Chapter 11

Jason went up to the room he had just finished tearing apart. He figured it was already destroyed so if he got angry again, he couldn't possible do much worst than he had already done. He found a semi empty space on the floor and skimmed through a few pages that had no mention of him. He read the pages Carly had read to him. There was more of her questioning why she hadn't gotten pregnant yet. He came to the page where she wrote about the day she met Sam.

April 25

I can't believe Jason. He both amazes me and frustrates me at the same time. He has another woman living with him. Not just any woman either. She is gorgeous. And get this, he doesn't even know her but offered her his apartment to stay in while she recovers from having her ass beat the hell up by some guys. She's about my age from what I can tell and her name is Sam. She was pretty beaten up when I saw her but even covered in bruises and scratches she was a knock out. I couldn't help but to feel a little, no a lot, jealous. She gets to live with Jason and I barely get the chance to spend the night. What the hell is that? I get he was trying to be the nice guy and all but I just don't get it. I should be the one staying in his apartment, not some straggler who gets herself beat up in alley ways or where ever it happened. Anyway, I went over to see him and that's when I met her. It was after we had just finished having sex. I purposely called myself Jason's girlfriend in front of her to let her know to back down and also to get Jason's reaction. If he didn't see me as his girlfriend then he would have corrected me. So now I know I have him hooked. Now all I need is the baby so that I can reel him in.

Jason was fuming by now and really wished he could kick Liz's ass. But instead he added more fuel to the fire by continuing to read her journal. With every word he read he gained even more contempt, rage, and loathing towards Liz. He just wanted to kill her. He continued reading when he came to the page where she thought she might be pregnant.

May 1

I'm both miserable and excited at the same time. I've been sick the last couple of days. I can't keep anything down but I'm excited to think that I could be pregnant with Jason's baby. All my hard work may have finally paid off. I don't want to jinx it just yet because my period still isn't due for another few days. I'm keeping my fingers crossed though. I keep playing the thought over and over in my head. Mrs. Elizabeth Morgan or Mrs. Elizabeth Webber-Morgan. I think I like the hyphenated name better. I'm praying that I'm pregnant. It's only a matter of time before I get that ring on my finger if I am. If I have a boy I want to name him Steven Alan Morgan after my brother and my future father in law. If it's a girl, I want to name her Lila Emily Morgan after Jason's two favorite women. Of course I'll really be his favorite but I can't name my daughter after me now can I? I told Jason that I've been sick and he told me to stay home and get some rest. He said he'd call me in a few days and see how I'm feeling. He's been really busy with work. I can't stand what he does. Maybe the baby will help him to see that he should get out of that life. But I'll make due because it has made Jason rich and it will allow him to take care of me forever. I don't know how Robin let him go just so she could go off to school in Paris. They have plenty of medical schools right here in the US and I'm pretty sure Jason would have paid for her entire education had she stayed. Oh well her loss is my gain. I'm gaining the family that I always wanted. Well at least I hope that I am. Okay well that's it for now.

Jason turned the pages and read through the bullshit and asked himself why he hadn't been able to see that Liz was so phony. He read through pages of how she was going to take a pregnancy test and how much Jason loved her and how he will love her even more when he found out she was carrying his child. Then he came to the page where she wrote about confirming that she was in fact pregnant and why she went to the Quartermaine's before she even told Jason she was pregnant.

May 10

I'm pregnant. I can't believe it but I am. This is so great. I took 10, ten, home pregnancy tests and they all came back positive. I've taken one every day for the last week and a half. I just needed to make sure the results wouldn't change. I never got my period. Plus I've been trying to figure out how to tell Jason. Then today, as if it were fate, the news came on announcing defective condoms. The same brand of condoms that Jason happens to use. Things couldn't work out better if I had planned it myself. So I'm going to tell him tomorrow. Make it seem like I just happened to take a test because I read the news article and I had been late plus I've been sick. So, I'm nervous about how he'll react. He keeps saying that he doesn't want children. So just to cover my bases I went over to the Quartermaine's to let them know about the baby. I figure if Jason really decides he wants no part in this baby's life then I'll at least have the Q's to take care of me for bearing the next Quartermaine heir. They are such fools. They fussed over me like I couldn't believe. Monica cried and said she was extremely grateful that I was the one having her son's child. So I told her that I want for her and Alan to have an active part in the baby's life. Alan looked so proud to a grandfather finally. He told me that Jason is very lucky to have a woman of such great character with him. I thanked him for his kind words but pretended to be modest and say I'm the lucky one. I will be the lucky one if Jason marries me. Edward took the cake talking about stock options and trust funds for the newest Quartermaine. He even asked if I would consider giving the baby a hyphenated last name. He said he understood that Jason had changed his last name to Morgan and was okay with that because it was Lila's last name but thought it would be in the best interest of the child if it had Morgan-Quartermaine or Quartermaine-Morgan as the last name. I enjoyed being over there. Edward even said that if Jason tried to get me to move in to his penthouse that I should reconsider because of his lifestyle and then he offered to let me live in the mansion with them. At that everyone agreed. Except Tracey. That bitch swears that her shit don't stink and accuses me of being a gold digger. I'm not a gold digger. I just want to be taken care of. So anyway, I'm going to tell Jason tomorrow and hope everything goes well.

