"cas I think I found them" Idina pulled out some old tattered books from one of the boxes she was searching, she picked up one that had 'Johnathan lostwood' written on it and sat down on the dusty floor "cas was your dads name Johnathan?" "Yeah" Castiel came and sat next to her, she opened it and moved so they could both read the first page it was open on.

15th august 1943

Two days ago I finally turned 16 an important time in a man's life as my papa use to tell me especially for us lostwood men, I never truly understood what he meant by that and now I do.

it started at sunset that very day, I began to feel nauseous, and my limbs began to ache, I snuck off outside hoping to cool my pounding head but it made it worse, the pain in my limbs became excruciating to the point where I could no longer walk, I began screaming and then I blacked out.

I woke up yesterday morning with no recollection of what had happened over night, all I knew is that I awoke in the middle of a field with no clothes, I began to stumble bewildered back home and here I found my mother waiting with spare clothes. After I had changed she asked me to sit and told me what had happened, if I hadn't of experienced the pain and blackout I would never have believed her.

Her words were this the men of the lostwoods have been cursed for many generations, I asked her cursed but mother that's a lot of old hogwash surely but she shook her head dear I'm afraid not, an old woman a sorceress many years ago put a curse on your ancestor for trying to steal her horse.

The curse went like this

' I curse thee and thy male descendants for generations to come that when they reach there sixteenth birthday rather than men they turn instead at every dusk they shall turn into the very creature you stole and back to a boy at dawn and each generation shall be hunted by my generation to come'

I could not believe my ears I thought my mother crazy why what do you mean hunted mother she looked very grave at this moment she asked me if I knew the Renmoss family I said I did but what did this have to do with anything, she then proceeded to tell me they are the descendants of that old woman who had cursed me I could not believe what I was hearing she then proceeded to tell me the worse news yet.

Her words were I have not been truthful about your father Johnathon, he did not run off and leave us instead he was hunted, killed by a renmoss, you must stay away from them do you hear Johnathon, I can do nothing to prevent you turning each night but give you this warning and when you have a son you too must pass this message on do you understand and so i do.

Idina looked up at Castiel to see the emotion on his face but it gave nothing away so she turned the page and they began to read again.

4th September 1953

I was hunted down for the first time today, I don't know how I remember this, usually I don't and I don't recollect the visual aspect but I remember the emotions, my animal instincts. I remember tensing at something a sound, my fight or flight instinct kicking in and then my instinct took over and I fled, I remember the terror that reached down into my limbs it kept pushing me further and further till I felt safe.

"this must have been my grandfather's look at the date" castiel's voice in the sudden silence made her jump "do you wanna carry on reading" Castiel nodded and rested his head against hers, they began to read again.

Idina turned to the last page of the diary and this one made her gasp

1th march 1967

Today was the greatest and also the worse day of my life, my lovely wife Joyce gave birth to my son Johnathan but this also meant he too would have to carry the curse I have been carrying for 14 years, when he is older I will explain to him were I go every night and tell him what he should expect when he reaches sixteen.

An below that a heart wrenching extract but it was not written in Jonathan lostwoods writing

3rd of March 1973

I write this extract in memory of my husband and so one day when my son reads this he will understand what happened to his father for now I shall tell him his daddy left and only when he is old enough to understand shall I lead him to this diary.

I got a visit from two police officers today, Johnathan had just turned 6 two days earlier and was playing with his toys when I led them into the room, here they gave me the news, my husband had been murdered, he had been stabbed through the heart. They told me they had no leads but I knew who had done this, it was the Renmoss family, in his age he was starting to slow down in his horse form and they had got him they had got my Johnathan, they left me a widow and my son fatherless.

Idina closed the diary and felt Castiel turn his face into her hair "cas" he didn't say anything instead he stood up and grabbed the other diaries before making his way out the attic. She followed him downstairs and found him waiting on the sofa "we may as well get this assignment done" his voice was quiet "Castiel lets leave it till tomorrow, look at the time" she pointed out the window, the sun was beginning to sink, Castiel got up "stay in here and no matter what don't come out until I've turned please" "but Castiel I want to help its sounds painful I want to do something" Castiel stood in front of her "di please I'm asking no begging you to stay here it's something you shouldn't see" he tucked a piece of stray hair behind her ear and walked out the room.