Sawyer didn't regret it. Even if she didn't love him, even if she didn't care. He didn't regret. He didn't do it for her; he did it for himself, so he didn't have to worry about her, well not that much at least. He couldn't take that again. He still wondered if she was okay and healthy. But he couldn't live with knowing that she wasn't okay, because worry with no hope is a dead end. He hated dead end. Stuck. Motionless. It was an ending, he hated ending.

"James, I hope you know what you did today." Ben said looking ahead. They were still walking to their camp, home, town, whatever it was.

"Why is that? D'your beady little eyes not see that volunteered?" Sawyer sneered tiredly. All Ben did was give a little chuckle.

"You'll see." was Ben reply and a big grin rest on his face. They continued walking towards a place Sawyer had never seen, and the Others were going to keep it that way.

"Put the blindfold on him now." ordered Ben towards the man who was steering Sawyer to the ground. He roughly placed the cloth over Sawyers' eyes, the last thing he saw or remembered was Ben faced. Then he was out.

"Sawyer! Sawyer, wake up." said a female voice behind. Sawyer's head turned up and saw Juliet's face staring at him.

"Huh? What do you want?" Sawyer asked gruffly.

"I need to take you somewhere, it's a surprise." Juliet explained, smiling pleasantly.

"Where?" Sawyer asked suspiciously.

"It wouldn't be a surprise if I told. You get to see her." added Kate. He would get to see Kate? Sawyer's face turned happy, worried and confused. Sawyer got up and reluctantly followed her.

"So, you gonna put a blindfold on me?" Sawyer asked. Juliet shook her head.

"You get to see everything." Juliet smiled. Sawyer looked at her and gave her a blank stare. She was a dead end, she wouldn't tell him anything. He knew that. Sawyer saw more houses, a village. "He wants to talk you. We're going in here." Juliet motioned to a small house that was connected to many other houses that looked identical. Juliet walked in casually, but Sawyer stopped at the door and stuck his head in.

"Mr. Ford, it's okay. You can come." Ben laughed. Sawyer stepped. "But don't forget to wipe your feet." Sawyer sighed and obeyed.

"Don't worry Captain, I'll be sure to keep your floor clean, so you can see your reflection with your beady little eyes." Sawyer walked it. "So, Little Miss Sunshine here, said you wanted to talk to me." smirked Sawyer. Ben's face remained blank, but then turned serious. He did not speak, he looked at Juliet and she began.

"We will let you go, do not worry. The only thing you have to do is this. Make it all go back to before. You and Kate. Yes, there will be tension, but you cannot be together. You have to distance yourself. Make her mad at you, be a jerk, but not too much that it's obvious. In other words, be Sawyer." explained Juliet. Sawyer just stared at her, confused.

"Why the hell should I do that?" asked Sawyer annoyingly.

"Because we'll kill her, we are going to have her baby, Kate has agreed to that." Ben replied, he raised his eyebrows. Sawyer gave him an expression pain and hurt.

"She did what?" Sawyer asked loudly, now getting angrier. Ben nodded. The anger disappeared from Sawyer's face, he looked like he couldn't go on.

"So will you do it?" Juliet asked, she didn't ignore his face, but she wanted to get this over with. Sawyer nodded. "You can't tell her, about any of this. You tell her that you were kept in a cage, bound and with a blindfold, but only if they ask. Okay?" Juliet asked. Sawyer nodded again, he couldn't speak, he didn't know what to say, he didn't want to say anything.

"Now, you're friends, Locke and Sayid do not know anything, they don't remember anything. They are on there way home now." explained Ben. "Juliet will escort you half way there." he continued. "Goodbye James, we will be seeing you soon." Ben added and walked into another room.

"Ready?" asked Juliet, grabbing a pack.

"Ya, let's go Blondie." Sawyer started walking, he saw Juliet take out her gun and he smiled. "Don't worry, I ain't gonna try anything." he added. Juliet smiled, but kept the gun in her hand. "So why do I have to "Be Sawyer" towards Kate? Do you just wanna piss her off 'cause you gotta thing for Jack-o?" he asked. Her face remained blank and serious.

"She will never love you. Jack is and always will be the hero. You will always be the conman. As I remember you said it once, a tiger doesn't change its stripes, Sawyer. And you are no exception." explained Juliet, who had been affected by Sawyer's comment, but didn't want to admit the tinge of truth it held. Sawyer looked away from her, he couldn't accept it, he wouldn't accept it.

"When did you start being the shrink around here?" he said to Juliet with a questionable rude smile. He was being Sawyer.

"I let you off here." she said, ignoring him. Sawyer nodded. He walked away and waved with a hand, without looking back. He knew only Jack and Kate he had been gone. When he stepped into the camp, he looked around and he didn't see either of them and everyone else was treating him normally. Like he was an ass, like he was being Sawyer. He crept to his tent, trying to avoid everyone, trying.

"Dude." exclaimed Hurley.

"Dude yourself, Pillsbury." Sawyer replied, annoyed.

"Dude, you don't look so good." Hurley continued.

"Thanks for the compliment, Jabba, but next time you should trying jumping on me, it might make me happier." said Sawyer sarcastically. Hurley just smirked and walked away. He went into his tent and almost walked on Kate, who was sleeping. He just smiled, she looked so peaceful when she slept. He sat down next to her, but not very closes, not as close as he wanted to. He just stared at her, she was smiling in her sleep.

"Ya trying to remember my face?" she asked, slowly opening her eyes.

