Disclaimer- Still not mine. This makes me sad! *Tears*

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! I AM SOOOOOOOO SORRY! College sucks! I am getting crushed with work and I feel swamped and tired! I cant believe I just left you all hanging like that! Bad me!

I know where I want to go with this story but I don't want it to seem rushed. The problem with that is I am probably dragging it out too much now... Ugh! By the way, just because our two favorite boys kissed does not mean they are immediately getting together. Hikaru put Kaoru through a lot of shit (my fault, I know ;) ) and he is not going to replace Tamaki right away.

Trust me... there will be more angst! Yaaaaaaay angst!

Warning- M/M in this part, not all the way but there is still M/M sexual acts. Don't like? Then why the fuck are you reading this fanfic?

Kaoru's P.O.V.-

Shit! I can't believe I kissed Hikaru last night! What am I going to tell Tamaki? I need to tell him... If he finds out from anyone else... I don't want to hurt him like that.

After Hikaru and I had our intense make out session last night, I knew I had to set things straight with him. No matter how much I still love him... I can't hurt Tamaki like this.

*FLASHBACK*

My arms go around the back of his neck as his tongue is thrusting into my mouth, coaxing my tongue into a filthy dance. I can't think, I can barely breathe. I can feel though, and all I can feel is Hikaru's warmth penetrating my clothes.

I know I need to stop what we are doing but I have wanted Hikaru for so long that I can't seem to help myself. I'm drawn to him like a moth to a flame.

One of Hikaru's hands finds its way to may hair while the other goes to the small of my back. Our kiss is getting rougher and I am quickly losing the ability to breathe. His tongue is massaging the inside of my mouth and I'm losing myself in the pleasure of our kiss. My knees weaken and Hikaru is practically holding me up at this point.

"Young Masters! Dinner is ready!"

We pull apart quickly, and to my delight I notice a strand of saliva on my twins lip that he absentmindedly licked away.

We turn towards the approaching twin maids at the same time, trying to calm our ragged breathing.

"Young masters, we have been looking everywhere for you. Dinner is ready and being served as we speak. You must head back now."

A quick glance at Hikaru and I feel myself blushing anew, just remembering the feel of his lips on mine, his tongue dominating my mouth... his hands...

Ok! Stop brain, time to go!

I risk one more glance at Hikaru and all but run into the mansion just wanting any space between me and my twin.

*END FLASHBACK*

I cant believe I did that! I cheated on Tamaki with my twin... who I guess no longer finds the idea of being with a man repulsive if that kiss was anything to go by... I cant even being to understand Hikaru and all the mixed signals he gives me.

I'm pacing around my room waiting for the car to show up so Hikaru and I can head to school.

Speaking of Hikaru, I haven't seen him since dinner last night... well, that was my fault, BUT STILL! How am I supposed to act around him!?

After a quiet and very awkward dinner with Hikaru I locked myself in my room for the rest of the night, refusing to see anyone while I tried to sort out my feelings for my twin. I was happy that he tried to talk to me for a while. Granted, he did grow tired of trying to talk through a door.

He said we needed to talk about the kiss and that there was no way he was having this conversation through a door, and that when I was ready I could find him.

Needless to say, last night did not provide me with much sleep.

I am pulled from my thoughts when one of our maids knocked on my door to inform me that the car had arrived. I thanked her and left my room only to come face to face with Hikaru, almost bumping right into him. I take a big step back, but not before smelling his shampoo and the smell that is distinctly Hikaru.

He opens his mouth to speak, probably to talk about the kiss, but I am in no mood to talk about that event this morning.

"Don't say anything," Hikaru's mouth closes instantly. "I do not want to talk about what happened last night right now. I love you Hikaru, but you had no right to kiss me when I am in a relationship with Tamaki. I feel terrible knowing that I have to tell Tamaki about our kiss... This is going to crush him. And I will NOT come crawling into your arms just because you finally realize your feelings for me. You hurt me for weeks with your attitude towards me and that can not be forgotten by one simple (However mindblowing) kiss!"

As my rant came to a close I noticed most of the color left Hikaru's face and that the light had gone out in his eyes. He took a deep breath before he addressed me.

"I know Kaoru. I know that I am a selfish, spinless, terrible excuse for a twin... but I love... promise..." He took another calming breath before continuing. "I promise, that I will earn your love."

And with that, Hikaru turned and started walking towards the stairs to get to the car. I stood there stunned for a moment, just remembering the sheer look of determination in his eyes as he proclaimed his love and intentions towards me. I shook my head as though I was trying to clear it and followed my brother towards the car.

Tamaki's P.O.V.-

Something was wrong with Kaoru... and I know it had something to do with Hikaru.

Kaoru had been avoiding me the entire day. Every time I caught his eye he would get a terrified... and guilty... look in his eyes and run away. I don't know why he looks guilty and I can't for the life of me begin to guess what could have happened yesterday that could make him avoid me today. We were getting along really well...

I turn to look down the hallway to find Hikaru glaring at me... but that isn't really different from how he normally looks at me. Good to know some things haven't changed.

