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She's dancing with strangers, falling apart.

Waiting for superman to pick her up, in his arms.

Waiting for Superman.

-Chris Daughtry

He chose Vanessa. I can't say I'm surprised, he's been with her for four years. And he's known me for all of a one month? Well two now actually… It's been a month since the very heated desk incident, and it has been the longest month of my life. I see Toby every Wednesday as he comes to observe the work in our department. Most of the time, he ignores my presence. Other days I catch him staring at me. Very few words have been spoken between us, and when they are it's short and painful.

"So the party's this Friday," Hanna casually brought up.

"I know," I kept my focus on the television.

"Are you going?" Hanna wondered.

"I don't know yet," I sighed. "Jared asked me to go with him."

"Jared?" Hanna brightened up. "He's really cute, and smart and funny-"

"I'm not interested Hanna," I shook my head.

"That's what you said about Toby," Hanna reminded me. "Then you guys ended up having sex on your desk."

"We didn't actually have sex Hanna," I rolled my eyes.

"Pretty much," Hanna said under her breath.

"I'm not interested in Jared," I said again.

"Well then why are you thinking about going?" Hanna challenged me.

"I like the people I work with," I shrugged. "It might be fun to hang out with them outside of work."

"You should go then," Hanna nudged me.

I sighed, thinking, "Fine. Help me find something to wear."

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I ended up wearing this sparkly silver dress Hanna lent me. She curled my hair in big waves and did my makeup all fancy. Jared picked me up and we walked into Toby's house together.

It was not what I was expecting at all. I was expecting people to be casually mingling pretending to have a good time. It was like a college party though. Everyone dancing and drinking having a really good time. "Whoa, I was not expecting this," I told Jared.

"I told you," he looked at me with a smile. "He throws this awesome party every year," he laughed. "Probably why it only happens once a year."

I saw Toby across the way, his arm wrapped around Vanessa, who looked gorgeous. "Let's get a drink," I pulled Jared in the opposite direction.

I found the bar and made myself something strong. I drank it pretty fast, waiting for the numbness to kick in.

"That's what I'm talking about," Jared high-fived me. "Spencer Hastings is here to party!" He raised his glass before tipping it back.

I don't know how many drinks I had before Toby walked up to me. "Take it slow," he said under his breath.

"What's it to you?" I drank more.

"I can't take care of you tonight," he said before leaving me.

"Jared!" I yelled. "Let's dance!"

"Ok!" He grabbed my hand, dragging me into the crowd of people.

We danced for a good hour, I never laughed so hard in my life. He was a lot of fun. I wasn't drunk, but I was feeling very relaxed and actually having a good time. I turned around grinding on Jared as he snaked his arms around my waist. I caught Toby looking at us and I didn't even flinch. I just stared him down as my hand reached back finding Jared's neck and pulling it towards mine. He pressed his lips to my neck and I let my eyes roll to the back of my head.

I saw Toby's jaw clench as he took another drink of his beer. He whispered something in Vanessa's ear before he started walking towards me. "Can we talk?" he asked me.

"I'm busy dancing with Jared," I said, keeping my hips rolling with his.

"Just for a minute," he clenched his jaw.

"I want to dance," I complained.

"Fine," he licked his lips. "Then dance with me," he extended his hands.

"Dance with Vanessa," I ignored his offer.

"She doesn't like dancing," He took my hands. "Come on."

"I'll be back Jared," I turned to give him an apologetic look. "Seriously?" I turned back to Toby. "I was having fun!"

"I noticed," he took me to the other side of the dance floor, where Vanessa couldn't see us.

"You are such a buzz kill," I said taking his beer from his hands, chugging the rest.

"Look," he said taking the beer from my hands. "I said I don't have time to take care of you tonight. So quit drinking, quit dancing with Jared, and have someone give you a ride home."

"I don't want to go, I'm having fun," I complained.

"Look," he pulled me closer. "Vanessa is already mad at me. She's been noticing how much I keep looking at you. Don't make it any worse."

"Then stop looking at me," I bit my lip.

"You aren't making that easy," he whispered in my ear.

I placed a hand on his chest, "quit hitting on me and go back to Vanessa." I cocked my head towards Vanessa who was looking at us.

He turned around to look at Vanessa. He very quickly turned back to me, "I mean it Spencer. Sober up and find a ride home." He turned around and walked back to Vanessa putting his arm back around her waist.

"Not a chance," I mumbled to myself. "Jared!" I yelled, finding him at the bar. "I'll have two shots of fireball," I smiled at him.

"That's my girl," he said pouring four shots for the both of us.

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Ok, maybe I was drunk now. I may have kissed Jared three? Four times now? Who knows? I didn't like him that way, but my mind was pretending it was Toby. I hadn't seen him around for a while, maybe he was in his bedroom making love to Vanessa. Or maybe he was hitting on another assistant somewhere else.

"Spencer," I felt a pair of hands tug at my waist.

I rolled my eyes, "Toby, you need to s-stop!" I pushed him.

"You need to stop," he scolded me. "Haven't you had enough?"

"No," I bit my lip. I seductively pushed my body up against his. "I haven't had enough."

"Ok," He pulled my body off of his. He looked around quickly, (I'm guessing for any sign of Vanessa), "Come here."

He pushed me into one of the million rooms. I saw a pool table, "How sexy," I said sitting on the pool table, "This is in like every sex scene in movies," I bit my lip seductively.

"You need to stop," he grabbed my hands. "Vanessa is going to find out."

"It's about time you tell her you've been hooking up with your assistant," I put my arms around his neck.

"We've never hooked up," he reminded me.

"Yeah, if it wasn't for me stopping us," I challenged him.

"I already know I'm a horrible person," he glared at me. "You don't need to remind me."

"Why won't you let me have fun? You get to be with Vanessa, so why can't I be with someone?" I asked.

He thought about that for a second, "Because I can't stand it."

"You think I can stand watching you and Vanessa?" I raised an eyebrow. "Why do you think I'm drunk?"

His lips were suddenly on mine. "Damnit," he said between kisses. "You are like a drug," he said kissing me again. "This dress," he touched the hem of it. "Why'd you wear it?"

"I wanted you to notice me," I admitted.

"You don't need to wear anything for me to notice you," he rubbed my thighs.

I couldn't help but laugh, "do you know how that sounded?"

"Yeah," he shook his head. "I didn't mean it like that."

I pushed his hands off of me, "I already told you, I can't be that girl."

"I know," he frowned.

I got off the pool table, "I'll sober up," I sighed. "But you have to let me move on."

"I know," he swallowed hard.

Before I could open the door he opened up his mouth to say something.

"For the record Spence," he looked at me with so much intensity. "You were never that girl. You mean much more than that."

I nodded slowly, "You have to let me go Toby," I said before going back to the crowd.

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