Chapter 11 – Hogwarts, we are back!

'Everyone downstairs NOW!' yelled a busy and angry Mrs. Weasley. She was surrounded with packages and books and broomsticks and god knows what. ' There are three fricken owls here for Harry, Hermione and Ginny. Oh.. to Ron too.' she yelled again. Mrs Weasley was packing their things when the owls arrived.

Four sleepy teenagers got downstairs still in their pyjamas. 'Ron...Harry...Hermione...and Ginny' she said giving them their letters. Hermione jumped opening her letter.

'I...I...I'm Head Girl' she muttered 'I'm Head Girl!' she yelled.

Ron hurried up opening his letter. A wave of disappointment passed by his face. Mrs. Weasley grabbed his letter and screamed 'Oh, my son...You were chosen to a new category... Hannah told me about it. Mr. Security You will be part of the security team of Hogwarts and you can choose two friends to be with you.'

Harry was still with his letter in his hands. He opened it and looked at Hermione and then to Mrs. Weasley. 'I'm too...I'm a Head Boy and a Mr. Security..it says here that me and the other Mr. Security must choose our team to patrol the school at night. It would be cool to ask the others from the DA...' he looked at Ron who was a bit more happy.

Ginny stared at her letter. 'C'mon, Ginny. Open it' said Mrs.Weasley. Ginny opened it and giggle. 'I'm Miss Security and a Perfect.'

Hermione looked unpleased. She was only a Head Girl. Of course Ron and Harry would want her in their team but she felt a bit outside the crowd.

She went upstairs to write to her parents. She would use Harry's owl because she had any.

The school year was starting in less that a week and they still didn't know how Hogwarts would be without Dumbledore.

There was something bothering her, and it wasn't the fact she had not read her new books before the school starting. It was the fact she didn't really want to go back. She felt alone and frustrated She looked through the window thinking about the gang. Ron, Harry, Ginny, Neville, Luna...all together again and Hanny the new Headmistress.

That night Lupin and Tonks joined in at dinner. Lupin was looking rather happy that night. He said he had a surprise

They were all siting and eating when for the second time that day Hannah grabbed her belly and struggled to keep up. Hermione muttered a spell under her breath and Hannah sat at the table again.

Harry was getting more and more suspicious about that pains of her, more even when he had them in his forehead at the same time.

Hermione had whispered him that where women pains, when he asked her what was going on. He blushed and turned away.

Hannah, Hermione and Ginny laughed at this for a long time, until a new pain made Hannah fall again.

Hannah stood up and went to her room claiming that she was having some monthly problems which made the boys blush and the girls laugh again.

Harry was talking to Lupin about the Order. It seemed to him that Lupin could tell him about Voldemort.

Lupin looked a bit anxious and didn't give many answers to Harry.

'Lupin, are you alright?' Harry asked to a quiet Lupin.

'Ah...Oh, yes, Harry. Perfect!'he answered in a low voice. Lupin was playing with his food and Harry glanced at the window.

'What is the Order doing now that Snape is on Voldemort side for sure?' Harry asked without realizing he spoke too loud that even Mrs Weasley coughed at the name of Voldemort.

Lupin lowered his eyes to his soap again and muttered than they had lost two more Aurors and they had been trying to understand what Voldemort was trying to do next.

'...the only thing we know for sure is...' he shut up and looked away from Harry.

'I know! He is trying to kill ME!' Harry snapped. He stood up and walked along the table with several pairs of eyes staring at him. Mrs Weasley was filling everyone's plates while they were looking at Harry and whispering to each other, Ginny was crying again silently with her hair hiding her face almost completely and Hermione was staring her feet in worry.

'I think I should know everything you are doing to protect me! I WANT TO KNOW! IT'S ME HE WANTS!' Harry yelled with his temper raising again that day. He stared at Lupin who looked a bit worried now and, while Hermione stood up leaving the room with Ginny, Lupin muttered a 'okey' and walked to the garden with Harry. They left a Mrs. Weasley very upset because they were always leaving table without finishing their food.

