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CHAPTER 11. Finally everything makes sense.

Nessie's POV

So this was it. The truth time. Was I actually ready for it?

"Sweetheart please listen to me, don't leave me before you hear it all." He said pleadingly as I buried myself in his warm chest. I felt so safe and so loved, locked away with him like this, in his arms.

"I won't. I swear Jake. Nothing can change the way I feel for you."

"Can I ask you something before I start?"

I nodded against his chest.

"Umm you don't feel obligated to love me, right? Because I want you to know, that there is an entire life time ahead of you. I will understand if it is someone else who will make you feel complete."

Now I looked up at him and he sounded sincere. I thought he was joking. How could he even think there could be someone else besides him after all that I showed him? I cupped his cheek and showed him how content I felt right now being cuddled with him on his bed. I showed him how I never want this scene to change. I showed him that I wanted to wake ten years later in the arms of the same man. I want to wake up in his arms for the rest of forever.

"Thank you." he said kissing my hands.

"So umm..."

"Ya. Let's start from the start. I was a normal teenager with two best friends. I had an ordinary life. One day the Cullens had moved in and about half a year later your mom did. Your mum and I, we had known each other as kids. She had spent a few summers here. Your mother was immediately attracted to Edward and so was Edward to your mom. Carlisle later explained it to me that she was your dad's singer. Her blood called out to him. It was difficult for him to stay away from her and it was also difficult for him to restrain himself for wanting her blood. Bella didn't know the Cullens were vampires and at the time I didn't know too. So one day when she came over to the beach, she asked me about them and I told her the legend I had always heard as kid about the Cullens being vampires. That's when she must've guessed what he was. When they got together despite all differences, their paths crossed with James, Victoria and Laurent. Your mom told you that story, didn't she?"

I nodded. She had told me about James, the tracker. How he felt thirsty for mom's blood too and how he had attacked her and how dad had saved her.

"But how is his story connected to all this?" I asked. I was completely confused.

"I'm getting to that. What I guess they didn't tell you was that your dad left your mom shortly after this incident?"

"What?" dad could have never left mom. They both loved each other so much. They were made for each other. This couldn't have been true.

"Well being close to the vampire world was turning out to be more dangerous for Bella than anyone ever thought. Her life was in constant danger. So your dad decided for her life, he should move away. He didn't want to change her. To him being a vampire was more of a curse than a boon. So when he left her, she became lifeless. One day she came down to meet me with bikes broken beyond repair. When I saw her it was as if I was seeing a ghost. All life had been drained from her. As we repaired the bikes and hung out, I felt some life coming back to her and I started to...to fall for her. I had always had a crush on Bella. And seeing her like that filled me with rage. I wanted to kill Edward for doing this to her. I tried to get close to her but she couldn't accept me. And it was all his fault. One day I got really angry and I phased. It was very difficult. I didn't know what was happening with me. And the next second I felt everyone's minds connected to me, overwhelming me with whatever they knew. Eventually Sam calmed me down and got me back to phase. Earlier this used to be slow and painful. And I knew right the second I phased back that I couldn't be with Bella without letting her know our secret. You've seen what happened with Emily. I learned that I had phased because that James mate Victoria and his friend Laurent were hunting Bella. We killed Laurent. But could not catch Victoria. I couldn't stand being away from Bella. So I finally gave her a hint and she guessed the rest. So finally she was in on our tribe secret. Everybody accepted her easily out here. I still kept trying and she still kept refusing. But I knew she would have broken eventually. Life was easy again. Until your mother decided to go cliff-diving one day. I had promised her I would take her one day. But she headed out alone. Later she confined in me that she did it to see him. Doing something dangerous would make her hallucinate about Edward. When I realised she was in the water and she hadn't come up for a long time I jumped in to save her. And that's what Alice saw. Bella jumping in and her future disappearing. Alice came here to check on Bella. She came to know that her future disappeared because she couldn't see wolves. I took her to her house and Alice was already there. There was a phone ring. It was Carlisle. He asked where Charlie was and I said he was preparing for the funeral. He kept the phone and I realised I never mentioned he had gone to prepare Harry Clearwater's funeral. Alice came to know it was Edward on the phone and not Carlisle. And he thought Charlie had gone to prepare for your funeral. Alice saw him going to the Volturi when he thought you were dead. To save him, Bella flew all the way to Italy and stopped him. The three warned him to change her or it would be the end of them. She could not know their secret. So they came back and put everything behind. They deided to forget the last couple of months."

"Oh Jake. I'm sorry." I really didn't know what to say. I felt so bad for him. But I also felt betrayed. He had loved my mom! And my dad had left mom! That was all too much to take in.

As if he was listening to my thoughts he said, "Do you want to know more or do you want me to stop here for the day?"

"No umm please continue."

"When they got back together, Edward didn't allow Bella to see me. He thought young wolves were dangerous. We eventually snuck out. She missed her friend and I missed her as something more than a friend. I still kept persuading her. I even tried to kiss her and she ended up breaking her hand while trying to hit me. After that Edward warned me never to touch her. We learned that Victoria had still not given up. She built a new born army to attack Bella. She wanted revenge. So to protect her, the wolves and the vampires formed a truce. It was very cold on the day of the fight. So in the tent before the fight she slept in my arms. During that night I learned that Edward was a nice guy and I learned his reasons for keeping her human. He also learned that I would've been better for Bella. She could be a human with me, have kids, grow up and eventually die one day. That night Bella kept on repeating my name in her dreams. In the morning when I went outside the tent to phase and join the fight, I heard Edward say the best night of his life was when she had agreed to marry him. On hearing that I was hurt. I thought somewhere deep down she had loved me too. But she didn't care about me. She felt bad for hurting me and asked me to come meet her. I phased back and I went to meet her. Edward let us be alone in the tent. I said quite a number of rude things and said it would be easy to take myself out of the picture with all the war going outside."