Meanwhile across the hall…..

"Sam, would you please sit down?" Carly said as Sam paced her living room.

"Do you think he's okay? What if she shows up? Can you be sure that he won't hurt himself? Maybe I should go back over there." Sam said heading towards the door.

Carly stepped in front of her and put her hands up in front of herself to block Sam. "Where are you going? You need to stay here and relax. Your blood pressure is probably sky high and you're not even thinking about the baby."

Sam knew Carly was right. She needed to relax. He nodded to Carly and walked over to the couch and sat down. "I'm worried about him. Has he ever gotten this angry before? How do you bring him down from that?"

"I've honestly never seen Jason like that before. At least not for personal reasons. I don't have to watch him work but I even know he usually keeps a cool head."

"I wish there was something I can do to help him through this. I just don't know what I'd do if he accidentally hurt me while I'm pregnant."

"As long as you know he would never do anything to intentionally hurt you then you'll be okay. For now just keep a safe distance. Trust me when I say you can help from a distance. I've done it countless times for Sonny."

"What do you mean?" Sam asked.

Carly went on to explain to Sam about Sonny's manic depression and how he would go through the different stages. She told her how at first she was scared but finally realized that it wasn't something she could help him with so he went to a doctor and was now on medication. Sam listened intently and was amazed at the things Carly had to deal with. And all this time she thought Carly must have the perfect life. After their talk Sam began to wonder why Jason hadn't come back or why he hadn't called. Finally she lies down and falls asleep because her head began to hurt.

Back at Jason's……..

Jason couldn't believe just how delusional Liz was. He continued to read through the journal.

May 11

I went to tell Jason that I was pregnant and I don't know how to take it. He said he thought I was on the pill and that we were always protected. I explained about the defective condoms. He seemed to accept it as the excuse. I had to let out a breath of relief that he didn't question me further. He said he needs time to wrap his mind around the thought. I didn't want to pressure him just yet but I told him even though it wasn't planned that I was happy and hat I wasn't getting an abortion. He said he wouldn't ask me too. I think he likes that girl Sam. He looked so sad when he saw her. Today's her birthday and she only came out her room to pick up some liquor to get drunk. He said the poor girl has no family. I feel bad for her but I'm scared that she might be falling for Jason and that he might begin to feel something back. I can't let that happen because I need Jason to marry me.

May 11

I never write twice in one day but I had to. I knew it. Sam has feelings for Jason. She found out that I was pregnant and then tried to kill herself for him wanting to be a family with me. I went to her hospital room and plead my case to her while she was knocked out. I wouldn't have the nerve to ask her to her face to leave Jason alone and let him be with me like he wants too. Now I really feel sorry for her that she feels like she has nothing to live for. I would hate to feel like that. Anyway, I just can't let her ruin things for me.

May 12

It's happening. I'm going to move in with Jason. We are going to be a family. I can't believe it. I'm so excited. This is all I ever wanted. He wants to be with Sam but I know that I can make him want to be with me again. They can't possible share what Jason and I do. They have only known each other a couple of weeks and Jason said they barely talked. It's probably just a physical attraction that he will get over now that she's gone. She left saying that she wants us to try to have a real relationship for the baby. I'm grateful that she saw what Jason and I have and walked away so that we could be happy together. If she hadn't left it would probably have only been a matter of time before they slept together. You can't build a relationship on sex. Not even good sex. You have to have a mutual love and respect and I do have that with Jason. But it wouldn't stop him from thinking he wanted to be with her. I'll make him see. He says he's not going to sleep with me any more that he wants to be with her and we can work on seeing if we can become a real couple. I still think that it's only a matter of time before I get him to see that we are going to be great together. I just need to make him forget about Sam.

