Chapter Eleven
Love of a distant past is pretty damned strong but nothing can tear the true love of your current existence. The fates decided to play with my heart like I'm a non-feeling rag doll. I walk over to Ash and show him what happened. By the end, tears have started to fall again. He curls his hands into fists.
"I thought you would have been happy. But it looks like the Fates have changed their minds. You chose your path long ago. I'm sorry to think that I could have honestly changed that for you. I'll help you get fully on this path."
I sigh. "Thanks Ash. Can you let Val know I'm tired and that I went inside? I need time alone. Please help him close this party up." With a nod from Ash I walk away and into my home. Once upstairs and in my bedroom I can hear people leaving. I stand at the window and see the demolition crew cleaning up. I watch Valerius look to the window that I'm standing at. I know he can't see me. I'm far back enough to where the lights aren't reflecting off me and I didn't turn on any lights in the room. I look out into the forest and I see Edward's pale figure at the higher point in the trees looking at me. I step away and get ready for bed.
She is still so beautiful…
I'm happy I found Sara again. It's been six years since we've been torn apart. I feel bad about bringing pain into her eyes. She has made a choice, but now that I've found her I cannot let her be taken away from me again. Her pain tells me how she really feels. Our fates were sealed long ago. Her thoughts are still of me. I was able to catch the look in her eyes when she stares off in the distance. I've been talking to her to find her. I could hear her thoughts better the closer we got. Two days ago I got a response and that was all I needed. She will be mine once again…
I stir…
Valerius joins me later. I had fallen asleep waiting for him. He kisses me gently on the shoulder as he wraps his arms around me and comes close. I find a little comfort and fall back into the land of dreams.
When I wake up, I hear a truck backing up. I go to the other window and smile. I should have known. I throw up the sash and put my head out the window. Valerius comes over and wraps an arm around me. Alice turns around. When she sees my face she glares at me.
"You promised!" She watches me then. I shake my head.
"Give me a few woman! I just woke up!" I get inside and close the window. Valerius looks very confused. I am quickly getting dressed.
"Who are those people and what the hell is she talking about?" he sounds irritated. I kiss him gently.
"They're old friends from high school. I promised her that when she finished college I would help her and her family move in if she was nearby." I'm finally dressed and my hair is up. I kiss him again and I'm out the door and across the street. The Cullen Clan has finally found me.
When I walk up Emmett comes out and hugs me, Rose smiles at me, Alice squeals and Jasper gives me that slight glare but I know he's happy I'm here too. I'm very happy to be back with these people once again. I pick up a couple boxes.
"Give me a reason not to help." I smile. "All for show and tell." I mutter to them. They laugh and I get directed to where the boxes go. When I walk in the door, Edward is waiting for me. I smile at him and take the boxes where they belong. I hear an all too familiar squeal.
"The Simi wants shiny! Why can't the Simi taste the pretty people!" Simi's voice might've been heard in China for all we know. I start laughing hysterically.
"Ash, I think Simi needs your attention." I call out after getting a breath in. Then Simi attacks me.
"Akra-Sara! Will you take me to get shiny? Akri won't let me." She pouts. I smile at Ash.
"Looks like I've been discovered. What brings you here?" He shakes his head.
"Carlisle and I go back." He says no more and walks away. Simi continues to pout as she follows him. Soon the she squeals again and then there's a deafening silence. Edward finally steps in. I think Ash intimidates him and he holds a grudge against him. His face is filled with annoyance and it makes me smile. I walk over to him.
"I understand." Instantly he smiles at me. I melt and almost forget to breathe. My hands are behind my back. I slide my ring off while I entrance him with my smile. I put the ring in my pocket to pose perfectly. He laughs a little.
"I'm so glad to see that smile again. I've missed it so much." I close the gap between us and wrap my arms around him. He holds me tenderly. He has no words, but that's okay. I squeeze him knowing my husband is waiting for me to return out of the house.
"Play along with me, alright? Patience has always been your best quality." He kisses my hair and we walk back outside. I'm smiling and laughing.
She finally came out of the house…
I worry. People I don't know come into the neighborhood suddenly and take my wife away from me. This is very irritating. The guy she walks out with looks at her with a desire that sets fire to my blood. She doesn't seem completely entranced and this eases me a little. They are very attractive people but she remembers them clearly. The way she acts with them is completely different. They are like her family except for the bronze haired boy. Something was between them. I can tell that by the way he looks at her. He also can't resist her presence. She's like a drug that eases a pain and a drive. It's the drive that makes him like a predator.
Tickle fight…
It's one sided. I have her pinned. Her laugh is precious. I've missed it dearly. I know this angers her husband but she's in the moment and is completely mine. I watched her slide her wedding ring into her pocket earlier.
She tries to fight back but is laughing too hard to do it. Her warm skin with mine is as euphoric as her scent, her smile, her everything. I get lost in thought too much that I forgotten for half a second that she is human.
I cringe slightly…
Edward was a little too hard while tickling me. I try to hide it but I notice his actions as he stands up and walks away. I frown. The rest of the family continues to move in. I hesitate slightly before chasing him down in the house. I wrap my arms around him in comfort. He rests his hands over mine.
"It's okay Edward. I promise." I let go and face him. He looks to be in pain from hurting me. I kiss his forehead gently but he keeps us close. He rests his hands gently on the sides of my face our noses touching. I can feel his breath as he very carefully closes the gap between us.
I don't want to hurt her twice…
I kiss her with the utmost care. I also show her that my feelings haven't changed. She connects with me emotionally. Her mental blocks are very weak when she lets me this close to her. What I feared isn't a problem. Her reaction to my lips touching hers is as if she never left. Everything she had for me then still exists now.
It's been so long…
Since I had been under such a tender touch, a most passionate kiss. All his pain melts away. I feel relief as well. But perfect moments have to be interrupted. Alice bursts in.
"Edward, what the hell are you thinking?" She is very irritated. He breaks our kiss and rests his forehead on mine.
"It's her choice not mine. She doesn't have to." He sounds angry. I gently touch his face. Alice sighs.
"You are going to let her…" I look at Alice now. She looks very sad. I'm confused.
"As soon as she says the word I leave." Edward rubs my back in assurance. I get it now…
"It looks like it's going to be the death of either one of you. Thanks for the heads up Alice. I know my options and if you talk to Ash he already knows what's going to happen. The Fates have screwed me over is many ways. You know it wasn't my choice to leave. I have a choice now and what do you think I'm going to do? I have a haunting past that has bound me to the man I live with. I have my own future and fate to take up for my current life." I make no eye contact with either one of them while I speak my honest truth. "Nothing is going to take me away from him now. We are soul bound and I'm too deeply in love to let this pass. Say what you want but understand my options. You are right Alice. The man in front of me is the one I belong with."