouth full of cookie, Anna tried to swallow hard and clear her voice, making a gurgling sound.
"Sorry...I just downed a whole cookie. Um...well let's see. Hi, I'm Anna Arendelle. My wife is thirteen weeks pregnant. We'd been trying for almost a year with In Vitro and I couldn't get pregnant, but she did, of course, and now she's due at the end of the summer. I came today because...I'm having a really hard time with all of the new changes. Sometimes I feel like I can't tell Elsa everything I'm feeling or thinking because I don't want to upset her. I'm also still dealing with a lot of weird jealousy issues about her being the one to get to experience all this and I won't, ever. Which is really confusing because I'm so happy that we're having a baby and watching her be pregnant is amazing but a part of me is sad that it will never be me."
The group leader sympathetically smiled at Anna.
"You've come to right place Anna. A lot people here are feeling the same things you are and this is a place for you to talk about those feelings."
Anna looked around the circle of women, each smiling as if they could related to what she'd said.
"Thanks I could really use someone to talk to." She twisted the cap off the top of the water bottle and took a few sips to wash the rest of the cookie down.
"Please go on. It sounds like you have a lot on your mind." The other members of the group looked at Anna with eager eyes.
"Uhh...I'm just going to jump right in and be really frank here. I literally went from holding my wife while she cried her eyes out over something I forced her to do, to having her beg me to have rough sex with her the next morning. I mean it was primal. How in the hell does someone go from devastated to horny so quickly?"
Anna's voice was getting louder and her hands were flying about all over the place as made an endless flow of gestures. There was a small collected chuckle from the group.
"You're lucky. My partner won't even let me touch her. She doesn't even want to think about sex." Replied one of the members.
The group leader smiled and brought her attention back to Anna who was now feeling somewhat luckier knowing that her wife was at least begging her to touch her.
"Anna it's really common for women to have an increased sex drive at the beginning of the second trimester. For starters, there's a lot more blood flow throughout the body, allowing your wife to be much more response to any sort of arousal. Secondly, and I'm sure you've heard this a million times already, it's hormonal."
Anna continued. "Yeah but I can't find anything that tells me how to have sex with your pregnant wife when you're both woman. Like, I had no idea what to do...what not to do. And it's not like she was giving me anytime to think. I felt like a high school virgin flying by the seat of my pants or something."
The group leader continued to smile and nod and couldn't but laugh at how animated Anna was. It was as if each word had it's own unique facial express to go with it.
"I have some resources I can give you before you leave today that will help you with the lack of same-sex information. But let me just say that from your wife's point of view, this can be the best time of a woman's life to have sex. Woman who are pregnant can have longer, more intense orgasms and even multiple orgasms."
Anna's mouth fell open and she wasn't sure if she was more shocked or jealous.
"Holy cow, I guess I'd be begging for it too."
The group laughed in unison.
"You've made it through one of the hardest parts. Morning sickness is really trying on a woman, but the second trimester is the most pleasant. She'll start getting more energy and she's not big enough yet to feel physical pain or discomfort from the weight of the baby. And it sounds like she's very much into being affectionate with you and with some help and support, this could be a really great time for both of you."
The pinched look Anna had been wearing on her face melted into a relaxed smile. The crease between her brows smoothed out for the first time in weeks and she didn't feel as alone anymore.
Anna was in such a good mood she literally skipped up the driveway and swung open the front door like someone straight out of a musical, complete with a melodic, "I'm home!" Elsa was sprawled out on the couch in a pair of yoga pants and an oversized t-shirt surfing on her laptop.
"I'd ask how it went but I can tell from your need to burst into song that it went just fine."
Anna took off her jacket and set her things down before she continued to sashay her way over to Elsa, kissing her on her pillowy soft head.
"Yes, I learned sooooo much and it felt so good to get all that off my chest. Not that I had a lot on my chest, well I did but not because of you. Well...some you, not all."
There was her adorable Anna. The rambling spunky redhead that had been taken over by stress and tension the past few weeks. Elsa did the only thing she could to stop Anna's rambling and she planted a juicy kiss on her lips mid sentence, stopping the redhead in her tracks as she pulled Anna in by her braids.
"Yes, we talked about that too. You and your needs, shall we say."
Elsa cocked her head looking like a confused puppy.
"My needs. You mean you don't have any of your own?" Giving Anna a smirk.
God it felt so good to have playful Elsa back, Anna thought to herself.
"I do but let's be honest, no one can keep up with you these days. I haven't seen you like this since Hawaii when you wouldn't let me leave the room for two days."
Elsa grinned at the memory of one of their first trips as a couple.
"Oh yeah I remember that. That was fun." Her grin became mischievous as Anna realized she had just added fuel to Elsa's fire.
"So...can we?"
Elsa was motioning with her head to the bedroom and rubbing little circles with her thumbs over Anna's braids as she them in her hands.
"You're like the energizer bunny. You're not even the least bit tired?" Elsa didn't break eye contact with Anna and tucked her chin down a bit lower.
"Un uh." She shook her head as the grin crept even higher up her angelic face.
"Okay fine but just once because I have papers to grade and I'm already behind from going to the group."
Elsa leapt off the couch and took Anna's hand in her own as she lead her to the staircase.
"Once is fine. Besides, you'll need your energy for tomorrow morning." Anna groaned as Elsa drug her lazily up the stairs like a bag full of sand.
"Ugh Elsa...there is no pleasing you." Elsa giggled as they reached to the top of the stairs and looked back at Anna as they made their way down the hall to the bedroom.
"Actually, I was thinking about pleasing you first missy."