Jason continued to read and most of the rest of May was her complaining how Jason wasn't really trying to make a relationship work. She had continuously tried to seduce him into bed again but he never gave in. He pushed her away. She said that the only time he seemed interested in her at all was when she asked how she was feeling and if she needed anything for her morning sickness. She had come into his room one night after he had gone to sleep, but he sent her back to her own room and locked his door every night after that. She knew because she had tried to go back a few times. Jason began to think of ways that he could torture Liz and make her feel the pain he felt by having Sam away from him. That had been torture. He had not been able to feel her lips or make love to her. He ached to touch her, taste her, and fuck her the way she liked. He had never been with anyone who enjoyed it so hard and rough and begged for him to keep going. He had missed her. He hadn't had sex since that night she left. He jerked off almost every night thinking about that last night together. He couldn't go anywhere in the house without the image of her bent over or hearing her scream out in pleasure. He always looked at that pool table and smiled at the thought of what they had done on it. Now as he read Liz's journal he hated Liz more than any enemy he had ever come against. The pain she caused him was worse than any gunshot wound. She caused him severe heartache. Now he needed to return the favor. Jason continued to read. He was now in June and noticed that she wrote way less than she did before.

June 16

I often wonder why I write in a journal and realize that it's because I can't confide all my dirty little secrets to my best friend because she is Jason's sister and would tell him all I've done. I think Emily would tell even if she wasn't his sister. Anyway, I'm so royally screwed right now. I never thought that everything could back fire the way that it has. That day I got the drugs from Zander to put in Jason's drink, I had to sleep with him to get it. I didn't have enough cash on me and I was desperate to get pregnant. So I fucked him and he gave it to me. We used protection. But it was one of those damn Enduro condoms that were defective. That means that there's a slight possibility that he could actually be the father of this baby I'm carrying. I ran into him and he casually mentioned that small little fact. I said that the likely hood of that happening was slim to none. It was one time together. That's it. Jason and I had been using those damn condoms for weeks and I never got pregnant. I'm positive that Jason is the father and that this child was conceived on the night I took advantage of him. But Zander has a point and he's threatening to tell Jason what I did, if I don't sleep with him again. I swear, this is not supposed to be happening.

June 19

I slept with Zander today just so he would keep his mouth shut. He was satisfied at first but then he wanted more and wouldn't let me leave until he was tired. He's holding this baby over my head. He says if I don't he will tell Jason that he's not the baby's father. I can't let that happen. There is an up side to this though. Zander is a good fuck and since Jason isn't giving me any, at least I'm getting some from somewhere.

June 28

Zander is crazy. He now says that he wants a paternity test done on the baby to find out if it is his. He says that he wants to be a part of its life if it is. I can't have that happen. Zander is not in the plan. This baby is Jason's. I just need to prove that to Zander so he can't hold it over my head anymore. So I scheduled an appointment with Dr. Lee. She's the new OB/GYN at GH. She's young and understanding. Zander said that he will meet me at the hospital. I guess it's a good thing that Jason has no interest in what I do otherwise he might be suspicious. This has to work out the way I planned. Otherwise I need to convince Zander to stay away.

Jason flipped through pages to find out what the results were. He came to the entry with the results.

July 8

Jason and I are going to be a family. I got the results back. Everything is going to be the way that it should be. Zander met with me in the park and I handed him the results, still sealed in an envelope. He opened it and told me congratulations. That Jason was the father after all. He looked a little sad which shocked me. I really didn't know until then how badly he wanted to be a father. I felt a twinge of guilt for doing what I did to him. I changed the results and resealed the envelope. Zander is the father of my child but I can't let him be the father. He is not the one I want to be with. He will not be able to take care of me and he can't keep me safe like Jason can. Jason will continue to be the father of this baby. I feel a little guilty but not enough to change the plans that I've made. Jason has accepted this child as his and he has been more than supportive lately. He has come to every doctor's appointment. I can't believe it. I knew he would come around and now that he has accepted the baby, I know he will come around to seeing me as the woman he wants to marry. Jason is honorable and loyal and even though we don't sleep together I know that he will be committed to me and the baby. I'm 4 months pregnant now and I'm overwhelmed with love for this child and I need to do what's best. Jason will be the best thing for him or her and me.

