A/N: Another chapter so soon, le gasp! :O

Anywayz, I like this chapter. It's exciting. You're all going to hate me. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA- I shouldn't have said that, should I? Hmm. Oh well. Enjoy! (Oh and by the way, just because I'm curious, if you decide to leave a review, please add the word 'pineapple' to your review. I'd like to know how many people actually read these comment things :B)

The next day Kayli was in a very good mood, but she didn't have anything written into her schedule for the morning so she headed off to see Dr Justin Auld, her old counsellor. As Lazard had requested of her, she had seen a counsellor for a whole year following her acceptance into the SOLDIER program. A year ago now she had stopped having regular sessions, but every now and then she went back just for a chat. He was a good friend as well as a counsellor and he always had something to say when she had a question.

So she made her way to the very familiar area and walked over to the secretary in the waiting room.

"Hey," Kayli greeted. "I was just wondering if Justin would be able to spare a minute to talk to me?"

"Please take a seat," the secretary said sweetly and Kayli did as she was told, waiting patiently as the secretary then proceeded to press the intercom and ask whether Dr Auld was very busy.

Five minutes later, the secretary waved Kayli through.

Justin's room was very relaxed. There was a soft couch, a table with fruit on it and a desk and chair at the far end. He was just standing up from the desk when Kayli entered and smiled as he saw her.

"I haven't seen you in a while," he stated. "Is everything alright?"

"Yeah," Kayli sighed, plonking herself down on the couch. "Just needed someone to talk to I guess."

Justin sat on the edge of the table in front of Kayli and nodded for her to continue.

"It's Davis," she admitted after a moment. "He's still not giving up."

"Does that surprise you?" Justin asked, raising his eyebrows. "He's the first one who found out your secret, after all. Did you really expect him to let you go just because you broke it off with him?"

"I just wish he'd finally understand that we're not going to get back together just because he wants us to!" Kayli groaned.

"Has he said he wants to get back with you?" Justin frowned.

"Well, no-"

"Then don't assume," Justin chuckled. "He probably just wants to be friends again. Why won't you at least give him that?"

"I want him to realise what he did wrong." Kayli folded her arms. "I mean, it's been a year! How much longer does he need?"

"Maybe you're going to have to help him out a bit there," Justin shrugged. "If he really has no idea then you should tell him. Then, at least, he'll be able to learn from his mistake. But if you never tell him and simply keep avoiding him he may never find out what he did wrong. In the end it's up to you."

"I know that," Kayli said with a roll of her eyes. "I just wish he wasn't so stupid."

"So is that all you really wanted to talk about?" Justin asked with an amused smile. "I've got another patient in five minutes."

"Oh, sorry," Kayli said, standing up. "I can go if you want."

"It's alright," Justin said, gesturing for her to sit again. "If there's something else you wanted to talk about then its best to get it off your chest now, rather than bottling it up again for even longer."

"It's nothing really," Kayli said as she sunk down onto the couch once more. "It's all just to do with Davis, I guess. He's really getting on my nerves."

"Well, like I said," Justin said. "I really think you should tell him what he did wrong so that you can at least try to go back to being friends again."

"Yeah, but how hard can it be to realise that I just wanna be treated like everyone else? I said that to him when we broke up but he still didn't get it! Who's to say he'll understand now?" Kayli asked with a heavy sigh, looking down at her hands and fiddling with one of her nails.

"All you can do is try," Justin told her.

"Of course." Kayli rolled her eyes again and then reached into her pocket, pulling out a small nail file which she quickly used to fix the part of her nail that had chipped slightly. "Anyway, maybe it is best that I just explain to him how I wanna be treated like one of the guys. Maybe then he'll start doing so! I mean, I'm a SOLDIER so why can't I be treated like that? I don't need anyone making exceptions for me, least of all him!"

Justin was silent as he listened to her talk, simply watching with one raised eyebrow as she spouted how she wanted to be treated like everyone else and filed her nail at the same time. It was a sight to behold.

"I've talked enough," Kayli finally said, putting her nail file back into her pocket. "Thanks for listening even though I've probably bored you to death."

"I'll always be here if you need someone to talk to," Justin said with a smile, standing up from the table as Kayli stood from the couch again.

"See you whenever then," Kayli grinned, turning and heading to the door. Justin said goodbye and walked over to his desk, sitting down and turning to some papers as he waited for his next patient to arrive.

Stepping out of the room, Kayli saw a man around her age sitting on one of the waiting chairs. His head was down looking at his hands in his lap but from her angle she could see some scarring on his face. His head turned slightly as if he was about to look up at her but then it stopped and his hands clenched into fists.