Lupin was looking rather old as Harry had never saw him. He was walking slowly and prudently with his wand in his right hand. He was talking under his breath something to himself.

Harry worried to catch up with him. He had never seen Lupin like this, old, worried, thin as hell, pale..., he had never seen him like this. Harry wanted to ask him so many things he couldn't know how to start. The night was a bit cold, the sky was dark and they couldn't see a single star in it.

Harry grinned. It was really cold out there.

'So, Harry...What do you want to know? Ask me now and I might answer it!' Lupin said sitting down near a tree.

'I want to know everything...about the Order and about this' Harry showed Lupin his mother ring. Lupin went even paler.

'Where did you found that, Harry?' Lupin said trying to sound calm and relaxed.

'Near my bed, in Godric Hollow. I went there, I...I visited my parents' home.' Harry breathed harshly 'It was under it...'

Lupin glared at Harry and thought for a while before giving Harry an answer to his question.

'I think you know that belonged to your mother!'he inquired. Harry nodded anxiously. 'Well, all I can tell you is that ring was from your grandfather, James's father. When he died James started to wear it and when he proposed to your mother he gave it to her.

I know because Lily wore it after they told they were engaged. It was a family thing...it had been passing father to son since god knows how long.' Lupin looked like he was remembering something 'We used to joke about it, saying to James that he would be just like his father, wear the same ugly things and do the same secretary job...James hated his father's job..."Bloody jerks" he used to reply.'

Harry looked at his feet, his father...you would kill himself if it would lead him to his father and his mother. 'Iamanorfan' he said under his breath.

'What?' Lupin asked. Harry shock his head as to say nothing.

'I want to ask you another thing...Remus Lupin, one of my father best friends...one of my own...Can you tell what the Order wants me to do?'

Lupin looked at him confused. 'You don't belong to the Order, Harry, how would we make you do anything?'

'That's the thing, I want to belong. I want to end with Voldemort, fight him with all my forces...but I'm not sure I can do it without someone telling me what to do...like Dumbledore used to...'

'Harry...' Lupin started.

'Remus, I know my destiny! I know I have to do it...I want to!' Harry said angrily 'I know that Dumbledore was the one who, although I didn't realized it, was preparing me to the big fight, to the final moment if that was one...

I have to have someone, I won't be able to finish Voldemort if I don't have someone helping me to get to Voldemort level. I know I can defeat him...' Harry was now walking from one side to the other. Lupin raised his eyes to the sky and slowly he said 'You already have someone, or may I say lots of someones. Ron, Hermione, Ginny (he said Ginny's name slowly), Mr Weasley and Mrs Weasley, me, Tonks, Mad Eye,...You have your friends, You must trust them and in you too!'

Harry swallowed hardly this answer He was dealing with some thoughts of that kind.

'My friends won't certainly want to die to fight with me, and if they consider this option, I surely don't! I saw every loving person die to protect me. THAT ENOUGH! I can't handle any more deaths because of me or my mistakes! Lupin I desperated...there I said it!' Harry falled on the floor heavily and stared his hands.

Lupin was hearing him, remembering James...James and Harry...they were so alike each other...Harry was almost a copy of James, only his eyes were like Lily's. "Harry is NOT James!' he yelled in his thoughts.

'I'm sorry Harry. There's nothing I can do to help you besides offering my soul and body to protect and make it easier to you in anyway I can. I talked to Tonks and she thinks the same, we are on your side, to whatever you go fight...' Lupin put his hand in Harry's shoulder and Harry gave him a sad smile. 'You guys really want to die! I can't make you leave, can I!'

'No! You can't certainly not!' Lupin smiled and his eyes were softly looking at Harry.

Harry finally accepted. They were the only thing he got against Voldemort, their Friendship and they love to him. 'It will be great to have you by my side...' he said smiling.

'I think we should go back our Molly will turn us into frogs!' Lupin joked standing up and helping Harry to do it as well.

They laughed and suddenly they saw thousands of birds in the sky.

Molly Weasley was indeed furious and ready to turn anyone who cross her way into frogs, not because they didn't eat their food but because...