If Kaoru thinks he can avoid me forever he is going to find out that he is sadly mistaken. I am going to find out what is wrong with him.

Hikaru's P.O.V.-

Somehow I have managed to avoid Tamaki all day, now all I need to do is make it through the club and I have survived the first day with this soul-eating guilt gnawing away at my insides.

God... that's a depressing thought.

My companion stops her conversation suddenly and looks over my shoulder at our intruder. I turn knowing exactly who is standing behind me.

Seems you cant hide forever...

"Why hello Tamaki! How are you doing since we last saw each other yesterday?" Rima asks with a smile on her face.

"Hello Rima, I am doing fine thanks for asking. I was wondering if you would allow me to steal Kaoru away for a short while?" Before Rima can respond, I address Tamaki.

"Now is not the best time Tamaki. We can talk after the club is over." Tamaki gives me a skeptical look but I press on. "I promise Tamaki. We need to talk later but now is not a good time, so if you will excuse me I have a guest to entertain." With that I turn towards Rima and refuse to look back. My shoulders finally relax when his shadow no longer hovers over me.

Rima is looking at me calculatedly, as if she was trying to read my mind. I turn my head and blush at her intense scrutiny, hoping that she will simply let the matter drop... but this is Rima we're talking about, and she will never let this rest.

"So who did you cheat on Tamaki with?"

Her blunt question has me choking on my tea which I had unfortunately picked up to distract myself from her gaze. I end up gasping for air with a terrified look on my face as I look at Rima.

OH MY GOD! If Rima can tell that I cheated, then Tamaki must know as well! I'm screwed! I can't believe that I was that transparent that she could look at one interaction between me and Tamaki and just KNOW! OH MY GOD! Kill me!

I am snapped out of my self loathing by a slap on the face from Rima.

"Babe, calm down! You started hyperventilating and wheezing and I was getting freaked out."

I take a few more minutes to compose myself before I can even consider talking.

"Thanks for that. I just cant believe that it is so easy to tell that I... cheated... on Tamaki."

"It's not that obvious to anyone that doesn't know you that well, but we have been hanging out a lot for the last week and I can pretty much read you like and open book."

I breathe a little easier knowing that the entire school isn't talking about me behind my back.

"So... who did you cheat with!? I need to know these things! I mean, first you got Hikaru jealous with Tamaki, now you are going to get both of them jealous with this new guy! So who is it!"

"Well... ummm Rima... the thing is uh... the thing is..." the rest of my sentence is too low even for my ears to pick up on.

"Kaoru, I can't hear you! Who is it! Who is the guy that's going to have to fight with Tamaki and Hikaru for your love?"

"IT'S NO ONE NEW!" My shout grabs the attention of almost everyone in the room but I blush and look away from the crowd at my puzzled friend.

"But... I don't get it. If it's no one new then..." If the situation wasn't so sickening for me then I might have laughed at how comically wide her eyes got when she finally connected the dots.

"You have got to be shitting me! IT"S HIKARU!?" I quickly jump up from my seat and put my hand over her mouth to stop her rant. I know that if Kyouya could see me now he would have my head for acting this way towards a customer, but I needed a quick way to shut her up before my secret is known by everyone.

"If you promise not to yell I will remove my hand and tell you everything."

The only response I got was a glare, but she looked like she wasn't going to yell anymore so I let her go and sat back down in my seat.

"You have five minutes to tell me everything," the 'if looks could kill' cliche described her glare perfectly. "Five minutes. Or else I go get Tamaki and Hikaru over here and we all figure this dilemma out together."

I don't know if it was the look in her eyes, her tone of voice, or simply the guilt, but I quickly found myself telling her everything that happened after the Host Club ended yesterday. Rima sat in silence, listening intently to the retelling of what had happened the previous day. Her nostrils flared when I got to the part about the kiss with Hikaru but she remained silent until the end.

We sat there for who knows how long, me trying to calm myself from the resurfacing emotions, and Rima just digesting everything I had just told her. Finally she spoke.

"So... what are you going to do?"

"Honestly Rima, I have to tell Tamaki about what happened between Hikaru and I. Hopefully he wont react too negatively, I mean, he already knows about my feelings for Hikaru... unless Tamaki thinks Hikaru is just stringing me along. Hikaru was acting aggressively leading up to our kiss. Tamaki might try to look out for me... or he will turn his back on me and never talk to me again!"

Rima grabs my arm to stop my babbling.

"Ok, I said that wrong. I meant, if you can have either who would you choose?"

I... I don't know... I know they both have a place in my heart... but I don't know who to give it too...

OH MY GOD! Let me just continue to say how sorry I am for ditching you all for such a long time! College is doing a really good job kicking my ass right now and I needed to stay on top of it. I promise that it will not take that long to update again but I will not be able to go back to the once a day thing like I had at the very beginning of this fanfic.

I hope that I have not turned any of my followers off by my long break! I promise I will keep it up!

Thanks to all who are reading my story and reviewing. It always makes my day a little brighter when someone reviews!