Biting her lip nervously, Kayli walked past him calmly but quickly and exited the waiting room. She wasn't surprised to see someone like that sitting in the waiting room of a counsellor's office. Whatever had happened to give him those scars probably had a really bad effect on his mental health.

Sighing and pushing the scarred man out of her mind, she decided to go down to the training room and have a bit of a practise doing the sword movements Nareau had shown her the other day. The sooner she got them down pat the better.

Roy looked up when the secretary called his name. She was smiling.

"You can go in, now," she told him.

Nodding, Roy stood and walked over to the door, opening it and stepping into Dr Auld's counselling office. The counsellor stood in front of his desk, leaning back against it casually.

"Roy," he greeted with a smile. "I finally meet you in person."

Pushing away from his desk, he walked forward and extended a hand which Roy took nervously. Dr Auld didn't look quite like he had expected. For a thirty-seven year old man he was looking good and there was something very friendly about his face.

"Nice to meet you too," Roy said quietly.

"Have a seat," Dr Auld said. "Anywhere, really. I don't mind."

Roy settled for the couch.

"So how are you settling into ShinRa?" Dr Auld asked, perching himself on the edge of the table again. "You've now been accepted into the program haven't you?"

"Yeah," Roy nodded. "Owen and I were both accepted."

"That's great! You're on your way to finally achieving your dream, then," Dr Auld grinned. He knew from previous sessions that Roy had always dreamed of being a SOLDIER, even back before the incident with Liam.

Roy nodded his agreement, allowing a small smile to show on his face as he thought about becoming a SOLDIER and finally reaching his dream.

"And you've been taking your pills?" Dr Auld went on, folding his arms.

"Yes," Roy confirmed. "Just as I'm meant to."

"That's good. Now tell me honestly, do you think they're helping at all?" Dr Auld asked. "I mean, are the urges lessening gradually?"

Roy was silent for a moment as he considered the question and thought about the best way to answer it.

"No."

"No?" Dr Auld questioned, leaning forward slightly and dropping his arms to his sides, resting his hands on the table he was sitting on.

"They're the same," Roy said softly. "The pills help a bit but they don't stop them completely and it's been like this ever since I started taking them."

"I see," Dr Auld said thoughtfully, a slight frown on his face. "What have you been doing lately to counteract the urges?"

"Everything you tell me," Roy sighed. "I focus on good thoughts and memories and I go somewhere so I can be alone. That way, if I still can't control it, I won't be able to hurt anyone because I'll be by myself."

Dr Auld nodded slowly, glad to hear that Roy had committed his instructions to memory.

"That's good to hear," he said with a nod. "I'll have to have a think about whether there's anything else I can tell you to do to help lessen the urges even more. I'm really sorry about this Roy, but you've got to understand that I've only ever dealt with one other case of PSD and it was considerably mild in comparison to what you have."

"I know, it's okay."

"So, anyway," Dr Auld said, deciding to change the subject. "You are settling okay into ShinRa then? I mean, so far your urges haven't caused any problems?"

"No, not yet." Roy shook his head. "But I..." he trailed off and looked down at his hands, frowning.

"What is it?" Dr Auld asked gently.

"I don't really know how to explain it," Roy shrugged.

"You feel lonely? People don't want to talk to you?" Dr Auld questioned, curious as to what could be bothering his patient.

"Well yeah, no one's really interested in talking to 'scar-face'," Roy scoffed. "But that's not what I was... I feel really uneasy being here."

"At ShinRa or in my office?" Dr Auld asked to clarify.

"ShinRa," Roy said. "Your office is a bit strange as well but, no, I meant ShinRa."

"So what exactly is making you feel uneasy? Is it because you haven't made very many friends yet or something else?" Dr Auld inquired.

"It's just... ShinRa," Roy stressed the word, his eyebrows furrowed deeply. Dr Auld remained silent as he could tell Roy was trying to figure out how to explain himself further. "I know I always wanted to be a SOLDIER, I just... what if ShinRa actually is a bad place?"

They sat in silence for a further few moments as Dr Auld tried to understand what was being asked.

"You- what makes you think ShinRa is a bad place?" he finally asked.

"Just a feeling," Roy mumbled, unwilling to tell the real reason just yet. He didn't even want to think about the real reason, although it hadn't left his mind ever since setting foot in the building. Liam's words...

"ShinRa is evil, you hear me?"

"If you don't want to tell me right now that's okay," Dr Auld said quietly. "But I will need you to tell me eventually if I'm going to be able to help you settle in more, alright?"

Roy didn't say anything in response. He was focusing on keeping an urge down and not letting it gain control. He couldn't let that happen, especially not when he was in his counsellor's office.

