Prompt #11

Sequel or Continuation from First Kiss

Desires

Lately…I've been noticing a certain someone more than usual and that's not supposed to happen seeing as I'm getting married in three months. I hadn't gone over the idea as to why I kissed that guy named Hope in the library back then.

Was it for pity? Or something else?

I sort knew he liked me, but he never made a move so I just guessed it was a puppy crush.

And then we kissed. I kissed him first…and the second time. And that just wasn't a simple friendly kiss either. I literally pinned him to the bookshelf and had my way with his soft and beautiful lips. He enjoyed it too.

I gave him his first kiss and I realized….I wanted more.

Serah was my one, my everything. I love her with my whole self being, but…every time now whenever I see Hope, I can't help but let my eyes linger on his body. His eyes, his lips, his face, his body, his expressions, his smile. Oh…his smile.

If someone could give the award for one of the most loving and pure smiles; he'd win.

"Snow?" Serah called out as I snapped back to reality.

I smiled down at her.

"Yeah babe?"

She smiled.

"Just making sure your back in real time. Something wrong?"

I shook my head and enveloped her in an embrace.

"Nah, just excited as our wedding date comes around the corner."

She giggled.

"Me too."

"Hi Hope."

I called out to the younger male. He was in the library as usual reading away and writing down notes.

He looked up and smiled.

"Hey Snow, helping out here again?"

"Just wandering around…studying hard?"

He sighed nodding.

"Yeah. I got a major exam. I'm here studying with my friend Alyssa." He pointed to the blonde girl next to him. I barely even noticed her there.

She looked up and smiled in return.

"Hello." She greeted.

I didn't know who this Alyssa person is, but I saw the way her and Hope were pretty close and comfortable with each other. For some reason I didn't like that.

"Oh I see. Well nice to meet you Alyssa…Hope I'll see you sometime." I waved walking away.

Why did I have an uneasy feeling inside me? I couldn't be jealous right?

I glanced back at the pair and felt a deep anger rising as Hope laughed and bumped shoulder's with the short haired blond. Yeah…I was jealous.

"You wanted to talk?" Hope asked meeting me outside the University grounds. He sat down on the stone bench smiling.

He's so beautiful.

Why hadn't I met him before?

Oh yeah he's way younger…and I met Serah first. I shouldn't be having thoughts like that. I don't regret meeting Serah and falling in love with her.

"Hope…I gotta say something." I began as I sat next to him.

I noticed his breath hitch but he didn't move away. Did he…still like me?

"Yeah?"

I placed a hand on his leg. He looked down then at me. His expression confused, his eyes searching mine.

"I'm sorry if this comes off wrong, but…I have the urge…no…I've been having the desire to kiss you. For a long time since back then in the library."

He did a visible gulp as he averted his eyes.

"Oh." He said voice cracking. He smiled sadly.

"I…I can't. Because…I'm…Alyssa is my girlfriend." He confessed.

I should've known. Why am I stupid? I needed to focus of my fiancé. Just like Hope is thinking of his girlfriend. I sighed and removed my hand.

"Hey it's okay. I really was in the wrong to come out with it. Uh…let's just forget about-

"But I still love you…" He whispered eyes staring at the ground.

I wrapped an arm around his frame and brought his head to my chest.

"Yeah…maybe I do too."

I rubbed Hope's shoulders to sooth his sobs. He felt bad. I felt bad. We let our emotions collide and this is the result.

He turned his body to face mine and buried his face into my bare chest. His leg wrapped over mine.

"I wish I didn't ruin your relationship-

I hushed him and kissed his head.

"You didn't ruin anything Hope." He didn't…

I brought the blanket over our naked bodies as he snuggled closer with a sad sigh.

"I'm sorry."

"Nothing to be sorry for Hope."

Hope was silent for a moment. He had his eyes closed and for a second I thought he fell asleep.

"My first kiss…I could never forget and I….I still loved you a lot too. This…You don't know how happy this moment here…made me feel. My heart is still racing."

I chuckled softly and stroked his back, my fingers running up and down his spine.

"Well you must know how happy I am right now." I replied.

He smiled and looked up at me. I gave him a loving kiss and he pulled away in a blissful breath.

"I hope we can be together in the future." He murmured.

I held him tightly.

"It's my full desire to make you happy." I whispered and with that we fell asleep.