Chapter 11
I bring my knees up to my chest and rap my arms around them. Peeta shuffles backwards so he is sitting next to me with his back against the headboard. I let my body fall against his and rest my head on his shoulder, he doesn't seem to mind and he quickly reacts my putting a comforting arm around my shoulder.
What are you doing Katniss? I think to myself before inhaling a huge breath and beginning "it started 10 years ago, we lived here in District 12 and my dad was caught in the mine explosion..."
Peeta's POV
She pauses, I know this is hard on her so I rub her arm comfortingly "sorry" she says and looks up at me with pain in her eyes "it's okay, take your time" I say she lets and sad smile show before lowering her head, she continues "my mother went into a state of depression, practically left me and my little sister Prim to fend for ourselves. Eventually we moved to District 8 as my mother couldn't handle all the memories, she said we should leave for a 'new start'" she uses her fingers to form the inverted comers "one we moved my mother perked up a bit, she came back to us. We were happy living in District 8, my mother had got a job at the hospital, she was a healer and one day a year she would bring me and Prim along because Prim loved all that stuff, personally I didn't I'm very squeamish-".
She paused again but I thought nothing of it, I just thought she needed time to collect her thoughts. It wasn't until I felt her whole body tense, that's when I get concerned. I began to pull away so I can see her face but her body just moves with mine, I grip both her shoulder to steady her while I move.
Her face is pure white, it's as if her olive completion has been drained from her body. She shows no emotion and is just staring at the wall "Katniss" I say worriedly and shake her shoulders a bit but get no response. "Katniss!" I say again and shake her even harder, her eyes grow wider and her breathing becomes rapid and more frequent "Katniss, please" and I shake her one last time before her eyes shift and lock onto mine.
Katniss' POV
I snap out of my daze and immediately know I had another flashback to that awful day, I get them a lot, they're a bit like nightmares but obviously I'm not asleep, I'm fully awake. My thoughts quickly go to Peeta my eyes lock on his did I hurt him? Please tell me I didn't hurt him is all I can think, you see when I get these flashbacks sometimes I can get angry and I just lash out at anything around me.
Once it happened when Haymitch was with me, I got angry and started clawing at him luckily I had just cut my nails that morning therefore I didn't do any damage but it still scared me and him. Another time I was alone in my bedroom and I started smashing stuff, throwing things at the wall until they shattered, knocking stuff over in the end I had to dig my finger nails into the palm of my hand to stop myself.
I get nightmares too, horrible nightmares. I wake up screaming to the point that my throat become sore and feels like sandpaper, I wake up sweating but shaking for this reason I am scared on sleeping and every night before I close my eyes I pray that these nightmares won't find there was into my dreams but I am usually wrong.
Peeta's POV
I let out a sigh of relief and take my hands off her shoulders. I close my eyes for a second and lean back against the headboard, when I open them again I see Katniss sat bolt upright with her head turned to look at me we stare at each other for what like an eternity before I see a glassy sheet begin to cover both of her eyes which she tries to blink away.
I slide my hand towards her but she notices and jolts hers backwards "sorry" she whispers "it's okay" I tell her and move my hand back "I-I d-didn't hurt you did I?" she stutters "no" I ask confused "why would you?" I scrunch up my face questioningly, she drops her head and shakes it signalling she doesn't want to talk about it.
I let out a sigh "I'm sorry Katniss, for making you tell me" her head shoots up and this time it's her who has the questioning look on her face "you didn't, I asked you" she says "I know, but, I could have said no.." she shakes her head and lets out a little laugh "Peeta, I wanted to tell you" my head shoots up she wanted to tell me I think to myself "really?" I ask inquisitively, she nods and I can't help but smile.
"Well I'm still here if you want to finish telling me the story?" I tell her sympathetically, she zones out for a moment and it looks like she is mentally arguing with herself, I wave my hand in front of her face and she snaps back into reality "oh sorry" she blushes with embarrassment "it's okay" I reply, she smiles, "before I tell you the rest can you just promise me one more thing?" she asks me sounding serious "sure, what?" I question "If I do that again, just promise me you will l-leave please" she says nicely, but what she does say takes me aback "why?" I ask curiously, she looks at me straight in the eye and says "it doesn't matter, just please promise me you'll just leave straight away?" she's pleading with me I can hear it in her voice and see it in her eyes "fine, I promise" her eyes light up "thank you" she says before shuffling back against the headboard.
Katniss' POV
"We had just finished the day at the hospital and were walking out of the doors, when we h-heard a scream" I say "we paused and my mother looked back but couldn't see anything, not until we heard another deafening scream which sent chills though your body. We all turned around and could see loads of commotion with people running away from the hospital in every direction, screaming." I single tear falls onto my check but I wipe it away quickly "I looked at my mum and knew she was going to go back, she said it was her job to help and before I could stop her she was running back" more tears force their way out of my eyes and I burry my head into Peeta's shoulder, his arms quickly surround me and he pulls me closer into him.
"He came up behind her, the man who is after me, and k-k-killed my mother" I manage to force the words out of my mouth and once I do I feel a sense of relief "Prim went mad, she started to lash out and I had to restrain her in my arms to prevent her from running back, but somehow she still manage to worm her way out of my tight grasp" talking about Prim makes me sob harder, I cry so much that it turns them into hiccups. Peeta looks at me concerned but between hiccups and sobs I tell him I tell him I'm fine, that it happens sometimes. He just nods.
He rubs my back until the hiccups stop and then I continue "she ran away from me and I screamed her name but she didn't stop, and then I found myself running after her. I shouted her name once more and his attention turns to me, he starts charging at me full speed, I turn and try and run away but he catches me and he slashed my arm with his blade..." my eyes drift down towards my arm and I use my left arm to cover the cut "I fell to the floor and he left me there, then I blacked out and the next thing I knew I woke up in District 12's hospital."
I wriggle out of his grasp and swing my legs over the side of my bed, I rest my elbows on my knees and put my head in my hands I can't believe I just told him everything. I think to myself Katniss, you are incredibly stupid.
A/N - Hope you enjoyed the chapter and please review, I really do love to read what you think:)! Just to let you know, I am back at school now and therefore may not be updating as often, sorry:(!
-WordsOfWonder