"Is there anything else you particularly wanted to talk to me about?" Dr Auld asked then.

"I don't think so," Roy shrugged and shook his head.

"Alright, then I guess we can finish up with your session here. I'll get in contact with you again when I know more about what you can do to try and lessen your urges," Dr Auld said, standing up. Roy stood up as well and nodded. "For now just keep doing what you have been doing."

"Sure," Roy agreed. "I can do that."

"Great," Dr Auld smiled and held out his hand for another handshake. "It really was great to finally see you in person, Roy. I'm going to do everything I can to try and help you settle into ShinRa and conquer your urges."

"Thank you," Roy said awkwardly, releasing Dr Auld's hand and turning to the door, walking out.

Roy stared up at the roof from where he lay on the top bunk in the room he shared with the other boys. His arms were folded across his chest as he lay still, simply staring. He still couldn't quite believe that he and Owen had been accepted into the ShinRa program after all. It was amazing to comprehend even though he had known it would happen.

His dream was within reach. He would become a SOLDIER and then find Kayli, rescuing her from Liam and anyone else who could be a potential threat to her. He would be her hero. It didn't matter that he still had so many conflicting feelings about ShinRa and he no longer knew whether it was the right place to be or not.

Once he found Kayli, none of that would matter any more. He would be skilled as a SOLDIER so he would be able to protect her in any situation. If ShinRa did turn out to be bad, he would simply sever all connections to the place. He would still be able to protect her and keep her safe from anyone who might try to hurt her.

Gasping and closing his eyes tightly, Roy clutched his bed sheets with his hands and tried to push away the urge he was feeling. It seemed that no matter how many pills he took or how many times he saw his counsellor, the urges would always come full-force when he thought about Kayli. It was just the thought of anyone hurting her that made him-

Practically throwing himself off the edge of the bed, Roy landed with a dull thud on his feet, knees bent to take his weight. Straightening up, he headed to the door quickly and quietly slipped outside into the hall beyond. This was too much to handle.

Padding along the corridor in his socks, Roy let himself into the communal bathrooms and went over to the sinks. Turning a tap on and splashing his face with the cold water that came out, he tried to fight it. His hands were shaking.

We're exactly the same.

Swearing in surprise and looking up at the mirror in front of him, he stumbled back a few steps before stopping and squinting. It was dark as all the lights were off so he found it difficult to make out the reflection in the mirror, but he could have sworn it was...

That's right, it's me.

Roy could hear laughing. In his head. It was him. Liam was inside him.

"Get out! Leave me alone!" Roy yelled, stepping further away from the mirror as if being unable to see his reflection would save him from the monster he'd become.

Do you actually think you'll succeed in taking her from me? She's mine. Give up.

"No-" Roy shook his head and clamped his hands over his ears. "I have to save her. She's my responsibility. I never should have left in the first place!"

She thinks you hate her. You left her all alone to fend for herself and I was there to pick up the pieces. She loves me. You have nothing to come back to.

Roy was yelling. Tears were streaming down his face and he couldn't see past the blur as he panicked, trying to claw the sound of Liam's voice out of his head. His body was pulsing with the overwhelming urge to kill something and he thought he heard something shatter.

Your scars will terrify her.

"Stop it! Shut up!"

You're the failure and I'm the perfect brother.

"You tried to kill me!"

You're no better than me! Do you feel that? Feel the fire, Roy! We share that!

"No, shut up! Leave me alone!"

"Roy!"

"Leave me alone!"

"No, Roy, I-"

A resounding thud finally broke through the pulsing urges and Roy felt his senses slowly come back to him. The sides of his head were burning in pain and he glanced in the mirror to see that he was bleeding. Thankfully it was his own face that looked back at him this time and not Liam's, but then his gaze travelled across to the second mirror which was smashed and down to the leaking faucet spraying water into the room.

None of it compared to what he saw next. Lying on the ground of the bathroom in front of him was Owen, his eyes closed peacefully and blood trailing out from his nose. His right arm was sprawled out over some shards of glass from the mirror and Roy could see spots of blood beginning to form there as well.

We share the fire.

Roy grabbed his head and stumbled backwards. This couldn't be happening. He never wanted to hurt Owen! He loved Owen! Owen was his baby brother! How could he let something like this happen to him?

Light suddenly spilled into the bathroom from the door and Roy looked up into the face of a SOLDIER he didn't know. He tried to speak – he wanted to tell them it wasn't his fault – but instead a sob came out of his throat and his legs gave way.

"Sir, we've got a situation in the 26th floor bathrooms..." the SOLDIER murmured into his PHS.