Title: Am I Beautiful
Authoress: BloodyMarry
Rating: M
Status: Incomplete
Warnings: Slash, M-Preg, Language, and Mild Sexual Situations
Summary: In the words of a teenager: Being a Veela sucks! Especially if you haven't found your mate in almost forty years of life... !Slash! and !FemmeSlash! LM/HP DM/BW HG/PP RL/NT SB/SS RW/LL AD/MM
Definite Pairings: Lucius/Harry, Draco/Bill, Hermione/ Pansy, Remus/Tonks, Sirius/Severus, Ron/Luna, Charlie/Seamus, NL/MB, GW/BZ, All confirmed pairings, or pairings that are in the story are written out, and the others are still up for grabs.
Author Notes: This sappy shit is getting old so I will just say thank you!
Attention: I want to dedicate this chapter to thrnbrooke and Jane.Jumped! Who have reviewed like every chapter! They always have great things to say! So I say thanks!
Disclaimer: I own nothing! No Harry Potter, and no Linkin Park!
Chapter Ten: Pushing me away
"Woe to the man who has not learned while young to hope, to love- and to put his trust in life." -Joseph Conrad
XOXO
"Tha' was a grea' lesson taday Professor Weasley," A tall young man said happily.
"Well I do try, Finnegan!" The two smiled at each other before he turned and walked away from his Professor.
"What was that about, Charlie?" The younger brother jumped and then cursed his luck when he saw his older brother walking over to him.
"Shite! You could at least give me warning next time!" A couple of the Gryffindor students laughed at the cursing Professor. Harry smiled at them and walked over two the squabbling siblings, followed by Hermione.
"Hey guys!" Hermione said trying no to think of the dark haired Slytherin staring strangely at her.
"Hey kiddies! How was class?" Bill teased.
"Better than usual. Well less dangerous, I suppose," Hermione said smartly. Referring to the fact the with Charlie working with Hagrid the lessons had become less life threatening, and more fun.
"Well aren't you a happy one this morning?"
"So you noticed?" Harry grumbled.
"What's wrong with you Harry?" Bill said frowning at the young savior. Hermione nodded her head in the direction of the retreating Weasley. Charlie frowned not understanding, but Bill sighed and pat Harry on the shoulder.
"I'm sorry, Harry. Obviously Ron took it badly?"
"Took what badly? I don't understand," Charlie said confusedly.
"Harry's mate."
"Harry's what!" Bill and Charlie said at the same time.
"Hermione!" Harry hissed.
"What the fuck are you two talking about?" Charlie shouted, sounding oddly like Mrs. Weasley. Harry dropped his head in defeat. He knew he couldn't argue to these two men, they were his brothers, and they would get it out of him eventually.
"I'm sorry, Harry, I have such a big mouth.."
"It's fine 'Mione I would have had to tell them soon anyways. Guys, my mate- well I have a mate. Apparently- well I mean- Malfoy came to see me and we talked and stuff," Hermione elbowed him in the ribs and he in turn glared at her. Blushing furiously, he said quickly, "Malfoy said I was his mate."
"I'm sorry, Harry what was that?" Bill asked in a tight voice, his heart feeling as if a lion had torn it to shreds. 'Draco lied to me? Why?'
"You lying bastard! I never said that!" They all spun around to see Draco Malfoy, Pansy Parkinson, and Blaise Zambini.
"No-"
"Shut it Potter! You lying piece of shit! Bill, I never! You are my mate!"
"What!"
"Draco!"
"I'm gonna beat the shit out of you Potter! I'll teach you to spread lies about me!" The young wizard pulled out his wand, but as he opened his mouth to cast his spell, Potter disarmed him.
"You want your wand back you little shite, you back the hell off me!" Draco only looked madder.
"No! You lied-"
"I did not! I never said you were my mate, you wanker!" Draco opened his mouth to yell at the Gryffindor when he realized what Potter had just said. 'Not me? Then who... Shite!'
"I was talking about your father!" Draco stared wide eyed at the young man holding his wand and began to feel faint.
"Don't- don't lie to me, Potter! You aren't my father's mate!" The protest sounded weak even to his own ears but Draco didn't care this couldn't be true.
"I'm telling the truth, and though I don't trust you as far I can throw you I believe you weren't lying when you said Bill was your mate. I wouldn't lie..." Hermione closed out the rest of what Harry was saying as she shifted her eyes to the only other woman on the field and gulped when she saw the other girl was staring back at her, completely ignoring the fighting boys. Hermione hoped she wouldn't say anything about last night, it would be far too hard to explain and far to embarrassing. When Harry started talking again she tried to listen but couldn't bring herself to tear her eyes away from the woman who had comforted her all night long, the woman who had stopped her tears, and held her close. The woman she was fearing she was developing feelings for.
"Draco," came a cold drawl from behind the large group of people.
Draco gasped, "Father! Tell me it's not true!"
"Really, son your making no sense a' tall. What are you babbling about?"
