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Chapter 11
She picks it up and starts nodding. "Oh, Edward… yes… I'd love to marry you…" She intensifies her focus and holds the ring almost reverently. "The band is platinum?"
I touch my chain and lock. "Yes, to match my…err…necklace. The diamond is a princess cut. I ordered it and asked my mom to pick it up. Do you…?"
"I love it… almost as much as I love you." She places our lips together and I feel my fear of her rejection melt away from my heart. *She loves me! She wants me! I'm hers! *
We're so absorbed that we don't notice the door open and shut behind her. A loud squeal lets us know someone's there.
We break apart suddenly and see Alice, Jasper, and my family staring at us.
The first thing out of Alice's mouth is, "I'm so planning the wedding!"
I smile but Bella rolls her eyes. "Edward and I will set the date…which will not be for a while; by the way…We will also choose the colors and participants. The rest can be up to you and Esme…" Bella turns to face my mother. "That is… If you'd like to help…?"
I can see her joy as she and Alice immediately exchange phone numbers but I feel as if her putting this off is a knife wound to my fragile heart.
"Edward, what's wrong?" Mistress asks.
"Why put it off?" I whisper.
"Oh, honey…" She sighs, and then turns to my family. "I'm sorry, but…would you mind giving us a few minutes?"
They just nod and Dad says, "Since you guys are staying with Alice and Jasper, we'll expect you all for dinner in a few days to celebrate. We'll see you later."
Bella nods and grins at them. As the door closes, she focuses on me. "Edward, we need to get some things settled before we complicate them further. We need to figure out how our new dynamic will work. Master Phil will be back in 3 weeks to punish me and to make sure I don't make the same mistakes over again. We need to find a new home in, or near, Seattle so we can start renovations if they're needed. The trial for James, Vicki and Jacob will be here sooner or later. There are so many things for us to discuss and experience. Do you understand why I think we should wait, my love?"
I sigh. "I guess…"
Jasper breaks in asking if I love and trust her.
I meet her eyes quickly to let her know I'm being truthful. "Yes."
He continues on to ask why I am questioning the woman I love and trust.
I understand what he's saying but they need to see my point as well. "I guess I'm just eager to be yours legally… and be able to say that I belong to you even when 'vanilla' people are around. You know what I mean?" I reply.
Bella understands and so she hands me the ring. Allowing me to feel like a man…and claim her the only way I can as a submissive …I grin as it slides smoothly over her knuckle. "Thanks… for letting me do that."
She then surprises me by saying that she has an engagement gift for me as well. The story that goes with it is promised for the car ride to Alice and Jasper's house.
The doctor lets us check out and makes us appointments to get the bandages re-wrapped in a few days. The nurse also gives me a card for the plastic surgeon in Seattle.
Mistress asks Alice to stop at her house first. Apparently, Chief Swan is meeting us there so she can pick up a few things.
She agrees and starts the car.
I lean on Mistress' shoulder. "I was in a Dom club with Master once and one of the Dommes that I was allowed to speak with had a male sub who I found out was also her husband. He had no tattoos or piercings. His entire body was almost virginal… untouched except for a braided gold ring that went around his cock and balls. It wasn't a chastity thing, just decorative and it matched his wedding band. I decided, then and there, that if I ever married, he would have to be a sub…and if I married a sub, I'd have a set like that made for him."
I just keep looking up at her as she continues. "About a year ago, I met a Dom from LA who's a jeweler by trade… We got to talking and he designed a special set just for me and said that he'd send it to me for free when it was done as long as I sent him pictures so he could bring it up to other Dommes… It came by FedEx the day after you left last week. It's 2 platinum bands with gold diamond shapes and each diamond has a diamond chip in it… I hope you like them."
I smile. "I'm sure I'll love them, Mistress. I mean…" I blink startled to realize that my perception of her is mixed. Sometimes I think of her as 'Mistress' and sometimes as 'Bella' but the two sides of her are so connected to each other that I get them confused. Just now she was clearly being 'Bella'- fiancé, vanilla-ish woman in a relationship. And other times, she's clearly 'Mistress'- firm and commanding. I love them both…now how to fix this so I know which one to call her at which time…
"You see, Edward? There are things we need to settle before something crazy like a wedding… You'll be marrying 'Bella' not 'Mistress'…" She says, smirking as we pull up to the curb outside of the house. She then asks Alice to stay out here with me and Jazz.