That was it. Jason lost it. That was the last straw. He closed the book and threw it. Anything in that room that was remotely still in one piece from the last fit of rage was now completely and totally destroyed. Nothing in that room remained whole. Windows were broken, dressers smashed, drawers stepped on and crushed, mirrors shattered. She let him mourn the loss of a child that wasn't even his. He could have been with Sam watching his daughter grow inside of her. He could have gone to all of Sam's doctor's appointments and been with Sam when she found out she was having a girl. He suddenly wanted nothing more than to kill Liz when he saw her. He walked out of the room and went into the kitchen. He grabbed a six pack of beer from the fridge and a bottle of tequila out of the cabinet. He sat on the couch and his blue eyes which one would call cold were now filled with fire; a fire of pure hate and rage. He drank one of the beers and thought about how much of his life he had missed out on because of Liz. He would make her pay. His cell phone rang. He took it out his pocket and saw that it was Liz. He decided not to answer. The ringing stopped. It started to ring again. He was tempted to answer it but decided that it would be best for him not to as he sat thinking about the most brutal and torturous way to end Liz's pathetic life. He would make her suffer such as he had suffered. Liz called four more times and finally she left a message. He checked the message.

"Hi Jason. It's Liz. I'm about to leave the library. You said to call when I'm on my way so I'm on my way. Sorry again to bother you but I just really need that laptop. I'll try to call again when I'm downstairs."

Jason took a deep breath. He knew if he had to see her right now he would kill her on the spot. Then he remembered his promise to Sam. He got up off the couch and walked across the hall. He knocked and Carly came to the door. When she opened it, she held her finger up to her lips for Jason to be quiet, and then pointed to the couch to show that Sam was asleep. She then motioned for him to follow her into the kitchen. Once there she started to talk.

"So are you okay?" She asked, looking him over.

"No. Not really. I can't believe I was so stupid. She played me from the very beginning."

"Yeah I'm sorry Jase. So what else did you learn from that journal? Everything else I read before Sam came back down was boring."

"Carly, I don't even know where to begin. Right now all I want to do is kill her. She made miss out on so much. If she had never lost that baby I would have even missed out on Jasmine being born. I would probably never have even known that I had a daughter. I would have been here raising a child that wasn't even mine."

"What?!" Carly screamed.

"The baby belonged to Zander Smith." His eyes were emotionless at the words.

Just then Sam came running into the kitchen. "Carly what's wr…. Jason are you okay?" she asked when she saw him there.

"I'm fine. Are you okay? Here sit down and catch your breath." He said.

"I'm 8 months pregnant and I was asleep and was woke up by Carly screaming. What the hell happened?"

"Sorry. Jason said something that caught me off guard. I didn't mean to scare you." Carly said.

"No one means to scare the pregnant lady but yet I keep getting the crap scared out of me. You two won't be happy until I go into premature labor."

"Don't even joke like that. Do you need to go to the hospital? Are you feeling pains?" he said as he held her shoulder and rubbed her back.

"No I'm fine. I could use some water though. I just need to calm my nerves."

Carly went to get the water while Jason tried to get her relaxed. As he rubbed her back he could feel her heart racing. "I'm sorry I scared you so badly earlier." He said.

Carly handed her the glass of water. "I'm sorry I scared you too."

Sam took a deep breath before saying, "Its okay. I know you guys didn't mean it but can we take it easy for the rest of the day. I don't think Jas and I can take another scare today." She smiled rubbing her belly. Jasmine kicked against her hand in acknowledgment.

"I think I can do that. What about you Jase?" Carly said.

"I'll definitely take it easy on you for the rest of the day. It's been all around hectic."

"So what did you say to Carly that got her all freaked out?"

"I was telling her what the journal said. Liz's baby wasn't mine."

Sam who had taken a sip of water at the moment spit it out all over the counter. "I'm sorry. I just wasn't expecting that."

"I guess it's a good thing you were facing forward and didn't catch either of us." Carly said trying to lighten the mood that was definitely tense because of the underlying subject.

"So what now?" Sam put it out there.

"I know what I want to do but I can't right now. I need to think but in the meantime she's on her way and if I see her I'll kill her without a second thought." He said. Just then his phone rang. It was Liz. "She's probably on her way up and I don't want to see her."

"Good because I do." Carly said. "I'm going to kick her ass."

"Carly don't. She wants to see me right? So let's go across the hall and give her her things. She can see me and get it over with." Sam said as she slid off the stool.

"I don't think that's such a good idea." Carly said.

Sam continued to walk and Jason walked in front of her. "Sam I think you should stay here. I'm not sure I trust Liz around you. And if she tries something, I'll have to kill her."

"Jason, she's not going to try anything with Carly with me and you can be upstairs or in the kitchen. Now let's go before she comes upstairs."

She opened the door and just as they got into the hallway, the elevator doors opened and out walked Liz. She stood face to face with the person she hated and envied most in the world and two people who hated her even more. Liz just had no idea that Jason was one of the two.