"How could you Jake?" I was suddenly angry. Angry at all of them.

"Please Ness. Hear me out completely."

I nodded as he continued.

"She begged me not to go. To say truthfully, I was playing her. I wanted her to confess that she liked me too. I knew she did. She asked me to kiss her. And that was our first real kiss. I went outside happily with a promise that I will come back. But this realisation only hurt all the three of us. In the war I was hurt badly. When she came to see me later she told me her choice. It would always be him. After she left I left too. I couldn't stay in this place any longer. I decided to stay as a wolf forever. It was on the day of the wedding, I felt compelled to come back. I finally figured more than love I just wanted to see her happy. I accepted her choice. I asked her when they were changing her. She said after the honeymoon. And then I was enraged. She couldn't possibly have a honeymoon with him, while she was still a human. She told me to mind my own business. Eventually my brothers got me out and calmed me down. A few weeks later Charlie called Billy to say Bella had returned and that she was sick. I thought they had finally changed her. When I went to see her I was shocked. She was heavily pregnant with you. I wanted to kill Edward at the time for hurting the girl I had loved so much. Ness I had wanted to kill you." He paused and looked at me. I was hurt. How could the love of my life want to kill a poor little innocent baby! How could he want to kill me!

"Ness. Please listen. I didn't know what you were. I thought , there was a monster growing inside Bella that was killing her from within. She was in terrible state. You were breaking her bones and starving her. When I phased and my brothers saw what happened, they decided to kill Bella for the same reasons. They thought you were a monster and a threat to the humans. I couldn't let them kill Bella. I ran back to the Cullens and told them. Sam couldn't stop me because I was the real Alpha. Seth followed me, because he liked the Cullens and knew they wouldn't really hurt Bella. Leah followed because she wanted to get away from Sam. That story I'll tell you later. So now the wolves had lost their surprise element. I kept feeling this pull towards Bella constantly. I felt it was because I loved her. But it was because of you. Even from in there we had formed a connection. Yet I was foolish enough and didn't realise the truth. I still believed you were a monster. Eventually after the gruesome delivery that you already remember clearly, I saw you and I realised whatever I had ever felt for Bella was just a misunderstanding. You were a part of her and I thought it was her I loved. But it was you Renesmee. It had always been you. Even before she was pregnant with you, our connection was mean to be. We were always meant to be. I thought by mistakenly it was Bella. Please Renesmee don't hate me now. Whatever I did in my past I'm completely ashamed of it. I wish I could change everything I did. I wished I had seen you before to realise that it was you and not Bella that I was meant to be with. Please Ness, please forgive me."

I was stunned. I was a monster killing my own mother, but I never knew Jake wanted to kill me then. I don't know how he fell for me so young. How could he have fallen in love with a mere baby? How had his love for my mom changed so drastically? Today when I look at Jake and mom together, they seem nothing more than friends. Any hint of love they must've had for each other was gone. I could've never imagined that was their past.

After a long silence I finally managed to say, "Why Jake? How did you fall for me as a baby? Is that why you stuck around because you loved me since then? It's a little creepy Jake that you fell for me when I was a mere baby."

"It's because I imprinted Ness. I imprinted on you."

Imprint. A word that was carelessly slipped out from the other wolves mouths. This word had earned all of them an angry glare from Jake always. A word that was eventually stopped being used around me, about the time I turned one in human years.

All I had learnt about this word after forcing Jake and Seth was that once a wolf saw his soul mate, they imprint on her and become tied to her forever.

I never gave it much thought. I had always thought of Jake as an older brother when he had told me that. Although I had always felt that Jake was mine, I decided that if Jake sees this woman, then I would let him go and be happy with her forever. I would not come in his way. Then I buried that thought deep in my mind because I just wanted to enjoy whatever I had with Jake at the time. I never realised that Jake was already so tied to me, that he had already imprinted on me. How could I have been so foolish? How did I completely forget about imprinting?

Jake had imprinted on me! I was his soul mate. His other half and he was mine.

Suddenly all the confusion, the hatred, the anger I had for him all vanished. A sense of pride filled me. I'm Jacob Black's imprint. I'm his other half. His forever. And he is mine forever. Love erased every doubt, every question, every betrayal and every bit of anger.

"Kiss me Jake. Please." I said to him as I looked him in the eye. He looked so scared that I would reject him. He was in pain and misery. On hearing those words he became unsure. His brows furrowed as he looked at me, unsure about what to do.

I showed him how I felt. Content. Happy. Proud to be his imprint. I showed him I was already tied to him in an unbreakable bond. I showed him that his love for me was all that mattered. Not his past. I again passed him an image of us kissing, but this time in his room, on his bed, in his arms.

And then his lips were on mine, continuing where my images stopped. His lips fit so perfectly with mine. His touch was so smooth and gentle. Our hearts beat in perfect rhythm together. His hands fit perfectly around my waist. My hands perfectly fit around his neck. This was meant to be. No two people could fit together so perfectly. This was all the proof I needed. He is my life. He is my everything. And I'm his. Forever.

A.N. First of all thanks to Amb, Serena, LoverofVamps and Anonymous for reviewing. Also Lauren3638. Girl you made my day! And to everyone else please Read and Review. Let me know if you think I did justice to the past story and their first Kiss. Thank You.