Bella's dad is sitting on the front porch. I hear him ask, "Hey, Bells. How are you and the Cullen boy doing?"
I hear snippets of their conversation.
Bella's voice says, "Hey, Dad… We're ok. Some scars will be…Edward and I…married…wait for a while though…Things need to settle down..."
"You won't stay here though… will you?" That was him…
Her voice comes back. "Dad…sorry… want Edward…feel safe and happy…go to UW…fall… I think…live in or near Seattle… We'll visit though…stay with you…Alice and Jazz…the Cullens."
I feel bad making her leave him.
"…you can visit us… be 'vanilla' while you're there…"
I hear him laugh. "What…in the house?"
"…need some things…my safe…a few changes of clothes…" She says.
They go into the house and Alice starts to talk. Bella hadn't said that I wasn't allowed to converse with our friends, so I assume its ok.
"Are you excited to move to Seattle, Edward?" She asks.
After hearing those snippets, I feel a little off about the whole thing I get a sudden fear of her resenting me afterward. "Yeah, I can't wait…"
She asks what's wrong but I hesitate. "You won't tell her what I say…will you Miss Alice?"
She shakes her head, promises not to but tells me that if Bella hears anything, it should come from me.
I understand, but say, "I hate that I'm taking her away from her family and friends. I hope this move doesn't cause her to rethink our relationship after a while."
She tries to reassure me, but I can't shake the feeling that Bella will resent changing her life around for a lowly sub…even if I am her fiancé…
Bella only takes 20 minutes in the house. We wave good-bye to Chief Swan as we drive off to Alice's house.
She sits in the back seat with me and I rest my head on her lap. I'm still so tired from whatever the doctor gave me so I doze off.
My eyes flutter as I start to wake up.
Mist- Bella notices instantly. "Good, you're awake. We're almost to Alice and Jasper's house. I thought we should talk a little more when we get there."
I frown. "About what…?"
"All sorts of things…" Bella says. "The move…College…houses…the checklists we never went over…concerns we each might have… whether or not I'll still play with Jasper after the wedding…"
Jasper gasps and turns to look at us. I see the unhappy surprise in his eyes and can almost hear him thinking, *There goes our hope for being together sexually.*
I just wait to see what they all have to say.
"Now, Jazzy, I'm sure you would have an opinion if Alice wanted to play with another sub. While Alice doesn't mind our, once a month, 24 hour 'play-dates', Edward might. We need to let him voice his opinions." Bella says to him.
"Yes…but she's a Domme, Miss Bella!" He says. "That's a decision to be made by Dommes not subs…"
Alice intervenes. "It's a decision to be made by husbands and wives as well as Dommes, Jasper."
Bella 'Looks' at him. "Jasper, Alice and I have always allowed your opinions to influence our choices. What makes you think I'd do any less for Edward?"
"Don't you recall when we decided to tie the ultimate knot, Jazz?" Alice says quietly. "We didn't have a big discussion but you asked me outright if you'd be allowed to play with Bella anymore. I knew from the look in your eyes that you'd be disappointed if I said no, so I didn't. I told you that I'd discuss it with Bella. As a Domme, I have an obligation to the health, happiness and general well-being of my sub. As a wife, I wanted you to myself…"
Jasper looks at her, shocked. "But, Mistress Alice…"
She shakes her head. "My Domme side won and so I share you as much as the wife in me will allow."
Jasper frowns. "But as a sub, he has an obligation to place her desires above his own… doesn't he?"
Alice pulls into her garage and explains to her husband. "Honey, the Dominant gives his/her permission while the submissive conveys his/her opinion. In our case, your opinion or inquiry was considered by me and in keeping with the ceremony and the contract we signed, I let your feelings influence my decision. I chose to allow another Domme to share my responsibilities in keeping you safe and happy. Bella may choose her wants over his wishes…but until and unless she talks to him, she won't know what his wishes are. Do you understand, Jazzy?"
He just nods.
As they have been speaking, I've been looking from person to person as each one speaks.
Jasper falls quiet.