"Father! Tell me Potter is not your mate!" Lucius's lips pursed in annoyance, he glanced over at Harry and glared.
"Not here Draco, not in front of these.."
"Father they are basically family! It doesn't matter! I want to know! Tell me!"
"Quit your squabbling, you are acting a petulant child! I didn't not raise you this way, you will calm yourself! Who my mate is, is none of their business. Especially not some Mudblood's," Lucius sneered at Hermione, very delighted when a hurt look came onto her face.
"You bastard!" The young woman clamped a hand over her mouth and whimpered when Lucius looked in her direction sending her his cold glare.
"Pansy!" Draco cried.
"Child you irritate me! Leave my presence or keep your mouth shut!" Lucius commanded with a wave of his cane.
"Lucius!" Harry screamed the name making everyone else fall silent.
"What the hell are you doing here? And what right do you have to call Hermione a Mudblood, and to order Pansy away as if she was your slave!"
"Harry, not now!"
"Yes now! You will never speak to her that way again!" Lucius looked about ready to pull his wand on Harry. Charlie was holding his head in his hands trying to stop himself from collapsing from all this shocking information, everyone else seemed to be something of the sort.
"You will not order me around, you are my mate, I am your master you listen to me!" Harry was turning red from all his pent up rage.
"You are not my master! You are some kind of sick demented man! I will never answer to you! You're the one who needs me not the other way around!" Draco gasped and was about to begin to yell at them both when he was interrupted.
"I am and you will! Understand me child, in this relationship I am the dominate as sufficiently proved last night! you will not order me around! You will do as I say!" Lucius roared. Harry looked like he wanted to punch his mate but instead chucked Draco's wand at the younger blonde's head and stormed back to the castle. Lucius composed himself, slipping his normal mask in place and turned to his son.
"Draco, you will never challenge my authority again, I will not have it," Draco gulped and nodded his head still in shock over what happened.
"Bring your mate to my new quarters tomorrow for dinner, I do not wish to see you until then," with that he turned and walked after his fuming mate. But before he got too far he called over his shoulder.
"Before I take my leave, I suggest you make new friends, friends who don't refer to your father as 'bastard.'"
Once they were gone Draco scooped his wand up and shoved it in his pocket.
"Pans, I don't know what the hell that was about but you better fix your issues unless you want to have to be on the wrong end of my father's wand," he gave her a blank look and walked over to Bill.
"Come back with me?" Bill asked his young mate, the Veela only nodded.
"Charlie, we are going to stay in my rooms from now on, I got permission from Dumbledore, so floo before you come over," the comment was meant to lighten the mood but when it did nothing of the sort Bill took Draco's hand and the two walked to the castle a lot slower than either of the other men had.
"Pansy, are you coming?" Blaise asked slowly, staring at the girl as if she had gone mad.
"No, I need to talk to Granger, I'll meat you later," the Italian sent her a strange look but left anyway.
"Hermione, I'll just go," Charlie said still trying to process the information that two of his brothers just claimed to be mated to Malfoy's. Hermione not turning away from Pansy just nodded her affirmative. Not that Charlie saw anyway he had already gone.
"I need to talk to you, Granger."
"Hermione."
"What?"
"My name is Hermione, call me by my name," Pansy squirmed under the other girls gaze but nodded her head anyway.
"Hermione, what happened last night... You won't tell anyone will you?" Hermione bit her lip.
"No, no I won't. So long as you don't," Pansy sighed in relief.
"Good, now about last night. What was that? Why were you so upset? But most of all why did you come to me? Why not Potter, or Weasley?" Hermione looked away from her, trying not to blush. Why had she gone to Pansy? She didn't really remember, and she really didn't want to.
"Ron and Harry had anther row, and I was alone, and upset. I can't stand to see them fight. I was confused, and I couldn't really think strait," Pansy cocked her head to the side curiously.
"What were you confused about?" This time Hermione did blush.
"About us," Pansy raised her perfectly sculpted eyebrow at the word 'us.' "I mean the kiss, and the... aftermath?"
"Aftermath?" Hermione swore she blushed from her head to her toes on that one.
"My feeling, I guess."
"What feelings?"
"My feelings for you," Hermione practically whispered. Pansy smirked.
"Your feelings for me? What kind of feelings might those be?" Her voice held a hint of teasing and Hermione flushed and angry red.
"Your horrible! After all the things we have already gone through, and you make fun of me!" Hermione had tears in her eyes, and was ready to storm off when she saw the smirk had dropped from Pansy's face.
"I wasn't making fun of you, or at least I didn't mean to, I'm sorry."
"I figured out my feelings for you hours ago, and I suppose I got a bit ahead of myself," Pansy closed the small gap in between them and stood face to face with Hermione.
"You did?" Hermione whispered.
"Yeah."
"And?"
"And what?"
"What are they?"
"This," Pansy pressed her lips to Hermione's in a kiss neither would ever forget.
XOXO
"I can't believe it! Father should have told me this ages ago! I shouldn't have had to find out from Potter!" Draco ranted.