" Nah. Don't worry, Freckles, I won't forget you when we're both old and wrinkly and our hair falls out." Sawyer smiled and so did Kate as she raised her eyebrows.

"So you've already got a picture of me old and wrinkly? Do I have hair?" Kate asked, laughing.

"You're a tough old bird, you like riding motorcycles." replied Sawyer, smiling.

"Oh ya?' Kate gave a little chuckle. Sawyer nodded.

"It's either that, or you're a cat lady who lives at the end of the road who gives out poison apples at Halloween." Sawyer said and this put a big, beautiful smile on Kate's face.

"Kate, I need to check up on you." Jack said and then he saw Sawyer. "What happened?" he asked now very serious.

"Nothing, they put me in a chicken suit, poured a bucket of syrup on me and then dumped some feathers on top of me." Sawyer said and Jack gave a laugh. " Now since, Doctor Giggles over here has ta check up on Freckles, I'm gonna go shoot some polar bears." he added and walked into the jungle. He walked peacefully and slowly and then he saw it.

XXX

"So do you think he was lying?" asked Kate to Jack referring to Sawyer, she was hiding a smile and Jack laughed.

"So anything nor normal?" asked Jack in his doctor voice. Kate shook her head. "You're getting really big." he remarked.

"I noticed." Kate smiled.

"I think it's gonna be faster than normal, you look around three months and you're not even two yet. You'll probably have the baby at five months, that's in about two months, but it could be three." explained Jack and Kate nodded.

"Hey Jack, do you wanna round of golf?" asked Charlie and Jack looked at Kate.

"I'm fine. Go." Kate urged. Jack smiled and then caught up to Charlie and they began walking towards the golf course.

XXX

Sawyer stared, he couldn't take his eyes off it. One memory that he had tried to forget for so long, had caught up to him. He knew it would, eventually. His mind drifter to a photo. A photo of her on a swing set. Clementine on a swing set, this swing set. Her blonde hair blowing in the wind and she was smiling. Cassidy had sent it to him, with a small note:

This is her, I didn't tell her about you.
She has you eyes. She has your smile.
Cassidy.

He remembered it so clearly, he had wanted to burn it, but he couldn't bring himself to do it.

He sat on a rock, looking into every detail of the swing set, it was not only similar, but exact, identical, the same one.

"Sawyer?" asked a voice he knew only too well. He wanted to forget this now, he would now have to explain this, but he wouldn't.

"What do you want, Freckles?" he asked only a little too rudely, she noticed, only a little too easily.

"Where did it come from?" she asked and walked up to the swing set and placed a soft hand onto the chipped paint.

"You know as well as I do, Sweet cheeks." he said and began to walk away.

"Sawyer, where are you going?" Kate asked, smiling, she still hadn't noticed it, his voice, his distance.

"I'm not sure that's any of your business, sassafras." Now she noticed. Sawyer walked angrily. Not at her, but at himself.

"So you killed him?" Hibbs asked smiling. Sawyer picked him up by the collar and planted him against the bathroom wall. Sawyer looked at him fiercely and held a gun to his head. "Ya gonna kill me? Kill me. But then you won't find out where your daughter is." smiled Hibbs. Sawyer gave him a confused stare. "Ya, ya gotta kid. Phillips, something. Clementine Phillips, I think. You know that girl Cassidy we screwed? She had your little girl." Hibbs explained.

"What are you talking about? You're lying." Sawyer yelled, his blood pulsing.

"Don't believe me, just got to 4815 Jackson Road." Hibbs said. "Then maybe you'll change your mind." he added and walked out of the bathroom, leaving Sawyer speechless. 4815 Jackson Road, Sawyer thought, Jackson Road, why did it sound so familiar, then he remembered.

XXX

Kate wanted to pretend she didn't care, wanted to, but couldn't. Instead, she went to look for food, she was starving and mangos never sounded so good it her life. She walked deeper into the jungle and saw a tree full of fruit and quickly climbed up, after getting more than enough food she started to climb down, she slid a little, then a hand helped her down easily. Sawyer? she thought to herself hopefully. No.

"Whotcher there, Kate." exclaimed Charlie as he balanced her out. "Whatcha doing out here so deep?" asked Charlie.

"Food." replied Kate simply. Charlie nodded. "See ya." he said as he walked towards the direction of their camp. Kate was alone in her thoughts, she was vulnerable to herself. Maybe everything would be different, she thought, if she wasn't like this, if she was different. She walked back to camp, fast, she couldn't handle her own thought, she didn't want to.

XXX

Sawyer walked back to his tent and saw when she had been, where Kate had been, but now she wasn't and that was because of him. Because he was being Sawyer.

Sawyer walked up to the white door. He wasn't sure if he was going to knock, or just stand there and stare. Cars were lined up in the driveway and on the street. Sawyer looked into the window; a little girl was opening lots of presents, she was tearing the paper and throwing it. She had blonde hair, blue eyes and the biggest smile, his smile. That's her, thought Sawyer, that's my daughter. Then a man with brown hair went over and gave her a hug and a kiss on the cheek. Then Sawyer saw a woman follow him, she turned around and Sawyer recognized her, something from his past, a memory, a regret. It was Cassidy. She was smiling and looking around. Her eyes turned to the window and Sawyer could have sworn she had looked right into his eyes for just a second, and he had been right. Cassidy didn't know what she had just seen, she knew, but she didn't want to remember, it hurt too much. Cassidy quickly ran out of the house and looked around.

"Sawyer!" she yelled, searching the street, but all was gone, except a photo swaying the wind.