I take a breath. "I can't believe you're considering changing your whole life just for me..." I remind them all that James never took my possible wants into the equation and that I don't know how to deal with such generosity. Pausing, I consider the feelings of everyone involved and find myself feeling unselfish and not jealous at all. Meeting Bella's stare I ask to see a 'play-date' first-hand before forming an opinion…
Bella informs us that she doesn't intend to have a play session til all her current wounds and bruises, as well as, whatever Master Phil's punishment inflicts have healed. She promises to keep up a little of our hanky-panky though.
I just know I'm blushing as she says that.
"Now then, Alice will show you our room and I want you to lay on the bed and rest. Jazz will help me with the bag and I need to speak to him for a moment, so I'll be up shortly." She smiles before turning toward Jasper.
Bella was being a bit commanding…was she Mistress or Bella right now?
Alice leads me to the room I'll be sharing with Mistress/ Bella. She says very little. She must be lost in her own thoughts for some reason. Before the door closes she reminds me that Bella will be joining me soon and she'd wake us for food after our nap.
A short while later, I feel the bed shift so, I wake slightly.
It's Bella. "Don't wake up, love. I'm joining you for a nap."
I've been lying on my side to keep the pressure off of my back. The brand is numb but the other injuries hurt alot
I wake up, hearing voices in the hall. I rub my eyes and look up at the clock on the wall. *Wow, I really slept heavily…* Looking over at Bella, I wonder if I should stay here in bed with her or take a chance in displeasing her to get up. Thinking about it for a moment, I decide that since I need to use the restroom, I'll get up. She won't be annoyed about that, and I'll come back and check on her before I do anything else. I slowly and carefully get off the bed.
She doesn't even stir.
My skin hurts all over, so I hold my penis gingerly as I use the toilet and thank the heavens that it doesn't hurt coming out. I take care of business and as I open the door to peek in on Bella, Jasper walks up beside me.
"Eddie, come up to my office, man…I need to tell you something…Miss Bella won't mind, and if she does, I'll take full responsibility, now c'mon." He says.
"So what's up, Jazz?" I ask, sitting in his office chair.
"Well, I did something I shouldn't have, before you and Miss Bella had your naps…" He starts.
I begin to feel nauseous.
"I'm sorry, Edward, I thought she'd want to know what you said in the car while she wasn't there… I'm so sorry that I didn't let you deal with it, but it didn't sound like you were ever gonna tell her and…"
My eyes fly wide open and I start to get upset. "…And what, Jasper…Now she probably thinks I'm lying to her or something! She'll think I don't trust her when I told her I did! Oh God, Jasper! If she thinks I don't trust her, she'll be hurt and I don't know how to deal with normal situations yet much less a Mistress who's feelings I've hurt! What am I going to do?"
"Edward, stop panicking! When I related the conversation to her, first she scolded me. Then she told me how much she'd like to keep us both in her life. Then she said, 'If Edward isn't comfortable with our arrangement, then its over.' She's already decided, so nobody will be able to talk her out of it. After that, she asked what happened in the car while she was getting her things." Jasper says. "I told her about Alice asking if you were excited about the move and how you said you were. I told her how you sounded funny, and that Alice thought so too. I told her what you said about hating that you're taking her away from her family and friends and how you hope the move doesn't cause her to rethink your relationship."
"Oh, God, Jazz, you told her that too!" I yell.
"Then I told her how Alice tried to reassure you and how you asked Alice not to say anything to her about it…"
"Now she'll think I was going to keep things from her!" I shout. "You probably just got me a punishment!"
Alice yells at us through the door. "Edward, Jasper, what's going on in there? Quiet down or I'll get Bella to thrash you both!"
My breathing catches and I lean hard against the desk.
"I'm sorry, Alice…We'll be good…" Jasper says before rushing to my side.
I shrug his hand off of my shoulder. "I thought you were my friend! Jasper, I…" I shake my head. "If I don't get punished, I may talk to you again in a few days…but for now, please leave me alone." I walk out of the office and down to the bedroom to see Mistress. I hope she's Bella right now. I don't know if I can handle Mistress' wrath.
Opening the door, I look around and see that she's not here. She must have awoken and is probably waiting somewhere for me.
"Edward, I have some pizza in the kitchen, Bella's there already…" Alice says peeking in at me.
I walk just behind her.
As she leads me to the kitchen, she says, "I'm sorry about Jasper telling Bella those things… but she's not upset, Edward… Well, that's not completely true. She's not upset with you… Just let her explain..."
Jasper meets up with us just outside the kitchen door and we march in to face our Mistress.