"He most likely intended to, Draco, but thing got out of control. What were you still doing there anyway?"
"I saw you go after your brother so I wanted to wait for you. But then Potter had to go and open his big mouth and-" Bill cut his pacing Veela off by grabbing onto his arm and tugging him into his lap. Draco silenced himself immediately and melted into his mate's body.
"Harry, is like a little brother to me, Draco. I mean my family practically adopted him the day we met him. Please try to understand, I do have feelings for you, but he is my little brother, you can't talk about him like that," Bill pleaded.
"Yeah, yeah. So long as he stays away from me for at least a couple hundred of years I'll be fine," Draco pouted. Suddenly his eye's widened, "You aren't mad at me, are you?" Bill turned shocked eyes onto his mate.
"Why would I be mad at you?"
"For saying all these things about him, when you consider him family," Draco turned away from his red headed mate, expecting to be yelled at.
"I could never be angry with you, luv."
"Really?"
"Yea, now I say it's time to take a nap, this whole day has been a bitch! What say you to that?" Bill asked grinning mischievously.
"You Weasley's!" Draco joked.
"Us Weasley's what?" Bill asked playfully turning Draco around in his lap so the blonde was straddling his waist.
"You Weasley's and your-"
"Our what? Our amazing sexual prowess?" Draco swatted his mate's arm, completely forgetting about his father and Potter. He leaned down and he kissed the man he was sure he was falling for.
"Yeah, something like that."
XOXO
A door slammed for the second time in less than ten minutes and an irate blonde stood tall waiting for a response. When none came he stormed through his mate's rooms looking for the young man.
"What did you think you were doing!" He yelled once he had spotted the person he had been looking for sitting on his bed. Harry jumped up startled, but he quickly regained his composure and retorted.
"What do you mean, what did I think I was doing! You were the one who came out there spouting out orders as if you were Merlin himself! Your such a prick!" Lucius took five large steps, crossing the room over to his mate and grabbed him by the shoulders, pulling him close.
"You will never talk to me that way again! I am your mate, and you will do as I say," Harry tried to squirm out of his grasp but it was no use the other man was much stronger than he was. But Harry ever true to his Gryffindor self didn't give up.
"You let me go! You monster! You can not control me!" Harry pushed against the older man's chest and by some stroke of luck he managed to stumble out of the Veela's grasp, and stumble backwards. He was going to try to make it to the door but Lucius was standing in front of him and he couldn't get by.
"I don't know why you are acting this way Harry!"
"I told you already I answer to no one, especially not some low life like you! You twisted asshole!"
"After we had sex! You tell me this now! You say you hate me now! After what you did!"
"What I did! You seduced me! I had nothing to do with it!"
"I don't know what has gotten into you, but you better get over it! You had sex with me willingly! My powers of seduction do not work on you! They never have, you had sex with me of your own free will!" Harry's mind screamed at him to run, but he couldn't he was frozen in place. 'They never worked on me. It was me, I had sex with him. Now Sirius will never forgive me. He'll hate me forever. I'm sick, I'm disgusting. I had sex with him, and Sirius knows, he'll hate me forever! No! No! I can't- this can't be happening! Sirius will know, he won't ever speak to me again. I've ruined everything!'
Harry had tears streaming down his face, Lucius's heart clenched painfully, he never wanted his mate to cry. He walked closer to the raven haired teen only to have the boy back up a few steps.
"Harry, I don't know why your doing this, but your confusing me. Last night I thought- I thought you might have felt something. I thought you might have loved me, and this morning everything was fine, I don't understand why you are being like this now. Now after everything that has happened."
"Nothing has been fine! Not since you told me I was your mate! Sirius... Sirius, he hates me now! He won't ever talk to me again! He is the closest thing I have to a father! When lost him I almost died, and now that I just got him back, he's gone again! He's gone! And it's all your fault! You are the reason he hates me! I hate you! I hate you! You leave me alone!" With that Harry pushed by the crushed Veela and ran from the room slamming the door behind him.
XOXO
"Things are going so horribly Fauxes. What am I to do? How can I help young Harry? How can I help them all?" He said quietly to his pet familiar Fauxes. 'Harry has so much on his shoulders, and more is added to that everyday. Sirius is losing all hope of having a family, by pushing all he loves away, and the same can be said for young Severus, though I'm sure he only loves one person. Everyone is in so much pain. If only I could help them all.'
Lost in thought the old man did not hear the door open and a woman clad in a green set of velvet robes walk in. But he did notice when a hand was placed delicately on his shoulder.
"Why are you still up, your worrying me. You are only exhausting yourself, you need to come to bed," she said softly.
"I suppose you are right, my love. i am sorry I was worrying you. I in my old age, lost track of time."
"You're nowhere near old, my darling, your only one hundred and eighty three."
"Yes, well I am a lot older than most."
"True, Albus," she smiled softly while brushing a few strands of hair behind his ear.
"Let us retire, Minnie," he said taking her hand an walking her to their room.
"Yes lets."
XOXO
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